Chapter 297 – 57. Excuses (3)
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An outdoor table at a small convenience store somewhere in a narrow alley.
So, while I was drinking beer, people would occasionally pass by, and while I was eating snacks, cars would pass by.
Especially at this time.
Neither of them showed up.
“…”
… I didn’t hear what you said.
I can’t even make common excuses.
I have no choice but to give an answer from my side.
“… I’m lying, you’re better than I thought. Furthermore, I thought you couldn’t do it.”
Therefore, I poured the last of the beer into my mouth and dismissed his answer from earlier as a joke.
… Of course.
There’s no one else with us, it’s just me and Seo Woo-jin.
Lies like this and that…, It’s obvious, but it can’t be helped.
Because there is no separate way to confirm the truth.
It’s not even Yozora who likes dirty things to begin with.
Not Han Su-ah, who would have hung out much more often than me.
… Not that cute-looking girlfriend I only saw from afar.
I couldn’t have been in the best mood.
“Don’t you remember that we had sex all day during lunch?”
“…”
However, he,
Even though I dismissed it as a lie and moved on without even thinking for a second.
He continued what he had just said while lightly holding the empty beer can.
“How many times did you do it? About four times?”
“… I did use that much… Condom.”
“Baek Seo-yeon, I don’t know because you’re a woman, but usually after doing it once or twice, you get tired, so you need to take a break.”
“…”
“At that time, there was Yu Si-woo in the next room…, … I did it because it felt good.”
“…”
… Come to think of it, there was only one episode in the video Yozora sent.
After that, we continued in the bathroom twice… That would be everything.
I did a lot more than that.
And it’s not because I want to,
Because Seo Woo Jin wanted it.
Because my body feels good.
It was a strange feeling, so I tilted the beer can again,
After coming to my senses, I thought, “Oh, I drank it all.”
Tuk, not this.
Fighting and fighting.
It was placed tiltedly on the table.
… And then the question again.
“So… What made you feel good about me?”
I borrowed the alcohol.
A slightly more explicit part was included in the question.
“… Why do you ask that?”
“… If I get a boyfriend, I’m going to give it to him.”
“… It would be the worst to just pretend like you don’t know anything and be led, so do that.”
“You’re a virgin… You ruined it, so how can you pretend like you don’t know anything…”
“…”
“Anyway, what did you feel good about…”
Unlike me, who was relatively sane, Seo Woo Jin’s gaze, as if sweetly drunk, was blurry, was directed at my face.
Just 1 second.
2 seconds.
… 3 seconds.
After making eye contact for a long time.
His lips were sweet.
“First of all, it’s about looks, so that’s an added point.”
“… In terms of pretty, Sua is a little more…”
“Every time I climax, I try to pretend it’s not happening and try to relax my body as much as possible…”
“… I never pretended otherwise…”
“… I’m so obsessed with that topic, it’s hard to decide whether to let it rest for a while or force myself to fuck it.”
“… How can I feel all of that? Another lie to make fun of me…”
“Can’t you feel me flinching a little more right before I cum?”
“…”
“Can’t you feel it?”
“… The explanation seems very pervert…”
“How many times have I told you that you’re a pervert? … That’s all I’m thinking even now.”
“… Pervert. Dog pervert.”
“I heard it’s true.”
As if what I said last time was true, almost the same.
I never thought he would even say it so blatantly.
… Even though I had no idea.
“… Anyway, let’s finish this quickly. I think I’m very drunk.”
“… I wasn’t very drunk…”
“I’m drunk. You and I are both drunk.”
Seo Woo-jin stands up from the table, grabs the bag of snack crumbs and the empty beer can, and heads to the trash can inside the convenience store.
… Seeing that he sometimes stumbles when he walks, he seems to be very drunk from just two cans of beer…
For a moment, I stared blankly at his broad back, which was different from that of a girl.
I, who was the first to grab the perfume, staggered and got up from my seat.
“Okay…”
… What Seo Woo Jin just said.
Even now, the only thing I can think about is ‘that’.
I spit it out while I was very drunk,
Without even knowing.
I keep repeating it over and over again.
*****
… If you’re just thinking dirty thoughts,
Of course it is.
I want to have sex… Or something like that?
Or fellatio… Or, do it with your chest or hands…
Ah, maybe it’s not about receiving, but about caressing the girl…
“…”
Because of what I heard earlier, I glanced at Seo Woo Jin’s pants dance without realizing it.
After hesitantly taking my gaze away, I turned my head and stared at the exterior walls of buildings I had no interest in.
There were a lot of random thoughts in my head, but this was all I did on the way back.
No conversation at all. Take a quiet and leisurely stroll down the alley, as if taking a walk while breathing the night air.
… What? In fact, walking was so slow that it was difficult to even call it a walk, but whatever.
I would like to add for no reason that there was never a shy reason like ‘I’m already sad about breaking up’.
It’s just because I’m so drunk that it’s hard to walk properly.
I don’t know Seo Woo Jin’s inner thoughts as he walks next to her, but as much as I do… Definitely.
But I knew what this man would do later.
Since you said you were drunk and thinking dirty thoughts, you will break up with me and go meet a woman nearby.
And then a lot, a lot… … We’ll have sex until we get sick of it.
For some reason, I was secretly upset about that, but I couldn’t figure out why.
The most likely reason is that she doesn’t like Seo Woo Jin’s mindset of only enjoying pleasure.
… I don’t like the idea of that pervert having sex with women other than me.
This is definitely not the reason.
I also asked Seo Woo Jin with whom he felt the most comfortable having sex.
Because the answer was me, I had a strange feeling.
I hesitated to ask what made me feel good.
… While listening to his answer, I was fiddling with the empty beer can.
It was all just an extension of simple curiosity.
“…”
If so, why?
Why am I so annoyed when I think Seo Woo Jin is going to have sex with another woman soon?
To say I’m jealous… I don’t think that’s the reason.
I was groaning with feelings that were quite different from the ones I usually wrote down on Seo Woo Jin’s tag, and eventually I cleared my throat and made a sound on purpose so that he could hear.
Since I asked various questions earlier, I would just like to ask Seo Woo Jin a little more.
At least I’m trying to solve this question.
I think it will be okay.
“… Are you going to go meet a girl now?”
“Yes?”
“Aren’t you going to meet a woman like this?”
Ah.
There is no end or bottom like this.
Besides, I didn’t mean to say it in such a sharp voice.
Perhaps that’s why Seo Woo-jin treats me with the usual polite language instead of the informal language he was using before I knew it.
After clearing my throat again, I stopped walking for a moment and gently pinched the clothes of Seo Woo-jin, who was looking puzzled, and made him stop next to me.
“You said it earlier. … You’re still thinking dirty thoughts… Well, something like that.”
“… So, why?”
“… That…”
“…”
“… I wanted to go have sex…”
“I don’t really have anything else to do, so maybe that’s it.”
“…”
Also. Another woman.
I wasn’t surprised because it was exactly what I expected.
It was exactly what I expected, so it was annoying.
Perhaps because of that, my voice had an edge to it again.
“… Who are you going to meet?”
“Well, if it’s the girl who lives closest to here, she’s Yozora’s girlfriend…”
“…”
“Now that I think about it, I think Yozora would be good. I don’t think my girlfriend will like it because it smells like alcohol.”
“…”
Something,
There was something I wanted to say, but nothing came out of my throat.
It’s an expression that I don’t understand even though I say it, but I don’t really know what it means.
I don’t like his attitude when he keeps meeting women.
I’m annoyed by the insensitivity of casually mentioning that I’m planning on having sex with another woman, as if I were a friend of the same sex.
… However, the other women showed some level of concern and were attentive to that strange part… It’s very annoying.
So much so that I want to beat him up if I get the chance.
That’s why the words I wanted to say got stuck in my throat.
Even I don’t know what kind of sentence that is.
What is it?
What the hell.
… Do you wish you were dead?
But I don’t really want Seo Woo Jin to die.
“Haa…”
I let out a sigh filled with the scent of alcohol and looked up at his face with half-closed eyes.
And then just,
There is no choice.
Whatever comes to mind.
“It smells like alcohol, not only to you but also to me…”
I just said the words that came into my head.
“… Why is that?”
“… You smell like alcohol, and I smell like alcohol too…”
“So, why is that?”
“…”
“…”
“… The smell of alcohol… I don’t really care…”
… A filter in your head that should originally exist.
Because the alcohol has all dissolved.
“Besides, you helped me today…”
The precedence relationship is wrong.
In return for Seo Woo Jin having enjoyed my body so far, he asked me to help him defeat Yoo Si Woo today.
So, since you defeated Yoo Si-woo, I’m giving you something in return… … I was completely wrong.
Me too, who is speaking.
Seo Woo Jin is also listening.
Didn’t point out.
“… Sleep.”
That’s why I held out the hand that wasn’t holding the paper bag.
Not covering the pitch black jersey sleeves,
My white and soft hands.
“… There’s something you want to do, right?… You pervert?”
Just like I’ve been doing up until now, if I hold this hand, I’ll get horny.
Then, I have no choice but to have sex.
Because it is unavoidable for treatment.
Even if I don’t want to do it, I have to do it.
… Seo Woo Jin, you said my body feels the best anyway.
Therefore…
“… Ah…”
Hold your hands tightly.
I didn’t want you to let me go.
“…”
He,
Instead, he just held my forearm tightly.
“… Okay, let’s sleep…”
Hold on tight.
After pushing it to a solid wall.
… Even the streetlights.
In a place where people’s gaze is not even slightly visible.
“… Chuck… Eup…”
People who smell like alcohol.
With lips tightly folded.
Arbitrarily.
To entangle one’s tongue.
