Chapter 1 – Episode 1
My age is twenty-nine. I’m living a fucking daughter-in-law life, aiming for one daughter a day. My life, watching Japanese AV and feeling envious of male actors, can be said to be a legend in many ways.
I also have some pride. These are ‘skip technology’ and ‘mass AV ownership.’ Skip’s technology has the advantage of being able to freely go back and forth between Yamete & Kimochi, and AVs that are available in large quantities… Do I need to say more about it? There are various types and properties. Seriously, if I had studied like this, I would have won the Nobel Prize by now. Of course, even if I go back to the past, I won’t study anything. If there is a Talon d’Or, it’s mine.
What’s on my radar today is the stocking parade of new actresses. You can have fun by switching between different types of stockings. Gums, Sals, Whites, Mens, Reds… Isn’t that my dream? Meanwhile, I’m jealous of that actor. He roughs her stockingless, smooth flesh as if it were his girlfriend, and does whatever he wants while kneading her breasts as if they were kneading rice cakes.
‘Shall we? AV actor…’
As I said before, my life with these thoughts is legendary.
As her thighs began to heat up, her smartphone rang. As if an alarm bell was ringing in my head filled with strange thoughts. At first, I thought I would check, but when I saw it ringing again, it was my phone.
I was started when I saw the name on the screen, so I quickly turned off the video and picked up my smartphone.
Kim Seo-ah. She is my high school classmate and my her crush her her her pretending to be her female friend her her her. She answered the phone, wracked with guilt for holding her daughter just moments ago.
“Hello?”
-Uh, what is it? I received it very quickly. What were you doing?
“… It was just there.”
-How have you been doing? It’s been so long since I called~
“I’m doing well. “And you?”
-I’m doing well too. Junhyun. How is your time today? Would you like to see me for a moment?
My heart started pounding and pounding. My pulse is pounding all the way to my head. The area between the crotches was still stiff, but it had nothing to do with the previous situation.
‘Do you want to meet today? Why? Want to see me for a moment? No, I want to see you for a long time… Should I ask you out for a drink? No, wait a minute, is this a fucking signal? What was it… Green light, something like that?’
As I gulped down a bowl of kimchi soup, I ran my wet tongue inside her dry mouth. As a person, I learned about dating through videos. In this case, I told him to bounce once. Even if you don’t have time, take your time and don’t rush.
“It’s a bit busy, though.”
-Uh… Really? It’s a shame.
“What are you going to do?”
-I’m just looking at your face~ Since I haven’t seen you in a while, I’d like to talk about it.
“Are you shooting?”
-Why should I shoot~ Dutch page between us!
“Okay. Well, since I haven’t had dinner, I’ll just eat what I want. “Soju is okay with dakgalbi, right?”
-Good! Where should I watch it?
Someone said this. There is sunlight even in a mouse hole. When one door closes, another door opens. And someone also said this. In just 30 years, you will become a warlock. When you’re lonely, have sex. Sex is always beneficial.
‘God, Buddha, Allah, Jesus Christ. If you date Kim Seo-ah, I will hit you every morning to the east, west, north, south.’
That’s how desperate I was.
During my high school days, every time a group of boys gathered together to show off the faces of girls, Seoah Kim was always there.
“With Kim Seo-ah’s Wakku level, can she become a celebrity in the future?”
“Yes, it’s possible.”
“Damn. “If I were to guess, it would be like a shopping mall fitting model.”
“Huh. “It’s possible~”
“But isn’t she dating Younghoon these days?”
“Oh, that tall kid from class 10?”
“That’s right. After the night was over, I saw him and I holding hands and going home from school.”
“Under. “You must have done it, right?”
“I must have made it come.”
“Tsk. They say someone else’s rice cake is bigger. “It’s not even mine, so why do I feel like it was taken away?”
“Cheval, I’m jealous~ When will I try it?”
“Recently, there is a co-educational school, and I heard that if you can’t get rid of it, you will be called a scoundrel.”
If the asshole from 10 years ago was still the asshole, no one would believe him. No, should I rather believe it? He has an ordinary appearance and is not tall at 175cm. I chose the Department of Creative Writing out of many majors, but instead of finding a job, I am accumulating debt for tuition and living expenses. In three months from now, this room will also have to be removed.
Under. I stretched myself out. In fact, it is right to think about your future life first. But it’s Kim Seo-ah. That Seoah Kim contacted me first and made an appointment for her to drink. She has to run out even five minutes before the game starts, but she has time to spare now. Even if I had only a little skill, I touched her hair and set it up in a pretty expensive outfit that I had worn on a blind date before.
I reached for her cigarette pack, but I decided to hold back in case Kim Seo-ah didn’t like the smell of cigarettes. It’s perfume rather than cigarettes. I bought one and sprayed the perfume I wore all year round on my wrist and tapped it under my ears.
‘Wow, I could go to Hong Kong today at this rate.’
The promised time has finally come. I went into the Dakgalbi restaurant first and waited, and Kim Seo-ah opened the door about 10 minutes later than the scheduled time and came in. She recognizes me and shakes her hand. At first, I thought she might be angry, asking why I was late, but when I saw her face, those feelings melted like snow.
“I waited a long time~ I’m sorry. “There was a traffic jam on the way.”
She placed the car keys with the Mercedes logo on her table. Uh, wait a minute. Why does her head suddenly feel dizzy? My temples hurt and I was short of breath. I guess it was because she met a girl she had a crush on.
“Hungry. Let’s order it quickly.”
“They say the cheese dakgalbi here is delicious.”
“Call~ Auntie, please give me some cheese dakgalbi and soju here. Ha, it’s been a really long time. Jjuun~”
The last time I saw Kim Seo-ah was after I was discharged from the military, so it was about 4-5 years ago now. After I was discharged from the military, someone invited me to a group chat room, and it was a high school reunion room. We met at a class reunion and exchanged phone numbers, and we met occasionally after that, but eventually we lost contact because we were both busy with our own lives.
Actually, we are not close enough to be this friendly. But now is not the time to choose between hot and cold food. Just meeting Kim Seo-ah already makes her heart pound and makes her dizzy.
I pretended to be indifferent and touched her smartphone senselessly.
“Yeah, it’s been a while. “Did you buy a car?”
“Huh! Tea has been produced for quite a long time. “Has it been two years?”
“What do you do?”
“Just this and that. Hi-Hi. “You said you were preparing for a job. Is it going well?”
“Don’t say anything. “There is a youth employment crisis right now, and it is difficult to even find a dealer who will hire you, let alone do anything.”
“Hehe~ I see. All my friends will go crazy too. But you seem to be taller than before? My chin also seems to have become a bit sharper.”
“Is it because I’m exercising?”
“Oh, exercise~ I also exercise, Pilates.”
I thought it was really cute how cute he was while talking about his current situation. I have a really good personality. I’m careful when I joke so as not to touch my private parts. He deliberately turns the subject of the conversation towards me and listens to everything one by one, even giving me a reaction.
The food came out and a few drinks started flowing. My face became flushed and the atmosphere suddenly became warmer.
Kim Seo-ah was wearing a jacket over a tight gray dress, but she felt hot so she took off the jacket. I knew it from before, but now that she takes off her outerwear, it’s clear that she has a nice body. Her perky breasts and hourglass-shaped waistline. I don’t know if she induced it, but it felt perfect, even down to the off-shoulder top that poured oil on her heated crotch.
If you want to look defenseless and sexy in front of a man, that’s a signal, but what’s a signal? Should I just hug her waist and kiss her? No. Let’s try to cheer up a bit first.
As I was thinking about this, Kim Seo-ah spoke up first.
“Ha, I’m having a really hard time these days?”
Kim Seo-ah, who until now had mainly focused her conversations on me, spoke about herself for the first time in a long time.
“Why, why is it difficult?”
In response to my question, she hesitated and did not say her words easily. As if it were a hidden secret.
“Say it. “I will help you if I can.”
“Ha, really. I don’t talk about things like this often. Because people keep misunderstanding.”
“What misunderstanding?”
“Hey. “You’re a really close friend and we’ve known each other for a while, so you probably know me well, right?”
“Yeah…”
She paused a bit this time too. However, from the moment she opened her mouth, she gave off a very different atmosphere than before.
“I’m working in insurance these days. Ha, when I say things like this, the kids always misunderstand. Since it was business, he kept quiet and he didn’t want to see me anymore.”
Ah, somehow. My temple hurt. When Kim Seo-ah sat down at her table, she had a bad feeling from the moment she placed her car keys with the Mercedes logo on them. So, right now, Laptory is just the size they want to sell to me.
‘You crazy bitch. Where is this modified work?’
*
“Thank you so much. But this isn’t for me, it’s for you. “You know, right?”
Kim Seo-ah, who eventually got her signature on the contract, sat in her driver’s seat and waved her hand, saying “Bye!”.
Did she really have to have it all? She said to me, a beggar, that she would make a little profit for you by selling 30,000 won and 50,000 won insurance policies.
But my life is legendary as I signed the contract knowing all that.
To somehow see a little more. The feeling that she might not open the door even once. In some ways, I’m a really bad guy too.
I messed up my hair, which had hardened with wax, then took a cigarette out of my pocket and put it in my mouth.
At times like this, I think about jerking off that she couldn’t do earlier. Because I don’t think I can bear it if I don’t do that. Who said that? AV is said to be one of the best inventions created by mankind. A symbol of peace for 1/2 humanity created for the greatest happiness of the greatest number.
There are many different types of people on the streets at night. A man who falls over while drunk or wrestles while holding on to a telephone pole. A man with his hand on a woman’s waist and a triumphant expression on his face as if he owned it. A young couple bickering in front of a motel.
As I blew out the smoke from my mouth, I thought about the reason for my existence. I thought I had stopped thinking about this after middle school, but it suddenly surged up like Kim Seo-ah, who came back after a long time.
I’m sure she’s begging me for money and going somewhere to spread her crotch to a handsome, rich man. Yes, I am a baby ant. If you shake your hips just a little bit, they’ll even give you money you don’t have.
Minchan, who had been playing with me since middle school, quickly got married to a famous platform girl BJ. Youngjun is so proud that his Instagram DMs he has no time to rest even for a day, so he has to choose a partner for the night. Tae-hoon, who used to beat and bully kids when he was young, became a big hit with Bitcoin, became a building owner, and is said to be marrying his model girlfriend in the next year or so.
My life became so miserable that I was kicking stones in the street.
It’s true that he ended up like this because he only watches porn and has no idea how to develop himself. Before I blame the world, I also know that the world is not mine to begin with.
But shit. No matter what quote you hear in this situation, it all sounds like bullshit. My life sucks. In just two more months, I’ll be 30 and I haven’t achieved anything.
After walking unsteadily, I came to the Han River. Was it a bridge that went from Sindorim to Mokdong? Leader is so shitty that it feels like I’m looking at my life.
‘How many cigarettes have you been smoking now?’
I leaned on the railing and looked at the Han River far below. The flowing water of the Han River felt cold even if I didn’t go into it. If you fall like this, you will definitely die.
“Puh… Puhahahaha.”
Suicidal impulse? Why don’t I feel that way in this situation? Some people say that they feel suicidal even while looking at the Han River for no reason, but it all seems like bullshit. I have to live. I really need to live as long as I can. Even if you have to work all night and drink soju in the morning to be able to sleep, you still have to survive.
That much is certain. There is nothing worse than suicide. And I knew very well that there were many people in a worse situation than me.
‘Minchan said he was doing BJ for this guy’s wife. Are all BJs really that pretty? Ha, I’m fucking jealous. That bastard must have cummed inside without using a condom on purpose. Even now, I’m spending all night trying to give birth to my second child.’
As I was giggling as if I had lost my mind, I saw someone through my blurred vision. A woman’s hair was flowing in the corner of my vision, so I looked and saw a woman as tall as me standing on the railing of the bridge.
?
I was literally staring at him in bewilderment, but then I realized too late that the woman was on the outside of the railing, not inside, and I screamed.
“Hey! It’s dangerous!”
He hears my voice and tilts his head towards me. Her eyes were filled with melancholy, she looked at me and slowly shook her head. Of course I didn’t know what that meant, and I walked slowly towards where she was, thinking I had to stop her.
“Stay there…”
I’m trying to continue.
Zek-
As if it were a lie, the woman’s body tilted and then disappeared.
“Heo-eok.”
She was scared and looked down at her Han River her her her. I heard a splashing sound and couldn’t see anything else.
‘Crazy. Crazy. Crazy.’
Many thoughts overlapped in my head. The height is not that high. Even if you fall, you might be able to swim out if you come to your senses. Honestly, I don’t know. I’ve never even thought about what would happen if I fell into the Han River. It’s just a pity why something like this happened to me.
And I don’t know why I made that choice, but after thinking a lot for 0.5 seconds, I took off my coat without hesitation and threw myself in.
