Chapter 99 – Level 9 – Wow, I Completely Agree (13)
Ever since I was little, I wanted to help others.
It wasn’t that I had a particularly heroic spirit, it was because I thought everyone around me was sparkling.
If it helped to keep that sparkle even a little bit, it seemed that I, in the dark, would come a little closer to that light.
So, I wanted to help as many people as possible.
That’s why I was very happy to wake up and become a Hunter in the first place.
The hunters who protect people in the forefront were shining people no matter who saw them.
In fact, objectively speaking, I have become a person who clearly emits intense light.
“Eunha, if you’re at your level, it’s okay to live without paying attention to that? What will anyone say?
“…I thought it would only bother them for no reason. I should be more careful because I have power.”
“Oh, who’s stopping you?”
But to myself, I wasn’t a shiny person at all.
The self reflected in the mirror was a monster that had been forcibly absorbed by other people’s light.
It dazzles with a sparkling light from its shell, but inside it was just a tattered golem with other people’s lights woven together.
I was not a nice and beautiful person.
It’s just a parasite that lives by relying on other people’s light.
He was a greedy man who desperately tried to get what he couldn’t have.
What I was trying to protect was just my ugliness, greedy for their light.
No matter how much I try to be a beautiful person, I can’t be that way.
A monster like this wasn’t pretty at all.
I thought that I would shine if I became one with the light by weaving and weaving like that, but I was still only shedding too ugly and muddy light.
People who point out me only know me all too well.
Those people are different from ordinary people, but they shine so beautifully.
Even the light coveted and tried to protect them.
“No, don’t look at Eunha.”
“What is it?”
“Please, Eunha. Don’t ever open the internet. The internet is banned for a while.”
Even the team members closest to me curse at them saying that I am more beautiful.
Rather, it would be me who is dirty.
However, I was afraid that all the lights would run away if I showed my ugly side, so I have not been able to show myself as I am.
“It’s just that if I take responsibility for everything, everything will end. That’s the way the most people can be happy.”
So, I was going to give up on this opportunity.
I tried to go back to the place that suits me.
I started to protect the light of others, because I was ruining their light.
Now I tried to live alone by abandoning my greed and getting farther away from the sparkling lights.
“Ah, suck…”
But I had already become a being made of their light.
It was very difficult to endure everything alone.
I thought I had become stronger by stealing their light, but I was still weak.
The wrong choices I’ve made so far.
And the greed that has been ugly is crushing me.
Sick.
The belated punishment really hurt me.
“Eh, eh?”
“Stop shaking and follow me. You should wash up first.”
A light came to me who had been confined to the room like that.
Although the first meeting started with a misunderstanding.
I knew that his true self was a very brilliant person.
Also, the false light I created deceives and harasses others.
I tried to escape, but his powers prevented me from escaping.
And he started to treat me like a child and make me feel comfortable.
“It was the right choice, so don’t regret it.”
“…Yes?”
“Oh, it was obvious. You regretted why you didn’t block that attack? You don’t have to.”
“…”
But… The attack was obviously preventable.
I was afraid that I would not be able to endure the pain at the time, I was just afraid of my own weakness.
It was clearly tolerable.
He said it was okay and stroked me as if he knew that I was thinking that way.
It’s like this person is looking into my thoughts.
Something felt strange.
You must be ashamed to be naked.
Because his light that shows me kindness without change while looking at my ugly inside is so beautiful.
It seemed like it would melt in the light.
“It’s okay to talk.”
“…”
“It’s okay if you throw up everything because it hurts.”
Drunkenness spreads
He continues to cover me, telling me to reveal my insides.
As if he knew that if I didn’t put in this much effort, I wouldn’t be able to express my feelings.
Every action that seemed to know what kind of person I was, weakened the walls I had built.
But he is a good man.
If I say I’m sick, he’ll share my feelings just like everyone else.
My ugliness will bury it and its light will become muddy.
It was impossible to make it that way.
“It’s okay. Eunha. It’s okay if you tell me in front of me.”
“…Yes?”
“You’re shouting it over and over again in your heart right now. You’re saying it hurts, you’re suffering. I’m just saying it with my mouth.”
But to no avail in front of him.
Since he already knows all about my heart, he seduced me by saying that it wouldn’t make much of a difference if he spoke.
The light was so huge and beautiful that I didn’t think it would collapse even if I went next to it.
“Why, why… Why are you doing this?”
“Yeah, because I like it.”
The way he throws words that he likes me even though he sees my ugly nature.
Because it was something I could never have imagined.
Because it was so beautiful that it seemed like it would break me.
Rather, I was falling in love with him.
“Haa♡ haa♡”
The physical pleasures that he forcibly bestowed on her came flooding in.
That pleasure kept trying to break down the feelings of love that I was trying to forcefully block.
No, calm down Seo Eun-ha.
You don’t deserve to be around someone so beautiful.
“You said it too. You’re not a good person. Then that’s fine, right? Try to be a little happy while resenting others.”
If you knew my ugly side, you would just run away.
I don’t know why you love me like this
Even the ugliness I had was really full of greed, and I couldn’t give up my greed even though that person asked me to do so, so I was stubborn.
“You’re thinking that everything that’s happening right now is your fault in the first place. You selfish bitch.”
“To…?”
“You’re thinking that way in order to be happy. To leave everyone behind and indulge in pleasure.”
“It’s not like that…!”
It was the correct answer.
After all, I’ve been ignoring other people because I want to see the light I want.
I have done so for my own greed.
That was my ugly nature, and he was reprimanding me for that.
This pleasure was only showing the feelings I had more clearly.
Even though he tried to change me, I didn’t change at all, and I was still greedy.
I was still fooling around.
“Look. Are you really happy? That’s the ending I’ve decided for you. I want you to be happy, and I want all that crap to fuck up.”
He said that the lights I was looking at would be destroyed because of me, and got angry saying that this is the end of your greed.
In the meantime, I was even considerate through pleasure so that I wouldn’t have a hard time.
He was truly a dazzling and radiant person.
“Keuk…!”
I want to protect the same light as the sun.
For the first time, I tried to empty out all my greed.
In fact, I was enchanted by that sun-like light.
I was greedy again for what I didn’t have.
Wanted to have him
F F F
While waiting for the reaction of the person who wrote bad comments to Seo Eun-ha.
I slowly put my finger on the doorbell.
And the moment you try to press the doorbell with all your might…
“Eun, Mr. Hyuk!”
Widely!
With a hot sensation, my arm is thrown away and I walk away from the doorbell.
Seo Eun-ha shook me off and stood in front of me to prevent me from ringing the doorbell.
She couldn’t even feel the reverberation of pleasure in her body anymore.
“I don’t hate you. And for your happiness, I won’t hate myself either. So, please stop.”
‘I don’t hate myself. I don’t hate myself I don’t hate myself I don’t hate myself.’
She held her head with all her might, as if brainwashing herself.
A person who has been taken for granted to loathe himself is trying to overcome it.
It wasn’t that I succumbed to pleasure.
Rather, he overcame even the pleasure and was trying to stop me.
“Ha, really… Eunha-san could have done it too. She can’t hate herself.”
“I am…”
“I’ll cancel everything I said earlier. Let’s go home.”
Now that I’m going to cancel everything I was going to do, I feel regretful, but…
Didn’t she have enough strength to overcome this though?
On top of that, it was absolutely not regrettable enough to forcefully say that it was too late.
“I’ll release all the traits that were hung. You shouldn’t blame yourself for that, right?”
“Thank you…”
“What is it? You’ve proven that Eunha doesn’t want it. That’s why you stopped?”
“Not that…”
She seemed hesitant about whether she could say this.
Since she kept doing that, she got kind of frustrated, so she turned on ‘Ugh, I totally agree’ to hear it again.
But just before that, thanks to her opening her mouth, she was able to stop.
“Thank you for liking a dull and twisted person like me. Thank you for working so hard for me.”
“…I’m not the only one. Maybe your teammates are the same?”
“Maybe so. Maybe I’ve been frightened of myself all this time.”
After saying that, she smiled brightly for the first time.
Her expression was so dazzlingly beautiful that I stared blankly at her.
“Then you have to take responsibility?”
“Yes?”
“I was going to throw away all my greed, but because of Eunhyuk, I became even more greedy.”
“…What kind of greed?”
Did this person have anything to be greedy for?
Seeing that she tried to throw it away, did she really think that living a normal life itself was greedy?
Because this human being is seriously ill.
“Because I’ve come to like someone as beautiful as you.”
“…Yes?”
“I love you. I know that this heart is selfish, and that kind of heart is not suitable for you, so this heart must be a mass of greed. But I want to be greedy. I want to have you.”
“Uh…”
“So please take care of me. Please embrace me.”
Receiving a confession at such an unexpected timing made my head dizzy.
Seo Eun-ha brought her body closer to me little by little, and she just hit me with her lips.
The dizzying scent of roses seems to encroach on my head.
Her clumsy yet tender kiss.
It pierces fiercely as if it will break my heart.
