Chapter 186 – Even if Everyone Else Denies Me (5)
The elf sat on the steps and watched Benelia ride away on her white horse her.
The familiar also chased Benelia from behind, flapping her wings and flying through her air. It’s because the elf cut off his mental connection to his.
After that, a silence accompanied by anxiety descends. After the rain stopped, the grass insects that started their activities could be heard quietly crying in unison.
However, the elf could not pay any attention to the sound.
“…….”
The elf, who had been fiddling with his fingers with his eyes half-open, gently lowered his gaze. He sees that the water-soaked ground has turned to mud, hollowed out by the horses’ hooves.
The water droplets in it look very lonely today. The elf looked down at her with her sad eyes and lowered her head.
The elf muttered lowly with his forehead buried in his lap.
‘I…….’
As Esili said, I entered the stronghold of the Black Dog and annihilated the killers. They wiped out all but one person who could deliver words to other underworlds.
If it was atonement for the wrongs I had committed so far, it was the right thing to do.
The problem was that even after completing his mission, he was still unsure of his own mind.
‘Can I be forgiven….’
He did something he shouldn’t have done to Theorard. He committed a reprehensible evil and arbitrarily called him a toy.
It was an act that could never be forgiven when judged objectively. Thinking backwards, she couldn’t justify what she had done.
Nevertheless, Theorard came to rescue him.
Elves are not stupid. He knew better than anyone how much effort and terrifying years it would take to save a being placed in a quarantined night phenomenon.
‘Theorard didn’t have a bracelet…….’
It is clear that he cut off his protective ornaments to interfere with the past. Despite knowing the terrible future that awaited him by cutting off the ornament, Theorard did not hesitate.
—Remember me
No matter how much I thought about the past that Theorard interfered with, this was the only one.
To prevent the elves from committing suicide and give them new lives, Theorard played evil. Theorad’s hypocrisy became the driving force for the elf to live until now.
That pride… The affection she had never received before was so precious to the elf.
So he wanted to be by Theo Rad’s side. He wanted to live in the world leaning on the warmth given by Theo Rad. He wanted to love Theo Rad.
‘However…….’
It was unknown whether Theorard would be able to accept this sincerity.
Because understanding and convincing were different kinds of problems.
When he confesses that he has come to his senses, he is terrified that the troubled Theorard will ask him to return to the Great Forest.
I was afraid of that, so even after returning to the villa, I couldn’t go inside. The moment he enters the villa, he cannot avoid meeting Theo Rad.
If he would rather leave the villa like this, wouldn’t he be able to get rid of the option of being hated by Theo Rad? As I was engrossed in such anxious concerns, the door of the villa opened with a faint noise.
The startled elf raised her head. But he never had the courage to look back. If the person in the back was Theo Rad, he didn’t know what to say.
“…… You’re back.”
Contrary to the elf’s expectations, however, the voice heard was that of a woman.
Essilly’s voice makes me relax. As she let out a shrill moan, Essili walked right next to the elf.
Afterwards, Seeley sat on her steps without her a word. Neither of them said a word, so the surroundings were very quiet.
The sound of grass insects, the sound of mountain animals touching the bush, the sound of tree branches swaying, and the sound of chatting among servants in nearby rooms are mixed with each other and are heard quietly.
The wind blows through the damp earth. Essil Lee, who had let the wind blow through her bangs her, calmly opened her mouth.
“I’ve been thinking a lot.”
The elf’s fingers her wiggle on her lap her.
It was because she was anxious that Esily would tell her to leave Theorard’s side of her.
However, Esily had no intention of throwing the elf away. Essilly still stared straight ahead, letting the cool breeze brush her face her.
“At first, I thought you were unforgivable for whatever reason. Maybe it was jealousy. It must have been more that Theorard hated having affection for another woman.”
“Essily, I…….”
“But now I know. I mean I’m being pushy. I don’t know exactly what happened between the two of you, but Sir Theorard values you very much. I can feel that he likes you from his words, his actions his, and his eyes his.”
The elf was silent. Because he had nothing else to say.
“You said you also loved Sir Theorard. If it’s natural, then it’s natural. Who in the world would he give his life for someone he did n’t love? So I don’t want to push myself anymore.”
A faint smile forms on Ashley’s lips. Her smile was a mixture of love and hate her, hating her her but thanking her, jealous and cheering her on her.
“I can’t force myself to ruin one of Theorard’s happiness.”
Turning her head, Seely placed her hand on the back of her elf’s. She felt soft and warm energy reaching her heart.
“Then don’t look at me anymore. If you have something to say to Sir Theorard, don’t run away and go into the villa. She must still be spending time in her drawing room since the princess has just left.”
“I, I deserve it…….”
“Then you want to give up and run away? Can I interpret this as saying that it’s okay to live without seeing Theorard?”
The elf, who had pursed her lips, shook her head. It was because she knew implicitly that the act of running away without knowing Theo Rad’s heart would remain as a huge regret.
“If you don’t like it, you know what to do. Wake up. Wake up and go see Theorard. Because that’s the best you can do.”
The hesitant elf lifted her head and faced Esili. The water in his red eyes made her feel pitiful. The elf, who had been looking at Sally for a while, said with courage.
“Why, why are you trying to help me…… ?”
She wasn’t even helpful. Because it was just pushing the back of the person who was worried. Even so, the elf was unfamiliar with Esily’s kindness to her.
Esily also does not fully understand her own behavior of her. However, she could not stand by her side of her and watch the loss Theo Rad would suffer if her elf her disappeared without a word.
“…… Same with you.”
A long sigh Turning her gaze, she stared at the trees swaying with the wind in front of the book and murmured in a low voice.
“Because I, too, love Theorard.”
*
After leaving Benelia, Theorard began to clean up after him. He could have called the servants and told them to clean up, but he didn’t want to call the servants who were resting in the room to work.
I move the wine and wine glasses to the kitchen of the villa, come back up and clean the table, and I hear the sound of impatient footsteps.
Perhaps they were running in the hallway, but the footsteps that were running fast came to a halt when they came nearby.
Wanting someone else, I put a handkerchief into my bosom and turned around to where the sound came from.
“Ah……!”
The low-pitched elf hides behind the corner.
Are you trying to play a joke? Theorard gave a small chuckle and headed towards the corner of the hallway, hushing his steps.
As I turned the corner, hiding as much as I could, I saw an elf leaning against the wall, holding both hands together and placing his hands on his chest.
There is something strange about the way he exhales heavily with a flushed face.
‘…… It’s been raining a lot lately.’
Thinking he might have caught a cold, Theorard put his hand on the elf’s forehead. At the same time, the elf, started by the sudden contact, takes a step back.
It was so cute that Theorard couldn’t help but smile.
“What are you so surprised about? It’s not like I’m going to eat it.”
“Ah. That, that……”
“Or do you want to be eaten?”
Theorard, with a grim expression, lifted his hands up like his claws.
“Kang!”
His voice his imitated the lion as best he could. At least, in his own opinion, he was the perfect lion.
Now, if the frightened elf backed off, he was going to follow and play with him, but the elf calmly blinked his red eyes.
There is no response, so I feel ashamed for nothing. Theorard cleared his throat and opened his mouth awkwardly, tying the brooch around his neck.
“…… Sorry. Rather, what is going on here? Aren’t the girls playing well?”
“That’s not it…….”
“Aha. Then he said that playing with me was the most fun. Good night! I have work to do, but I’ll put it off and play with you. It’s a secret weapon, but today I specially folded a stag beetle out of paper-“
“Sir, I hate it.”
Theorard’s words cut off. I didn’t know that the word “No” Would come out of an elf’s mouth.
Could there be something I did wrong without knowing? The moment Theorard, who was pondering it, was about to suggest another play, the elf spat out words.
“I’m back. I’m fine now I remember all the time I spent with you at the mansion. So you can stop doing that. And if you want, go back to the Great Forest…….”
Theorard took a step forward. Before the startled elf could bite his body his, his arms his stretched out in front of him hugged him warmly.
The elf, shrunken and cradled in Theo Rad’s arms, could not hide his embarrassment. I didn’t expect Theorard to hug me like this.
“Ah. Me, I mean……”
Maybe I misrepresented what I said. Maybe Theorard still thinks of me as a child. Uneasy, he tried to convey his words his again, but Theorard did not let go of his hand his that embraced the elf.
“Thank you for being honest. I was worried that you would never find your memory. I blamed myself for making a mistake in the treatment process. You don’t know how much my heart is full at the thought of you.”
“Theorard…….”
“One is fine now. I am so alive and you also regained your memories, so there is no problem. So let’s not suffer any more and go back.”
Theorard instinctively hugged the elf in his arms his even tighter.
“To Deharm Mansion, where everyone is.”
Water mixed in with the voice. As if everything was over, Theorard was revealing his feelings of relief and joy without filtering.
It would be a lie if I said I was n’t moved by Theorard’s actions of his. The elf bit his lip to keep from crying and muttered quietly.
“Yes. I’ll go back…….”
A grunting voice sounds like a whisper.
At least for this moment, the elf was as happy as anyone else.
