Chapter 34 – Don’t Be Blatant
As I lowered my head like that, I was so sad that I felt like I was going to cry again.
If someone sees me like this and calls me a crybaby, I have nothing to say, but my heart is still depressed, and I can’t stand it.
My nose is so stuffy that I can only whimper,
The atmosphere itself to fulfill my duty as a maid was broken.
As if he didn’t want to look like he was crying, Seo-Bang-nim quickly withered away and couldn’t even see his outline.
Thanks to that, the strange air sank coldly as if it had never happened,
I felt a little chill.
Time passed, and when the unsightly cries no longer came out of my mouth,
The junior who waited until I calmed down on my own said calmly.
“Senior, it’s embarrassing.”
“…”
I was excited and made a snort on purpose.
In this situation, if I heard that from a junior, I was not happy, but only humiliated.
The situation is just bleak.
To think that Mr. Seo was held hostage by someone he hated to the point of death.
What kind of joke of fate is this?
“Senior.”
“Yes.”
“…”
Even after calling me out like that, my junior started to hesitate about something for a long time.
Since I had been sitting on my knees all this time, my shins started to ache.
Still, with such a serious face, I got the feeling that I shouldn’t move my body and break his attention, so I calmly looked up at my junior without showing it.
It wasn’t until I got to the point where my legs started to thump the tips of my toes and then the whole lower body trembled because of the pain in my legs.
My junior told me after finishing my worries.
“Can I call you by your name?”
“Yes?”
Only then did I understand why my junior had been thinking about it for so long.
And I thought that what I said now was not like a junior.
I really hate being called by name pretending to be friendly, so why are you so persistent when you already have a record of rejecting it once?
There’s no way that a quick-witted junior couldn’t understand my feelings, but it was a very strange thing.
So, rather than feeling disliked, I felt curious.
Did that pass on to your juniors?
My junior said it as if it were an excuse.
“Everyone calls you by your first name. Only me…”
“Who is it?”
“A moment ago. At the academy.”
Ah.
That’s right.
Diaren, Carmen, and Rohan.
Come to think of it, all of the ‘three strict professors that the academy is proud of’ were calling me by name.
Miss Eve. Eve. Do. Like that.
It’s a problem that I didn’t really have in mind, but somehow it was naturally called that.
However, the case itself was a little different from my juniors.
The professors and my older brother were indebted to me until now, and they were indispensable in my life, so I could be called by any name.
“That’s because that one is special…”
“Special?”
I tried to say it confidently, as if reciting an obvious fact, but for some reason, my words became blurred.
I don’t know if that’s why, but my juniors don’t think so.
I wondered how many times I thought about the word “Special,” But he changed his gaze terrifyingly.
It’s embarrassing, but
Whenever my juniors made that kind of expression, I couldn’t control myself from shrinking.
But really scary. I look at it with eyes that want to eat it completely, but who in the world can’t be scared?
“Hick…”
“Me?”
“Yes… ?”
“Am I not special?”
I had no choice but to pause and stiffen my body.
From the innermost part of the junior’s green eyes,
Because something terrifying was wriggling.
I was overcome with the illusion that something ominous, thick and sticky like tar, ran down his face and body, moistened the ground, climbed on me, and wrapped around his neck.
The thing that grabbed my neck in an instant was silent, but at the same time it was dormant with something extremely ferocious.
The moment you choose the wrong option,
I felt like I was going to break my neck.
And it wasn’t until that point that I noticed that there was a contradiction in the idea I had just had.
Being indebted is the same for juniors.
The fact that he is a person who cannot be without in life, well, the direction is 180 degrees different, but it was true.
If this person whom I hated and hated so much to death suddenly disappeared one day, my initial determination to ridicule him by bringing him down again and again so that he would stand in the same position as me was shattered,
It was clear that I would really lose all will to live.
So, I didn’t make up words that I didn’t mean as a result of being coercively threatened,
I really said it with all my heart.
“It’s special…”
And as soon as I answered that,
The gloomy energy that my junior exuded disappeared as if it were just an illusion.
My junior is still looking down on me,
Washing away all the facial expressions from earlier, he said with a proud smile.
“Senior Eve.”
“Oh…”
“Eve.”
“…”
And I, the moment I was called by my full name without any other titles,
…
…
… For some reason, this situation itself felt extremely familiar,
I felt like I had been through it several times one day, and I was hardened by the feeling of déjà vu running through my body.
An unknown spicy scent hovered at the tip of my nose, and my brain, stimulated by it, pushed a fragment of itself into me.
Just like now,
In an enclosed space away from the eyes of others,
Kneeling down, looking up at a large opponent,
If you don’t listen, bow your head to the person with a scary face,
I was idly listening to what the other person was saying, unable to carve a single expression on my face.
That’s what the opponent, who couldn’t see his face because of the dark shadows, said that.
‘Eve. I’ll engrave it for you.’
I am yes Do, blankly, answer
I did it.
The words he said were picked up on Christmas Eve, like a flame that burns up once again from the ashes when your older brother sees his strange face and feels that life has no meaning anymore. It’s cold, like the ice field of a crimson magic plant that only fills up in the full moon. I heard that I had to change more fundamentally than anything else, so in order to be reborn as the most perfect person, I was depressed and cold, so I was called a tomboy, and then I suddenly had to atone for myself. The ultimate meaning of alchemy is to purify something extremely pure while knowing everything.
“Eve.”
Eve,
It’s Eve Christmas.
The moment you hear that name,
I felt like a switch inside me had been pushed.
Beginning with my pounding heart quickly subsiding,
All senses in the body are turned off.
The acrid smell that lingered in my nose, the hard touch of the floor against my legs, sight and hearing, everything disappeared, and finally the world fell into complete silence.
When I start to turn on again,
In the process of rendering where the five senses recognize the world,
Like a painting made only of paper and graphite, only me and the other person existed in the white space.
As usual, I looked at his mouth this time and repeated it over and over again.
What that person said is right.
You have to overwrite your thoughts and follow them.
“I will be honest.”
“Yes.”
“I’m going crazy because I’m worried about you.”
“Yes.”
“I don’t know exactly what the relationship is with those three, but it’s not like I wouldn’t be able to guess. Not to mention that it’s special like just now…”
“Yes.”
“…”
It seemed that I was answering dryly,
The other person hardened his face for a moment and looked down at me.
However, when I looked at him with dim eyes with dimmed light in his pupils, he said he must be very tired and said he would just talk about the main topic.
“Actually, Eve is free to do whatever she does. I know I have no right to meddle, but still.”
“Yes.”
“Still, I don’t know anything else, but you shouldn’t do dangerous things.”
“Which… ?”
“I asked before, but about… Or The feel-good drug I mentioned before.”
“No?”
“Yes.”
I see
I etched those words firmly in my head.
When I nodded like that, he was very happy.
“I know quitting is not easy. I’ll watch over you. I will do anything that I can do for you.”
“Yes.”
“It’s nice.”
Not nice
By hearing that, I recognized that this conversation was over.
I naturally tilted my upper body and stuck my head out.
But, little by little, until my face touches the opponent’s body,
There was no patting and complimenting like usual.
For this act to end, you need to stroke her hair. And I tilted my head.
Feeling strange, I looked up, but his expression hardened.
Oh, it’s not over yet.
“And, you are not allowed to be so explicit until you truly like me.”
“Yes.”
“Because I can’t stand it and I feel like I’m going to commit it.”
“Yes.”
“… You look tired, so go ahead and rest.”
I nodded, let’s do it, and then the other person stroked my head.
From that point on, I felt that my drowsy mind had fully awakened.
My pores are open, and the world where lines were drawn on a white background like a rough sketch someone drew has returned to the kind of thing I knew.
“…”
… What were you doing just now?
Ah. After being called Seobangnim and Seobangnim, I was very indecent, and I was held hostage by a junior and half threatened. Everyone calls me by name, but I am the only one who whines that I can’t do that.
It’s a little different meaning, but it’s special, so it’s right,
In the end, I gave him permission to call me by name.
My legs were so numb now that I couldn’t stand it and jumped up.
Then my junior told me.
“Senior Eve, go in and rest.”
“…”
Why? I’m not very tired.
I’m hungry too. After all, tomorrow is the deadline for the assignment Professor Diaren gave me, so I planned to stay up tonight.
But I
Instinctively, I felt like I shouldn’t have contradicted him.
As if drawn to something,
I nodded in agreement and went to my room to rest.
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…
…
That night.
At the time when even the moonlight fell asleep and the ground became completely dark,
I’ve been thinking about the meaning of the word explicit for a long time.
It’s embarrassing to say this, but I can’t forget the image of Mr. Seo, who I saw earlier, so I can’t forget the image of Seo-Bang-sama. Ah, I don’t know if I’ll be sad when I hear about my boyfriend who’s been hiding there, but I couldn’t help but fall in love with it. Because it Also, because I want to see you again, but if you do it blatantly, it’s absolutely not possible…
Not to be explicit also meant that I had to be non-obvious.
Is it so.
You shouldn’t be blatant, but if you don’t, you can do it.
Having organized my thoughts, I have no more hesitation,
But, moving stealthily so as not to make the sound of footsteps, I went out into the living room,
I grabbed the doorknob of my junior’s room and gently twisted it open.
I was careful and careful, but I couldn’t help but hear the sound of the hinges.
The squealing sound that echoed in the middle of the night sounded like thunder.
I was frozen in fear that my juniors would wake up after hearing that sound.
I’m relieved to see that I’m completely asleep and there’s no sign of tossing.
I crept up like a thief and sneaked under his covers.
