Suspiciously Close Siblings 254

Chapter 254 – Extraversion. Suspiciously Awkward Siblings (6)

Surprisingly, the very next day after the exam, I woke up from a sound sleep.

“Good night~”
“⋯Yes, son. Did you sleep well?”
“Yep.”

My brother smiled very shyly,
Sit across from me who woke up a little early,

“⋯Did you sleep well too?”
“⋯Ah, yes. Good morning, brother.”
“Okay. Good morning.”

He even greeted me in the morning, which is rare.
⋯Rather, it seems that his expression is more relaxed than usual.
Ah, actually, it’s strange that your expression is worse than usual.
Because it was serious until just the other day.

“Ooh, sore throat.”
“Since I’ve been sitting at my desk all day, of course it hurts. I haven’t noticed all this time.”
“Iknow, right. Has your body been ruined this much?”
“Still, my son does some exercise, so it’s at least better. When I see the students at my mother’s academy, they are serious.”
“I need to exercise more in the future.”
“Okay. Since the CSAT is over, you should do what you want to do.”

⋯ But,
No matter how much it is, the atmosphere changes at once…

“⋯ Why? What’s wrong?”
“Huh? Ah, yes. No. Nothing.”

Should I say I’m not used to it?
Should I say that I, who sniffled like yesterday, am ashamed of myself?
Even though I usually feel better after a good night’s sleep.
⋯Isn’t the difference too great?

“⋯Hey, brother.”
“Huh?”

Still,
Whether you feel good or you feel bad.
I have to say as much as I decided to say yesterday.
⋯I think I would have been a little less shy if I looked depressed.
Oh, it really bothers people.
This person.

“⋯You worked hard on the exam. Brother.”
“⋯Ah, uh.”

That one short sentence that I thought I could throw out casually,
I don’t know why my face is getting so hot.
It was really difficult.
⋯This isn’t why I’m not doing something I shouldn’t have done.
Alas, really.
It’s because he did something he didn’t do first.
Fool.
Idiot.

***

Since the end of the college entrance exam and the year has changed, my heart has become much more comfortable.
Not all the lumps came out, but there are things in the world that can’t be helped.
No one else’s fault
My fault.
My ability.
By accepting it like that, I was able to take a step out of the terrible feeling I felt that day.
⋯Of course, that didn’t make it go away.
A few days ago, I couldn’t sleep at all.
I calmed down a bit when I sneaked out at dawn and stole a can of beer from the refrigerator.
The taste wasn’t bad, but…
Because I got caught by my mother while drinking,
The life stories I picked up while being scolded were very informative.

“I’m home.”

My mother also has an appointment, so she knows she won’t answer back, but as a courtesy, she simply greets her home.
Even though it’s the corner of the house where I always wake up, I go into my room feeling a sense of incongruity, perhaps because I’m getting older.
The room is so desolate even for a man.
A computer that is really useless or not for personal training,
A bed with only a pillow mattress and a duvet in plain colors.
It’s not cluttered, but it’s a pile of books that makes even the viewer feel stuffy.
⋯ Do you think you’ve been studying for over a year?
How did you hold on, anyway?
It’s amazing even if I do it.

“I’m back⋯.”

While staring at my room, lost in sentimentality without changing clothes,
Her sister came in with a short drive behind me.
⋯He said he had another appointment, so he went outside.
The kid who stayed at home every day.

“Hi.”
“Oh, brother…”

When she greeted her sister, who returned in a loose outfit, contrary to her expectations, she took a step behind her and clumsily accepted my greeting.
⋯ These days, it’s like this every day.
Even at the end of the exam, I hope you will say something nice,
I was kind of impressed.
For some reason after that,
As the days go by, the relationship between them is becoming more awkward.

“⋯.”

The younger sister who looked at me and shook her pupils around,
Suddenly she bowed silently to me, then she swung beside me, and she slipped away and went into her room.
⋯This is serious.
The relationship between her has become so serious, so I bought her a birthday present on purpose.
They weren’t particularly close siblings, but
It wasn’t even that awkward.
Originally, it was as if water was mixed with water, or alcohol was drunk, but it felt like it was there or not.

“⋯I don’t know.”

Well, as a senior who just went through the first year of preliminary high school, I understand it well.
I believe that her sister also has her own circumstances.
It must be that Jaedo is also a teenager.
In the first place, it was great that I had grown up so much that I hadn’t rebelled against my brother even once.
With the thought that if you do better, she will be fine somehow,
Even in this cold weather, she wipes her slightly sweaty body.

⋯ Ha.
It’s hard.
Something, I’m trying to pretend I’m fine.
It’s not that difficult, but it doesn’t seem like it’s easy either.
Although she feels relieved by clearing the big inflection point of the college entrance exam, the uneasy feeling left in a corner of her heart still does not go away.
⋯ I’ve been super sensitive over the past few months, and I remember all the things that irritated her.
If her physical condition was just a little better, she would do well in the SAT and be less annoyed with her family.
Whoa.
Let’s do well in the future.
I’m going to Sinchon anyway.
These are all rewards for setting high goals and following them.
Let’s be grateful.

“Ha… That’s cool.”
“⋯.”

When she came out after soaking herself in warm water, her sister, who had just escaped from me and entered the room, was sitting on the sofa in the same clothes as before, staring at me.
Seeing that she also has clothes in her hands, it seems that she was waiting for me to come out after washing.
Just a little glance…
Hmm.
No matter how much she came out wearing a dressing gown,
It’s burdensome.

“⋯Anything to say?”
“⋯Oh, no. Doesn’t exist.”
“Okay? ⋯ Well, then. If you want to use the bathroom, use it.”
“Yes.”

I handed over the bathroom, which was still full of moisture and hot, to my younger brother, and I went back to my room, shaking off my hair.
⋯Looking at my brother’s face,
It reminds me of the things that her mother scolded me not long ago.
Because he’s still innocent and young,
He said that if you’re too sensitive, he’ll be afraid of me too.
If blood and blood relations become awkward, they say they will regret it later.
I didn’t think I had a bad relationship with my younger brother, but after hearing it, I wasn’t wrong.
It’s even more so when I think about the day when he ate the last ice cream he bought for me to eat, and he even made me coffee while shaking.
Back then, it was still relatively young, but how did he feel when he became incredibly sensitive over the past few months?
⋯Yes, what. I am also a college student soon.
Don’t act like a child,
Let’s act like adults.
Because there is no such thing as a girlfriend to take care of anyway,
You have to take care of your family too.
If you say good or bad,
I’m relatively fond of my little sister.
Whether friends,
A friend of a friend,
At least among the younger siblings of people I know, there is no younger sister who is quiet and obedient to that level.
As a brother, I just want to thank you.
So you should do well.
⋯And frankly,
I gave her a cell phone as a gift for her birthday.
It was so damn cute to be surprised.

After drying her hair with that thought,
Wearing only her coat, she went out, bought her buns at her convenience store, and gave them to her sister.
Her sister, startled and shuddering at her, refused my favor.
⋯I tried to feed it by forcing it into my mouth,
It’s hard.
Still, I’m not the kind of person who refuses sincerity.
If you forcefully give it to me, it will automatically create a debt in your heart.
Other than that, I don’t know how to solve the awkwardness anyway.
Let’s take care of it steadily, steadily.
The day after the exam,
The younger brother who took care of me despite the shame,
Because thank you so much.

***

⋯It’s strange.
My brother is weird
That person must have been thinking of turning me into a pig.
It is clear that he intends to eat me by fattening me, who has no friends to meet and hates exercising.
Otherwise, there’s no reason to buy me something to eat whenever I’m bored like that.

“Mr.⋯, It tastes good.”

Also, while eating the taiyaki bread my brother bought for me, I swept my heart that couldn’t sink at all.
⋯Because of that burdensome human being, I don’t know how much I shook my head.
Originally, my older brother, who was always alone in his room,
For some reason, I went out of the house every single day,
Whether it was working part-time or meeting friends, he was enjoying a decent youth.
Every time I see an older brother like that, I honestly feel a little uncomfortable.
I feel like I’m pretending to be too active.
I feel like I’m wearing clothes that don’t fit
I do not like it.
⋯ It’s burdensome to take care of me.

“Kim Winter.”
“⋯Ha.”

Before he finishes eating the Taiyaki he bought me, he knocks on my door again and tries to get me something.
It’s not like I never wanted an older brother who took care of me like this,
I was able to realize that I wanted an oppa who took care of me from time to time, not an oppa who took care of me every day.

“Why.”
“Coffee. If you only eat bread, you will be thirsty.”
“⋯Yes. Thank you.”
“Eat deliciously.”

When I opened the door with a sigh, my brother was holding two cups of coffee in his hands with that cool expression.
Handing me one of them, I can’t refuse again and accept the bitter coffee.
Using cream puffs as sugar instead of syrup and sipping coffee in my mouth, very complex and subtle emotions disturb my heart.
⋯Ha, the taste is there.
It’s not that I don’t like it.
But why?
Why do I love that human
Am I not able to deal with it naturally?
⋯I don’t know how to react when that person talks to me.
I don’t even know how to speak first.
If it’s burdensome, you’ll say, ‘Oh, I don’t need it! You don’t have to take care of me!’
Even that is kind of hard to do.
⋯I don’t know.
Why am I doing this
I pushed it like that
If the day comes when my brother will never take care of me again,
I think that would be sad again.