Chapter 37 – Too Late to Regret (4)
Maintaining one’s self is not an easy task. Especially for the body of a woman who has to crush her own womb every month. If you don’t want to change, you must never let go of your mind.
And especially people like me shouldn’t change. Academy Chief Genius. A beautiful, flower-like girl without embellishments. And, the eternal unrequited love of a pathetic man.
All of that supported my nobility. After all, the essence of the academy is to step on the other person and stand up. You must always stand tall with your head up high. That’s why, whoever was in front of me, I had to smash it for my unwavering self.
But when I stepped on everyone and climbed to the top, suddenly the world started to rebel against me.
It was absurd at first. Flies on the dirt floor. The secretions they made cheap. Filth. He jumped in presumptuously and began to put me down. Sick people. It was absurd that the world, which should be on the soles of my feet, tried to raise its head.
Even so, the incomprehensible violence continued. No matter how much I turned away, the world pointed at me and tried to lift my private parts and skirt at the same time. From then on, I started to turn the finger toward others in a panic. Not me I am not the one you should be angry with.
Hate that person, not me.
Fuck that bitch, not me.
Kill Lope, not me.
No matter how much I shouted, the world did not listen. No one helped me because I had already stepped on my head and lost my senses with anger. The last rope I was able to hold was a rotten rope, and I removed it with my hand.
From the moment I realized all of that, I slowly started to resign myself. If you get it right, your strength will be released and your mind will go out. So I just looked at the pouring rain with empty eyes and thought.
How many times must I destroy to satisfy the world?
How much do you have to crush me? Should I retract that dainty fist?
I wanted to ask a question, so I opened my mouth to the approaching Roselia.
“Ah…”
But my jaw was so weak that I couldn’t speak. In the meantime, Rogeria, who had approached me, looked at me with an expression full of superiority. Bitch. Actually, I should have been in that position.
“Lena.”
“…”
“Now I have a sense of how to use you.”
Oh yeah.
I don’t feel anything at all.
“Whoops.”
While I was swearing, Rogeria let out an unpleasant laugh. And after a while, the pig who was watching us came back and went towards it.
“Huh…When are we going to clean that up again…”
“Here. I have a favor to ask of you.”
“Huh? What is Roselia?”
“Can you talk to Duke? I’m afraid I’m going to have to continue at night because my work in the morning has gone awry. May I ask you a favor?”
“But Duke seems to be in a bad mood…”
“Huh? What does that have to do with it? You two are close. And I don’t think I’ve ever seen the Duke get mad at you.
The hateful hand slid up the pig’s shoulder. No matter how fat a pig was, when a woman moved her hands like that, she could feel muscles that weren’t there.
“Nonsense…Saying nonsense.”
“Yes? Then…”
“No. I’ll tell you. Let’s try that.”
“I’ll ask you. It’s good for you too. Seeing you earlier, you’ve been sneaking in, hasn’t it been a while since you’ve been having fun lately?”
“Huh? But I’m not interested in that kind of thing… And I’m not even going to put it in…”
“Okay?”
Roselia grabbed her guy’s ear and whispered something of hers for a long time. As soon asheheard it, he tried to refute it, but Rogeria subtly stroked her neck to stop her from speaking.
“Please.”
“Ah…Well…That…Yes. Got it.”
I don’t know whatheheard, but he hurriedly ran out the door with a reddened face. Roselia looked at his back proudly.
For some reason, a sense of uneasiness welled up in me, and I closed my legs involuntarily. And Roselia did not miss a single such trivial action.
“Huh? Don’t do that, Lena. That’s what you’re supposed to do. Spread your legs.”
“Shut up…”
“You know very well that everyone has a role and they have to do their best in their respective positions. For example, a noble like me leads the lower classes to do their part. The rats that are said to crawl around the academy these days are well fed. Eat and…”
“…”
“A whore like you. Spread your legs well with men.”
Roselia’s fingers ran through my thighs this time. Then, as if by instinct, one of her legs trembled.
“Chastity is so funny. It doesn’t seem like a big deal, but some men are crazy about it. All women in the world are born virgins. Virginity is probably the most common jewel in the world.”
“…”
“But men love it, so what can I do? I have to use it somehow. Don’t I?”
“Rogeria.”
Only then did the power come back a bit. I said, glaring at that hateful face until the end.
“I won’t be swayed by you any longer. I don’t know what the heck is going on, but it’s better to put it aside early.”
“Lena.”
“I’d rather bite my tongue than that. I… Do you think I can’t? I…”
“Oh, Lena. Please.”
Roselia suddenly grabbed my cheeks. Then she spoke with force, word by word.
“Don’t lie without meaning. You want to live, don’t you? You want to live more than anyone else. Do you really want to end your life in a place like this?”
“That…”
“Really, how did this happen? Seeing you, I feel sympathy for you now. I’m sure everyone does. The closer you are, the more sympathetic you are, and the more distant you are, the more you’re attracted.”
“What are you saying, Roselia?”
“I’m someone close to you. So I’ll give you sincere advice, Lena. We each do our best in our respective positions. The noble, the prostitute, and the rat. I don’t know if the rat will do its job, but if you’re lucky, you can. “
“…”
“I really hate that kind of thing, but now that things have turned out like this, I guess I’ll have to rely on luck to some degree.”
“I…”
“I’ll say it again, Lena. We’re doing our best in each position.”
She emphasized that one word again. The fake smile was slowly tinged with madness.
“So I’ll tell you where to spread your legs from now on.”
The pig that went to Duke came back with unexpectedly positive news. It’s fun to tease me, but it seems that the thing about Lope was more troublesome than that. Besides, the rumors going around the academy these days must be annoying.
In that case, you need something other than a woman. Something to cloud your mind. Anyway, Rogeria looked out her window amused. Like someone waiting for something.
And I kept muttering to myself. Like a madman
The night came like fate while the two women did their best in their respective positions.
“…Rogeria. Looks like the kids are here.”
“Oh, yes. Tell them to come in.”
It all started with the pig’s timid words. Roselia smiled and nodded her head, and Nome opened the door nervously.
Then several men cautiously came inside. They looked around the extension and opened their mouths in anxious voices.
“Damn… I don’t know if this is really good.”
“So. I came here because of a lump, but are you okay, Rogeria?”
“Sure. It’s not like Duke has snow all over the place. Of course that’s fine.”
Among the many people, only Roselia remained calm. I really couldn’t help admitting that guts. Rogeria proudly crossed her legs and looked at the men around her, she said.
“Anyway, welcome to the student president’s office. I was wondering what it looked like?
“Hater did that, and Duke never let him in. I wondered if there was anything special, but nothing really.”
“Anyways, unlucky bastard. It’s only because he’s grown dirty.”
“That’s why it’s not right.”
“Shut up.”
“…”
Baron’s face suddenly stood out in the midst of the random conversation. He was very anxious and was breaking out in a cold sweat. But fortunately, no one seemed to notice because other people had similar expressions.
“Hey, stop it. We didn’t come here to talk about boring things, did we?”
At that time, Roselia clapped her hands and drew everyone’s attention. Then they stupidly nodded.
“Well…That’s right.”
“Isn’t everyone here to have some fun? I heard that they are living a boring life even in the middle of this. You’re tired of picking up and eating what others have thrown away, aren’t you?”
“It’s fortunate if you pick it up. These days, they don’t even take care of the fucking food properly.”
“I know. That’s why I called you guys.”
Roselia grinned and looked at her losers in front of her. After Duke seized everything by force, there was a new category in this academy besides eaters and eaters. Who can’t eat They were ambiguous people who rode the rope well, but had no strength, and did not belong to either side.
At first, he must have been grateful for the fact that he hadn’t become a victim. But as time went on, I would have felt more and more unfair. And you know how painful it is to have to watch others enjoy themselves. Gradually, it would be difficult to live with patience.
Historically, such people were just the right kind to be used by someone. Roselia knew that all too well.
“Hey, I’ve always loved hanging out with guys. You all know what I used to be like. But after being caught by Duke, it’s so hard to be confined to a small room and fighting alone. That’s why I decided to invite the guests.”
“Why is he locking you up in the first place? What are you doing here?”
“I don’t know. To save money. But, you know what she’s doing to Lena. Seeing how she’s trying to remain like a virgin even after harassing her like this, she must have a strange taste. But trying to apply that to me is too tiring.”
“So…Is that all? You really just want to do it with us?”
“Of course. Well… I also make friends with both partners.”
Roselia lifted her leg slightly, and this time she twisted it to the other side. Following the movement, the defeated males’ eyes moved by themselves.
“Isn’t everyone getting tired? Isn’t it annoying to have an ignorant kid wield it as he pleases?
“That’s true, but…Anyway, what has Lena been muttering like that since before?”
“Never mind. Anyway, I don’t like that either. So Duke went to bed early and his guard was relaxed, so we decided to make friends. Friends who want to do something fun with me.”
“Is it fun?”
“But don’t you want to stand at the top of the academy at least once before you die?”
“…”
They were speechless at the shocking story. Then, suddenly, one guy barely opened his mouth.
“…Well. I don’t know. Aren’t you just trying to take advantage of us, Rogeria?”
“Lee Yong. A disappointing story.”
“You’ve always liked taking advantage of others to gain power. I wonder if that’s the intention this time around as well.”
But there’s at least one smart guy over there. But it was just there. He was also a loser anyway, so when Roselia sneakily showed her cleavage, her gaze turned toward it.
“That’s why I’m entrusting you with my own collateral. My body. My heart. Well, maybe even Lena’s. Wouldn’t that be enough?”
“Uh…”
“What I’m going to give you right now is something that no girl in this academy can give you. Real love. It’s fun to do it by force, but what feels really good comes from the heart after all. It’s something you can’t easily taste in a world like this.”
“That’s… Right.”
“Then let’s talk about the details later, let’s get started. The night is still long.”
“…”
The men thought for a moment. Meanwhile, Roselia looked out her window once more. Her eyes trembled just a little bit.
“Well, okay Rogeria. Let’s start with what we promised and think about it.”
“Okay. So, first of all, who wants to be with Lena?”
“…Me.”
“Me too. I wonder what the hell he’s up to, what the Duke’s all about.”
“…”
Demand is higher than I thought. I wanted to laugh, but I couldn’t. Even then, I was constantly biting my lips.
“…”
“But what is he muttering like that from earlier?”
“I don’t know. Let’s stop talking nonsense. Just because the night is long doesn’t mean the time is infinite.”
“It’s good for us.”
The men who heard Roselia’s words soon gave in to her desire and began to unbutton her pants dance. Instead of looking at the familiar sight, I looked up at the ceiling. One stain. Two. Three. There’s not much to see on the ceiling here.
I stared at those few things and waited. Jingling sound. Footsteps walking. And the rough breathing of men.
And in the meantime, Rogeria’s words finally resonated.
“Then let’s begin, Lena.”
“…”
At that moment, I bit hard on what was in my mouth.
“Kuhhh…!”
“What… What…!”
The man approaching me was shocked to see red blood dripping from my mouth. It was an item made with magic, but the blood inside was real, so it had a decent effect. I squirted a little blood in my mouth to make the situation more dramatic.
“Keuhuhuh…!”
“He… Why is he like this…”
“Oh my God…! I’m going to bite my tongue!”
“What?”
And Roselia accelerated the situation further with appropriate acting. She shoved the men’s backs, flustered like the real thing.
“What…Do something!
“Be quiet! If anyone hears… Fuck… I wasn’t coming after all…”
“Shut up and do something… Damn it!”
In an instant, the quiet tryst was filled with confusion. In the meantime, the Baron guy pushed the other guys’ backs with awkward acting. Eventually one of the most unlucky came to me.
“Damn…Open your mouth! This crazy bitch is fucking with us all of a sudden…”
“…”
“Open your mouth!”
He grabbed my bloody chin. At the same time, I also held onto that arm. And finally, he opened his mouth and completed the order he had been preparing for a long time.
“…Erden.”
“Uh…?”
The guy stupidly opened his mouth. However, mana was already gathering in my hand. It was already too late to react.
And the next moment, flames exploded from under his hand and blazed over the arm he grasped.
“Uhhhhh!!!”
“What the fuck!”
It was engulfed in flames in an instant and started dancing like crazy. The smell of burning skin vibrated in the blazing flames, and the room was filled with smoke. It was elaborate because it had been prepared for a long time, and it was fatal because it was triggered by me, not anyone else. The magic thus completed effectively burned the human body.
“Aaaaah!”
“Fuck…Fuck it’s coming…Aaaaagh!”
“Don’t come! Don’t come!”
The rising flames waved his arms frantically as if they were covetous of their next victim. Thanks to that, the fire moved to the guys next to them, and everything turned into a mess. Rogeria and Baron were calm in that situation. And it was just me.
“Collock…Collock…”
I sighed and opened the window across the room. Then the smoke that had risen was directed out the window and a cold wind blew in. This was the final stage of the plan. I mumbled one more spell I had prepared and looked down.
Then, a deep darkness swallowed my vision.
“Ah…”
No matter how much I prepared the protection magic, I was scared when I saw the height of the fall. Until now, it had been thoroughly planned, but from now on, it was the realm of luck. Will magic really protect me properly? Will I be able to get out safely after falling?
And her Or maybe you can meet him.
Even Rogeria has to lean on chance from here on out, she said.
…
I’ll stop too…
“…Lena.”
“Ugh!”
Then, Roselia grabbed my arm. When she turned her head, she was looking at me with a stern expression. The fake smile reflected in the light was cruel and sophisticated.
“Remember. Erica, Lope. Especially Lope.”
“Ah…”
“Lope is our only hope, you know?”
“For a moment…!”
“Please. Good luck to you and me.”
She spat out the last word. And before I could even utter my final words, I pushed my body out the window with all my might.
“Ah…!”
A scream that could not be uttered barely came out of the window. For a moment, I felt as if my body was floating in the air.
Of course, an illusion was just an illusion. My body crashed in an instant and landed on the dirty dirt floor.
…!
…
…
…
“Ah…”
Blurred vision Even though he protected himself with magic, his whole body throbbed.
“Ah… Ugh…”
The pain came out as a moan, but I tried to cover my mouth. I didn’t know if I made a sound, I might find out. Above all, now was the time to act rather than moan in pain.
“Ha…”
Of course, moving was not easy. First of all, I have weak stamina. There was no way he could endure the asceticism from day to night without rest and behave in a decent manner.
All I could see was the sky. It was a world that had taken everything from me in an instant, so it was time to give back at least one thing. If you had punched me that far. If you’ve been using violence, it’s okay to take a warm breath.
‘Cause I’ve been trying so hard
So.
Now it was the turn of luck.
“Le… Miss Lena?”
Haha…”
At that moment, luck came to me in clear form. Hiding in the shadows with her awkward posture, she examined my body with great hesitation.
“What the hell…Something…”
“Hello…Erika.”
“Now…Wait a minute…What should I do…”
How do you do it? Move, slut
I swear inwardly. Then Erica nodded her head as if she heard me.
“This… Please follow me. Come on.”
Haha…”
I laughed again. The world was finally helping me. She supported me and quickly walked out of the academy with her familiar gait.
Haha…”
“Come on. This way. There’s no one here…”
Haha…”
“Are you okay Lena? Are you okay?”
Haha…”
“Why the heck… I’m sure he didn’t go crazy…”
Haha…”
I laughed even when I was treated like a psychopath. How can I not laugh I finally got out From Duke’s clutches. At that fucking academy.
And from the cursed fate.
A rainbow always appears after a heavy rain. In the rapidly setting sun, I felt hope. If you see such a streak of luck, maybe things are really about to work out.
Okay. It’s going to work out really well now.
I leaned on Erica’s shoulder and continued to laugh. And unknown emotions welled up in it. Everything you’ve been through. Stupid past. Opportunity to come again. It all came together and came crashing in like a wave.
It felt like returning home after a long trek. The end of the trip, with only the goal of returning home ahead. If a miracle happened here one more time, I wouldn’t have been able to control it.
So when I finally met him
Unknowingly, I burst into tears.
“If you go all the way there… Huh? Is there someone…?”
Haha.Haha…”
I don’t know how to throw it away.
The goose of golden eggs that no one has yet to part with.
And me and Roselia’s. No, my last hope.
All of that was revealed at once in a red flash that rose suddenly. I melted away my uncontrollable emotions with laughter. The hope I had finally encountered took the form of something familiar, revealing itself in the darkness.
And that hope spat out a word like a sigh as soon as it saw me.
“…Damn it.”
