Chapter 74 – 74. Obsession
Dangerous.
Last night, it was exactly after midnight, so today.
Even in such a dangerous situation, they couldn’t hide their desire for each other.
Even after going through that risk, as soon as her mother goes grocery shopping, she clings to her couch as if it were natural.
Either I cut your thighs or you lie on my lap.
It’s true that I wanted a relationship like this,
I don’t want to walk on thin ice, which won’t be strange no matter when it breaks.
Even though I’m a person who enjoys thrills, I’m not really risking my life to pursue thrills.
“Winter. Let’s stop doing that at night.”
“⋯.”
“After all, when I start working part-time, I have a lot of time to look outside. ⋯To be honest, if you keep doing that, you can’t stand it. We.”
“Yes.”
“Let’s just secretly kiss, and stop watching at night. Understand?”
“⋯Okay.”
Both needed restraint.
It is true that the relationship has already gone too far,
But yesterday, even considering that, went too far.
It didn’t work.
But if the same thing happens,
I’ll probably do the same thing again.
“Brother, please do one favor instead.”
“What.”
“Can’t we sleep on the phone before going to bed?”
“Call?”
“I thought I would be able to sleep more comfortably then…”
“Well… It doesn’t matter.”
“I think it will be fine if I sleep while listening to her voice with earphones on.”
“⋯Yes, then.”
⋯Actually, I can’t sleep comfortably if I can’t smell it before going to bed.
If I don’t listen to voices and breathing, I always dream.
With bad content.
I guess this isn’t bad enough.
It’s not a relationship that can be tolerated anyway.
Looking for a way to go undetected.
It should be resolved in a place where you won’t be noticed.
Desires that each other has for each other.
“Oh right. Oppa⋯, the pillow too.”
“Pillow?”
“I’m going to give you a cushion of mine…And you, too, give me a pillow for you.”
“⋯Sniff and sleep?”
“I just want to cuddle and sleep. Do you know what kind of brother I am?”
“⋯Okay. Let’s change one.”
“Yes.”
So close, but
It’s too far.
It was so contradictory that it was a relationship that could not be revealed.
Even if I like it, I can’t say I like it.
Maybe it’s because I can’t reveal it, so my feelings don’t cool down.
Fighting among ourselves is so stupid.
***
“Ah, brother. I can hear?”
“⋯Speaks as if you are on the phone for the first time.”
“I’m talking in whispers, so I’m asking if you can hear me.”
“Listen well. ⋯Even breathing.”
“⋯Yes. Me too.”
The first night we greeted each other by exchanging pillows.
The brother on the other side of the wall.
If you speak a little louder, we can talk without calling,
Because it’s night.
Raise your voice so that you can even hear your breath, whisper.
Share stories that go unnoticed.
“But what should I say, brother?”
“⋯I called to sleep anyway, do I really need to talk?”
“That’s true, but…”
“I have to go to work tomorrow, so let’s go to bed early.”
“Ah, Alba… I almost forgot.”
“If you don’t have me, why are you forgetting that?”
“Eh, oppa, will you disappear from my side?”
“⋯It won’t go away because I’m afraid I’ll starve to death without it.”
“⋯I can’t help it. I don’t want to starve to death either, so I have to make sure my brother doesn’t run away.”
Even if there is nothing to talk about or common interests, the conversation does not stop anymore.
There are so many stories to tell just by talking about each other.
In fact, no words are needed.
It’s okay to just listen to your breathing.
“⋯You know, brother.”
“Why.”
“That cafe is so big, aren’t we the only ones working part-time?”
“I guess so.”
“Even if there are pretty people among other part-time jobs, can’t you cheat on them?”
“⋯You won’t even pay attention?”
Why do you keep worrying about me?
You care more about yourself than me.
I’ll keep an eye on it anyway, so it won’t be a problem.
“Really?”
“How can I die socially if you want to?”
“⋯Do I really have to say that?”
“It’s just… I think this one is more persuasive.”
I guess I was good at making embarrassing noises in the past.
When I heard about it, it was more embarrassing than I thought. To say that
Even if it doesn’t matter once it heats up… Usually.
“Let’s pretend we both have a boyfriend. My brother has a very cute girlfriend who is three years younger, and I have a very reliable boyfriend who is three years older.”
“⋯Aren’t you ashamed to say that with your own mouth?”
“Embarrassing words the best person in the world would say?”
“Not better than you.”
“Because I’m a younger brother. I learned it from my brother.”
“⋯What, is that so.”
“Well then. It’s your brother’s fault.”
What… I can’t help it.
In fact, even if it’s your fault, it’s all my fault as long as it’s mine.
I have to admit this much.
‘Cause I got too many from you
“Anyway, I got it. Sleep slowly You have to get up early tomorrow.”
“⋯Yes. Okay. Good night, brother.”
“Are you not going to hang up?”
“Of course. I raised the sound all the way, so take a deep breath. I can hear you breathing.”
“Okay. ⋯Goodnight.”
“Huh. ⋯Good night, brother.”
“You can’t sleep when you hear that? Sleep quickly.”
“Yes, brother. May you rest forever.”
“⋯Grow up.”
“Yes.”
Smell the scent that lingers on your cushion that was handed to you,
Listening to the breath coming out of the earphones,
I was able to fall asleep comfortably, without dreaming.
***
The first part-time job with my brother was a better place than I thought.
The boss smiled hohohoho, saying that both siblings had good personalities and handed out the contract right away, and he was kind even if he wasn’t nice.
Although he has a bit of a temper, it’s okay because he’s good to us. Give me a table too.
There were many other part-time jobs because the store was so large, but there was no one who was particularly reluctant.
Everyone was nice. Was the world originally such a warm place?
Of course, it’s not that there weren’t cubs trying to show interest, but they both hit it off right away.
Where dare
When I said openly that I had a lover, no one tried to cheat.
Of course, I didn’t say that it was a brother and sister relationship, and both pretended to have separate lovers.
After all, they couldn’t hide that they were siblings when they saw their names.
You are the boss, of course you know.
From 9:00 to 17:00.
Even though I was busy at work, it wasn’t bad to work 7 hours excluding the time to eat.
⋯I lied to my mother saying that I work until 18:00.
I did it before I went to the army, so there was nothing difficult about the job.
The younger brother also quickly learned the job in his own way.
I didn’t know he could talk this well.
Has your affinity improved since you teased me so much?
I hope so.
After work, she had a cup of coffee and walked around with her brother.
Of course, there were times when I didn’t go around… But I didn’t go home right away.
Because you lied
It was good to spend time brushing my teeth in a hurry after eating during mealtime.
Just like now
“⋯Brother. Stop biting your ears it hurts.”
“Nope?”
“You can do it later after it’s over… Really…”
30 minutes left after eating a late lunch nearby.
A back alley where people can’t reach.
The place of the first kiss.
Sometimes I spend time here
When one of the two is angry, the angry side is to release the resentment.
Just like now
“⋯Is it because of that?”
“Isn’t that obvious?”
“You just asked to bring something, that’s…”
“You should have answered with a little more facial expression. You, too, bite your ears when I talk to another woman.”
“⋯It’s because oppa puts his voice down and takes form.”
Now, the scent of coffee permeates your body.
It was cute wearing an apron, but I think I like it more when I wear less.
When I hugged her from behind like this, I could feel her breasts even through her clothes.
“Ha… Ah… ⋯Are you jealous of your brother?”
“I?”
“You’re hugging a lot harder than usual. It hurts.”
“⋯Well?”
“It’s disgusting to be jealous of your little sister.”
I spit out my bitten ear and put my nose on the nape of my neck.
Should I leave a mark, say it’s mine.
⋯You have to hide it with a bandage anyway.
The opposite sex, who had gone out halfway, came back and bit and licked it instead of sucking it.
Moderately soiled with tooth marks and saliva.
Because this will soon disappear.
“Let go, really…”
“Why me?”
“⋯It’s hard to kiss if you hug from behind.”
He whined and asked me to let go, so I turned over and this time I faced him and hugged him.
⋯I have to go after it’s over.
There.
“⋯Brother, do you want to rest after work?”
“How did you know?”
“Because you have those eyes.”
“If you say you want to rest, you will.”
“⋯Because someone keeps biting me, so I don’t have much strength. I’m going to rest after it’s over.”
They lick each other’s lips that smell like toothpaste.
It was difficult to say that it was healthy, but
Still, it was the most wholesome compared to the past.
At least I didn’t do this in a place where I could be found out,
At home, except for when I was on the phone, we were siblings who were bickering.
“Fuh…Ah… ⋯Brother, I’m scared of my eyes again.”
“Your expression is also very strange.”
“Me?”
“I’m the only one who’s seen that expression.”
“⋯Because it’s the expression you show only to your brother.”
“⋯I don’t have eyes like this other than you.”
“It’s not? Oppa, when you see deliciously grilled meat, he glares at you with those eyes.”
“That’s because you’re hungry.”
“⋯So are you still hungry?”
“⋯I was starving.”
It’s been a long time since I left home and blended into society.
Rather, their feelings for each other only grew.
Obsession, affection, desire.
Nothing diminishes
I guess today
I’ll have to call my mother saying I’m a little late.
Because both of them seem to finish late.
