Suspiciously Close Siblings 90

Chapter 90 – 90. Mother

Not even a day passed.
Just in case, it must have been a little more than half a day since I said to save myself as much as possible.
For today, instead of refusing the alcohol my friends handed me, I stayed at my seat until the end, and when I came in late,
Rather, my mother greeted me with empty beer cans lined up on her table and a snack.
As soon as the greeting was over, he immediately threw a bomb at me.

“… Dad? … Dad?”
“Aren’t there two fathers? ⋯Your dad is right.”

To be honest,
I don’t know how to accept it.
Why my mother divorced
What was the problem,
Who is at fault,
I don’t even know how badly they broke up and I haven’t even seen them since I was 10 years old.
Even if you know, it doesn’t make any sense.

“Why not… , Suddenly…”
“… Dad said he’s coming back to Korea.”
“… Korea?”
“They said they’d come back after giving up everything they were working for. Sometime next month.”

Come now?
I didn’t even know where she lived.
I never called you, I don’t remember your voice,
I don’t even know what it looks like now.

“Are you going to reunite? With daddy?”
“It’s winter. Speak quietly.”
“⋯Are you going to remarry?”
“… Huh.”
“Why?”
“They called to try again. Your dad ⋯He wants to start over with his mother.”
“No that… , Once than that. ⋯Were you in touch? With daddy?”
“Three or four times a year… Did The last time I saw it was three years ago.”

Three or four times a year.
Once every season change.
Between checking if he’s alive.
Winter and I didn’t even have that, and in fact, others.
It’s almost too much to say that it’s true
Someone you don’t know.

“Did you listen to it without rejecting it? That?”
“… Are you mad, son?”
“Do I look like I’m not angry?”
“Your dad didn’t do anything well, but the money was steady…”
“That’s not what you’re talking about!”

Living expenses?
Money?
It’s not that I haven’t caught on at all.
My family, who used to live at my grandmother’s house, at some point moved to an expensive land with a good school district.
Even though her mom makes quite a bit of money for her, she didn’t think her mom was the only one with her money.
But that’s not what’s important

“It’s not just Dad’s fault, Autumn. Mom too… I did something wrong with my father, and my father also did something wrong with my mother. Because we fight over things that don’t fit together…”
“I’m not saying that, really…”

None of that matters.
Why did you divorce
What did you fight for
It doesn’t matter.

“… Son. I hate seeing my mom remarry… ?”
“It’s not that she hates remarrying… Dad hates you.”

Only one thing is important.
Mama acted as her mother,
Dad couldn’t be a dad.
After all, it was our mothers and grandmothers who raised us,
At least Dad hadn’t even looked at us for over 10 years.
This never changes.

“Doesn’t Mom hate Dad? Isn’t it unfair that she raised me and Winter alone?”
“… Mom hates Dad too. I hate you… , If you say there are no hard times… It’s a lie.”
“Look, but why…”
“Does my son have a girlfriend?”

That’s why she tried to convince her mother to say no, but
Mom suddenly turned her back, and as if she knew everything, she spoke to me.

“… What does that have to do with this?”
“They said let’s not get married and live together as three families, but that’s why I can’t believe my son’s words.”

The three of us decided to live together.
Hide it somehow
It wasn’t long before he decided to pay the price he couldn’t afford.

“You go out on your own too. … I’m going to go out on my own later in the winter too. ⋯Whether it’s you or Winter, it’s better to have someone who will become your father-in-law and your father-in-law.”
“Because I’m not independent!”
“Tell me to believe that lying mother? A kid who goes out with his girlfriend well must be like that. I’m not even stuck at home these days. ⋯You can get married. Because mom has a lot of money. Your dad made a lot of money too.”

You still don’t know.
Even if you know that I have someone I love, until who it is.
That’s why you say things like that.
Wouldn’t it be better for you to have a father as well?
Mom is,
She really was a mother even until she was like this.

“It’s okay to live alone, isn’t it?”
“I have aunts, … Anyway, there is. However…”
“What nonsense is my son talking about? Aunts also have families. Intervene and live there? Can you notice?”

Looks noticed
It’s not just about my aunt.
If there was no love between me and Winter,
If both of them got married and started a family, who would have taken care of the mother?
If I, the eldest son of hers, had taken care of her, would her mother have paid less attention to her?
Wouldn’t her mother pay less attention if her youngest child, Gye-gyeol, took care of her?
⋯Are you saying you’d rather live with your dad because you noticed?
‘Cause I’m lonely

“You don’t have to be a father. Even if we say we are independent, there are many other people…”

To be honest, I don’t want to see anyone remarrying.
That’s something I can’t even explain to my mother.
She didn’t have the confidence to explain her relationship with Winter Lee until her stepdad.
He no longer wanted outsiders to intervene.
But even if mom is lonely,
He hated being reunited with Dad because of us.

“Mom is fifty now.”

Hoarse.
Even if you assume that you live quite a long time, your age is over half your life.

“At this age, to have a fresh relationship like you guys? Mom can’t do that.”

You don’t have to get married
Yes do it yourself
Brothers and sisters together with Winter.
The very thought that the three of us would be happy living together with our mother,
Maybe it wasn’t wrong?

“⋯Your dad isn’t a bad person. She hates her mom too much, but ⋯, she doesn’t. ⋯ If she really hates it, she doesn’t even care about her mother. She wasn’t even married She ⋯ never divorced. You wouldn’t have had them either.”

I hate it but I don’t hate it
If I really hated it, I wouldn’t even be interested.

“That person… Was like that when he was young. She ⋯ is going to America, she could have stopped her if her mother did well ⋯ because her mother was also young at that time. She fights ⋯, she’s like that. ⋯I was sorry for you, so I couldn’t contact you.”

I still don’t think it’s time to say I’m sorry.
No matter how many times he went to America to find an opportunity, the fact that he left his two children and left alone does not change no matter how many times he repeats it.

“And, at my mother’s age, I am now a grandmother. ⋯You will never meet someone better than your father.”

Half a hundred years old.
Even if you look a few years younger than your age, your face is already old.
Even her mother disappeared after her father last year.
Still, all of my children have been raised well, and I don’t know who they are yet, but they seem to be dating well.
Now is the time to be independent.
⋯What do I do after getting the kids married?
I quit my job
Shall I meet a man? At this age?
All of my older sisters and younger siblings have families and live well.
A phone call from my ex-husband that came after such trouble.
I made a decent amount of money, but I still had enough memories to give birth to a son and a daughter.
Let’s live again
If you receive such an offer,
⋯It is likely to be troubled.
I think so too.
However,
I don’t like it though.
Why?
Because I hate my dad.

“⋯Son.”
“⋯Do you know Winter?”

Nope,
I hate it.
I have no right to say anything more.
It’s a much more realistic problem compared to what I and Gye-gyeol lied about.
It’s not that I’m going to remarry a strange person, but I’m the original husband and the children’s father.
Whether we forget everything we did wrong or apologize, we will put things in order and start living again.
There was absolutely no way to stop it.
At least,
We, who were trying to be recognized as siblings and living in serious love,
I had no right to deny it.

“Know. I said it first when winter returned earlier, and he said he knew it.”
“⋯You said you knew?”
“If Mommy wants to do that, she will.”

At least, if I had to say that I didn’t like my younger brother, how could I have done something that didn’t exist?
But you couldn’t do that either, perhaps because your conscience was stabbed.
We can’t predict exactly what will happen if we reunite, but
At least knowing that nothing would help hide between us.
The promise to live together with her mother had already collapsed before she even wrote the first letter.

“Sorry, son. Because her mother is stubborn.”

Am I sorry?
Is it something my mother should be sorry for us for?
I was stubborn.

“⋯If you reunite, will you live together?”
“If we get married again, we should live together. If you say you’re uncomfortable… Think about what to do.”
“⋯.”
“Oh, it’s late. Let your son go and sleep.”
“⋯Yes.”
“Didn’t you drink today?”
“I didn’t drink. I’m late to take care of my friends.”
“Yeah, good job. Hurry up and wash up and go to sleep. It will be past twelve.”

Getting farther and farther away
It seems like the future you want won’t come into your hands.
I do not know what should I do.
To break her mother’s thoughts,
To break my thoughts,
There was no guarantee that either way would lead to a good ending.
I can’t seem to find an answer, even the phone call,
You didn’t even get it today.