Chapter 124 – Chapter 124
Do-gyun looked at Eun-seol with a nervous expression.
Right after Eun-seol opened his eyes, he didn’t say anything and the first thing he checked was my wrist.
He lifted both of his arms and looked around his wrists, then looked around the living room and found a fish tank installed on the wall in front of him. After staring at him for a long time, he finally opened his mouth.
“… How was it?”
The question handed over was about ‘how was Eunchae’.
To that question, Do-gyun pursed his lips for a moment, chose his words, and then spat out an answer.
“He was a good kid.”
Good kid.
Do-gyun thought Eun-chae was a very kind and innocent child.
Do-gyun leaned back on the back of the sofa and stared blankly at the fish tank, choosing his next words.
“… I don’t feel like I’ve grown less like Eunji. I just feel like a real baby.”
“Is it so?”
“Well, he really likes fish. I like meat, and I like fairy tales. I tend to sleep a lot.”
Do-gyun explained to Eun-seol each of the characteristics of Eun-chae that he had observed so far, and chose words of persuasion.
“Little… He was a very, very poor kid.”
Do-gyun felt Eun-seol’s gaze toward him and turned his head to face Eun-seol.
Deep sunken eyes.
A gaze that can feel cold at first glance.
Eun-seol gazed at Do-gyun with that kind of gaze and kept silent, then spoke in a very low voice.
“… You might know.”
“It’s a personality that should disappear.”
He knew enough about what he wanted to say.
However, he couldn’t quite understand it, so the moment Do-kyun opened his mouth to protest.
“I’m not just talking about Go Eun-chae.”
Eun-seol continued.
Eun-seol continued with a hint of hesitation and a somewhat sad look.
“We all do. For Go Eun-ah’s sake, we all have to disappear.”
It was a request I had heard several times before.
“That was the original plan. From the moment Ko Eun-ah separated from Ko Eun-chae and the delusion ended, I planned to integrate them one by one, starting with Ko Eun-chae.”
I kind of felt that way.
As if she was always preparing for a breakup, she tried to distance herself from everything.
“Go Eun-chae, yes. You are right that I was wrong. Because I didn’t assume that I was a person who could have a conversation like this.”
“Then…”
“It doesn’t work.”
The moment Do-gyun tried to protest Eun-seol’s words, Eun-seol resolutely cut him off and blocked Do-gyun’s words.
When Do-gyun flinched at him, Eun-seol looked at Eun-seol, and Eun-seol added a word with a firm expression.
“Even for you, that’s not okay.”
After saying that, Eun-seol pursed her lips for a moment, then asked me a question that I couldn’t easily answer.
“If you get so close and break up, do you have the confidence to handle it then?”
Do-gyun’s lips were tightly shut at the question handed to him.
It was not wrong.
Even though he always thinks of the breakup in a corner of his heart, when he thinks of that moment, a corner of his heart feels tight, so he may not be able to prepare for the breakup forever.
“It will be hard enough on our own. With your withered personality, it’s too much for you to lose already.”
Words that pierce me.
Do-kyun admitted that what he said was true.
Due to my personality, no matter how hard I try, when that moment comes, I will be heartbroken.
You will be sad for not being able to do better, and you will be sad that you can’t see each other anymore.
I couldn’t spit out an answer.
Eun-seol knew me too well to lie that I was fine.
Lips that only flutter.
While he hesitated for a long time without being able to say anything, Do-gyun clenched his fists and held his heart.
“… Please.”
Do-kyun said that with a hard face.
It was stubborn.
Maybe, it was an ego.
It might have been that he was complaining because he didn’t have the courage to accept the immediate breakup.
However, I still couldn’t let it go.
“I want to show more.”
Isn’t it just one aquarium?
Eunchae still doesn’t know the feeling of stepping on the sandy beach in the hot summer, the rustling sound of stepping on fallen leaves, or the pure white world of snow.
All Eunchae knew was the still cold air of early spring.
“You don’t even know how to laugh properly yet.”
He always tried to smile, but he didn’t know how to smile, so he was a child who crumpled his expression.
“… Isn’t Eun-chae the most painful memory of her Eun-ah?”
She was a child who suffered the most and never received a chance to be comforted.
“So, no matter how hard I was back then, I want to stay with him until the day he smiles properly.”
Lips twitch again.
It was difficult to read the emotions from Eun-seol’s expression as he looked at me, so Do-gyun, who had been making eye contact for a long time, barely wanted to add one last word.
“Isn’t it too embarrassing to end up like this?”
I tried to smile, but my expression continued to frown.
When you look in the mirror, you will think of a very strange face, and it must be just that kind of face.
Do-gyun looked at Eun-seol, who was still listening to him, and waited for an answer, hoping that he would give me a little bit of an ending.
The answer came back after another long silence.
“Ugly guy.”
Flinch.
My body trembled at the words I heard.
After bowing her head to him, Eun-seol stood up from her seat and went to the front of the fish tank, staring blankly at him.
“Yeah, I wasn’t expecting that.”
Words that come out with a deep sigh.
When Do-gyun raised his head and looked at him, Eun-seol turned his head toward Do-gyun and continued with a smile.
“Because he’s that kind of guy, he probably hasn’t run away yet.”
A bit of a back answer.
In response, Do-gyun pondered for a while trying to figure out the meaning of his words, then realized that those were the words of permission, and raised his body with a bright smile.
“Thank you!”
“What, you are doing the hard work.”
Eun-seol shrugged his shoulders at Do-gyun’s words and continued speaking by tapping the fishbowl with his fingertips.
“It will be much more difficult if Goeunchae is left behind.”
After saying that, Eun-seol added an explanation in a low tone.
“We are all fragments of memories that have been separated from Go Eun-ah. If we remain, Go Eun-ah’s memory will still be full of holes.”
Dokyun nodded his head at those words.
That was right.
An alternate personality is created from fragments of separated memories, so no matter how delusions are resolved, the memory gap remains the same.
“When Ko Eun-chae’s separation is over, the delusion will end as well. But are all memories full of holes? Then, the stress Ko Eun-ah will receive will be much greater than if Ko Eun-chae was integrated right away.”
Do-gyun was also expected to some extent.
That was the reason why Eunseol tried to carry out separation and integration at the same time.
After saying that, Do-gyun put a cool smile on his face as he saw Eun-seol waiting for his answer, and then spat out an answer.
“Isn’t that why I am here?”
I will never let you hurt like that.
Because Eun-ah is not alone anymore. ‘Cause she’s by my side
Even if Eun-ah, realizing that her life was a lie, knelt down on her knees, she just had to raise her up.
When I talked to Eun-seol with that in mind, Eun-seol shrugged his shoulders and spat out an answer.
“I just thought it would be good to warn you that it will be more difficult.”
Words that don’t matter much.
Do-kyun smiled at him, then suddenly remembered that Eun-seol accepted too easily, and looked at Eun-seol.
Suddenly, he shifted his gaze back to the fish tank.
Undoubtedly, the person who suffered the most from Eun-chae must have been Eun-seol, but is it so easy to accept?
While thinking about that, Do-gyun was able to find a hint in her words.
“Did you know I was going to come out like this?”
It was clearly not the reaction of a person confronted with a sudden situation. The way he passed my words so softly.
So, it was the reaction of someone who had already predicted this situation.
When such a question came to mind and asked, Eun-seol smiled and spat out the answer.
“When you said you wanted to have a conversation, I roughly expected it.”
Positive words returned.
Eun-seol said that and tapped her fish tank to add her words.
“I thought you’d stick to it with something like sympathy, which doesn’t work again, but I could have predicted that if you succeeded, I would come out unscathed.”
Do-gyun made a ‘groan’ at the words that followed, then laid down on the sofa again.
Oh, he was the one on top of my head.
‘Am I that simple?’
Eun-seol was very observant to the extent that he thought so.
She had never been pushed anywhere by her noticing, but she always felt so naked in front of Eun-seol, so it made me laugh out loud.
After staring at Eun-seol with a tired face, Eun-seol moved to the kitchen, opened the cellar, took out several bottles of liquor, and started to set them on the table in front of the sofa one by one.
Among the Western liquors in the cellar, it was a particularly strong drink.
As Do-gyun tilted his head at him, Eun-seol opened one of the bottles and opened his mouth.
“Thinking about it, it was unfair.”
After saying that, when Do-gyun opened his mouth wide at the sight of Nabal being blown out of the bottle, Eun-seol took the bottle he had been drinking all along and shook him as he added his words.
“I’ve been beaten every day, so I’ll have to do it once.”
“Yeah?”
“There’s nothing worse than waking up and looking like a fucking mess.”
At the explanation that followed, a look of absurdity appeared on Do-gyun’s face.
“Is it revenge?”
“It’s called revenge.”
After saying that, Do-gyun let out a blank laugh at Eun-seol, who started blowing his nose once more, and Eun-seol, who had emptied half a bottle of alcohol, spoke to Do-gyun.
“Yeah, talk about her. Looking at it, it seems like a lot of time has passed. Let’s hear what you’ve been doing.”
Do-gyun, who had an absurd expression on his face, smiled at Eun-seol’s words and nodded his head.
Where should I say
Do-gyun, who had been thinking about his words while choosing his words, then let go of his rhyme, thinking that it would be better to speak from the first day.
“Therefore… The first day was really hard. Aren’t you going to bite your tongue as soon as it comes out?”
“It’s that year.”
The answer given with a smile on his face.
Do-gyun, who laughed accordingly, made a snack for Eun-seol by unraveling the past two weeks one by one.
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“It’s a bee…”
Warble.
Do-kyun felt that the accident was being pulled out by that voice.
“Bee… !”
I felt hands shaking my body.
“Eww…”
After shaking for a while, I felt a hand gripping my arm before I knew it.
Do-kyun slowly opened his eyes at him, and absent-mindedly moved his gaze to the source of the sound.
I saw Eun-chae with a dying face and a grotesque expression.
As Do-gyun blinked his eyes blankly at him, Eun-chae vomited a painful sound as she grabbed her stomach.
“My stomach hurts…”
Painful sound heard again.
Do-gyun belatedly recalled what had happened the previous day.
“Ah.”
The day before, Eun-seol blew eight bottles of liquor with a can.
I somehow dragged the thing that had fallen on the floor in a state of unconsciousness to the bed and put it to sleep.
‘Hangover.’
A memory that made Eunchae understand what she was grunting at once.
When Do-gyun let out a laugh, Eun-chae shook Do-gyun again and made a sound of pain.
The brow was narrowed. His nose crinkled and his eyes were strangely open. The corners of her lips were always quivering.
Recalling that he was seeing the most bizarre expression of Eunchae’s expression he had ever seen, Dokyun raised his body with a ‘grunt’ sound and continued talking while patting Eunchae’s back.
“You must have a bad hangover.”
“Hangover… ?”
Even in the midst of pain, she tilted her head and muttered words.
To that, Do-gyun let out a chuckle and added a word.
“It happens when a bad witch torments you.”
His head bent once more.
Seeing this, Do-gyun took Eun-chae in his arms and headed to the kitchen, recalling Eun-seol from the previous day.
‘… It’s a witch.’
I drank like crazy, how could that be a person?
