Chapter 120 – Mindset (13)
15. Mindset (13)
‘And… I’ll really fall behind.’
It was not an exaggeration.
The female Su-in in heat was literally an ejaculation machine. At least because she’s a bard, she’s a ‘rational’ prisoner, so she’s only at this level?
The beastly copulation that started before dinner continued until around midnight without a single moment of rest. She guessed it, and it took half a day.
“Oh my waist…”
I washed Illumina, who had passed out, and washed my body. She wanted to give up and just lie down when the dried up semen all over her body and the cum that kept dripping from her cunt kept washing away, but there was work to be done. She pulled on her sore shoes, and instead of the innkeeper, she went to the lobby and asked the dozing staff member to go to another room where her colleagues were staying. Drinks were also included.
‘I shouldn’t have slept.’
Fortunately, it was a bit late, but a mumbling sound could be heard from inside the room.
Smart-
“Kaya. Shay. Are you sleeping?”
A small voice from inside the door cut off. I waited, sure that I heard my words, and soon the door opened.
It was Shay.
“Captain.”
“Hmm. May I come in?”
“… Please.”
Seeing the bottle in my hand, Shay was puzzled but moved away from her body. Kaya was standing at the side of the bed. Judging by her disheveled hair, slightly closed eyes, and the shape of the blanket, she seemed to be on the verge of going to bed.
It was the worst thing that prevented me from even getting a good night’s sleep on the subject of being forced out of the room by half force, but what I was about to say now seemed to have to be done now. She couldn’t help it.
Without saying a word, she sat down in a chair and opened the bottle. Strong alcohol assaulted her nose with a pont-sound. Her tears were about to tingle. She closed her eyes tightly and blew the bottle.
‘Sheck.’
Fuck you. It was hot and had no taste. Kaya, who sat across from her, and Shay, who was perched on the bed nearby since there were only two chairs, stared at me.
“Whoa… I have something to say.”
“I will listen.”
“Before that, could you guys pass me the necklace?”
“A necklace, you mean?”
“Okay. Before I speak, I want to swear to the two goddesses.”
Just to spit out excuses for holding Illumina?
No matter how much I tried to convince him, it wasn’t.
They were puzzled but handed me the necklace without saying a word. The two necklaces were warm, perhaps due to body heat. I swore with Raella-sama in my right hand and Justitia-sama in my left.
“I swear to Lady Raella and Justitia that there will be no lies in what I am saying from now on. If you break your oath, I will give you one eye.”
“Leader!”
“Captain!”
Even after I said it, I felt sorry. It seemed that he spoke a little louder while drunk. But already the green and silver radiance flickered briefly. The oath was accepted. The goddesses will also pay more attention to this place. It was irreversible.
“How are you? I’m not going to lie anyway.”
“What the hell… Ah. No way.”
“Yes? What is it? Yes?”
I put the necklace down on the table. They were still looking at me.
“I have a confession to make. These are things I’ve never said before. I wanted to say it, but I was looking for the right timing. It’s kind of like that now. Ah, well, not one or two, but… First of all yes My name is Hendrick, but I am not Hendrick.”
“Yes? What does that mean?”
“My original name is Eugene. Han Eugene. The name of this body is Hendrick.”
Her mouth, which hesitated until right before speaking, opened up more easily than expected with a sip of poisoned wine and a single oath.
“For unknown reasons, only the soul is a stranger brought here. To be more precise, a person from another world.”
“… Yes?”
**
Kaya and Shay felt a little annoyed and tired until Hendrick, who had just washed and had wet hair, entered the room. He wanted to forget everything now and fall into a deep sleep, but he tried to calm his emotions down, because the person who made his heart shake burst in before he went to sleep. Suddenly, what is alcohol?
But when he swore to Rosario with a serious face in the world, and started to make a confession.
There was no more irritation and tiredness left.
‘Eugene… That’s what you mean.’
‘Captain? Eugene? Earth? The Long Terror? Fear? Dungeon? Characteristic?’
His own ears are not wrong. Maybe because of the alcohol, the pronunciation was a bit twisted, but it wasn’t that Hendrick’s mouth and tongue were wrong. It’s obviously a word, but I didn’t understand it well. Hendrick, who continued to list unknown words, suddenly felt unfamiliar. It seemed that there was a wall between them.
“… But anyway, the goal is the same. Breaking through the dungeon to the end, the base of that goal was added that my survival depended on it. To do that, I wanted to recruit the best teammates from the beginning and go all the way, in order to break through without dying if possible.”
A game called The Long Terror, missions, battles, features, classes, difficulty.
“Which is not luck, Kaya, I was very lucky to meet you. If there is even one person in front of Kaya… No.”
“Anyone?”
“… If there had been even one more outstanding hero, there might not have been a relationship like this. If it wasn’t for Shay’s characteristic of being a genius, I might have thought a lot about it.”
Skill, mentality, various corrections.
“If I had to choose between simply going back there or staying with you, I would choose the latter without hesitation. But that’s something I can enjoy if I live, and it also matches Shay’s goal.”
The greatest fear. Plural.
“I’m not sure who dropped me here. I can say that I am lucky to have met you because I came here, but my teeth tremble when I think of the physical and mental pain I had to go through. I want to break through the dungeon without anyone dying. In the end, I want to have a happy ending with you guys.”
Experience and request.
“It’s an indirect form, but I think I know more about dungeons than anyone in Salem. Of course, there are many variables in battle and a lot of luck factors apply, but I think there have been times when I have overcome a crisis with my judgment.”
Cestia, Ares, and Illumina.
“I came to a conclusion after going through the Bestia corruption incident, the Ar incident, and other battles. I wish the fourth hero was a healing nun like Cestia or she was a bard. However, Cestia was unable to join for various reasons, and she thought it would be difficult to find a decent healing nun in a situation where many people related to the Order were hurt. So she didn’t want to miss out on Illumina, which she was lucky to find thanks to Arduk. What… I refused in the middle and many words came and went, but in the end, the hurt you guys didn’t change. It’s a bit creepy, once I’m persuaded, you guys will understand me, eventually accept me, Illumina will be close just like you two are close friends… That’s what you thought Not even funny.”
Hendrick’s eyes were still intact.
Only the truth.
“So, originally, he recruited the fourth hero and revealed everything he was going to say at the moment when he thought deep trust was built.”
“Then why only the two of us?”
“First, I’m sorry about Illumina, but she isn’t as good as you guys yet. Second, she is not going to confess to her now unless ‘unanimity’ is reached. And today’s incident will be dismissed as an accidental happening due to heat, and will be released.”
Hendrick said that this is the end of the story, and he let out a deep sigh as if feeling relieved. He tilted the bottle, but when he finished drinking, not a single drop came out. He clicked his tongue Somehow, I thought the smell of alcohol was stronger. His face seems to be even redder than before.
“Sorry. I’m sorry for being an insignificant person. I’m sorry for being a bad guy who hurt your heart. Still, I really wanted to talk about it now. When I wake up, if it’s you guys… I thought you would suppress your emotions and just follow my words. He was upset because of me, but it’s even worse for him to bend his opinion. So I wanted to expose everything before that. If there’s anything you’d like to ask, feel free to ask. I’ll answer everything except what I don’t know.”
After that, Hendrick clasped his hands together and bowed his head.
‘How…’
**
Committed
I vomited up almost everything except the really useless stuff. Throughout the conversation, Kaya and Shay looked blank. There was little to no reaction. 이 새끼가 딴년이랑 떡치고 와서는, 잠자는 것도 방해하고 술 쳐먹고 뭔 개소릴 씨부리냐는 것처럼 보이기도 했다.
‘Regret… Does not exist.’
I had a feeling it was related to the situation, but I was going to talk about it anyway. I was just carrying out what I had decided to do when sleeping in a tent with Kaya a few days earlier.
What they will think of me, and what the fate of our warriors will be, is out of my hands now.
My eyes were fine. It was natural. Because there was no lie. So it seemed more difficult for them to accept. I mean it sounds like bullshit, but it’s not bullshit.
I drank strong alcohol on an empty stomach, so my stomach was sore and my throat burned. Fatigue set in suddenly. I wanted to drink cold water and lie down on the bed in front of me.
Silence haunted me. I wish I could ask you something. I wish I could vomit any emotions. I was so tired.
‘No, I can’t sleep.’
Bit off his tongue. I bit harder than I intended and it was fucking painful. It tasted slightly bloody.
“Eugene.”
“… Uh?”
When I was half asleep and feeling the bitter taste of blood, Kaya’s low voice drove away the sleepiness. I even broke the silence, but it was because of the title.
She called him Eugene, not Captain, not Hendrick. After hearing all the facts.
“Actually, there are some things that I still don’t quite understand. If you ask all of them and listen to the answer, the whole day will be leaking. So, for now, I will ask only the things I understand, and the most important of them.”
“… Okay.”
“Eugene, the goddesses guaranteed that everything you said was true, so there won’t be any need to cover up the truth. If it weren’t for that, I would have believed you.”
Kaya asked.
“Eugene, are you not going to give up going to the dungeon until the end? Even if you don’t clear the dungeon, it won’t affect your survival?”
“Don’t give up. Because it is no longer my goal.”
“Eugene, did you ever regret after recruiting us?”
“Doesn’t exist. Not even once.”
“Eugene, you… Are you serious? Me, Shay, Cestia, Ar, Illumina, and everything else. Battles and daily life. Didn’t you ever think that all of that was just the game you were talking about called The Long Terror?”
“I’m serious. I feel much more alive in the months that have rolled here than when I was on Earth. I was sick to death, and there were times when I almost died. Even if this is really just a world in the game… Even if I can’t go back forever. Even though I have used my game experience and knowledge, I have never dismissed what I am experiencing as a game.”
“… Eugene, you. If the.”
Kaya bit her lip. After chewing for a while until her lips bled, she finally asked what seemed to be the last question.
“If one of us dies, everything is settled, or if we have to leave out one. What would you like?”
“That’s it…”
I wondered what the heck to ask when I saw that, but it wasn’t as big as I thought. The tension melted away.
“I won’t die, and ‘we all’ will solve it. I don’t even want to imagine any other outcome.”
“…”
“Without you guys who made me a person who truly lives, there would be no meaning to living.”
