Chapter 15 – Episode 15. Delusion
‘Okay, with this, the preparations are over.’
Sitting on her bed, Verdia was trying to control her heart while facing Dave who was staring at her with puzzled eyes.
A man who is convulsing in his head as if he wants to look away, but still stands with his face blushing as if he can’t bear to look away.
This was the reaction Verdia had expected.
Because she knew how she looked to others.
Occasionally, when taking off the armor and training at the parade ground, or attending a party wearing a dress for official reasons, all the men would make that expression.
The difference is that they watch them from a distance, and this man calls himself into the bedroom?
‘I’m not used to acting, but looking at things like this, it seems to work well.’
In the first place, I tend to participate in a lot of drinking parties. But even though he’s been drinking all night, he’s never been sober.
In other words, the real purpose of creating this place is not to get him drunk and bring out his true feelings, but to pretend to be drunk and show his defenselessness.
‘I’ll be able to confirm my true intentions with this.’
If a drunk woman is undressing defenselessly, a man will surely not be interested.
If he puts a hand on himself here, he will surely do the same to Celica.
“… It’s hot.”
As much as I had already made up my mind for it, I had no hesitation in taking off the last piece of cloth that I had hidden myself in.
Although he has no experience, he has lived as a believer and a warrior. As much as she had the mission of assisting the hero, Verdia did not place much importance on maintaining her chastity.
I don’t really want to do it, but if necessary, I won’t hesitate…
-Suddenly.
That’s how she took off her slow touch, even her underwear, and appeared in front of Dave with her naked body without a single thread on her.
The moment your white skin glows red from the lantern that lights up the room.
“B-Mr. Verdia, something like this…”
“You can do whatever you want.”
It may seem strange to suddenly change the subject without going through the process, but on the surface, it would seem that it is not very incomprehensible to the other party.
Since he was drunk in the first place, he would think that no matter what he did, it would not be strange.
Even if there is something wrong, the opportunity to touch the body has arrived, but what does the process of understanding matter?
“Because I won’t resist and stay calm.”
Rather, if you want to understand your true heart, it might be better to push it like this. Verdia, lying on her back from him.
After that, she just waited in silence for the moment when he would lay his hand on her.
I had confidence. Because so far, many men have imagined their own naked body and relieving their sexual desire.
It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been there. Rather, since we haven’t met for a while, we don’t consider a public relationship, so it’s possible to touch this defenseless appearance more boldly.
So there is nothing to shy away from.
If this man can’t stand his lust and lays his hand on him, then…
‘… After that?’
Immediately after the accident that followed.
Verdia made her suddenly realize that she hadn’t thought about it after that.
Let’s say you succeed in taking off her clothes and seducing him to bring out his dark heart.
If so, should she change her attitude right away, saying that she knew it would be like this after that?
If not right away, to what extent do you condone the act?
How far can the action go?
‘No, wait.’
Things I didn’t consider when I first planned it.
When she recalled that part after lying in bed, Verdia realized that she had overlooked several facts.
‘If a drunk woman is in front of a man naked, isn’t it normal for a man to reach out her hand to it?
Yes, it is natural for a man to want to hug a woman.
Even if she had abandoned her life as a woman, Verdia had been the object of someone’s lust, and she knew that fact very well.
So it might not be strange if he lays hands on him here. Rather, it is more strange not to touch him.
‘For a moment… Then, am I just trying to induce a natural phenomenon for men, not a proper judgment?’
Of course, that may not be a problem in considering plans for her future.
Whatever it is, the bottom line is that Celica, who has no tolerance for her sex, may lay her hands on her. If you keep that possibility in mind, you should seriously consider expelling him from the party at the opportunity.
However, if the means in the process of confirming it are too radical…
In fact, isn’t it just to make a severe person into a criminal and drive him out?
‘No, I don’t want to make Dave a criminal.’
Just to decide whether or not to reach out to Celica, who just woke up about her sexuality…
But even that, maybe there could have been a better way.
‘Oops, I didn’t care about this.’
To think that having no dating experience with a man comes as an ambush at a time like this.
Even after realizing that fact, Verdia couldn’t bear to move from her seat.
In fact, the current self showed a defenseless appearance in front of a man in the wrong way. He won’t be able to hold him accountable no matter what happens to him after that.
On the contrary, it was not because he was drunk, but because he showed himself sober.
It was possible to hide that kind of feeling and come out as a bad boy, but Verdia couldn’t bear to act that way toward this man.
The first impression wasn’t bad, and more than anything else, it was the guy Celica liked.
It’s just that she notices Celica’s like that and is worried that he won’t cross her line, so she’s just like that, and she treats him as a human being.
‘If that happens, what should I do?’
If he admits he made a mistake, should he just ignore it now? Or an apology?
Or else…
Just keep going like this?
-Brush.
At that moment, the sound of the cloth being swept was heard.
I don’t know what kind of noise it is, but it must have been Dave.
Even after realizing that, Verdia couldn’t bear to say or act. Just frozen and waiting for what he will do next.
‘I really…’
The moment when even the accident came to a standstill due to a mistake about unfamiliar work. He thought all he could do was follow the mood afterward.
“… You must be tired.”
Instead of touching Verdia, Dave only carefully covered her body with a blanket.
“Uh?”
A moment of exclamation at an unexpected action. However, Verdia couldn’t bear to look back at his body because of the strength she felt through the blanket.
He couldn’t shake that hand, but he could sense that the other side didn’t want that.
“I’m tired, I mean…”
“Yes, you must be tired. If Mr. Verdia was sober, he wouldn’t do something like this…”
“…”
“Yes, yes, so I think you’d better get some sleep today.”
Dave speaks as if driving a wedge into the answer that followed. After that, Dave, who had stepped back from him, hurriedly moved his feet toward the exit of the inn room.
Like running away.
“Then, excuse me. See you tomorrow!”
Dave left the seat after leaving a greeting in such a hurry. It wasn’t until that time that Verdia stood up and stared at the spot where Dave had left.
The entrance where only silence circulates with the door firmly locked. Verdia, who was staring at the empty scene, quickly grasped the situation and smiled wryly.
“Oh yeah. Embarrassed, is it?”
Anyway, he must have been embarrassed when the person who scared him at the first meeting suddenly took off his clothes and seduced him.
On the one hand, I would have felt fear. That’s why the thought of wanting to get out of the seat while sleeping with his hand must have been stronger.
‘But even so, I could have touched it.’
Even if I touched it, it was a situation where I couldn’t even respond like this on my side. Could it be that she is not attractive as a woman to herself?
No, the look in her eyes when she first showed her naked body was no different from the men she’d met before.
He must have felt that way himself.
Even so, the fact that she didn’t touch it was that she just endured it and went over it.
It meant that he was a man who knew how to control his own desires, unlike the ‘obvious men’ he had faced all along.
“… Misunderstanding.”
That’s probably why he escaped as if he were running away.
I was worried that I might not be able to withstand my desire and cross the line here.
“I was sorry.”
The moment I realized that, I felt guilt welling up in my heart.
No, I had to.
-Thump, pound.
For some reason, even though the situation was over, the pounding in her chest instead of fading away was growing.
Isn’t it strange? He didn’t do the act himself, on the contrary, he withdrew from this position.
‘Maybe he wasn’t that kind of person.’
-Suddenly.
Verdia covers her with a blanket to calm her mind.
As Dave said, his mind was tired, but the thoughts running through his head were still trying to disturb his drowsiness.
‘… If.’
Maybe even one in a million.
About what would have happened when he was just like the common men.
‘After that, what would have happened if Dave hadn’t backed down?’
Obviously would have Because this happened because of his own mistake. I couldn’t stop him in the middle, and I might have continued my actions until the end as he led.
I have kept…
No, I’m not going to keep it.
Still, she loses something important as a woman insignificantly.
‘I said it hurt at first.’
As she imagined that moment, Verdia’s hand began to move towards her vagina.
Did she say at first that her flesh would tear and bleed?
Some said that the pain was as if her organs had been stabbed with a knife, and to alleviate the pain, they said that it had to be soaked first.
When you feel light foreplay that stimulates your senses, her body itself changes into a comfortable state to enter…
‘I’ll be touching every part of my body for that.’
She is herself who has always led the situation on the battlefield, but since she doesn’t know anything on her bed, she will have no choice but to let the opponent do what she wants.
This body that has been trained all the time without mercy…
‘Even the chest.’
When that time comes, even this chest, which has been regarded as an obstacle to swinging the sword, will be used as a toy for him.
‘If you listen to the stories of prostitutes, they said that there are also acts that are done between teeth.’
For the purpose of arousing ejaculation by placing a man’s object on top of two lumps of fat and shaking it up and down…
Sometimes, the protrusion that grew out of the center was touched, and it would have overlapped or licked the object with its own mouth.
The liquid that erupts at the end will contaminate my body mercilessly.
After laying the defiled body on the bed, you will prepare for the next action.
‘How should I do my first act?’
Will we just bump into each other’s desires without saying anything, or will we whisper our love for each other while looking at each other…
No, maybe it will be done from behind.
With the upper body lying on the bed, helplessly watching the other person’s object penetrate one’s body.
How would a person looking at my back feel like that?
Not the face and chest, but the back and hips…
What you feel while watching it may be closer to a sense of superiority that has a psychological edge rather than pure sexual desire.
The feeling of conquest that he could put this woman under her and sleep with her at will.
With the elasticity derived from that, the movement of the waist is accelerated, and he, who can only be swept away by the situation, will accept such sadism at will and struggle to breathe like a beast.
The liquid that spewed out at the end might stain my belongings to the point where even the evidence of purity is blurred.
Nasty, and vulgar…
Will it be possible for a person who has been trampled on so unilaterally to maintain his true self?
“… It’s okay.”
As she imagined it, a slight spasm occurred in her body as she touched her genitals.
Even masturbation was clumsy enough to touch the entrance, but it had been a while since my body was burning up just by imagining it.
The moment when you feel that even a little stimulation is amplified into pleasure.
“Uh, ha…”
The power to leave the body with the realization that he had committed it.
The aftertaste lingered on her, but Verdia nevertheless bit her teeth and withdrew her fingers, which were about to move toward her vagina again.
Yes, once is enough to satisfy the body heated up by physiological phenomena. I just thought about it and prepared to cover my sweaty body with a blanket.
However, even if I maintained my reason, I couldn’t completely erase even the bitterness in a corner of my heart.
‘The men…’
‘Do guys really want to do that with me…’
She is a chaste woman who has not yet known a man.
However, the feelings that bloomed in her heart could surely be called longing.
