Chapter 24
I felt Toraya's body heat, and waited until the tears stopped, feeling Toraya in my arms.
The feel of Toramasa's head on my chest. I felt Toraya's head on my chest, and I felt Toraya's hair, which I usually cannot see. I put my cheek against Toramasa's head and hugged him as if I was comforting a crying child.
I gently moved my hand from around Toraya's head and moved my body to a position where I could see Toraya's face in front of me, and gently wiped his tear-stained face with a handkerchief I was holding.
I'm sorry, my tears are soaking through, but this is all I have on hand right now.”
I'm sorry, my tears are soaked, but this is the only handkerchief I have at hand. He nodded his head in a small gesture as if to say, “I'm fine.
He then shifted his gaze from down to me and looked into my eyes with two wet eyes.
He looked at me with two wet eyes. He was like a child, like a puppy, so cute that I naturally smiled.
I put my hand on his head as I always do with Toraga and stroked his head as if I was petting him.
He gently stroked it with his palm, then ran the hair between his fingers and stroked it as if he were combing it with his hand.
I stroked her hair from front to back several times without going against the flow of her hair, and then I hugged Toraya tightly once more.
Then Toraya moved to take me in his arms and put me on his lap.
My back was turned toward Toraya, and Toraya hugged me again as it was.
I was so happy to be able to see him again, and I was so happy to be able to see him again.
I'm sorry for saying this out of the blue,” he said.
I denied the words as if I was blaming myself.
I was happy to know you, Toramasa. Thank you.
“You celebrated with me at …….”
Please don't say it like that. I was happy…”
The most important thing to remember is that the best way to get the most out of your money is to be honest with yourself.
A big, burly man's hand. I touched Toraga's hand with my right hand as if to check it, and held it as if to wrap it around me.
'And that's the first time you called me by my name.
'…… yes, I did.'
I'm glad.”
I remember in my head the sound of Toraya's voice when he called my name, and I meditate on the memory of it.
I was so close to him, but my heart was so calm that I could feel him more than usual.
There was no conversation after that, only the sound from the TV reaching my ears.
This is not to say that there are no words because of awkwardness.
I thought we were confirming each other's presence by touching each other.
Toraga's hand took mine, intertwined our fingers, and stroked my hand with his thumb.
That quiet space did not last very long.
First of all, I felt a sense of shame in my current outfit as I gradually began to understand the situation.
But I couldn't help the fact that Toramasa was holding me from behind, and I couldn't remove him either, so I opened my mouth to cover up the situation.
I couldn't help but feel ashamed of myself, and I couldn't peel him off. Is there anything…?”
After I said it, I realized and opened my mouth again to correct myself.
I'm not just here for your birthday, but if you're Toramasa-san, you're welcome to use me anytime! You know, cleaning my room, doing chores, running errands… ……
You're just helping a kid.
“Oh, sure…”
I'm not going to deny it, but I'm sad to think that I'm on the same level as elementary school students. I don't deny it, but it makes me sad to think about it myself.
After that… drying their hair… reading to them before bed…
“Parents, huh?”
Sorry …….”
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to say something that reminds him of his parents when just a few minutes ago he told me about his past and how he was treated by his parents….
I want to fix my habit of saying what I think right away…. I already hate myself for being so stupid….
Behind my self-loathing, Toramasa opened his mouth, “Well, if that's the case…. Toraga opened his mouth.
Just love me as you always have.”
My heart tightened at those words.
I don't need you to tell me that you love me, but I will.
I know I will always love him, and I am confident that I will always love him.
There will never come a time when I don't like you.
Toramasa leaked a smile at me as he said, “You're not so stubborn, are you? He let out a laugh in his voice.
I will never blink. I've always loved you, Toraga-san. Toraya's head, which had been resting on his shoulder, came off.
The air touched his shoulder, and I felt a sense of loneliness as his warmth gradually faded away.
'…What time is it?'
Toramasa suddenly asked me the time, and I was surprised but looked at the time on the TV and answered, “It's 7 o'clock, right?” I answered, “It's seven o'clock.
Hearing the time, Toramasa muttered, “Seven o'clock…. Toramasa then removed his right hand from my body.
I followed his right hand and when I turned around, he brushed my hair back roughly and rested his elbows on the back of the sofa and closed his eyes.
'…… crying makes me sleepy.'
I blinked once at his comment and agreed with Toramasa. I agree with Toraga's words.
I know because I cry a lot. Crying makes me very sleepy.
I asked him, “Why don't you go take a bath? I asked him, “Why don't you go take a bath?
He sat me down on the sofa and, unlike the other times, headed straight for the bath.
When the door to the living room was closed and I was alone in the living room, I put my arms around myself as if to hug myself and let out a deep breath.
I could feel myself losing strength in my facial muscles, which were trying their best to behave as usual in front of Toraga, and I could see that my face looked like it was about to cry.
I cried a lot. I cried more than Toraga, I am sure.
And yet, the emotions that were welling up in me were stimulating my lachrymal glands to produce new water.
I tried to hold back the tears by straining my eyes to keep them from flowing out.
I had not expected Toraga to talk to me about his past today. No, to be honest, I did not expect him to tell me about his past.
It has been four months since I met Toraga. A lot has happened, but it's only been four months.
It was not until February that I told the heroine about my past in the game. The past story begins on the rooftop when Toramasa says, “I have something I want to talk to you about.
After this talk, the heroine and Toramasa became closer than before, and on the graduation day Toramasa confesses his feelings to the heroine.
What I am trying to say is that the fact that Toramasa tells the story of the past in the game is proof that love has grown within Toramasa.
But it is only in the game….
The fact that he talks about the past means that he is trying to put the past behind him and open up a new future with his own hands. Overcome the past, be accepted, and realize that you love the heroine….
So the fact that I was able to hear this confession of Toramasa's past means that much, that I am indeed confirmed in Toramasa's mind and that he acknowledges my existence–.
I blushed thinking about what happened after that.
But it couldn't be, he said. I shook my head.
Because I am not a heroine, because I have a past, this is already not going as the game tells me.
I'm not a heroine, I have a past, so this is already not what the game is talking about.
I told this story because I am sure Toraga thought I was shouting love to him and he accepted me.
It is not about love or anything like that, but it is a proof that the wound is gradually healing inside Toraga.
My words and actions were understood by Toraga. I am glad to know that.
Toramasa is trying to respond to me, a mere mobster.
Toramasa's feelings are certainly being conveyed to me.
I am happy.
At that moment, Toramasa came out of the bath and appeared in the living room.
I was so focused on my thoughts that I didn't notice any sign of Toramasa's presence in the living room.
I stopped thinking, smiled at him, got up from the sofa and went to Toramasa who was still standing in front of the door.
I stopped myself from thinking, smiled at him, and got up from the sofa to go to him who was still standing in front of the door. Shall I dry it?”
I wondered if he had just wiped his hair easily, but drops of water fell from his hair and onto the towel around his neck.
He picked up the towel and put it on his neck. He gently wipes Toraga's hair with the towel from the front.
The closer you look at Toramasa's face, the better he looks.
I am nervous to see Toraga's face nearby and move my eyes to his hair, but out of the corner of my eye, Toraga keeps staring at me and doesn't say a word.
I open my mouth again to Toraya, who is silently wiping my hair.
Do you want me to dry it with the hair dryer?”
Toraya shakes his head in reply to my question.
I couldn't stand the way Toraya was looking at me anymore, so I continued to speak and asked him, “Do you have anything on your face?” I asked him with a joking smile on my face.
Then Toraya slowly blinked, put his hand on my cheek, and brought my face close to his. But then he stopped moving, his face contorted in pain, and he muttered, “…No.” She shook her head a few times to shake off her thoughts, then turned her back away from me and headed for the washbasin.
A few moments after the door was closed, I heard the sound of a hair dryer.
I stood there, listening to the sound, amazed at Toraga's behavior.
I am not that insensitive. Somehow I knew the meaning of Toramasa's behavior, and I held my chest as it grew tight and headed back to the sofa.
When Toramasa returned to the living room after drying my hair, I headed for the bath.
After checking the towels I had prepared, I got into the bath and washed my body at a temperature close to that of water to cool the heat from my entire body.
I exhaled several times to let out the heat that was building up in my chest.
After getting out of the bath, I got dressed and was drying my hair with the hair dryer when there was a knock at the door of the washbasin.
'…… yes…?'
I turned off the hair dryer and called out fearfully, and the door was opened and Toraya walked in.
I bit my lower lip at the sight of Toraga's figure as the pain in my heart and the heat in my face struck again.
Toraya approached me, opened the door next to the washbasin, and pointed to a toothbrush inside.
I forgot to tell you the other day, but I put yours in here.”
I looked at the toothbrush he pointed to and saw that it was the one I had received from Toramasa before.
And next to it was a toothbrush of a different color, which must have been Toraga's toothbrush.
I couldn't stand the pain in my heart when I saw it, so I crouched down on the spot, holding my chest and bending forward, and let out a big breath while looking at the floor.
I wanted to say “Thank you very much,” but I couldn't speak. I wanted to say, “Thank you,” but I couldn't speak.
I took several deep breaths, trying to hold back the urge to go crazy.
Toraga gently patted my head and went back to the living room.
I sat alone at the sink where Toraga had disappeared, my face reddening. I was blushing and trying to hold back my tears.
Why does Toramasa do things that make me so happy?
It's every girl in love's dream to have her toothbrush next to the person she loves.
I love her so much. I love her so much it hurts.
I stood up, picked up the hair dryer again with trembling hands, and dried my hair.
After finishing that, I picked up my toothbrush from the place Toraga told me to find it.
I went to the living room with my heart pounding and found Toraga lying on the sofa.
I thought he was sleeping because he said he was sleepy, so I quietly went to the sofa where Toraga was lying.
He turned his two eyes to me and woke me up, “Toraga-san, if you are sleepy, would you like to go to bed?”
I took a bath and the sleepiness flew away.
I see.”
After a short conversation, we sat down on the sofa and watched TV.
There was no conversation and we remained in a state of silence as the time passed. The TV was filled with the voices of actors and comedians, and I was watching the cheerful voices of the TV to disguise the quiet room.
When the second commercial break came on, I moved my gaze surreptitiously to Toraga, who was sitting next to me, so that he would not notice me as much as possible.
However, our gazes met exactly, and I shifted my gaze back to the TV again.
I was only going to look at him for a moment, so it wasn't as if he had noticed me and moved his gaze to me.
He was looking at me before I was looking at him.
As usual. I'm trying to spend the day as usual, but I can't.
The air from Toraga, the atmosphere was different from usual.
My heart was about to reach its limit, and I couldn't hold back and opened my mouth.
“Well, may I go to bed first?”
He kept his mouth closed for a while, but then replied, “…ah. I was so excited to hear his voice that I got up from the sofa to go to the bedroom with my cell phone and pillow in my arms.
Good night then.”
I turned to Toraga, bowed my head, and hurried to the bedroom.
I opened the bedroom door and lay down in the same position as before without turning on the light.
I spent some time in the dark reading an Internet novel on my cell phone, which I had brought with me.
—I spent some time in the dark reading an online novel on the cell phone I had brought with me.
I checked the time on the cell phone in my hand and found that it was past 2:00 a.m. I woke up at a strange hour.
I woke up at a strange hour… and when I looked next door, Toramasa was not there.
I wondered if he had woken up to go to the bathroom, but there was no sign of Toraya sleeping next to me.
I woke up with a start and went to the living room, relying on the light from my cell phone, and noticed Toraya lying on the sofa in the darkened living room.
What a surprise…. I let Toraga sleep on the sofa and fell asleep on the bed myself.
I wondered for a while whether or not to wake the sleeping Toraya up, and then decided that I wanted him to sleep on the bed rather than on the sofa, so I approached him and shook his shoulder.
I shook Toramasa's shoulder and said, “Toramasa, please sleep on the bed.
I called out to him, but he did not respond.
After repeating this several times, Toramasa slowly opened his eyelids.
I asked him, “Toramasa-san, I'm sorry, but I'm going to ask you to sleep on the bed. I'm sorry,” he said, “but I'll sleep on the bed, not on the couch.
When I said this to him, he wrinkled his brow and turned his sleepy eyes to me.
He looked at me and didn't move, so I waited there until he responded.
Then Toramasa's hand moves toward me, grabs my arm, and pulls me toward him.
I was unable to move my body due to Toraya's sudden action, and my body flowed to Toraya's side without resistance, and I put my hand on Toraya's chest.
The distance between him and Toraya became even closer.
As I roll my eyes in surprise and look at Toraya's face, the opposite hand grabbing my arm presses down on the back of my head, adding force and bringing me closer to Toraya's face.
-The distance between my face and Toraga's is close.
Just when I think that, something warm touches my lips.
I see Toraya's face in front of me. And then I felt something warm against my lips.
………What?
The only time I was able to react in my mind was when I saw the lips of Torayaga.
The first thing I did was to take a look at the picture of the man I had just met, and I was surprised to see his lips half-open.
Before I knew it, the hand that was holding my arm was removed and put behind my neck.
My head was completely pinned down and I was unable to escape, and the fact that I was kissing Toraya and that his tongue had entered my mouth caused me to freeze in complete panic.
However, when Toramasa's tongue caught mine and entwined with mine, a thrilling sensation hit me, and I let out a “mmmm” sound.
I had no intention of resisting as I held onto Toramasa's shirt, and I simply let him do what he wanted to me.
He kissed me deeply and deeply, and his tongue lapped at my lips, licking away the saliva that flowed from my lips.
A sweet voice that I didn't intend to make came out on its own.
Just when I thought our lips had parted, they meet again, this time at a different angle.
A sweet numbness, similar to static electricity, flows through my lower back.
Unable to support my body with my hips, I lean my body against Toramasa's body.
My breath comes in short gasps, and my hands grip Toraya's shirt tighter.
I am breathing on his shoulder when the long kiss ends and his head is pinned and his hands and lips part.
I look into Toramasa's tear-stained eyes.
'…Taiga, san?”
I called out, and Toraga's eyes gradually opened wider.
He raised his upper body and blinked repeatedly as he looked at me sitting beside him on the sofa, and with that astonished expression on his face, Toraga opened his mouth.
“…… I……”
. did you think it was a dream?”
The first time I saw him, I thought it was a dream.
I'm sorry …… for waking you up Toramasa-san…”
Don't apologize.”
I was so sorry,” Toramasa said in a strong tone of voice, interrupting my words.
I'm not the one who should be apologizing.
“…… but you look sad, Toramasa-san.”
No, it's really not.
He took his hands off his own head, grabbed my arms, and looked at me with a tearful expression on his face.
'I didn't mean to kiss you like this, you know.'
'…… eh…?'
'I always wanted to kiss you… I'm not sure if it's a good idea to go for the same thing as the other two, but I'm sure it's a good idea.
My eyes were burning as Toraga told me this.
I've noticed that Toraga was somehow on the verge of kissing me before, as he did earlier, as he did when we stopped the other day, and as he did before that.
But he always tried to cover it up in the middle of the kiss, so I thought that maybe he didn't want to kiss me, that maybe he didn't like me after all.
I was thinking that he didn't want to kiss me, that he didn't like me, that he didn't like me after all. But I was wrong.
He could have treated me more roughly…. I don't care if you use me the way you want to use me, Toraga-san. ……
Tears streamed down her cheeks.
When I ignored them and told Toraga so, he shook his head again.
I want to take good care of you.
I want to cherish you, …….”
'You're a …… special person to me. …….'
“Mr. Toraga…”
That's why I shouldn't have made a half-hearted move on you.
I couldn't hold back and covered my face with both hands, leaking out my voice and shedding tears.
I was so happy for Toraga's feelings and he cared about me.
I'm so happy, I feel like I'm going to die.
I don't want to die.
I was so happy, I was dying.
I was so happy that I was going to die.
I was unable to contain my feelings and opened my mouth.
I sat on top of him and hugged him, and I could not contain my feelings.
I said to him, “…….”
I can't even think about it because it was a dream. …I can act as I please.”
“……, well… this is a dream.”
The first time I saw him, I was so excited that I could not believe my eyes.
The kiss was calmer than before and Toraga's gentleness was evident, and tears flowed again.
Our lips overlapped again and again, and as I told him it was a dream, we spent dreamlike time together.
After countless kisses, our lips gently parted and Toraya lay back down, still holding me close, and whispered, “I won't be able to stop any longer. He whispered, “I won't be able to stop any longer.
I moved my head to the side and closed my eyelids, saying, “I'll wait until you get your feelings straightened out. I closed my eyelids.
At my words, Toramasa said, “I'm sorry,” and hugged me even tighter. I was sorry,” he said, and hugged me even tighter.
This dream is a dream that I remember even after I fall asleep and wake up. But when I wake up, I will go on as usual again.
Until one day I can see the continuation of this dream.
