Chapter 29 – She’s Afraid to Open Her Eyes.
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She tossed her marble, split in half, against the wall.
It’s one thing to expect the worst and it’s one thing to expect the worst to hit.
Even though I expected it, the shock when it actually happened was great.
“Black…”
Now she is left alone in the world.
She is not like ‘Skadi’, she is just like herself.
She is alone in a dark room and cannot calm down.
I want to tear her hair and scratch her body with her fingernails.
‘Miss you···.’
There was only one person she could think of.
There was no great reason.
It seemed that if I looked at him now, my crazy mind would calm down.
A gratuitous affection that even living family members do not show.
Honesty without lies.
She has the confidence and freedom she wants to emulate.
A person who has power but secretly looks at me.
There are so many words I can refer to him.
Knock-!
Rike forgot to put on her shoes and ran out of the academy dormitory in her bare feet.
Everything except the road to Roman’s house seems to be on fire.
I absolutely have to go here.
“Heo-eok…Heo-eok…”
The moment I let go of his hand, I grabbed my heart that was about to break and ran through the rain.
*****
‘Isn’t the episode progressing while I’m missing?’
A Robert with emotions that I don’t manipulate is almost impossible to predict.
It was raining and it was evening, so I’m not sure, but there didn’t seem to be any work at the academy.
‘Where should I go next…’
While thinking about the future and reviewing the book, Rike’s face flickers and he can’t concentrate.
Originally, even if I heard this fact, I would overcome it well in terms of the story.
The solution was radical, so it wouldn’t be surprising if problems arose.
Unlike when he first saw the contract, whenheheaded to the dormitory, he looked like he was determined, but honestly, he’s worried.
Shall we go to the academy dormitory right now?
I bought some hot milk and stew…
“Ah! I’m really going to turn around.”
As I was sitting and struggling alone, I felt a presence in the yard.
Thump thump! Thump thump!
Someone came
I felt the urgency of the hand knocking on the door.
When I opened it, Rike was standing there, but it was hard for me to be honest and happy to see him.
“Come in quickly.”
A wet body in a uniform with bare feet.
His eyes were bloodshot and his mouth was trembling as if in convulsions.
He stepped in and dragged Rike, who was standing still at the entrance without a word, and sat down.
“First of all, let’s warm up your body. You’ll catch a cold. I’ll prepare clothes for you. Do you want to wash?”
“····”
He averts his eyes and doesn’t say anything.
I grabbed a towel and stood behind Rike, who was sitting there, wiping her hair dry.
Evil- evil-
‘Even with short hair, unlike men’s hair, it takes a lot of work.’
*****
His hands washing his hair are rough, but he feels that he is struggling.
I don’t ask anything, but wouldn’t you be curious why you came like this?
What should I say?
“I came because I wanted to see you.”
Ah- I always envied Roman’s freedom.
I couldn’t see Roman’s face even after spitting out my thoughts.
It’s scary to see his expression and emotions now.
The moment Roman denies himself, he really can’t stand it anymore.
“I missed you too.”
“···Happy.”
He covered his face with both hands.
That horse is so happy to death, but I can’t open my eyes.
I’m not sure if that statement is true.
It would have been nice if I didn’t know like others in the first place.
It would have been nice if I could have lived my life with only guesses without certainty.
“···What’s the matter?”
I hear his worried voice.
He stopped washing his hair to bring me some warm milk.
For a moment, I felt my heart drop.
Right now, I just wanted to stick around without anything.
“Hey, wait a minute!!!”
I got up from the chair and hugged him tightly so that he wouldn’t go anywhere.
Roman didn’t even push me away, wet with rainwater, but rather stroked his hair and patted him on the back.
“Rike. Why aren’t you looking at my face like you normally do?”
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry… Please just hug me…”
He was held in Roman’s arms for a long time.
He patted me over and over again saying he was fine.
“Roman-sama is me…”
“Yes?”
“Me···.”
Saying what you want to say is not something that can be done with courage.
Rike’s head comes to a sudden stop and his mouth closes.
“It’s okay, so when your thoughts are organized, tell me slowly. I’m not going anywhere.”
No matter how much time passed, the answer to the question, which was scary to hear, remained unanswered.
Rike ran away and took his next best move.
“…Please hug me today.”
Even as he speaks, the arm he is holding is full of strength.
I know this isn’t the picture I really want.
As long as Roman wants himself.
I think that’s enough.
*****
‘This isn’t it…’
Of course I won’t
I’m not an idiot to kick an opportunity like this.
But I don’t want this kind of atmosphere.
How should a man soothe a delicate creature called a woman?
It seemed that just holding me wouldn’t solve it.
“Come on.”
When I tried to move while holding her, Rike gave strength to her legs and didn’t move.
“Answer me… Can I stay today?”
I feel stiff uneasiness in Rike’s arms holding me.
Her face is buried and she doesn’t even think about it.
I lifted her feather-light liqueur and sat down in her chair.
She casually sat on her left thigh.
‘Is this good?’
Even when wet, it felt great.
“Oops!”
He grabbed Rike’s cheek with both hands as he tried to bury her face again.
“Rike. Is there something you want to ask me?”
At my words, Rike’s eyes shook mercilessly.
Then she closed her eyes tightly.
“I’m scared… I can’t see… Please…”
“Look at me, Rick.”
Rike shook her head vigorously.
“I know what Rike is thinking right now…Don’t worry. It’s definitely fine.”
“It’s easy to say, but how can I do it… Nothing in the world goes my way…”
Why would there be a saying about her love at first sight? The factor of time does not entirely determine the concentration of emotions.
The human mind is not so one-dimensional and simple.
“It’s not that the feelings we hold are light just because the time we’ve known each other is short, right?”
“I am…”
She nodded her head slightly.
“Like. Me too.”
“····”
“I love you”
Rike trembled at my words.
Then she started to weep through her tightly closed eyes.
“I can’t see… I really wanted to hear that… I’m so scared… I’m scared…”
She must have seen many human figures by now.
It must be a very common case that people’s outside and inside are different.
“Rike doesn’t love me?”
“… No!! This is definitely… It’s love…”
Her blushing even as she cries is really unbearably adorable.
I wrapped around her waist and pulled her sitting on her thighs.
Rike was led by my hand without resistance.
“Have I ever lied to Rike?”
She held my hand on her waist and shook her head from side to side.
“Can’t we just trust and watch this once? It’s kind of sad that you don’t know my heart.”
When she said she was sad, she was startled and opened her eyes slightly.
“Like. Look here.”
“····”
“I love you”
*****
What is the probability that she has the same heart as the person she loves.
Even Rike, who had no dating experience, knew that the probability was not that high.
How could she be like her own heart when the time she got to know her face was short?
Wouldn’t her own heart in her arms seem so light in her short time?
Maybe she’s seen as a purpose to take advantage of herself, who is platinum.
Scary.
If he thinks so, what kind of expression will he make?
It’s something that never happened, but just thinking about it scares me.
So I thought it was enough just to hug her.
If you are hugged by Roman, you will be able to endure the pain of today.
I thought so.
“Can’t we just trust and watch this once? It’s kind of sad that you don’t know my heart.”
When he said he was sad, I opened my eyes involuntarily.
I wanted to miss it, but my eyes had already captured him.
“I love you”
And saw.
It was hard to believe even after seeing it.
“Do you really…Really love me?”
I couldn’t believe it, so I opened my eyes and saw Roman.
I wanted to hear it again.
“I love you”
“…I’m no longer a nobleman, do you love me even though I don’t have anything?”
I want to hear it again even if I hear it.
“Uh. My heart doesn’t change.”
“… Tell me you love me.”
“I love you”
“Me too… I love you too.”
My beating heart feels like it’s about to jump out.
The world, which had been dyed in black and white, finds color again.
“Can you see my heart?”
Seeing Roman smile naturally, I laughed too.
It seems that a brilliant sun has risen in a world filled with heavy rain clouds.
“It’s so bright and clear that it’s blinding…”
“I guess that’s why I like Rike.”
“Not that I like you, but that I love you…”
“Do you think I love you that much?”
A feeling of fullness in the heart.
It was the first time in my life that I had such an experience.
I can’t control the corners of my mouth that rise.
I feel like I’m going crazy because I’m burning up in flames that start with my mind and spread to my body.
“Hurry up… I can’t stand it, so put your lips first.”
