Chapter 73 – 7. Snow Flush (3)
With Beatrix’s words, the schedule for lunch was canceled.
“Jeongwoo-gong, Your Excellency Adler is the message.”
The invited guests, who were scheduled to attend the luncheon given by the president, were suddenly notified. It was all because of the Queen’s willingness to spend the day with me. Because the leader of this country, Bernhard, had the power to push through such a whim.
“What do you say?”
“He said to see you in the kitchen after washing up.”
I washed my entire body in blood and sweat in the bathroom. It was really hard to wash off the bloody forearm from Beatrix’s shaking. He was tired of tearing off each piece of flesh that had been adsorbed before being regenerated, and it was annoying to erase the scars left by his overwhelming strength.
“All right. Stop going.”
“Yes, I will leave my clothes at the door.”
Warm streams of water and fragrant soap easily washed away wastes clinging to the body. But mental waste isn’t something that can be washed away so easily, so I let out a quiet sigh so that Adele out there wouldn’t notice.
“I hope you have a comfortable bath.”
After the scuffle, when Beatrix went away, she was glad to see Adele, who appeared to help out whenever there was a need to wait on her. She was reassured, unlike the Queen, who was overwhelmed just by eye contact. It is her existence that gives strength with her advice.
But even that was short-lived. Let alone the title of master, I realized it from the way he treated me in a calm manner. That the Adele Schneider here is not the Adele Schneider I knew. The bookkeeper who won his heart after a bloody battle in Saxony is no longer there.
“Whoa…….”
In her past life, Adele had given me some advice in case of this. That was the advice she had been given in the time before going out after receiving the ghost’s letter in Lüneburg. It’s radical, but that’s why it was a more reliable tool for the bookmaker.
However, I was not willing to put that tip into practice. I haven’t had a chance to do that yet, but I didn’t try because I wanted to be able to leave at least a clue, to return to the past. I just kept hearing feelings like regret.
As long as it wasn’t using magic to connect memories together, Adele, the cunning master I knew, wouldn’t come back.
Regrets are not easily erased. After taking a bath and regaining my pristine appearance, I came out of the bathroom. After wiping off the water all over her body with a towel, she slowly began putting on the clothes Adele had left in front of the door one by one.
“Do not give up.”
In the mirror placed on the other side of the room, a very nice face was reflected. His already flattering appearance was reborn as a handsome gentleman with a tailcoat. When I was dating Victoria, I was happy that I was born with this kind of appearance. It’s a great pleasure to be able to be an attractive man for the lover you love.
It was the same with Elizabeth. It was definitely a great blessing to me that Bernhard’s aesthetic standards here are not so different from his hometown. Since I went through a regression, I was able to use my personal appearance as a weapon in my last two lives.
“Fight, as always.”
The object that should be favored while adorned to the fullest is no longer the wife. Not even a lover She is the reigning queen who plays above the top of my head.
Repentance is a luxury. I will move forward now. Even if I get down on my knees and sell myself, I will never lose someone precious to me again. So, you can put off the task of retrieving Adele, who was the bookkeeper. Now is the time to reflect on your determination.
“Remember that struggle was your essence.”
I took out the cigarettes and matches I had tucked away in the drawer under the desk. Instead of a thick, long-smoking cigar, I packed a cigarette that was thin and quick-smoking. In the meantime, he muttered like a madman and constantly self-hypnotized himself.
It’s the beginning of the year that I smoke occasionally whenever I’m confused, but I didn’t like the smell, so I went to the terrace.
Unlike my room at the end, the terrace on the first floor of the official residence was located in the center. Beatrix had told her to come to the kitchen as soon as she washed up, so it was clear that she wouldn’t like it very much if she disobeyed her order to burn a cigarette or something.
Then, of course, you should be upset.
I chose the long way to be noticed by other employees. Leaving the intact central staircase, they turned around to the side and infiltrated the terrace with a circulation reminiscent of an intelligence operation. I lit a cigarette, laughing at Beatrix, who thought she was still washing up in her room.
Literally, like a hero in a reversal, he ignited the fire of triumph.
“Jeongwoo-gong, excuse me.”
Poof! Before I could take the first sip, the cigarette in my mouth flew off. I, who had planned to spend a leisurely time leaning against the railing, took a step backwards in amazement. It was because of the woman who stole my cigarette with an invisible speed.
“Elizabeth?”
“…… Yes?”
Curly bobbed hair and horns on the forehead. The dreamer, who was tall and had a chest so big that he had to tilt his head, made a bewildered expression. He extinguished the lit cigarette in his palm as if nothing had happened, but instead of feeling pain, he only showed embarrassment.
“Oh, sorry…….”
I realized the reason belatedly. It was because of the attitude of politely calling her by the name of Elisabeth, leaving her surname as Mittemeyer, who was fine. Amman, even if she was a certified concubine candidate, she would have been taken aback by such a sudden call.
“Has Beatrix sent you?”
“Yes, he told me to bring him in because he might be secretly killing time here.”
“Anyway, I’m unnecessarily quick to notice…….”
Given that cigarettes were taken away, it probably means that he will not condone smoking. I let out a sigh, unable to erase the feeling of playing on the palm of my hand. Sure enough, after a while Elizabeth hesitated a little and held out her hand to me.
“I know it’s rude, but…….”
“Yes, here it is.”
What he held out was a pack of cigarettes and a matchbox. The bodyguard here in a tight-fitting suit must have ordered Beatrix to stop me from smoking. Smoking before dinner was bad etiquette.
Whether it’s to the queen for lunch or the chef to serve.
“Then I’ll take you to the kitchen.”
“Let’s go in a little while.”
“How much…….”
I couldn’t answer right away. Every time I saw the face of my dear old lover, I felt a surge of pain, and it was even more like that. Unlike her previous life, the last time I saw her lying on her bed, seeing Elisabeth alive and breathing here made my heart ache.
“Longer, as long as possible.”
“His Excellency will be angry.”
“I will take responsibility. I will never let Miss Mittemeyer suffer any harm.”
Crying came. I never wanted to face Beatrix in this mood. Because it was obvious that I would be caught.
What I want to be with at this moment is more a lover than a queen. The woman who told me she didn’t care how dirty and worn out I was, she’s right here, Elisabeth, who told me she’d stop as long as she was by my side right now.
“Please.”
“For a few minutes…….”
The good-natured woman hesitated before answering. I nodded and at the same time enjoyed the freedom given to me for a moment.
I leaned against the railing, feeling the wind blowing in the sunny Brullin, the city of glory.
“The wind is cool.”
“Well, I’m sorry, but do you have any concerns?”
There is every It’s very crowded. The biggest concern among them is you. I am grieving the loss of you who truly came to me. It would be safe to say that it became a trauma.
“Miss Mittemeyer, have you ever failed to protect someone dear to you?”
I opened my mouth as I looked at the world unfolding before my eyes. I asked a question while looking at the open garden of the official residence and the wild grass blowing in the wind.
“Yes, there is.”
Elizabeth came over to me and answered. Like a bodyguard, she stood exactly two feet away and had a conversation. Even though they were close enough now, it was hard to shake off the regret that if they had been in their previous lives, they would have leaned together next to the railing on which I leaned.
“If you don’t mind, can I ask you more?”
“Of course.”
“Who was it?”
“You were my old boss.”
I knew at once who the boss she was talking about was. It was the story of a swordsman who protects the royal family. Guardian of the former Bernhard Kingdom. It was the story of one of the three henchmen, the wolf. Erich Wolf, the leader of the Millennium Wolf Knights.
“He was a man of strong yet benevolent character. He raised an immature tomboy girl into a great knight. However, he died after being stabbed by a brother who was blinded by jealousy.”
Yes, that was the end of the wolf who protected the royal family. Erich Wolf, who was said to be comparable to that Beatrix in swordsmanship, had to engage in a decisive battle with his brother’s sword. Unlike his younger brother, who wielded his murder sword relentlessly, he had to subdue him with only his benevolent sword.
“It was during the civil war. It is difficult to describe the situation at the time in words. But one thing is certain.”
“What is it?”
“If I had been stronger, I could have saved his life.”
The wolf’s brother is still alive. Wasn’t it because of him that I ended up facing Elisabeth like a man like this after the sniper battle? A traitor to the old kingdom sent by Gisele Schneider, the great leader of Saxony. A wandering swordsman with a close relationship with Mrs. Shadow. Karl Wolf, who was the vice-captain of the Wolf Knights in the past millennium!
“If I ever see him again, I will definitely point my sword at him.”
“I don’t think Miss Mittemeyer’s boss, who died like that, won’t come back.”
“Yes, but that is how revenge is.”
Driven by the word revenge, I turned my head. There, he saw Elisabeth with an extremely determined expression, and even she was greatly shocked by her words.
“It’s for what’s left, not what’s lost. That way, even if the same thing happens, there is nothing to swallow tears. The reason I continue to practice my sword after that is not because I hate the enemy I mentioned, but because I don’t want to lose anything anymore.”
“Does that mean you don’t hate that enemy?”
“I hate you. But that’s all. What I am going to confront him about is a matter of reason ahead of emotion. As someone who has already taken something away from me, I have to make a decision so there will be no regrets. That is the true meaning of revenge.”
“…… !”
“I’m ashamed, but I still fall far short of that enemy’s skills. But that doesn’t mean I won’t give up or give up my efforts for revenge.”
I seemed to know now.
“That way you won’t lose anyone anymore.”
My beloved wife, Victoria, and her daughter, Che Chili, are not coming back. Adele, her former bookkeeper, and Elizabeth, her lover here, are the same. Of course, unlike the two people mentioned above, Adele and Elizabeth must have a secret plan to share memories.
But that’s not the two of them in a previous life. They are just two people in the present life who have inherited their memories.
I won’t deny that it’s up to you to think. Because each person’s rules are different. However, Seo Jeong-woo’s rule says this. There are no more bookshelves and lovers I met. That way, the fact that I couldn’t protect them will be engraved painfully.
Even though I knew it was hard, I was very heartbroken at what I had to endure. So I cried
But, Elizabeth, you shamefully lead me like this again. Gears are waking you up.
― Even if I die, don’t be sad…….
You, who was a lover in a previous life, said it for sure.
― Even in the afterlife, please be my lover…….
He asked me to be your lover in the next life as well.
“Miss Mittemeyer.”
“Yes?”
“Could you lend me your ear for a moment?”
“Ah, yes.”
I came over to me and grabbed Elizabeth’s head as she bowed her head. Then he kissed her lips, full of her love for her. Unlike Beatrix, who forcibly bound me, I kissed her with a sweet and fervent intention of courtship.
“Me, Jungwoo-kun? What is this…… !”
“Remember.”
“What, what?”
There are no two people who share a bond from a previous life here. I lost because I was weak. But even so, if you are down in frustration this time, you will repeat the same mistake again.
“I will approach you this time.”
Be strong. Even for the sake of the beautiful bodyguard who can’t help but blush here.
“Even in this world, I will be your lover.”
I’ll be strong!
