Chapter 1 – [Prologue] Let’s Become Dr. Lox, a Tentacle Horse.
I’m ugly.
As for how ugly you look…
[Eolpyeong] : No matter how ugly you are, if you work hard, you can get a girlfriend!
[B]: (Photo) This is that face…
[Eolpyeong]: Whoa! Sorry!
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Think of it as a level.
“You don’t have to worry about my son at all! Just study hard and get into a good university, so everyone has a girlfriend! Okay?”
My mother always said that and comforted me.
But now that I think about it, since it was her son, she would have said that her son was the most handsome in her mother’s eyes at least once, but she never said that.
Her porcupine also said that her pup was pretty, but even when the mother who gave birth to me saw her, she must have looked so good that she couldn’t bear to even say empty words about her being good-looking. I.
“Really! You can get a girlfriend if you study hard and get into a good university?!”
“That… That’s it.”
She should have noticed when her mom’s voice trembled…
Anyway, she was eager to study from him.
In class, when I was in a relationship with a handsome guy or a girl who was born with a good face, I only sat at my desk and studied repeatedly.
“Is our Cheolsu 1st place again?”
That’s how I entered ‘Korea University’, the best university in Korea, with the first place in the entire school.
“Girlfriend! Girlfriend!”
Excitedly, I shouted for a girlfriend, and before entering college, I went around like crazy in gyms and clothing stores saying I was preparing to find a girlfriend. As a new tuber, I searched for videos like Mosol’s love skills, and entered the university fully prepared, both externally and internally.
“The body is good, but the face is a little…”
“Honestly, you have to kiss face to face, but how do you date if it’s disgusting?”
..I ran into reality.
Study? Effort? To no avail.
I tried to do plastic surgery, but the doctor shook his head saying that the skeleton of my face was too uneven.
Well… Of course, there’s a woman somewhere who doesn’t just look at the outside and looks at the inside, so you might think that a guy like me might work for you.
“Mi..Sorry! Too ugly..Suck!”
“Ah! Shit! Unlucky! Why are you confessing to me!?”
However, there was definitely an entrance cut, and it takes time to build a relationship and see the inside, but no woman allowed me time.
Smart tock-
“Chulsu! Cheolsu, come outside, huh?”
“Mom’s a liar! She says you just have to study hard! She says you can get a girlfriend if you go to university!”
“Hehe.. It’s all your mother’s fault for giving birth to you like that.. I’m sorry..!”
“Shit! Say at least one word that you can do it! Don’t give up right away!”
I became a hikikomori in the corner of the room with great frustration and despair and gynophobia.
“Hee hee… Ayaka-chan…”
[I like ‘Cheol-su’ the most! ]
“I also like Ayaka-chan the most.”
At least, unlike the real girls, the girls in the unboxing game genuinely liked me.
Unlike the women who look at me like a bug and cover their mouths with their hands while making a face that makes it difficult to breathe with them!
[I love ‘Cheol-soo’~]
“I love you too~”
..You whispered love to me.
“I have to buy a new new song! Ohh! A new song has come out from Yellow Album!”
I indirectly experienced the male lead in dozens or hundreds of unplayed poems and shared pure love with countless heroines.
[ I love you! ‘Withdrawal’ group]
“…”
But I couldn’t help but feel the emptiness that came from time to time.
Even if the heroine on the screen whispers love, it would be to the male lead, not me.
Unlike me, the male lead is handsome, full of abilities, and has a good personality.
Jiing-
It must be that he likes the male lead, not me, a 140kg, pimple-ridden hikikomori who is reflected on the black screen after the unplayed game screen is turned off.
“Shit!”
Chaeeng-!
I threw the joystick away.
“Hee-euk, hee-euk…”
Even with small movements, it is difficult to breathe and the front of the eyes are spinning.
It’s been 5 years since I was stuck in the corner of my room. I became a mother-in-law at the age of 30.
I ate instant delivery food every day, didn’t move, and only played unplayed games, so my physical condition couldn’t be normal.
The 140kg giant is uncomfortable to move around, itches all over the body, perhaps because of diabetes, and the senses of the body such as hearing, touch, and smell have become dull.
Dreuk.
I opened the dark room drawer.
There is a rope there.
‘It’s about time.’
I had no intention of continuing to live.
I thought that one day I had to end this ugly life, and I had set the starting point at the age of 30.
‘I wasn’t born ugly because I wanted to… I’m ending this damn life with my own hands!’
The moment you reach out and grab the rope.
Beep—
I hear a long tinnitus coming from my ears…
Koo–!
His legs gave out and he collapsed on the spot.
…What?
I tried to raise my body while looking up at the sky.
“Hee-eok, heo-euk, hee-eok, hee-euk..”
Her breathing was constricted, and her arms, legs, and fingertips had no strength at all.
‘How… What happened…?’
Her ears go blank and her eyes turn black.
I don’t know what it was, but one thing was certain.
‘I… Am I dying?’
Cause? You don’t even have to think about it. Originally, his physical condition was abnormal, so it would not be strange if he collapsed and died at any time.
It’s just that I think that’s what it is now.
‘Are you saying I can’t be born or die the way I want?!’
Tears of lamentation at not being able to end this damn life with my own hands flowed, and I tried to shout out to someone to help me.
“Kkwiik– Kkwiik..!”
However, because of the twisted breathing and the thick layer of fat in the throat, only a noise resounding like a pig being slit, no human language came out.
Took—–
At one point, my vision went black and I couldn’t see anything.
‘Dead.’
It was the only thing I could recognize.
When you feel the endless fear of the far darkness and the helplessness of not being able to do anything in it…
Faaaaat—
In an instant, the field of view brightens and a place like a white drawing paper unfolds.
[Poorly…]
I felt something stroking my head along with a warm voice.
However, I couldn’t see the other person’s figure, the hand that stroked it, or even my own body.
It crossed my mind that perhaps upon death, he might have become a formless figure like a ghost.
‘All… Who are you?!’
Thoughts are conveyed without a mouth.
[I am a divine being who manages life and destiny. ]
‘Life and fate?’
Then, could it be that I was born this ugly and suffered because of this being..?!
[However, all I can read is the past and the present. Only the creator God knows what kind of appearance he will be born in the future and what kind of events he will be involved in. ]
As if reading my thoughts, he denies that he is not responsible.
‘Am I dead…?’
[The sign is an acute myocardial infarction. Due to the obese body type, blood clots build up in the blood vessels and block the arteries, causing the heart muscle to die. ]
‘…’
The cause of death was so clearly my fault that I had nothing to say.
Yes.. I’m dead.
He probably said goodbye to his parents and younger sister. Hikikomori’s son, who had grown fat by the age of 30, was not his son, but looked like a pig living in the house.
The corpse might have been burned without even having a funeral.
Then there is no one who will mourn or remember my death..
No friends or lovers. The community only had a relationship with the unborn heroines on the monitor screen.
I was a person completely worthless in life.
I feel it all over again
Now that I think about it, the fact that I’m dead doesn’t feel that scary. It just feels like someone who deserves to die is dead.
‘Am I going to hell?’
I was just curious about this one. My life was already hell, but there will be more hell.
[Why do you think so? ]
‘I’m… I’m a fucking bastard. Hikikomori, a 30-year-old motherless virgin who has an ugly face like a monster, hates women, gains weight, and lives under her parents… Isn’t that me?’
[It’s not your fault. ]
‘It’s not my fault?’
[ Let’s take a game as an example. Character generation is random, some given strong characters and some weak ones. The system measures the difficulty of easy for those who are given strong characters, and assigns the difficulty of ‘Hard’ to those who are given weaker characters. So what difficulty are you on? ]
‘Hard..?’
[ No. To me, it’s a nightmare… A nightmare. ]
Did the ugliness of my face make it so difficult?!
Shocked by the affirmation of divine existence, I wanted to protest something, but as he said, my life itself was a hell and a nightmare, so I couldn’t come up with anything to say.
[You’ve been living in that nightmare mode for 30 years… 30 years. This is an achievement that a person born in easy mode cannot accomplish even if he lives 100, 200, or 300 years! ]
As I listened to the voice of God speaking enthusiastically, I had an intuition that there would be some kind of reward for me.
‘Am I going to heaven…?’
[Heaven is a place where only those who have truly made great achievements go. Unfortunately, although he endured the nightmare difficulty, he did not make any achievements that will remain in human history. ]
‘Then it was hard to live on the nightmare level. Did you come to me just to say that?’
[It’s impossible for Cheolsu to go to heaven, but there are other rewards. ]
‘What is the reward?’
[You can be possessed or reincarnated as you want in the world you want! ]
‘…!!!’
In a world that wants you to be what you want it to be?
You’ve been dreaming even in your dreams, right?!
[Wherever you want, whether it’s the world of fantasy novels or cartoons, or the world of your favorite fairy tales.. It’s possible. ]
God’s presence.
In Miyeonsi, there are heroines who smile at the only person I love.
If you reincarnate there as a protagonist…
‘To the unexplored world! Reincarnated as the main character..Ah.’
…What the heroines in the non-yeonsi like are not pig-like 30-year-old hikikomori.
I like the main character who is a perfect man who is handsome and full of ability.
[Please tell us the world and the male lead you want. Cheolsu. ]
Can that really be called true love?
‘No. Wait a minute… I’ll think about it for a moment.’
[It’s nothing but Cheolsu’s new life, so think about it enough. ]
With one word of God’s consideration, I slowly recalled the unplayed worlds I had played.
Although any unreal world was full of heroines full of beauty and charm.
The only thing that filled my head was one game.
It was an unplayed game called ‘boy, be a hero’.
There are hunters who catch monsters or demons, and the male protagonist goes into the academy to attack the heroines and by the time he graduates from the academy, he becomes a great hunter and hero and catches the demons and demon kings with the heroines. This is a game with a common story.
However, this game had a distinct difference from other unplayed games.
In most cases, there is a strong main character with the hair of the main character’s cut in the previous episode, or a handsome main character like a man.
The main character of ‘Boys Become Heroes’ has an androgynous appearance that makes it difficult to distinguish whether it is a heroine or a male lead.
It is that he had a very unfortunate childhood and had the personality to hit the wall against others.
Most of the settings were that the main character was simply indifferent to the seduction of the heroines, and that it penetrated the heroines’ emotions and seduced them by accident.
…A male protagonist with a believable appearance even for a pretty girl.
…Women can’t trust a man just by looking at his looks and abilities.
…If I could take care of my unfortunate childhood? Could I get my hands on it?
…Was there a character that could turn a man into a woman?
Various thoughts mix in my head.
‘Boys, be a hero. I want to possess the Dr. Rocks of the game!’
Got an answer
[ All right. Doctor of that world… Huh? Aren’t you the main character? ]
God asks if you have already confirmed the world view of ‘Boys, Be Heroes’.
‘Yeah! It’s Dr. Rocks! Dr. Rocks, a mad scientist who is a villain from the beginning and possesses the ability to manipulate living organisms!’
I told God who Dr. Rocks was.
