Chapter 92 – Episode 92
“Kill yourself.”
“Yes?”
It’s the first time I’ve heard it since I was born.
‘Self-harm? Did I just hear wrong?’
Perhaps because I was making an idiotic expression, Doin hit my head again with a loud noise. As I was clutching the back of my head and crying, the monk said.
“I have to harm myself. How long am I going to break your wrist?”
“…”
Okay. I know what you mean. This means to train your body by repeatedly breaking and hardening the blue dots and then removing them. But is it as easy as it sounds…
Although I have never tried to harm myself, in the past, it was popular to hang oneself as a way to experience death. When I think about it now, it was a really ridiculous trend.
The empty-headed guys sitting in the back of the school grabbed their necks, held their breath, and did that shit for about two minutes. Then, when his friends next to him woke him up, he would foam at the mouth and threaten them by saying that he had just seen hell.
So I followed along. But there is no such thing. First, fear comes first and you quickly withdraw your hand.
Humans have an instinct for self-defense. It is designed so that only people who have no will to live can commit self-harm or suicide. Looking at it that way, I think that the prisoners and spies in the movie who bite their tongues to avoid leaking confidential information are people with an incredibly strong mentality.
‘But you’re asking me to do that now?’
This Taoist… No, I think the old man is out of his mind right now.
As I remained silent, the Taoist spoke to me again.
“Didn’t you decide to endure any pain?”
“…”
Well.
It’s not like this, even if I asked you to stick your butt into a sharp rock, you wouldn’t be able to do it. Wouldn’t it be even worse if I were to hurt my own body?
Well then, let’s start lightly with our fingers.
Sum!
I grabbed the fingers with the other hand and pushed them back hard.
“Ouch…”
It’s not easy. Even though the red dot got hotter, it didn’t break down enough to reveal a blue dot. It’s easy to defeat others. Lee Young-jun, Lim Tae-hoon, and Park Yoo-young’s managers are the same.
I looked at the Taoist. However, Taoist only shook his head and did not offer any help.
“Hu… Ha…”
Repeat the bend once again.
Oh my… Who would have thought that I would train while self-harming? I struggled with my fingers for 2-3 hours and eventually failed to harm myself. When I failed until the end of the day, the monk went back to his house without saying a word, as if he was not angry. It was a thatched-roof house in the middle of the forest, and the door was tightly locked from the inside without telling me to come in.
Fuck… Does this… Make sense now? Is the disciple a failure?
He knocked on the door a few times and shouted “Master”, But to no avail.
I had no choice but to get in the car and return home.
I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling and lost in thought. How on earth can I break my fingers? Is there no other alternative to committing self-harm?
Then, I thought of someone who could cause me pain, even if it wasn’t self-harm.
*
The next morning, I neither went to work at the shop nor headed to the mountains in Gangwon-do where Doin is.
The place I headed to was none other than Han Seo-yeon’s house.
When Han Seo-yeon received my call, she made a fuss.
– Oh my goodness? Really? Now? Oh, what should I do… I’m outside right now?
“When are you coming in?”
– Ha, what hour? No, I’ll try to guess within 30 minutes. Please wait… What should I do… I really wanted to do this today.
Now he says so blatantly that he wants to do it. I definitely came here for a massage.
But this time, I also came here with the same purpose, so I didn’t say anything.
“I’ll wait.”
I hung up the phone and went to the throne room and sat down.
Then the big walnut guy came into the throne room panting and welcomed me warmly. It keeps wagging its tail, but it has less energy than I expected. Is it because the male butler from before has disappeared? You look too listless for that.
I massaged the nape of the listless guy’s neck and slowly removed the red dots. The guy seemed to feel better, so he rolled his body over and showed his stomach.
“Cute guy… He’s so big and clumsy that he doesn’t have any talent for keeping a house?”
The walnut seemed to understand what I was saying and whined and stuck out his tongue.
But just then, a loud noise was heard from the yard.
Kkkk! Kkkk!
It was clearly Choco as it was barking as if it was going to eat someone. A Doberman who barks like crazy whenever Walnut does something, as if he has rabies. As the guy made a mess, the gardener outside came rushing in and made noises that seemed to calm his dog.
After calming down the scared walnut, I went outside.
Kkkk! Grrr!
It’s a crazy dog. It was clearly a mad dog. Choco, who overturns rice bowls and runs as if she’s going to break the iron bars, doesn’t seem to be afraid of getting hurt herself.
“Chocolate! Chocolate!”
No matter how much the gardener tried to console him, it was no use. Like a dog in heat, he raised his front legs and hit the iron bars.
‘No matter how much you grow it in your private garden, if you make a fuss like that, your neighbors will file complaints.’
Meanwhile, I quietly watched the gardener’s profile his. I was curious about how he coped, but the gardener’s bushy beard, graying hair, and wrinkles were impressive. He looks about 20 years younger than the Taoist, but he seems like a good person.
The gardener calmly consoled Choco, but he realized it was no use and he was at a loss.
I wanted to help him.
“Wait a minute.”
When I tried to enter the cage, the gardener quickly stopped me.
“No! If you go in, you’ll be in big trouble. It’s dangerous.”
“It’s okay.”
Actually, it wasn’t okay. Choco, the hunting dog, could bite me. I knew that a hunting dog’s fangs were quite sharp and could result in serious injury if done incorrectly.
But I was sure of one thing.
I am confident that I can cure this guy.
The causes of the frenzy hidden in various places of the guy’s short fur became apparent.
The gardener watched me with worried eyes, and I gave him another signal that I was okay, opened the cage door, and went inside.
Crrr-
When a creature larger than itself enters, Choco is not able to easily attack it and cautions against it. This guy doesn’t have a hunting instinct. He just wanted to protect himself.
So it doesn’t attack, but when I got a step closer, it was a different story. He thought he was being attacked and jumped.
I waited and dodged slightly to the side, and since he was on a leash, he couldn’t reach me.
I stretched out my hand to show Choco that I wasn’t holding anything. Additionally, he began lowering his body to let you know that he had no intention of attacking you. I’ve seen this posture somewhere before. A documentary about attitudes towards vicious dogs. Of course, just because you see it doesn’t mean you can follow it all. I just have a confidence that others cannot see.
“Wait. Wait.”
I spoke quietly and approached Choco little by little.
Crrr-
However, the attack came without any chance. I had no choice but to grab the guy’s neck. There might have been a violent struggle, but the moment I grabbed his neck, he became calm.
Because the red dot was removed, the muscles became loose and strength was lost.
I didn’t miss this moment and went around to the back of Choco’s body and quickly removed the red dots near Choco’s side and made him sit down.
The gardener, looking from afar, opened his eyes in surprise.
Yes, this is the feeling of euphoria. It makes me happy to see the amazement a person gives me when they see my abilities for the first time.
But we can’t stop here.
I ran my hand across Choco’s pale blue legs and towards her toes. And then he quickly pulled something out from the sole of his foot her.
It was a piece of glass.
“Is it a piece of glass? “Why are there pieces of glass in the garden? Do you have any guesses?”
“… I don’t know.”
The gardener tilted his head as if he had no idea. He doesn’t seem to be lying. If the gardener doesn’t know, who will know?
Anyway, after removing the glass piece, Choco became calm. Because she was bleeding, the gardener brought a first aid kit to wash her wounds and apply medicine.
“There was a lot of chaos a while ago. “Whenever the walnut made the slightest sound, he started barking like crazy, so I took him to the hospital and they didn’t find any pieces of glass.”
“I don’t know where it is, but please don’t go to that hospital again.”
“I guess so. It didn’t help at all. But how did you know there was a piece of glass stuck to the sole of Choco’s foot her her her her?”
“Well … Choco limped her foot ever so slightly.”
“I see… I never noticed. By the way, you are a masseuse, right? “You are a very capable person.”
The gardener smiled gently and went back to his work.
Anyway, it’s strange. A piece of glass is just a piece of glass, so why did the walnut bark like crazy whenever he did something? No way…
No. Probably not. It really is like a fairy tale.
I shook my head to get rid of useless thoughts. At that moment, Han Seo-yeon walked into the garden and said hello.
“Have you waited long? “Why are you here instead of waiting inside?”
As she spoke to me, she glanced towards the gardener.
“Something came up for a moment. Let’s go inside. “Today, I want to ask you a favor.”
“Ask? “What request?”
As I went inside, I hugged Han Seoyeon’s waist. The gardener was working anyway and no one could see us.
However, Han Seo-yeon slightly pulled her body away and walked away from her.
“Why, why are you like this? “Go inside first.”
Weird. I don’t know who you’re trying to hide my relationship from.
After going inside and closing the door, Han Seo-yeon pressed against my body and stroked my face.
“Why? “What are you asking?”
It changes in an instant. But her cuteness made me roll my eyes, so I didn’t bother to ask any other questions. A tight chest. I was drooling at how plump her cleavage she looked.
I hugged her gourd-like waist, which I couldn’t fully hug earlier, and pulled her towards me.
“Trouble me today.”
“…Huh?”
Han Seo-yeon looked like she was saying something crazy.
