Chapter 84 – Trainee’s Diary [Ronin & Arya & Ner-Sama] (10)
Like a dart flying at a target, a sharp, pointed gaze stuck to me.
The fierce, distorted hostility is too vivid.
“Ah.”
My hands, arms, legs, and whole body trembled.
The emotion of fear, which was normally sealed off, overflowed uncontrollably.
Because you were there where you shouldn’t be.
You are my trauma
It is the culprit who made all kinds of terrible things happen, and it is the decision of fear.
He is a person who deeply hurt me and has had a great influence on me.
Just having you in front of me makes me infinitely shrink and become weak.
“Did you really think you could get away with it? Or did you think I hadn’t noticed? Either way, it’s a pitifully simple accident. You, my treasure, can’t be left unattended to the point where someone lightly snatches you, right? I was always watching. All that petty hope, all that crude plan.”
If he had stuttered, he would have had some humanity.
The pronunciation is very good, but the content is inconsistent.
So what
You mean it’s all played out of your hands like a clown?
“… Perverted bastard.”
“I want you to think that I have deep affection for you.”
Do you think of drowning your affectionate partner into a pit of despair, usually?
There is no such thing as twisted, twisted affection.
“Do you like it so much when I despair and scream?”
Ronin answered firmly.
“Yes, it’s perfectly fine. I feel the utmost warmth in your cries.”
“… Make your taste noble too.”
He showed no displeasure at my sarcasm.
Be calm and weak
“I’m just saying this when it comes to talking about taste.”
He came out with a deep look, looked over at Priest Nernim, and then continued.
“To be shy, I used to have the urge to cut off people or animals when they shine the most. It was an impulse I had from quite a young age.”
“What about me?”
“As an aside, Aria, you shine the most when you rebel like that.”
“Speak round and round. You just want to see me fucked up, fuck you.”
“It’s good to see you showing tears and repenting for your wrongdoing, with that bravado collapsing.”
“… It hurts.”
Even though I used the wrong way of speaking as a saint, I couldn’t find any anger on Ronin’s face.
But I intuitively realized that he was deeply upset.
Isn’t it the most calm before the storm?
I was worried about what feelings he would show after this.
Priest Ner-nim raised his arm and sent me back.
“If you pay more than that, what price do you mean?”
The corners of Ronin’s mouth curved like a crescent moon at his question.
It was a terrible laugh.
“Would you understand if I said it was the price for stealing the saintess?”
Ner-sama’s face was distorted.
“The cost of stealing? Don’t be harsh. I wonder if that’s something you guys would say as you both abused and persecuted her. If I had a conscience, no, if I had no conscience, I would have committed such an act.”
“Ner’s priest. As a priest, it’s good to express a correct and sound way of thinking, but in the end, it’s just a pretense, so it doesn’t touch my heart.”
“No pretense. I will set her saintess free.”
The ronin stared at Priest Nernim with an inorganic expression before turning to me.
“Freedom, that’s a slick word. Freedom usually comes with responsibility. Arya, do you have the courage to take responsibility?”
The arrow came towards me.
“Even if I told you I had the courage to do that, I wouldn’t let you go.”
“Are you really there?”
It is a repeated inquiry.
I couldn’t speak
Courage?
There can be no such thing.
I’m a coward.
I’m afraid of getting sick.
I don’t want to be bothered.
Why are you asking me when you guys made me like this?
“You don’t have to listen, Arya.”
Was it unpleasant that her question was cut off by the priest Nernim?
Ronin’s smile grew thicker.
“You seem to be acting like a guardian.”
“I think I’m a better protector than you.”
Ronin looked at Ner for a while and then snorted.
“Did you really want Saint Arya’s body? I can understand the desire to monopolize it, but it’s unpleasant to think that I instilled vain hopes into Arya in the process.”
“Enough of disgusting rumors.”
“Is it Jeonggok? You look good. Yes, in the end. It means that you are nothing more than a man who coveted Arya’s body. No matter how much you wear a mask of hypocrisy.”
Ner-sama’s face was distorted.
I didn’t like the teacher making that face.
So I objected.
“… No, Ner’s teacher is different from you!”
A shadow wriggled at my objection.
“I think I’ve been telling you many times not to speak arrogantly towards Priest Ronin.”
Gina was hot and tried to move her body.
Fortunately, Ronin seems to have calmed her down by stroking her chin.
I wonder if this is how they train a beast.
“Pass. Thank you for being angry for me, but we are having a conversation.”
“… OK.”
Gina furrowed her brows disapprovingly, but it just stopped there.
Ronin’s gaze turned to me.
“What’s the difference? Isn’t it the same whether it’s one, ten or a hundred scars on your body?”
It was a Ronin who showed a natural talent for making people hard to say.
He shook his hand in disgust.
“I won’t bother asking what the difference is. It won’t mean much. More than that, I knew that the act of closing my eyes even though I knew everything took a lot of patience. Do you know how distasteful it is to see human behavior that I consider to be secretive, clandestine behavior? There will be no spectacles like this. I was itching so hard to step on it. Come to think of it, it’s been a long time since I stepped on a rat and burst it.”
“Is it the expression of a normal priest to compare people to rats?”
“If it harms the Aryan saintess, she is confident that she will choose even more degrading words than that.”
The conversation that seemed to continue was abruptly cut off.
A subtle silence engulfed the passage.
The situation is overwhelmingly unfavorable on this side.
Even if they maintain the status quo, sentries who sensed strange signs will arrive here.
If that happens, the escape plan is likely to fail.
Priest Nernim seemed to know this as well, so our eyes met.
He whispered right away.
“I will draw your attention. Run right away.”
It was meant to be bait.
His determination was evident.
“… Ha, but then I’ll have to go out alone.”
“You can’t both go out.”
“… Teacher.”
“When you go to the promised place, there will be a transportation book prepared. If you follow him, you will be able to get out of Magdalena safely.”
After those words, a dark aura surged around him.
There was a distinctly different air flow from before.
The moment when Ronin and Gina turned their gaze to Ner-sama’s change.
Darkness spread.
Also, the darkness radiated like a bright light.
Bright darkness was a contradictory existence, but it was enough to block Ronin and Gina’s vision.
“Go.”
Taking advantage of that gap, I started running.
I ran with all my strength, even the strength I had been suckling.
I passed them so easily and left the aisle.
I was the only one who went out.
* * *
It was the first time that he had left the main body of sexual aegyo by himself.
The ‘fairy tale’ that Ner-nim gave me was not resolved until I left the Seongaekyo main body.
People around me looked at me strangely when I suddenly appeared, but what is important now is not that gaze.
I have to go to the meeting place the teacher said.
Only then will you be safe.
I ran without a chance to enjoy the freedom I finally had.
His breath rose to the top of his neck at any moment, but he did not stop.
Continued to run
Even if it’s too late, they might come after you.
“Haha.”
The hot breath was quickly cooled by the cold air.
Winter nights are cold.
I could feel the chill even though I was wearing thick clothes.
“… Why did it happen like this?”
It was a half-successful escape.
Because Ner’s priest couldn’t come out with us.
How is the teacher
Just thinking about it makes me feel like a lump of iron has landed in my chest.
I remember the words I had with him.
“… Damn it.”
Looking at the map that Priest Nernim gave me at the last moment, I headed for the ‘Courier’.
It bothered me that I had to go through the dark alleys, but the only thing I could trust now was the arrangement he left behind.
The moment I entered the alley, I felt someone watching me.
I tried hard to stay away.
But it was a tenacious gaze.
Bubbly.
Footsteps followed.
I ignored it and moved my feet busily, but since I wasn’t very good physically, I was quickly caught up.
Pug.
As I was moving forward, I hit my head.
Looking up, I saw several tall men.
“Why did the pretty nun come to such a shabby place?”
They were men with a bad impression.
Even if things were twisted, I thought they were tightly twisted.
“… Can you let me pass?”
“You’re going somewhere in a hurry, and seeing as before, you seem to have a lot of time.”
They were men who couldn’t get out of the way.
The wrist was caught.
It was a strong grip.
“… Let go of this.”
“You want me to put this down?”
“It’s because your hands are fucking dirty, you dirty bastard.”
“Wouldn’t it be clean if the noble nun touched me?”
I was dragged away without even a slight resistance.
I felt helpless.
If it was sent in a novel, would it give you a special ability?
What’s this.
Getting hit by an extra?
“Let go, let go of this!”
Despite my defiance, they only giggle.
It was a really nasty noise.
“Even if you want to let go. I mean, we got a request too.”
“It was a request to find the nun who had run away, maybe?”
“They say you’ll be wandering around the slums, but that’s true.”
Judging from their words, it seemed that someone had instigated them.
I suddenly remembered Ronin’s words.
‘I was always watching. That petty hope, that shoddy plan, everything.’
If you knew everything
I don’t think it would be strange to place hired personnel here.
I looked at them with a desperate expression.
“Otherwise, make it work quickly.”
“Ah, the one the priest gave you?”
“Yes. It’s a prickly head.”
“You’re a smart kid, what grade are you sharing?”
After whispering something among themselves, they pressed a button on a sphere.
Then, a certain image appeared like a hologram.
It was something that reminded me of a projector.
Why is something like that in the hands of bullies?
– Did you find it?
It was Ronin’s voice.
“I did find it, but it’s okay to do what you promised, right?”
– Yes, whether or not. It’s just a conversation that I couldn’t finish.
“Sure.”
… I didn’t expect to see a civilization capable of making video calls in the Middle Ages.
I saw the ronin being projected with both arms bound.
– Looks like you arrived well.
I asked in a stiff tone.
“… You. How did you know where I was?”
-Wouldn’t there be something more curious than that now?
“…”
– Oh, ignoring it wouldn’t be a good idea.
The Ronin priest shook something.
His head was spinning.
It wasn’t just ‘something’.
It was a human head.
That’s the head of a familiar person.
“… No.”
– Was the hope that you tasted for a moment sweet? I hope you were sweet.
He was shaking Lord Ner’s head.
Like a toy.
“No.”
– The way back will be a little rough. I told them to do as they please. I hope you can think of it as a small punishment for breaking my word.
“No, no, no, no.”
My relationship with him was bizarre.
Because in the beginning, they were victims and perpetrators.
He was a weak, odd bond.
… He was a man you could rely on though.
He’s dead
Because of me.
“Ah, ah, ah, aaaaa!”
A sound came out.
There were screams, sobs, and sighs.
How was it made?
“Why, why did you kill me!”
-You have to kill him so you don’t suffer?
It was for a terrible reason.
