Chapter 77 – 77. Doubt
I’m tired.
Tired but happy
Amazing.
Originally, everything would be annoying if I got tired this far.
Something just… Unfounded confidence and self-esteem rises to the top of my head.
Whatever I do, it seems to be fine, and nothing seems to be a problem.
I originally thought I was a pessimistic person, but I guess I’m not.
“Brother, why are you laughing so hard? It’s disgusting.”
“Just?”
There is still some time left before we leave.
We put our bodies on top of each other until my little sister’s waist came off, and after we finished, we washed each other’s bodies.
After washing, it filled up again, so I layered my body once more.
Both of them grabbed hold of their trembling bodies and barely dipped themselves into the bathtub.
⋯Then, I relieved my desire once more.
Higher thinking is impossible right now.
I just want to sleep.
As it is here.
Hugging my brother
“⋯What is it? Winter.”
“Are you copying what your brother is doing?”
“I have short hair.”
“You bite instead.”
Her brother, who was drying her hair, climbed onto the bed.
Sitting behind my back as I lay on my side, her long hair gently tickling my ear canal, that voice laughing softly,
It was so cute that I wanted to cuddle even if my brain was in a hazy state.
“Brother, are you tired?”
“⋯I’m a little tired.”
“Why did you do that? He was trying to kill me.”
“Isn’t that the opposite?”
“I was still, but my brother couldn’t stand it and kept attacking me. Why are you blaming me?”
“I never blamed you. I’m just… Tired.”
“⋯If you’re tired, would you like to touch my chest?”
“Uh.”
“What. ⋯Why do you answer right away, oppa?”
“I’d rather refuse that.”
The little brother who still gently tickles the lobe of the ear.
I got up and hugged my little brother who was sitting behind me and covered me with the blanket.
As before, I hugged her tightly, buried her head in the pillow, and closed her eyes.
“⋯Brother, you can’t sleep. You have to leave a little later.”
“Let’s sleep for 10 minutes… You are tired too.”
“So no. If you do this, both of you will fall asleep.”
“One will rise.”
“I can’t…”
No matter how exhausted I am, I can overpower at least one of her sisters.
Hold me tight so you don’t escape from my arms
I fell asleep smelling the scent of shampoo wafting from her hair ⋯.
“Ah! Hey, Kim Winter!”
“Brother, I can’t sleep!”
⋯ It was obvious, but she was able to shake off her stress because her sister had pinched her nipples.
I don’t think I pinched it hard, but it hurts a little bit.
In fact, you shouldn’t fall asleep.
I have to be back by 9 o’clock.
The setting is to go home after dinner, so the time is ambiguous.
⋯And
This pain must be avenged in the near future.
I don’t have enough time today. Next time.
***
Both put on their clothes again and came out of the room.
New panties and mask.
⋯My brother brought it.
No, I can do that with G-panties, but when did you get mine?
“Hey, why are my panties in your bag?”
“… Just in case.”
“When did you secretly take it?”
“Well?”
⋯I think it can even go as far as stealing my clothes.
That’s because there are a lot of things I can’t wear because they’ve shrunk anyway.
Still, the panties are a bit… Aren’t they?
I don’t think he’d use it for that, but it’s kind of embarrassing.
“My brother just wears clothes and goes around without a bag, so if I don’t take care of it, there is no one to take care of, so he took care of it.”
“On the contrary, don’t you think you’ll look very perverted if I take care of your panties?”
“That’s because my brother is a pervert. I prepared it just in case, thinking of my older brother. ⋯To be honest, oppa’s panties are really dirty. That…Because of that thing that comes out before ejaculation…”
“⋯Well, that’s the case.”
⋯Should this be regarded as a housemate or a remote one?
Looking back, I’m grateful.
Oh, I don’t know.
To be honest, no matter what my younger brother does, I don’t think I’ll see anything but gratitude in my eyes.
Objective judgment has become impossible.
“Anyway, what should we eat for dinner? Is there anything open at this hour?”
“Maybe, brother? Even if it’s roughly gimbap…”
The moment she was about to leave the motel carrying her sister’s backpack instead,
Surely someone I’ve seen today passed by.
Maybe even yesterday.
The day before yesterday.
Two men and women who worked together all week.
“⋯.”
“⋯.”
I was wearing a mask, but I couldn’t tell.
Hey, it’s the same as the one I saw in the locker room earlier, isn’t it?
The woman next to him is probably a co-worker.
It’s not clear, but the eyes and hairstyle are familiar.
“⋯Uh.”
The moment all four of us froze without grasping the situation,
My brother took my arm and ran outside.
It seems that he turned around and looked at us as we hurriedly escaped.
Or maybe
Or maybe it wasn’t, and passed by pretending not to know.
⋯Ah.
My head hurts.
“⋯I’m afraid it was caught.”
“⋯I don’t know.”
The clothes were the same.
I’m wearing a mask too
It’s a different style from before because it’s after I’ve washed my hair.
You may not know.
But you might know.
The delusion of persecution, which I thought had disappeared after taking the CSAT, began to appear again.
Bad endings keep bothering me.
“Really… Why do you seem so unlucky?”
“…Maybe you’ve been lucky… Until now, oppa.”
“…Well.”
Whether you’re lucky or bad,
Aren’t my siblings lucky?
In fact, no matter how many times my mother caught me, it’s not strange,
This motel is also near a cafe near my house, so it’s not strange at all if I meet someone I know.
It’s not the first time, because I’ve been here several times since I started working part-time.
“⋯First of all, the male side is the one who works part-time together. But not friendly ⋯I guess I might not have recognized it.”
“I’m friendly. With that sister. Not a lot⋯, only occasionally.
“⋯You shouldn’t have called them siblings.”
“Anyway, even the boss knows, and everyone asked if we were siblings as soon as we first arrived. ⋯ I can’t hide it. Brother.”
Can’t hide
⋯Can’t hide it after all, this relationship.
Why can’t you hide it?
Are we that much alike?
Is it because they act like siblings?
⋯I don’t know.
“⋯Let’s eat. Even if I think about it, there is no answer. Anyway, they probably won’t be interested. Wouldn’t that be busy in its own way too?”
“⋯Yes. Probably.”
No matter how much you think about a question without an answer, it is meaningless.
Whether you know us or not.
Knowing that is not a problem we can solve.
So I just left it alone.
I stopped thinking and entered a snack bar I could see and ate gimbap and pork cutlet.
Maybe it was because I was tired and hungry, but it was delicious compared to the price.
I didn’t even bother.
It really didn’t matter.
***
After that, nothing really happened.
I go to bed still on the phone at night,
Sometimes after a part-time job, the siblings go to rest.
As if trying to relieve each other’s stress, they overlapped their bodies more violently.
It is confirmed that her sister will spend her college life in Anam,
The new year gradually passed and the second month began,
I went on as usual as if nothing had really happened.
The reason was simple.
If you have common sense, it’s not a matter that can be brought out of your mouth.
It is a subject that can never be said whether you are sure or doubtful.
But I was able to notice that they recognized us.
He was someone I used to talk to sometimes, but now I openly avoid him.
The woman who was close to her sister was uncomfortable because she was forced to pretend that nothing had happened.
⋯Sometimes he looked at me with strange eyes.
Fortunately
People with common sense
If rumors spread here and there for no reason, it might end up in the ears of the boss.
If the boss knows, the story will be passed on to his nieces and nephews.
Then my college life is over.
Of course… I don’t think the motive is someone who would spread such a thing.
My younger brother’s friend also said he would join our school, but I’m not the kind of person who would spread rumors about this.
Rather, I was worried.
There are only good people around us.
⋯No matter how you look at it, I’m the most dogged.
Everyone is doing well in line, but
It was just me and my brother who got out.
But just knowing that fact makes me uncomfortable, so I can’t go around comfortably.
To be honest, I am very uncomfortable here.
I would have beaten it if it hadn’t been introduced by someone I knew.
It’s so frustrating to have to keep working by changing the hours even after school starts.
“Brother. Is it hard…?”
“Just what. I was a bit stressed…”
“⋯Do you want to touch my chest?”
“⋯Are you at home?”
“Brother, you look so hard… Do you think it will come off if I touch it?”
“⋯Let’s go to my room.”
Frustration and stress piled up.
Anxiety about the future.
What would happen if people I knew found out about our relationship, paranoia.
I’m worried that someday I’ll be caught by people who shouldn’t be caught.
My head hurts so much.
Tired.
What can relieve that vague pain,
He was always just a brother.
“⋯Are you okay?”
“A little.”
“Then… I’m glad I did.”
I look at the same place and put my hand inside my T-shirt.
A sleep bra to wear at home.
My gift that I soiled and bought anew.
I lifted her up, touched her bare breasts, and slightly pinched her nipples.
I bite my ears like I always do.
⋯ Hearing your breathing calms me down a bit.
She was too spoiled for her sister.
It must be difficult for him too.
“⋯Are you okay?”
“Me?”
“Isn’t it a big deal? Harassment or something like that.”
“I am not that weak. It’s because my brother doesn’t know. Don’t worry too much And nothing like that. ⋯Nothing has changed.”
“My older brother might be worried about my little sister.”
“Ahaha, that’s right.”
“⋯Do you want to kiss me?”
“Huh. Good.”
Until her mother returned from shopping,
She turns her head to kiss her lips and mixes her tongue.
For this moment,
Both of them were happy without any worries.
“⋯ Whoa. Thanks, winter.”
“⋯Thank you too.”
“Mom will come soon. Let’s go.”
“Huh.”
I don’t want to understand
I know very well that we are bastards and bad guys.
So please just like now
I want you to ignore me and pretend you don’t know.
On the two marbles that bounced off the line,
Please don’t be interested
Even though I know that you will suffer and suffer together,
Because you chose to go out.
