Chapter 44 – My Juniors Don’t Use Me
The day after I gave my junior a girlfriend who was modeled after her girlfriend,
I was in the classroom at the academy with a puzzled expression on my face.
“…”
Well, it’s covered by my long bangs anyway, so I can’t see my expression very well.
The rest of the grumpy with my junior, I didn’t put the precious thing he gave me in my head, but I kept it in my pocket.
“Is that him?”
“Huh. That’s right.”
“It’s not very pretty…”
“Isn’t it unusual? I like it too.”
“It doesn’t really suit me…”
The reason I was grumpy was because, yes, I didn’t write it.
I mean something that was made with so much hard work.
I had to admit that my plan had gone awry from the start.
The strategy of getting me used to imitative objects, gradually corrupting me, and eventually making me use them.
What could be the problem?
Because you don’t know how to write?
I thought it might be because he was a naive junior, so I even said that he would teach me personally, but when he came back, he said absolutely no.
Like he said, ugly?
I thought that being too naked was the problem, so I went back to my room and brought my skirt and even put it on, but my junior’s face turned red like a sweet potato on the verge of burning, and he lost his temper.
I say what are you doing
“…”
Resting my chest comfortably on the desk in the classroom, resting my chin on one hand,
I kept thinking about what happened last night.
Hearing that cry close to a scream, I
I am very weak in shouting,
It was the first time a junior yelled at me so loudly.
I was so surprised that I couldn’t stand the hiccups.
By the way, it was a timing that I would have been embarrassed to say I was sorry for if it was my usual junior.
For some reason, the junior stared at me a lot and became a cold face.
It wasn’t long before he withdrew his cold expression and tried to soothe me who was giggling, but…
I almost cried because the face of my junior did not disappear from my mind.
I said it while looking at him with tears in my eyes that were not suitable for my age.
“Of course, Joe, I know you will like it. Do it wrong.”
“Of course.”
“Yeah, that’s right. If I feel bad, uh, I’m sorry…”
“Why are you doing this… If you wanted to give it to me, may I ask?”
The junior at that time was
I think it was a bit of an admonishing tone.
It was like an adult trying to punish a child who did something wrong.
“Seniors should value their bodies more…”
I wonder if it was not.
It might have been natural for me to feel heartache and boil at the banal words that continued for several minutes after that.
I felt that all the regret and embarrassment I had until then had turned into resentment.
And, impatient, I almost screamed out…
“Sure! Masturbating is natural!”
“Senior?!”
“What, what is bad? Like this. Not bad at all. It’s not really my body, so I can use it. Do you have to write it?”
“Yes?”
“I don’t know, anyway, I don’t know, do it, hold on to my butt and do it… !”
“…”
Ha.
I brought my consciousness out of my thoughts for a while,
I let out a sigh.
Those remarks from last night,
It would be a black history that would never happen again in my life.
At that time, I really felt like my hair was going crazy.
I kept whining nonsensical things like a child who threatened to pout if I didn’t do what he wanted.
The junior who looked down at me with his eyes wide open, as if surprised by my sudden change of attitude, seemed to think for a long time.
In the end, I said it triumphantly, as if I had thought of a good number to soothe the child.
“… Naturally, no. Now, um, that’s it.”
“Why!”
“Yeah, seniors don’t do that, right?”
“… To?”
“Since the senior is kind, I know he cares about me. But since it’s a shared space, it’s important to be considerate so that each other doesn’t feel uncomfortable.”
“Eh, oh, eh? Uh, why do you think that…”
“You don’t have to worry too much about me. You don’t even need to set it like this. Following these days… Well, I hope you don’t listen too uncomfortable. These days, I can’t help but feel that way…”
At that timing, the junior looked at every part of my body as if seeing something resentful.
It’s all someone’s fault, but the eyes were sharp as if they were doing it, so I said heheand shrank my body.
Right after that, the kouhai’s fierce eyes loosened up as if he was looking at something cute.
“But if I focus on something else for a while, I tend to calm down quickly. Whether it’s exercise Thanks to that, it seems that my sword handling skills are improving day by day…”
“That, that, master.”
“Yes?”
“Well, I don’t know if this is a little bit disillusioning.”
“What?”
“Everything, of course, I do…”
“What?”
This junior I hated to death was naive and fell for it,
It seemed like he really didn’t know anything.
My anger until then has subsided,
The momentary faded shame fills my whole body,
Somehow, feeling itchy, I said it as if I was confessing while gently twisting my whole body.
“Masturbation, I, of course, do it…”
“?”
“Why, why did you think you wouldn’t do it… ?”
“?”
“Rather, ah, this is a bit embarrassing, but on the contrary, I really like it…”
“?”
How the hell did you see me as a naive woman?
The junior colleague hardened like a person who had a huge gap in common sense, or as if her ears were broken and she couldn’t understand the other person’s words properly.
In short,
She seemed very shocked.
At that time I
Is that so, her juniors have a look that would easily knock off a thousand girls, but she unexpectedly thought that she might be squeamish.
Like a boy around puberty who thinks that all girls are clean, just, have no desires, and that appearances are everything.
Then, I thought that I had become a lascivious woman who said such vulgar things to such an innocent man, so I made her face blush with a deep sense of shame…
My junior looked at me from head to toe, and then again, as if something had broken down, I just stared at it, frozen still.
“That…”
“…”
Was it that shocking?
The junior gaped at her and said nothing more.
He just frantically looked at me, especially when his eyes met my round eyes, and a small mutter, “It can’t be like that,” Was all that came out of his mouth.
“Come on, Master… ?”
“…”
But it wasn’t like I didn’t have anything to say.
I don’t remember it well because I was drunk, but my stomach was puffing like that.
As a volunteer, he knelt down and braided his hair to make a handle so that he could use it at will.
That I would make a potion that would make a girl horny, that I would inadvertently say all sorts of lewd things,
Seeing her as an innocent girl who doesn’t even know how to soothe herself is a bit.
Even, in the classroom where I was taking an introductory alchemy class.
There was a time when I told the owner that I was going to have a lot of fun with her boyfriend while I was out drinking with a group of girls.
So, this is not because I pretended to be naive and tricked my juniors.
Clearly, the juniors were strange.
And around that time,
I think my juniors realized that too.
Like a bean pod, or a man disillusioned,
My blank face turned blue in an instant,
And yet again, meticulously, especially, oh, the embarrassing parts, frantically,
I made a sound like a hijab, a frightened chick, and recoiled.
At some point, the junior who kept looking at me with scary eyes,
I said it in a voice that seemed like it would drip.
“… Senior Eve.”
“Yes, yes…”
“Eve.”
“…”
“Today. Sleep separately.”
“Why, why?”
“Anyway.”
“Oh, I see…”
It’s an insulting word, but
I couldn’t help but be a little scared at the dangerous look that my junior gave off.
My instinctive intuition that if I didn’t obey him right away, something big would happen, made me leave his room right away.
So yesterday,
After a while, I lay alone on the bed in my room,
After being alone for a while, I had no choice but to force myself to sleep while fighting the cold and loneliness that began to harass me after the birds flocked to me…
“…”
Ha.
I sighed again.
No matter how much I think about it, I can’t understand what happened last night.
I’ll admit I acted rudely, but there’s nothing to be mad about.
I won’t even give you a hug. There’s no need to kick it out like that.
Thanks to you, last night was really, really cold…
I couldn’t hide my tear-stained face,
I kept thinking about juniors like that, and I ended up missing almost all of the lectures that followed.
Worst, worst.
This is why I can’t help but hate my juniors.
I really hate you to death I hate it and I don’t know what to do.
Having passed all of today’s lectures like that, I instantly became depressed.
I wish I had something to change my mood. As I wandered around the academy, whenever I was like this, I went to find someone who would be on my side.
“Brother.”
“Eve! I was still trying to find it. Uh. What’s happen? You look in a bad mood.”
My only older brother, Rohan, was overjoyed that I came.
He folded his eyes like half moons and smiled, then guided us to a famous tea house in the academy.
“Oops. Did something upset you?”
“Oh, how…”
“I can tell just by looking at your face. I am your brother.”
“Whoa.”
“If you have any concerns, don’t hesitate to listen. You have plenty of time, so take it easy.”
“On that.”
But even to my brother,
There were things I could say and things I couldn’t.
Besides, I’m not looking for a way to directly solve these concerns, I just need someone to listen,
I summarized last night’s events as best I could and told my brother.
“I’m worried because my master doesn’t see me as a woman…”
In my words, Rohan’s brother is hardened,
He shuddered as if someone had put dirt in his eyes.
“What oh oh oh oh oh oh oh-?!!!”
That’s how the teahouse shouted loudly to leave…
