Suspiciously Close Siblings 196

Chapter 196 – Extraversion. Christmas Eve With My Brother (1)

After being confessed to by my brother, I was so happy every day.
At home, he grumbled a lot more than before and treated me like a little brother, but if I took even one step out of the front door, I could see hearts pouring out of those frightening eyes.
He’s very naughty and rough when he does naughty things about a topic that I’m obsessed with.
I think I fell for that puzzling charm.
It was so much fun to go on a date that was nothing special, and the photo of the two of us was so friendly that I wanted to use it as my phone wallpaper.
To the point where I involuntarily thought that I wish I could be this happy all the time.

But that stupid and simple idea collapsed just by seeing a classmate I wasn’t even close to.
No matter how much my oppa loves me, treats me like a girlfriend, does naughty things and lives together for the rest of my life, we are still siblings.
You can never get out of that frame of being connected by blood.
I didn’t know.
I knew it, but I pretended not to know it.
However, as long as I knew it, I couldn’t make it something I didn’t know.
I like Kim Ga-eul, who is smirking and thinks only of lewd things, but
Because I first liked my brother who was sincere and blunt in everything.
The relationship of lovers did not suit us.
We,

“⋯Please dirty it. At the word brother and sister.”

I loved you because we were siblings.
From within the flesh that connects my armpits to my chest, a feeling of guilt burst out and spread throughout my body.
My heart beats dangerously,
My whole body was burning hot as if I had a disease.
But curiously,
For the first time in my life,
It was thrilling.
Like winning a gamble.

“⋯.”

I removed my lips from my brother’s ear.
They even looked at each other’s pupils.
No words were needed.
There are things that can be conveyed even without words.
In words,
Because there are things I can’t tell you.

“⋯.”

An afternoon that has not yet been done.
Sitting on the bed in my brother’s room,
Clinging to the sitting brother’s body,
Slowly closing your eyes,
So my sister and brother,
He bit his lips sadly.

The bittersweet first kiss that I accepted after whining.
A deep deep kiss that makes you feel eager to eat me.
I thought I kissed my brother until I got sick of it.
It was so awkward today,
It was a bit sad,
Thanks to that, it was very sweet.

“P-H-Ap… I kissed my brother…”
“You’ve already done so many that I can’t count on my fingers.”
“I won’t count that because we didn’t do it as siblings.”

As soon as I removed the mucous membranes that had been intertwined for a while.
I went back to being a cute, mischievous little sister, teasing my older brother as usual.

“Again, I was taken away by my brother the first time.”
“I’ve never stolen?”
“Then… I gave it to my brother for the first time again. Hehe…”

Even if I think about it, I only pulled it too much when I was a girlfriend, so when I was her sister, I had to push it a little bit.
It’s the first and last love, so it wouldn’t be a pity if you tasted the popping taste instead of the bitter sweetness, right?
Because oppa tasted my body at will.
I will also taste the love I want with my brother.

“Kim Winter, loosen your ⋯legs.”
“No.”
“Didn’t you ask for it to be dirty?”
“Not yet. I want you to stay like this with your brother.”

Clinging close to her brother, he tied her legs around her waist and pulled her into a tight hug, ready to break her ribs.
Then, my brother teased me with my tongue, as if telling me to leave immediately.
⋯To a subject I’ve never kissed except for me.
Pretend you’re good at kissing.
I think it’s a very mean play to only target my weaknesses.

“Fuhap, ha… Oppa, I love kissing, really.”
“You are begging.”
“Did I not say anything?”
“Wouldn’t that mean you’re asking me to close my eyes while looking at you with that expression?”
“Oh, oppa, do you want to kiss your younger sister with that expression? Are you pervert?”
“⋯I don’t think why my sister is being so arrogant today. Can you teach me etiquette again?”
“There’s only a 3-year age difference, so don’t pretend you’re older.”
“Are you really going to attack me?”
“Eh, are you a real brother? Really? Are you going to attack your sister? Are you a close friend?”

And it’s very petty to try to attack your sister whenever you have a chance.
Ah, a finger inside the pajama pants…
I didn’t see all of my bare skin because I was hugging him, but my clothes were off enough to show my butt.
Then, as he exhaled heavily, he started growling again, trying to shove me into the bed right away.
⋯ Bee, already?
I came over too easily…

“That, brother. Really…?”
“Since you beg me to dirty it, I can’t help it.”
“It’s okay to touch, but yet…”
“Why. Come now?”

To be honest, my brother is a very serious person, so I thought he would bounce a few times even if I said something like this.
The other day, I just confessed with the thought of conveying my heart, but I rejected it several times.
It was the first time I showed my underwear to someone and I was so embarrassed.
⋯I thought that my older brother would only listen to me when I was that shy, so everything I prepared to show my true intentions was in vain.

“⋯Actually, I’m not done talking.”
“Do you still have something to say?”
“Yes.”

Seriously, it’s pervert.
Oppa, if you can have sex with me, that’s fine, right?
There is no worry that you feel when siblings commit incest, for sure.
It shouldn’t be like this.
You should know too.
How much did I think about choosing my brother?

“Yes, brother.”
“Tell me quickly. Before it hits you.”
“Okay, wait a minute, really.”
“Okay.”
“You said you would tell me why I fell in love with you. Before the year is over.”
“Uh.”
“Can you listen now?”
“I will listen.”
“It must be very long?”
“⋯If done within an hour.”
“Yes.”

If my brother wants to choose me, how much he must worry.

“⋯ Actually, I didn’t feel like you were my brother.”
“That’s a bit shocking.”
“Yeah, blunt. He’s also as tall as a distant man. Her face doesn’t match her age.”
“You’re cursing me for looking old, right now.”
“No no. ⋯Looked like an adult.”
“⋯Uh.”

I don’t remember my older brother from childhood.
Since my brother was in elementary school, he seemed much taller and more mature than me,
By the time he entered middle school, he had grown so much bigger than his mother that he couldn’t be seen outside as an adult.

“Because I don’t run into oppa except when I’m eating, or when I’m out of the shower and brushing my hair. It was like everyone else.”
“Because I was busy studying.”
“⋯I didn’t hate it though.”
“You don’t even care, why?”
“Because I always smelled like soap. ⋯To my brother.”

I don’t think I would have felt a rational favor for my brother if I had seen him play an immature fool often.
I don’t know if it was because I instinctively liked it or if it was because my brother looked like a grown-up, but I’m pretty sure I’m older.
Even when I read novels or dramas, I always liked the blunt but trustworthy and clean characters like my older brother.
“All my classmates say that their brother is dirty. Because he wasn’t my brother. I don’t even curse well.”
“Because her grandmother raised her that way. With you.”
“Huh. So I didn’t hate it.”
“I didn’t hate you either. ⋯Even if I didn’t know you would like it.”
“⋯I didn’t know I would fall in love with you either.”

I didn’t know it at the time, but now that I think about it, it’s strange that I don’t fall for you.
I wasn’t too good at it, and it wasn’t that I lacked anything.

“How did you do that?”
“Because I’ve never actually liked anyone.”
“⋯That’s fortunate.”
“I’ve never had a heartbeat before.”
“You’re talking about me, right?”
“Do I have to ask about that? You’re breaking the mood, idiot.”

The ideal type that fits my level.
Of course, being a real older brother is a stumbling block, but there are some people who only get along better when there is a stumbling block, right?
I am also of that kind.

“I don’t think much of it when I see celebrities or idols on TV.”
“Uh.”
“I don’t know if it was because I went to an all-girls’ high school… But I didn’t think anything of it when I saw a good-looking person.”

I don’t think this person is my prince.
Before that, I don’t even think I need a prince.
All I needed was one thing.

“⋯Why?”
“Are you people you don’t know? What is your personality like, what is your voice like, how do you live at home. Nothing.”
“Uh.”
“⋯Because my brother knew. Entire.”

Someone who can understand me

“So you fell in love with me?”
“Oh, not like that. It just… Means I didn’t hear anything about people I didn’t know.”

Someone who can accept my weaknesses and strengths without hesitation.
You can understand that I am very selfish,
I can easily get over being a bit of a troublesome woman,
I wanted a love that could risk my life only to understand me.
If you ask me why, I don’t know.
It could be because my mom divorced my dad, or it could just be because I watched too many movies or dramas.
Maybe if my brother wasn’t by my side, I might have lived a normal life, dated normally, broke up, and continued only snobbish love.

“The thing that makes me excited about my brother… Is the first time after watching my brother’s college entrance exam.”

However, everything was twisted because of that utopia that had not faded until now.

“Is it because I bought you a cell phone for your birthday?”
“I wasn’t excited at the time. It was just embarrassing and embarrassing.”
“Why. You can buy your brother a phone.”
“Someone I’m not close with suddenly says that, of course it’s burdensome.”
“Okay. It’s my fault.”
“⋯Anyway, the first time I saw you crying was when I started to be conscious.”

That voice that sobbed sadly, was the culprit who made me like this.
⋯It felt really strange to see a person who was always sincere and mature fall apart.
I want to be understood, so I want to understand others.

“When did you see me cry?”
“You cried after taking the CSAT.”
“⋯Did you see it?”

If my brother had done well in the CSAT and lived a life of arrogance, I would have been shaken by his true intentions someday.

“It’s the next room, but I can hear everything.”
“It’s a bit embarrassing.”
“Ah, why are you ashamed of your family?”

Is there anyone who doesn’t cry?

“If you’ve heard it, shouldn’t you have read it a little more?”
“I was really wondering if that was the case. ⋯Because I’m shy.”

My brother must have cried someday,

“You just said what your family members are ashamed of.”
“At that time, my brother wasn’t a family member, he was a complete stranger. I was wondering if we could talk once a week or not.”
“⋯That’s right.”

You would have shown me crying

“I didn’t think you would cry.”
“I am a human too.”
“Huh. So… I realized for the first time that this person is my brother.”

I was worried and worried, so I kept looking at you,

“Why?”
“I felt bad when I saw that my brother was having a hard time. Me too.”

My brother must have overcome those tears and grew up strangely, and seduced his little sister.
Without even knowing it.
Fool.

“Even if we aren’t close, we are family…”

He just cried a little early and seduced me early.

“Why did someone who felt like family like me?”
“So I tried to be considerate of you too…”

What I love about my brother
Maybe it was a set thing since we were born as siblings.

“Suddenly be nice to me. Buy me a gift When you see me, you smile I’m trying to take you all over the place keep talking ⋯What are you saying to me?”

I said it all over the place,
I just wanted to love someone who understands me well.
Because I just wanted to have a supreme and pure love that only appears in movies.
⋯Just.
I wanted to.
Why bad?
⋯ I can’t help it if it’s bad.
Even if it’s bad, I have no intention of giving up.