Chapter 571 – Part 2 11. Angels and Demons (6)
Part 2 11. Angels and Demons (6)
“What I wanted… Was to just be loved…”
“You, stop saying nonsense. A man who can just love you? Wasn’t he that kind of man?”
Lee Yul points at me and says to Chae-kyung, who is still crying with her head buried between her legs. Even though she wasn’t looking this way, there was no way she didn’t know who ‘this guy’ was talking about.
“… I had an affair with that female professor.”
“Well, it was just one kiss. But you came to me without even thinking about finding out more.”
The interest rate represents my situation. I suddenly feel like I’m on this guy’s side, but I don’t want anything to do with it. However, it is not a situation where you open your mouth and decide between your side and mine.
“How chaste were you? “To the one who always cheated, lied, made excuses, and said that he only wanted me to fuck him.”
“You say that!? How were you! You kept teasing me! Junhyung told me to come to you because he cheated on me, and that you could make me satisfied with sex and love only me! Everything about you was a lie!”
Chae-kyung raises her head and shouts with bloodshot eyes. The venom on her tear-stained face. It reminds me of the day we broke up, and it hurts me.
“You just want to destroy people. I have no interest in being truly happy. “Because you are not happy with yourself, and because you do not know how to truly love anyone, you think that everyone else is just like you!”
“…”
Did she hit the nail on the head with those words? Lee Yul silences her, and she takes another drink of her soju instead.
“Then who do you know how to love purely? On a topic where I just walked around like a prostitute…”
“… Better than you. At less than you, who are rotten from the root.”
It looks like they will grab knives and rush to kill each other at any moment. I know I need to stop it before it turns into a bigger problem, but I can’t intervene.
“Phew! Better than me? Jung Chae-kyung betrayed her childhood friend and moved on to another man, and she couldn’t even stand it for a few days, so she dragged in a fat pig and fucked him. Do you think that Jung Chae-kyung knows how to give her pure love? Please don’t be funny. “You and I are the same.”
“No. Sure, I’m a dirty bitch, and yes, like you said, I’m a crazy bitch who’s into dick and changing men, but I’m still different from you. I can love.”
“Who? And who has that pure love with you? “Wake up from your dream, really.”
Chae-kyung suddenly stood up at Lee Yul’s provocation. Ga-hye, who was helpless next to her, Lee Yul, who was filling her glass with soju again, and of course me, were all surprised. Chaekyung walked a few steps and stood behind me.
“I-I still love you, Junhyung. “I know I don’t deserve it, but I still love you.”
“That’s not love. “It’s regret and obsession.”
“Stop talking about something you don’t know anything about. It’s love. I never forgot a single moment. It’s not that I want to date again. Since I can’t do that anyway, it’s me… But, I’m still serious.”
I don’t know how to answer. No, I don’t think you need my answer in the first place. This is just Chaekyung’s declaration. It was just a notification that made you feel good just by hearing it.
“Byul, fuck… I’m filming a drama.”
Lee Yul laughs at that sight. The glass in her hand shakes and a little bit of soju flows out of the glass.
“Okay, let’s say Lee Jun-hyung is a person who is good at pom-pom, so he accepts your love. But this guy is not what you think. You have no fucking idea. “You don’t know anything, Jeong Chae-kyung.”
“What.”
After emptying his glass and placing it down on the table, Lee Yul looks at me. The evilness felt in his genuine smile. This man is a snake dressed as a human.
“Does this guy know what’s clean? You fucked me, you fucked Lim Gyu-hang, and there’s more, right? There was also Youngmo.”
“…”
There’s more? But being surprised is also something new. Judging by Lee Yul’s personality and their relationship, there is a high possibility that Chaekyung has met other men besides Lee Yul since she broke up with me. If it were the interest rate, I would have actually recommended it. Because you’re crazy.
“While you were driving everyone around like a bus, this bastard was also pushing his dick around here and there for quite a while.”
“What…”
“Weird. Junhyung Lee It seems like women are attracted to this bastard. “She’s a bird who can’t even have a dick and can’t have sex… Strangely, strangely, women keep stopping by.”
“What are you saying, you bastard!”
All of a sudden, I got so hot that I grabbed Lee Yul, who was sitting next to me, by his collar. I was angry when I cursed Chae-kyung, but now that Chae-kyung and I are strangers, I couldn’t do anything, but now it’s different. I’m about to punch him in the face like I’ve imagined countless times before, but Lee Yool laughs at me and says.
“Want me to tell you? Who did this bastard have sex with most recently?”
“Huh?”
Those words remind me of women in my head like a spell. Who was it? Most recently? Aunt, Mom, Junhee. Not Junhee. Not even my mom. The most recent one was my aunt. Oh my god. All the people I thought of as my most recent sexual partners were family members. This can’t be happening. I was so dirty that I couldn’t even compare to Chaekyung.
Being reckless is a flaw. Because no one would choose someone who has sex with just anyone as their ideal lover. However, if you are confident and say that you want to freely enjoy the pleasurable act of sex, it is not something that can be just blindly criticized based on today’s social perception. Because as an adult, you have the right to sexual self-determination. No matter what I do with my body, it is my mind, so some people criticize me for pointing fingers.
However, incest is a problem on a completely different level. Isn’t this a story about being promiscuous or debauched? There is no way to justify it unless we return to the level of the sacred bones of the Silla era. It’s not that Chae-kyung doesn’t suit me, but I don’t fit in with her. To be in the same class as me, there’s no one other than the local bastard who doesn’t have intelligence.
“Tell me? Are you curious?”
“…”
This bastard is trying to talk, he’s trying to talk. The revelation of my greatest weakness. I am the ugliest part of humanity. I quickly shook my head. It would be better for me to confess with my own mouth. The old slogan, “Embroidery and finding light,” Comes to mind. Then, what should I say?
Of those three, Lee Yul may be the only one who knows his mother. The person he most recently had sex with was his aunt, but Lee Yul doesn’t know who his aunt is. I know about Junhee, but I also don’t know about my relationship with Junhee. Then there is only one person left. He’s trying to expose the fact that I had sex with his mother.
Lee Yul knows almost everything about my relationship with her mother. I know that I went to her mom’s room first and inserted myself inside her mom. Moreover, she also had sex with Lee Yul. I left that behind, but it won’t make much of a difference.
I closed my eyes tightly and gritted my teeth. I must speak with my own mouth. Hearing it from Lee Yul’s mouth is different from hearing it said directly. What comes before is exposure and accusation, and what you do on your own is surrender and reflection. Say, say, say!
“This bastard was with me last time…”
“I did it with mom!”
“What?”
“Huh?”
I can’t see Chae-kyung’s face standing behind me, but I can see Ga-hye’s shocked face next to her, looking at me with her mouth wide open. I guess so. Because I heard some very terrible, terrible stories. However, we can’t stop because it’s already fucked up like shit. I let go of Lee Yul’s collar and returned to my seat, snatched the soju from him and gulped down the entire bottle. I tried to drink all that was left in the bottle, but after the second sip, a sick feeling rose up from inside me, so I took my mouth away from the bottle, scooped up the malatang soup with a spoon, and took a few sips. Until then, no one said anything.
“Chae-kyung, I went crazy after you dumped me. “After going to the training center for a month, I felt a little better, but when I came back, I felt like I was going to go even crazier.”
I spoke to Chaekyung, who was standing behind me and couldn’t be seen.
“It just so happens that the place where I was assigned to public service is our high school… No matter what I do, I think of you every day. You said you never stopped loving me, right? Me too. I only thought of you I was going crazy.”
Did I act this well? Chae-kyung didn’t always come to mind, but no one can doubt my trembling voice now. Anyway, at that time, I was actually being swayed by Junhee.
“Then… I saw my mom at her house, ha… Doing it with her grandfather.”
“Grandpa??”
Ga-hye asks with a face that goes beyond shock and cannot be read as to what kind of emotion she is feeling. I looked at her and nodded her head.
“I guess her grandfather and mother have been like that to each other sometimes… Since long time ago. When I found out that, it really drove me crazy. All kinds of thoughts came to mind. “I was miserable because her lover was taken away, and her grandfather was messing with his daughter-in-law and my mother, so I was angry and… Anyway, I was out of my mind.”
This may be Lee Yul’s first time hearing this story. Perhaps that was why he just listened in silence. Perhaps, they are planning to use this as an excuse to further entangle her mother.
“So… To mom…”
I said I would speak directly, but no more words came out. It is no exaggeration to say that, except for Lee Yul, these are my friends who have been with me almost my whole life. It wasn’t easy to tell the people I loved about the ugliest parts of me.
