Chapter 142 – Academy Vacation Is Too Busy (6)
Lucid dream
A dream that you dream while you are aware that you are dreaming.
A phenomenon that some people experience every day, but others cannot experience in their lifetime.
Estelle Black Dahlia was the latter.
‘…?’
So, although this was her first lucid dream, Estelle knew in an instant that she was dreaming.
… That’s because he was standing on his own two legs.
‘… Why?’
It was a strange thing.
Until now, when I was receiving treatment from monk Ian and Yuuri, I never once had a dream.
A whole day had passed by the time I woke up, to the point where it was appropriate to say I was sleeping like I was dead.
But why did I suddenly start dreaming today?
No, this wasn’t what I was really curious about.
Why am I dreaming like this?
“Haa!♥… Ugh.!… Ugh!♥… Ugh. Ian!♥… Ian!♥”
Monk Yuris, clutching the bedsheets torn, let out an animal-like groan.
Sloshing-! Sloshing-!
And every time, two huge lumps of flesh shook back and forth.
‘…’
Can I really call the chest attached to Monk Yuris and my chest a chest?
I glanced down to see that it was a size better suited to a cow than a human, but my chest was still flat.
Squeak-! Squeak-!
“… Ha!… Tell!”
Ian grabs Monk Yuris’s waist and slams his back again and again.
In my dream, I was watching Ian and Monk Yuly form a relationship.
‘Ha…’
I couldn’t help but laugh out loud due to the sense of self-destruction.
How insignificant do you think of yourself that you can’t be with the man you love even in your dreams?
It was ridiculous.
Still, if it had ended here, it would have been bitter but understandable.
However, the more you look at their actions, the more
‘Estelle’
I could clearly feel how twisted the Iranian people had become.
“… Estelle…!”
“Heh.♥Huh!♥… I-Ian!♥”
The sight of Ian desperately shaking his waist while calling my name…
It was as if he was thinking of me and using Monk Yury as an outlet for his sexual desires.
‘… Why me.’
How did I become so twisted?
Because your parents died in a carriage accident? Because my uncle was murdered by someone? Or, is it because the lower part of my body is paralyzed?
‘… I’m still just looking for excuses.’
Every human being lives with his or her own misfortune.
If you look around the world, there will definitely be people who are much more unfortunate than me.
But are they really as twisted as me?
‘… I have been a twisted person since I was born.’
If you were to say this to Frederica, she would never say that.
But the Of her childhood that Frederica knew
‘Estelle’
Is ‘
‘Happy family’
Thanks to her shell, she could barely pretend to be a normal human being.
Now that the skin has been peeled off, it has rotted ugly
‘Estelle Black Dahlia’
It just appeared.
The proof was this dream.
“Hmm…!♥… Bwa.!… Wow…♥”
“I’m cumming… Estelle.”
“Huh… Huh!♥… Cum… Please me…♥, Estel… In my pussy!♥… Cum… Please me!♥”
I feel disgusted at the fact that I am such a twisted human being.
Ian thinks of me in front of Monk Yuris, and Monk Yuris imitates me and fawns over Ian.
To dream such an obscene dream about two people who worked harder than anyone else to treat me was an unforgivable act.
‘… Ian.’
How great it would be if it were me who was there instead of Monk Yuris.
I don’t have to feel anything.
Just being connected to Ian, being used by him, and being able to make him happy would have been enough to make me happy.
‘Ha…’
The ridicule flows out again.
It is arrogance to expect something like that from Ian.
More than Monk Yuris, more than Eveline, more than Frederica…
How can I, who am no better than the women around Ian, be loved by Ian?
∴Do you want to be loved?∴
At that time, I heard someone’s voice.
∴ Then say you want it. Then I will make everything happen.∴
It was a voice I felt I had heard before.
∴You just have to say it. Then I’ll make Ian crave you, not Juris. The pleasure that Juris feels now will also be yours.∴
‘…’
Monk Yuris had an ecstatic face that any woman could recognize.
∴Yes, not only Juris, but Evelyn, Frederica… And anyone else, I will get rid of everything that prevents you and Ian from becoming one. So say you want it.∴
Then the world of the dream changed, and a new future appeared.
“… Ian.”
It was a future with Ian.
Ian was by my side, smiling only at me, looking only at me, touching only me, and using me.
“Ah…”
Even if it’s just a dream, it’s such a sweet temptation.
No, it was just a dream, so it was a sweet temptation that made me think that I could do whatever I wanted.
But…
‘… No need.’
I waved my hand and shattered the illusion that appeared before me.
“Huh…!♥… Huh.!… Ian♥”
Then my ugly dream reappeared.
This is fine.
I
‘Twisted Man’
Because I knew this better than anyone else.
Yes, even if I’m twisted
‘Human’
It was.
‘Ian, Evelyn, Monk Yuris, and Frederica are all precious people to me.’
I have already hurt precious people several times.
So even if it was just a dream, I couldn’t hurt my precious people again.
As I felt the world of my dreams becoming dark, I made a promise to myself.
‘… Ian.’
Even if it is a love that cannot be formed even in a dream…
I will continue to love you.
****
“… Ian?”
“Uh, are you awake? How are you feeling? Estelle.”
When I opened my eyes, Ian was holding my hand as usual.
“… Yeah, it’s okay.”
“If that’s the case, I’m glad. “I was worried because I woke up a little late today.”
“… I’m sorry.”
“No, I’m not apologizing. “Then shall we check it right away?”
“… Okay, let’s do it right away.”
“Then I’ll go out for a while. “Call me when you’re done.”
“… Yes, Ian.”
Clap─
As Ian left the visit, Monk Yuris with a kind smile approached me.
“Please start whenever you are ready!”
“… Yes. Lord Yuris.”
Slurp- Slurp-
I slowly pulled down my pajama pants and was in panties.
It was an act of checking to what extent the body’s senses had returned.
… Of course, I know this is included in the treatment, but it was embarrassing to show Ian in my underwear, so I proceeded with confirming this with Monk Yuris.
“… I’ll start.”
“Yes! Please start!”
“… Whew.”
A long sigh escaped from the tension.
With the last treatment, I regained sensation just above the clitoris.
So, if this treatment is successful, there will definitely be sensation in the clitoris.
Exciting- Exciting-
‘… What if it’s really… Sensitive? ‘You must never make a sound.’
When my finger touches the clitoris with a little anticipation and excitement…
“… Huh?”
“Why, why are you like this, Miss Estelle? “Maybe it’s too sensitive?”
“… No. “I don’t feel anything.”
There was no feeling.
I tried touching it a little harder just in case, but I couldn’t feel it at all.
“Yes? Well, that can’t be true… This time… The healing went better than ever? “Ho, maybe I’m not good at touching things?”
“…”
I quietly shook my head at Master Yuris words.
Even if I didn’t know anything else, I was confident in touching the clitoris.
That’s because I touched my clitoris every morning and hoped that the feeling would come back.
“Ugh…! That can’t be possible… Ah! “Miss Estelle, please excuse me for a moment!”
“.?”
At the same time as he said that, Master Yuri slipped his hand inside my panties with very skillful movements.
Kuuk-! Kuuk-!
“How are you? Even if I pinch you like this, do you still feel it?”
“… Yes.”
“Okay then, this is it! Don’t you have this too?”
Squeak─
I could hear the sound of water, but I still couldn’t feel anything.
“… Yes, I can’t feel anything.”
“Ah… Sigh… Uh… Sorry… Sorry. “Of course… I thought it would succeed… I’m… Sorry…”
Upon hearing that he had no feeling, Monk Yuris’ eyes filled with tears, and he looked like he was about to burst into tears.
“… No. Are you okay? “We were able to get it back at least to this extent thanks to the efforts of Master Yuris and Ian.”
“Well, but… The reason it suddenly… Doesn’t work out… Is that we…”
“… It’s really okay. Lord Yuris.”
Yes, it was perfect.
In the past, I would have despaired again, but there was no need to do so anymore.
Of course, it is unfortunate that the treatment did not work.
However, I was able to accept this positively as I thought it would be an excuse to stay with Ian a little longer.
“… Then Ian will be waiting for you, so let’s go outside.”
“… Okay… Yes… Miss Estelle… I will.”
Monk Yuri trudged toward the door with his shoulders slumped, and I lifted my legs up onto the floor to get into the wheelchair.
Tuk─!
“Oh?”
“Why are you doing this! “Miss Estelle, is there something wrong with your body?”
“… Oh, no… I… That…”
I’m afraid that I may have felt wrong.
Kuuk─
But it still remains to say that it felt wrong.
“… That… So…”
For some reason, my voice is shaking, and I can’t speak properly.
I held on to Monk Yury’s collar tightly and slowly opened my mouth like a child learning to speak for the first time.
“I… I can feel it.”
It was unfamiliar and strange because it was the first time I felt it in a very long time, but it was definitely a feeling.
“Yes?”
“I can feel… A feeling… In the soles of my feet.!… Ah…!… Ha!… Ah!… Aaaaa!… Kkkk! !”
It was the sensation of cold, hard marble, but Estelle, who felt warmer than anything else, grabbed Juris and burst into tears.
