Chapter 96 – 96. Planning
In the end, unlike his head that said he didn’t want to do anything, his body consumed quite a bit of stamina on its own.
⋯It can’t be helped.
I haven’t been able to these days
I won’t be able to because it’s going to be a busy time in the future,
Since it’s an assignment or a test, Dad will come by the time it’s all over, so it must be more difficult.
At least there is so much time left until vacation.
But looking back, a lot of time has passed.
Representatively,
“Son, take off all your clothes and put them in the living room. Put all your winter clothes in.”
“Yep.”
Now is the time to put on your winter clothes.
“Can I just leave it out in the living room?”
“Uh. Just take it out Oh, by the way, what do you want for dinner?”
“Um… Meat?”
“Meat is meat, what is meat? Tell me straight up.”
“Then pork belly.”
“OK got it. Let’s grill Samgyeopsal for dinner.”
As I was picking out the clothes I didn’t want to wear in the closet and organizing them one by one, I heard the sound of the next door opening.
I came out into the living room with my clothes in both hands, and this time I heard the door slam shut.
“Daughter! Open the closet. Get rid of anything you don’t want to wear.”
“Oh, yes. That, wait! Mom…”
A shrieking sound resounded everywhere,
“⋯Daughter. What is this?”
⋯I heard the voice of my mother who was very embarrassed.
I can’t tell the details because it’s a voice coming through the door,
“Ah… That’s…”
“⋯Daughter?”
“⋯.”
My brother caught something.
Something that shouldn’t be caught.
Once again, the sound of rustling and rummaging is heard.
“I won’t say anything about making you a boyfriend. But…”
“⋯I don’t have a boyfriend.”
“Winter. Mom doesn’t mean to scold you. You’re a college student now, and you can date. But…”
“Because there is none!”
“⋯Then why did you buy this? Are you going to wear this when you go out?”
“⋯.”
“⋯Ha.”
Maybe clothes.
The kind you wear, even if that’s not the case.
What’s certain is that it’s not wholesome in my mother’s eyes.
It’s because he doesn’t get angry at me for wearing short clothes.
⋯Maybe it’s a level that no one other than me can show.
“I just wanted to try it on by myself…”
“⋯Winter.”
“It’s real…”
“Daughter. ⋯If you have a boyfriend, would you tell me?”
“⋯.”
“Because I think mom would be less anxious if she had a boyfriend… She knows your mom is the type of person who won’t tell you that you’re dating a boyfriend. Huh?”
I can understand why my mother, who usually doesn’t touch me, is so concerned.
She would be less uncomfortable if she were there.
My daughter has a boyfriend, but she has a clear purpose in having slutty clothes.
Of course, if you say you’re dating a strange person, you’ll be worried, but if it’s not a strange person.
But the fact that she has clothes like that even though she doesn’t have a lover ⋯,
Because I don’t know the purpose.
Even if an accident goes to the wrong side, it’s not strange,
⋯The reality is much more than that.
“Mom doesn’t want winter to get involved in love affairs either. Can you tell me what kind of person she is? I need to know who my daughter is dating. ⋯You’re my mother.”
“⋯.”
No answer.
Incredibly quiet silence.
“⋯Kim Winter!”
Bang, and the door opens.
Even if it is spring, Winter, wearing only shorts and short sleeves, quickly crumples her shoes and runs out the front door.
A startled mother shouts, calling her brother by name.
“Ah, son. ⋯Sorry, did you hear me?”
“⋯I’ll go down and look.”
“⋯Your son?”
“I don’t know, but didn’t you fight? I’ll come back after talking.”
⋯First, you need to understand the situation.
How do you fix it this time?
How dangerous she was, I don’t know if her mother did that,
I don’t even know what excuse to block it this time.
She turns her back on her mother, who is still restless, and follows Winter with one of her outer clothes thrown in her living room.
She wouldn’t have gone far
I can’t go anywhere dressed like that anyway.
I hurried down the stairs and checked the parking lot, but no one was there.
I thought about calling her, but since I left her phone on the sofa, even that was impossible.
She hangs around her mother’s car, glances at the common porch, and exits the parking lot.
Trudge.
It doesn’t take long for her to enter her back alley where she always met,
“⋯Brother.”
Again, there was winter.
“Hey. No matter how spring You’ll catch a cold if you wear it like that.”
It’s not even a very cold day, but judging by the way he strokes her limbs, it must be cold.
She takes off her coat and puts it on the unanswering Winter.
“⋯Mother?”
“I said I’d like to talk to you first.”
I look around her once more and lightly hug Gye-gyeol, who is breathing heavily as if she is about to cry.
⋯I still don’t cry.
Are you just confused
“What is your mother looking at, what the hell?”
“⋯Clothes, medicines⋯, ⋯underwear, ⋯headbands⋯.”
⋯It wasn’t even a single piece of clothing.
Well, I don’t think he would have reacted like that if he had the clothes.
If you find dirty clothes, dirty underwear, dirty accessories, and even birth control pills, it’s rather strange not to say anything.
My daughter, who had just entered college, was hiding that, but it’s amazing that she put up with it that much.
⋯ I don’t think she would have said anything if there was something like a masturbation device.
“What happened?”
“I originally hid them all in a box… My mom said she was cleaning out her winter clothes and opened it…”
“Hide it well.”
“⋯I didn’t know how to open it all of a sudden.”
“What if I run away? ⋯Mom would think it was even more strange.”
“I was so surprised…”
Don’t be surprised
Her mother found out about her sex life or something.
⋯Not even proud love.
To calm down, I hide her face on my chest and stroke her hair.
How should I deal with it?
Winter is also a college student, what are you doing with that?
He also has a private life, so let’s just leave it alone.
Smart Andy, would you like to meet a strange person?
⋯ It’s easy to say.
It’s hard to tell my mom about that.
“How lewd are these clothes, so why is my mother like that?”
“⋯Brother, I bought it the other day ago to show you⋯.”
“⋯You like that sort of thing these days? Taking erotic pictures and sending them to me.”
“I’m busy preparing for assignments and midterms… We decided not to go out together for a while, so I felt sorry for my brother…”
“Ha…”
I don’t know.
I really don’t know why you love me so much.
I love you because the love is so heavy.
Lovely,
I want to do anything.
While patting Winter’s back and coming up with an excuse for Winter,
“⋯Ah.”
⋯.
It’s mom
After looking around, she turned her head this way.
Saw us
He pauses for a moment, then steps closer to us.
“⋯.”
He continues to pat his brother on the back.
Also strokes the hair.
Beckoning her mother, she opens her mouth.
“⋯.”
The approaching mother stops.
She cautiously takes one step behind her.
Before she knew it, she disappeared from sight again.
She calms her pounding chest and takes a deep breath.
“Winter.”
“Yes.”
“You cry. A little.”
“⋯ Huh?”
She presses her sister’s face against her chest so that she can’t even open her mouth.
Maybe it’s because her head gets hot, and various stories come to mind as the blood circulates in her brain.
Thought last time.
A thought I had long ago.
Thoughts on what to write this time.
Everything comes together
⋯It’s such a crappy idea,
It looks fine.
“Mom saw it.”
“Eup.”
“⋯I sent it back, so pretend to cry. Hurry.”
Eup-eup, I struggled while talking, but I soon got used to it and became calm.
You can feel the breath of Winter through the T-shirt.
“When I get back, don’t say anything and lie down on the bed. Understand.”
“Eup..Eup.”
I hold her head tight until my T-shirt is wet, then let out a deep sigh and free her.
She could see her slightly disfigured face, but as soon as she let go, she covered her face with her hand so I couldn’t keep looking at it.
“Give me your hand. Let’s take her hand and go up.”
“⋯Mother?”
“You didn’t notice. You will know that I will comfort you. As soon as you enter, lock the door and hide. ⋯I’ll try to fix it.”
He snatched one of the hands that covered her face and dragged Winter.
Slow down and slow down.
Waiting for her mother to go in first, she calmly goes home.
Stepping on her steps,
Her voice announces to her mother that she is coming back, and she proudly opens her front door.
“⋯Daughter.”
“⋯.”
As soon as I enter the house, Winter shakes off my hand and runs away to his room.
Immediately there is a bang, and even the sound of the door closing and locking.
⋯Okay.
She took a deep breath and organized the thoughts in her head once again.
“Mom.”
“⋯Son.”
“⋯What did Winter do wrong?”
“It’s not like that. Just…”
“Leave it. You know what to do.”
“Son.”
“⋯If it doesn’t work out, I’ll keep an eye on you. If a strange person comes along, I can kick him out. ⋯He must have been surprised to find out about his private life. ⋯Pretend you don’t know. You are not a child.”
Leave the fish shop to the cat.
A trustworthy son in my mother’s eyes,
A wonderful older brother who takes good care of his younger siblings.
Let’s use it.
Let’s use whatever, fuck.
For her little sister who did that for me,
If it’s for Winter, who doesn’t ask why and follows everything, I mean,
A lie can be told thousands and thousands of times.
“⋯Doesn’t Winter have a strange person attached to him?”
“I will find out. Because he still relies on me a lot…”
“⋯Can mom trust her son?”
“⋯Of course. It’s because I didn’t say anything, but how much do you care for your brother?”
“Mom knows. You are what winter takes care of.”
“Trust me. ⋯Aren’t you a son who is affectionate enough to let his little brother cry?”
How many times have you endured the rumbling in your stomach?
I got used to it at some point.
The guilt hasn’t gone away.
But lying for you is no longer difficult.
He takes off his shoes and goes inside and knocks on his brother’s door.
“Kim Winter. Open the door and come out.”
“⋯”
“⋯Come out, winter.”
Winter, who had been hiding with her door closed, opens the door and appears.
Slightly twinkling eyes.
Messy hair.
I stroked Winter’s hair to make it a little more sporadic and sighed.
“No matter what, what if you run away when you say mom? ⋯ Wash your face, sit down, and cool your head.”
“Yes.”
“⋯Winter, your mother is beautiful.”
“Oh, no, no, Mom. I’m sorry…”
Seeing her mother warmly hugging her, she heads to her sofa.
I get out of my seat with only her cell phone in my hand and return to my room and look around at the photos I have collected.
⋯Calm down.
Just have to wait until summer.
If I behave well, giving Dad a chance to atone for his sins,
Pretending to be burned by a bad person
Likewise, to make a winter that has been burned by a bad person,
Taking and comforting such a younger brother for the rest of his life,
⋯It is also possible that my mother could not help but understand that.
I don’t have the confidence to pretend to be a good son for the rest of my life.
But to play a hurt brother and sister,
I have the confidence to do it.
