Chapter 66 – 66. Trouble
“Daughter, are you not feeling well?”
“⋯ No. Are you okay. I think it’s because I slept on my stomach.”
“Eh. Lie down and sleep Do some stretching.”
“It’s okay because my brother and I work out together these days.”
The day I committed an inexhaustibly bad thing to my younger sister who slept coolly.
They both woke up late and ate breakfast prepared by her mother.
I don’t know if the rice goes in the mouth or the nose.
Even if the brain and rationality melted like soft tofu, the conscience did not disappear.
What’s up, fuck.
“Autumn, doesn’t he know how to do one push-up?”
“⋯Kneeling and saying a few.”
“You have to know how to do it right. My mom also did it with a barbell when doing gymnastics.”
It was getting more and more felt that the brakes were failing.
Even if you sleep in the master bedroom.
When she woke up from a sound sleep, she realized that she had done something like an asshole whose sexual drive had gone mad.
Of course I wasn’t caught. If so, she would be sitting in the parking lot, not at the dining table, and trembling.
The conversations we had also belonged to the category of whispering,
Most of the leaked moans and breaths were swallowed up with my fingers, a pillow, or at least with my mouth, so there was no problem.
⋯ ‘Today’ is what matters.
“Later… If you don’t have to wear a mask, the three of us go to the gym. Or you can buy something for the house.”
“I can’t live without things like that at home because it’s messy. I’d rather quit the gym with that money.”
“⋯Yes.”
The problem is that it seems to be like this again after a few days.
To be honest, I want to do it every day other than the day I get my period.
Even if you fill it up and fill it up, your needs are not met.
It’s not necessarily about sex.
I want to hug you, I want to kiss you
I want to fall asleep with my body folded.
No matter how many times
“Suddenly this year is coming to an end… What are my son and daughter going to do next year?”
“I have to go to college, okay?”
Because it is an unacknowledged feeling,
Is it because you are in a hurry to hide it, let alone brag about it?
I can’t spread the fact that her sister belongs to me.
Maybe that’s why I’m more obsessed with it and want to get dirty.
It’s because I’m anxious if I don’t dye it with my color again and again.
The only contract my brother and I can make is a verbal contract.
So whenever I have time, I want to re-sign the contract.
This time a little deeper, bolder.
The period was also slightly increased from 80 to 82 years.
To ink a contract,
Because they are already filled with the word ‘brother and sister’.
“No, no, I go to college, of course. You can get a license, try a proper exercise, or even work part-time to experience society. I can’t go on a trip because the city is the city.”
“⋯I’m going to study English first. And I think I’ll do it if there’s a part-time job. These days she needs a seat. It seems that the part-time job is also cut.”
I’m not a person who doesn’t have a desire to show off.
Up until high school, my grades supported my pride,
Being in good shape after entering college served as a support for maintaining my self-esteem.
I have lived as My Way because I have the thought that I am better than others.
I was confident that no matter how much I was stuck at home, if I went out into society, I would be treated as a person.
But now it’s not
It has come down to the level where there is nothing to say even if others point fingers and criticize.
So never get caught.
The moment you get caught, the place to step disappears.
“Draw. What about winter?”
“I also want to try a part-time job. Even self-sufficiency… If possible.”
“Why are you sleeping? You wouldn’t even go to school because it’s non-face-to-face these days, right?”
“That…Just.”
“Just what are you talking about? You don’t want to live with your mother?”
“It is not. I just want to cook and eat by myself… Or something like that.”
“If you want to cook, tell Mom. My mom is good at cooking, but I’m afraid you can’t teach me one thing?”
“⋯.”
In the end, that’s what matters.
You have to have a place to hide in case of the worst,
There must be a place to escape,
There must be an excuse.
We didn’t commit a crime.
Even if I am socially buried, so that I can live with my brother.
At least we should make a place for the two of us to set foot.
“Anyway, Mom, I won’t go out of the house much next year, so if there are any dishes you want to make, tell me. As long as mom has the ingredients, she can make anything.”
“⋯Can you make mom food too?”
“Shall we do it for dinner? Mommy can even bake pizza for you.”
“If we’re making it together… I’ll try it.”
“What about your son?”
“⋯.”
Anyway, unless you do something crazy, you won’t be caught on the spot.
Sick of the heart.
Even if physical evidence comes out, unless you have witnessed a scene that cannot be refuted, you can pretend you don’t know.
If the target of being caught is not the mother, she might treat the driving force as a strange person.
Even if they are siblings who are suspiciously close,
It’s not like people who are really suspicious can say anything outright, right?
Brothers and sisters can live together.
They’re close enough to be a bit harsh, and their skinship can be intense.
Because you can live with one dog and one cat.
“⋯Son?”
“⋯Ah, yes, yes. Pizza?”
“What are you thinking so deeply about? While eating.”
“It was cramped because I was thinking about what to do next year.”
⋯In fact, no matter how many excuses you make, it doesn’t change.
Even if I cheat the world and get caught by no one,
I can’t even open my mouth when asked if I betrayed my mother.
Not only her mother, but also her cousin.
You lied to your sister too.
There are aunts who have taken care of us since we were young,
I have nothing to say to the grandmother who raised her.
“What’s so stuffy? Study hard Make the most of the time you have left.”
“⋯ I don’t think I will go outside if I have non-face-to-face classes. Ugh, thinking that I will live like this again next year makes me feel a bit cramped.”
“What do you think your mom locked you up so you can’t go outside? As long as she didn’t go out.”
“If I caught a cold for no reason, I would not go out because I felt sorry for him. Her son-in-law thinks of her brother this way, yes?”
“Eolsssigu, when did you take care of your little brother like that?”
“Originally, after I took the CSAT, I kept taking care of it. Right, Kim Winter?”
“⋯I’m not sure?”
“Are you like that too?”
I’m really sorry to the point of going crazy and jumping up and down,
Still can’t give up
Even in the midst of this, as much as her sister who tapped my leg with her foot,
It’s mine
No matter what.
***
“You look worried, oppa.”
“Thanks to whom.”
In the end, I couldn’t find an answer to my worries.
It is not a problem that can be solved by being socially successful.
It’s not a problem that can be solved just because money overflows like water.
It’s not something that can be done by immigrating abroad and buying an identity.
Even if you do that, there is no way to convince her mother,
I don’t even want to
Because you said it was good because you were siblings.
He said he liked me because I was his older brother.
“Why? Are you tired?”
“⋯I’m a little tired.”
“I am not tired. My brother is weak.”
“Does it make you tired?”
“⋯Not today. Later.”
On the eve of the last day of the year.
In other words, Kim Winter’s birthday eve.
After finishing my workout, I was watching my brother’s workout.
I don’t know if you’re saying that I’ve been moving my body a little lately, but now it’s to the point where I’ll throw a joke while I’m stretching after it’s over.
At first, I was so tired I couldn’t even open my mouth.
I guess it’s time to do something else.
It’s basically the same genes.
My mother is also strong,
Dad⋯ I don’t know.
“For now, wipe your sweat. Let’s talk.”
“Ah, yes. Thank you.”
After she finished stretching, she handed the towel to her sister.
Seeing him sweating makes me feel proud as an older brother.
⋯It’s true that as a real older brother, I also have bad feelings.
It’s not your fault, it’s not my fault.
The reason for exercising in the first place is impure.
Although it wasn’t a sound reason for me.
“Winter, if you can’t catch your breath… What will you do?”
“A hotel⋯, but I have to go. Maybe.”
“⋯Common sense wouldn’t even my mother think it was strange if you and I stayed out all night together?”
“That’s… I guess.”
Mom is a reasonable person.
So, we must have fed them all by ourselves.
You can tell by looking at the fact that he took the car keys right after the exam was over.
It means that even if your younger brother insists on living on his own, he will not listen if there is no justification for it.
If you ask why you are doing a non-face-to-face class, there is no excuse to make an excuse.
Even if I ask why the two of us sleep out all the time, I have no words to answer.
⋯Actually, it wouldn’t matter if we were the type to hang out outside, but that’s not the case at all.
If the person asking the question is someone else, they’ll reply, “Who are you and do you care?”
It’s impossible to answer my mother like that even after I’m dead.
“Uh, ah. Winter Do you want to work together next year?”
After much thought, a trick came to mind.
There’s nothing wrong with making money anyway.
It’s good to match the time, and it’s also a place to build memories in your own way.
⋯Of course, it’s true that we can fight each other while working.
I can correct
My dick, what. Education has to be done
“⋯With my brother?”
“Even if it is difficult to stay awake. Part-time job is not going to say that even her mother will know if I say that she will be with me with the feeling that I am giving her a social experience.”
“Yes.”
“Let’s find something we can do together and do it together. ⋯ Then it wouldn’t be strange to walk around together.”
Even if it’s difficult to sleep out, work expenses pretend to be on the day and go around.
Or pretend your shift is over and go back slowly.
⋯If it’s enough, it won’t be because I can’t stand being in heat like last time.
Even three times a week is enough to keep me in check.
It’s enough to secretly kiss at home.
Because that’s the limit that can be excused.
“⋯Oppa, you look smart after a long time.”
“It’s science. Of course I’m smarter than you.”
“To a subject that I haven’t seen before in the CSAT.”
“⋯You really come to our school. Definitely not comparable. Even if Amman is different.”
“You don’t like it? Then there will be no rumors. There is a returning student who is disgustingly obsessed with her younger sister.”
“Do you hate it because it’s disgusting?”
“⋯I don’t like it, but the good ones are bigger, so I’ll look at them.”
“⋯There are a lot of things I’m offended about, but since it’s daytime, I look after them.”
⋯It’s really unbearable.
No, I’m doing this because I can’t fill three times a week.
Yesterday and the day before yesterday, you endured well again.
Apparently, 3 days is the limit for me now.
“Tonight, not even at night.”
“Why. You haven’t done that since.”
“Mom, I’ve been watching dramas lately. You’ll sleep in the living room today, maybe.”
“⋯If I say I’m crazy, will you attack me?”
“Aren’t you crazy? The ⋯ sleeper attacked her sister secretly and left a lot of ⋯ inside. What if I didn’t use birth control?”
“Why? Am I normal? Is it abnormal to want to have a baby with someone you like?”
“Well, don’t be proud to say that… Because I might not eat it…”
“Then I will take responsibility.”
“⋯.”
After putting a steel plate on her face and shouting brazen bullshit, her younger brother ran away to the bathroom, covering her face with a towel.
⋯ Ha.
That’s serious.
The future is so dark that I can’t even see a single ray of light.
When I talk like this with you, my sense of reality fades as if there is nothing to be a problem.
Rather than stimulating parts such as sexual desire or fetish,
I think it’s because my brain is pickled with happiness.
Even if I fall into the pit, I am happy that this relationship will not be broken.
⋯ I want to be as happy as I am now.
Whether it is possible,
Even I have my doubts
