Chapter 62 – -61- The Countess, Bella Souders (4)
By the time the air in my lungs was about halfway out, I stopped breathing.
Close one eye and concentrate your mind.
Taking care not to shake my hand, I aligned my reticle with the fox on the other side.
Very slowly, to keep the muzzle steady… I put my finger on the trigger.
Sensing that only her finger was moving, she carefully pulled the trigger.
A gunshot reverberates through the lonely forest, causing a fox to fall.
Staining the white snow with red blood, the fox whimpered and died as if spitting out its last breath.
“…Whoa”
Finally, I relax, and I breathe in the breath I’ve been holding back. The cold air filled my lungs and I felt refreshed.
After stroking the horse a few times, as if excited by the gunfire, I dismounted and approached the fox.
“…Sorry”
Seeing the fox that died for my hobby made me feel a little sorry.
Hunting is one of my few hobbies. It helps a lot to soothe a complicated mind.
When I was hunting, I wasn’t a countess, nor was I one of the many women who were gifted wizards but couldn’t fulfill their dreams.
Here I am, just a hunter.
On the hunt, it feels good to just focus on the prey.
You can forget about miscellaneous worries while hunting.
When the hunt is successful, it feels like everything, even the small anguish that has recently arisen in my heart, disappears cleanly.
…Okay. I have a serious problem.
“…Leon…”
I don’t know what to do with him now.
The times with Leon were getting more and more fun.
I must have resented Leon…Leon has always been an obstacle in my life.
If she hadn’t had Leon, if she hadn’t had Leon born… She could have at least divorced her.
With the birth of this child, my life as a wizard is over.
But, ah…Why is Leon’s achievement so proud?
I want to see Leon grow up. I hope Leon will be able to use magic better than me.
…Rion, I hope I can achieve the dream I couldn’t achieve.
If it were me, I’d despise it as a cowardly escapism.
A life dedicated to others, expecting a dream that one could not achieve.
Magic lessons, which I had only mechanically spent time on, were now me preparing for classes diligently every day.
‘Why did it change like this…?’
If it was just that, this wouldn’t be a concern.
“….Weird”
If you think it’s motherhood that came late, it’s enough. It’s just, isn’t it strange that as a mother you want your son’s achievements?
It’s not really a negative change of heart that deserves criticism.
The thing is, my mind…Is going in a bit of a dangerous direction.
The way Leon looks at me is clearly mixed with dangerous desire.
In my free time, he secretly follows me around and treats me well enough to be burdensome.
…I can feel that you love me more than a mother.
As a mature aristocratic woman, such twisted desires are unacceptable.
I don’t know if you’re taking magic lessons, but I can feel that you’re looking at me with erotic eyes even during normal times.
It is the eyes that sway with dark red desire as if you are looking at a ripe fruit, not a mother.
…For some reason, I felt that Leon’s gaze was repulsive.
Is it because the belated motherhood has grown too big? Despite Leon’s clearly erroneous behavior, I always miss the timing to give an admonishment.
“…Ha…”
A sigh meets the cold air and creates white breath. In order to resolve this heart-wrenching anguish, I climbed back into the saddle after the next prey.
After riding for a few minutes, I found a herd of deer.
I approached the deer slowly, watching the direction of the wind and being careful not to let the deer smell me.
“Taang-“
Just like a moment ago, it was a bullet through the target’s heart.
The deer that was penetrated in the vital part fell to the side after not being able to take a few steps.
“…Wonderful”
It was a stag with impressive antlers. The hair was fine and soft, and it felt pleasant to the touch.
It was the time when I was trying to load a deer, which was gradually losing its warmth, onto the back of a horse’s saddle with [Psychokinesis].
“Kurrrrr…”
White-furred, ferocious wolves were all around me before I knew it.
Its hideous protruding snout drools dirty drool, displaying sharp fangs.
I was so scared. With my level of magic, I could easily defeat a wolf, but I felt instinctively afraid of that ferocious animal.
“…Withdraw”
Threatening with hot wisps of fingers, he backed away from the wolves.
“Back off!” I threw one of the wisps at the lead wolf, who ignored my warning.
“Keheng! Kreurreureu!” Some markings on the wolf’s back glowed brightly, absorbing most of my wisp fire.
The wolf, who had only suffered enough damage that the tip of its mouth was slightly scorched, growled even more menacingly as if it had received a lot of heat.
These wolves, they weren’t just normal wolves.
“Back off…! Back off…!”
Perhaps because I was taken aback and surprised, my mana did not move according to my will.
I was familiar with magic, but not at all familiar with actual combat, so even simple magic that I usually succeed in often failed.
I managed to make a few simple wisp fires, but I threw fireballs and ran away and tripped over the roots of a tree.
“Kurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…!”
‘I don’t like it…I’m going to die…To wolves…?’
It was the time when the wolf, right in front of me, opened its blackened, filthy mantle.
A heavy stone flew at high speed and hit the wolf’s head.
“Keep!”
The wolf’s head, unable to come to its senses from the shock, was separated from its body by a heavy long sword.
“Are you okay, mother?”
Leon, my son Leon saved me from the wolf.
“…Rion? Here, how…?”
“…It’s dangerous, so please step back.”
As Leon said, he sent me to safety.
‘Since when, the sword like this…?’
The Leon I remember was a kid who wasn’t very talented in swordsmanship or magic, but his growth over the past few months was truly remarkable.
At first, when he said he could learn magic and swordsmanship at the same time, I thought he was arrogant, typical of his age… He was a really great kid.
Seriously, it seems like Leon has completely changed over the past few months?
Using [Telekinesis], Which I taught myself, skillfully in battle, Leon defeated all the wolves before he knew it.
“…Seems safe now.”
As Leon said, the wolves either died or ran away.
“…How did you get here? Leon?”
It must have been a hunt without informing anyone to relieve stress…
“Um, well, so…” Leon couldn’t answer shyly.
“Phehe, Leon…I told you not to chase me?” It looks like you secretly followed me today.
“That’s, um… I’m sorry, mother.” Leon smiled shyly.
“…Still, thank you. Leon”
I smiled and expressed my gratitude. If it wasn’t for Leon, the corpse lying in the cold snow could have been me and not the wolf.
The horse I rode disappeared as if it had run away in fright. Thanks to that, I had to ride a horse with Leon.
I held onto Leon’s waist so he wouldn’t fall off the horse.
It clung to Leon’s back, and I could feel his body heat.
‘It’s warm…’
I felt it in the forest earlier, but Leon’s back was very wide.
Because I was holding her like this, it was incredibly reassuring.
Maybe because I saw the wolf earlier, my heart kept pounding.
…If you don’t care, your heart beat faster than when you met the wolf, to the point where you would mistakenly think it was beating because of Leon.
You can feel Leon’s back muscles twitch. His hands wrapped around his waist touched his tight abs every time his words moved.
‘Rion, will your heart be pounding?’
I shouldn’t be like this, but I keep subconsciously thinking of Leon as a man.
I need to resolve my worries, but on the contrary, my worries have deepened.
“Thank you, Leon”
As soon as I arrived at the manor, I thanked Leon and headed to my room as if I were running away.
If I stayed with Ryan any longer, I felt like strange thoughts would keep coming to my mind.
My heart beats like crazy, and I keep getting embarrassed. It looked like what had happened to his head.
“Haa…What are you doing…Bella…”
It’s a disgrace to the Merriere family. I can’t tell anyone, this strange feeling…
To kill this nasty feeling that kept trying to grow, I took a hot shower and tried to calm my mind.
I was able to forget most of the problems when I was washing alone in the shower room, my own space where no one came in.
However, today… I keep becoming conscious of the fact that this is ‘my own space’.
If the stream of water shoots down like this, you won’t hear any other small sounds outside.
“…Leon”
While being bathed in the hot stream, I keep thinking about strange things.
The thought of wanting to relieve his son’s dangerous desire, even a little bit.
Of course, it absolutely shouldn’t be, and shouldn’t be… But it’s just an imagination, right?
Just imagining it for a moment won’t hurt anyone…
So, this is not a bad thing…♥
While imagining your son’s body, deliberately letting the stream of water touch your genital area…Maybe it’s okay…♥
Holding onto my body reflected in the mirror and imagining being touched by my son… It’s not particularly bad…♥
All of them are bad thoughts that will be washed away with the stream of water when the shower is over…
Because it’s only for a moment…♥
“Leon…♥ Leon…♥ Leon…♥”
The gurgling, dirty sound, fortunately, was all overshadowed by the sound of running water.
While calling Leon’s name in a small voice, I looked at my reflection in the mirror.
‘Rion…He deserves to like it…♥’
I’ll just say that the shower that day was exceptionally long.
It’s a bit embarrassing to say too much…♥
My troubles were not resolved at all and got worse…♥
