Chapter 308 – 308: Leni’S Request!
After Ninya left, I went about my work as usual.
I accepted requests from other adventurers, processed them, and organized the paperwork after receiving completion reports.
I had dinner as usual, returned to the dorm, and went to the bathroom.
“Ugh!”
I threw up everything I had eaten.
I had to act normal at the guild.
I couldn’t burden the other adventurers with my personal turmoil.
But once I was back in the dorm, there was no need to pretend.
The moment I arrived at the dorm, the guilt and self-loathing I had suppressed while working came crashing down on me.
It’s because of me…
It’s because I said those unnecessary things.
Before Ninya left, she had said that it was probably a Kobold Warrior who killed Danger.
To encounter a unique monster, you had to go quite deep into the dungeon.
Danger usually didn’t venture that far.
As a solo adventurer, he was the type to prioritize safety.
But today, I had spoken out…
To Danger, who might not even be fully recovered.
I had just believed in Danger’s potential and made irresponsible, encouraging remarks.
Even if I hadn’t said anything, Danger might have encountered a Kobold Warrior.
Danger might have gone deeper to earn money for treatment, even if I hadn’t said anything.
But such assumptions were pointless.
All that lingered in my mind was that my words had contributed to Danger’s death.
My rash words…
“Ugh!”
My self-loathing was relentless.
Since that day, I never…
Never again felt like an adventurer’s achievement was my own.
I tried not to unnecessarily stimulate the adventurers’ motivation by feeling that way.
At most, I would just say, “Do your best,” and then sincerely pray for their safe return.
For six years… that’s how it had been.
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That incident happened six years ago.
“Why did I suddenly think of that…”
Maybe the word “lesson” came to mind, and it reminded me of my past mistakes.
“Haa, I feel a little down.”
It’s been six years, but the foolish things I did back then still sting my heart when I think about them.
I don’t feel the same self-loathing as I did then.
But the sadness I felt back then still lingers in my heart.
Whenever I feel like that, I… end up relieving my feelings in a slightly strange way.
“…”
I slipped my fingers inside my underwear and… caressed my clitoris.
“Hmm… uhn…”
The sexual pleasure that spread through my entire body as soon as I started rubbing.
The temporary pleasure made me forget my gloomy mood.
After Danger passed away, while I was working as usual, Ninya had said,
“If you’re feeling down, why don’t you try masturbating? Leni, you don’t have any experience yet, so I recommend clitoral masturbation.”
“Are you really trying to get me to report you to the guards for sexual harassment?”
At first, I thought it was just one of Ninya’s silly jokes.
But sometimes, when I felt really down, Ninya’s words would come to mind… and I would start masturbating.
I was hesitant at first, surprised by the unfamiliar pleasure… but as I did it more and more, I became dependent on that pleasure.
But I wasn’t completely addicted to it.
I set a time limit for myself when I masturbated.
I would gently rub and caress, surrendering to the weak but continuous pleasure.
I would continue that pleasure for 10 minutes.
It wasn’t intense, but it was a consistent pleasure.
Afterward, a faint afterglow would linger, making me feel better.
It had become a part of my routine…
And after work, before going to bed, I always started masturbating for 10 minutes, gently touching my clitoris.
Even though I touched it gently, it had been continuous, and my clitoris had become slightly larger than before.
The part that had been covered by the skin naturally came out as it grew.
…It wasn’t so big that it was bothersome, but I was scared by the change, so I went to the temple once a week to receive a full heal from Misha.
The stated reason for receiving the heal was for health management, as I was working almost every day.
Later, Ninya told me about a colleague of hers, a prostitute, in a sexually harassing way.
“There’s a girl who gets healed because she doesn’t like her clitoris getting bigger, you know? But it doesn’t work at all… isn’t that funny?”
…Of course, I still get healed regularly.
It makes my body feel better, not just my clitoris.
“Then… what happened to that prostitute?”
“Oh? You’re not going to call it sexual harassment today?”
“Just tell me.”
“There’s a clitoris-specific cosmetic sold on the streets at night~ If you use it, your sensitivity will increase a lot, but you can maintain a pretty shape. Well, if you get a succubus vulva tattoo, you don’t have to worry about that.
…I can give you one for free, Leni, if you want? Even if you don’t get a boyfriend, you can be prepared to get a lot of cum inside you~♪”
“I don’t need it. That’s sexual harassment, Ninya.”
In the end, that day, I disguised myself and went to an adult cosmetics store on the streets for the first time.
The effect of the cosmetic I bought… I think it worked.
As proof, my clitoris didn’t get any bigger…
“Hmm! Ugh…!”
Even with just a gentle touch, my sensitivity had increased to the point where I could easily feel it.
“Haa… haa…”
My masturbation would only produce a little bit of wetness.
I would stop after exactly 10 minutes.
Just as I was about to take my hand away from my clitoris.
The thought of Ninya crossed my mind.
“Ninya… she must have done it with Lant…”
I knew that Ninya specialized in fellatio at the succubus brothel.
There were even male adventurers in the Adventurer’s Guild who boasted about having received it from Ninya.
Recently, I heard people lamenting that Ninya had left the brothel…
Ninya’s attitude had also become much brighter after meeting Lant.
In the beginning, Ninya, who often sexually harassed me, had become more focused on attracting the attention of men rather than talking to me as her solo adventurer life continued.
Then she met Lant, went to the dungeon with him… and the next day, she was back to her old, cheerful self.
And the day after that, the way she looked at Lant was like that of a woman in love… I, who had known Ninya for a long time, could tell right away.
At first, I thought that Ninya had finally succumbed to her lust and pounced on Lant? But…
Looking at the reactions of Ninya, Lant, Elsie, and Noah, it didn’t seem like that was the case.
Even though she talked to me a little less, Ninya would still tease me, saying that I was on the fast track to becoming an old maid.
In the end, I’m still alone even when Ninya has a boyfriend.
Honestly, at this point, I thought it would be okay to live alone like this.
But even so, there was something I was curious about.
“What does intercourse with a man feel like…”
Ninya is definitely doing it with Lant.
Lant has definitely had relationships with Ninya, as well as Elsie, Noah… and Melissa and Tikia.
Almost every day.
Morning and evening. Recently, it’s after lunch, but he comes to the Adventurer’s Guild.
-Hello, Leni!
Lant would smile brightly, looking like a puppy…
“Ugh…!”
What is Lant like at night…?
Does he show a beast-like side at night, unlike his usual self?
Or does he treat women kindly, smiling gently as usual?
And… how big is Lant’s thing, considering his size…?
“Ugh… what am I even thinking…”
I shook my head and took my hand away from my clitoris.
What foolish things am I thinking?
It had already been 20 minutes since I started masturbating.
“This is the fifth time already…”
Recently, the number of times I think about Lant’s party while masturbating has increased.
And every time that happens, the time I spend masturbating unknowingly doubles.
The trigger… was when Lant first brought Melissa.
If he went out of his way to bring her all the way from his hometown, she must be Lant’s lover.
Moreover, seeing Melissa puffing up her cheeks slightly at the Adventurer’s Guild from time to time and Lant smiling at her, I was convinced.
These things have been happening more and more every time I see them directly.
Why is this happening?
I don’t know myself.
If I had to guess…
“Could it be… that I like Lant?”
But I immediately shook my head and denied that thought.
That can’t be.
Lant is definitely charming and wonderful.
The proof is the harem that Lant has built.
But I’m different.
I’m just a receptionist,
Lant is an adventurer.
Besides, I’m always determined to uphold the lesson given to the receptionists of the Adventurer’s Guild.
I can admit that I have a liking for Lant as a person, but as a romantic interest…
That’s impossible, and it’s almost shameful that someone like me would have such feelings.
In the first place, Lant might have lust for me, but he wouldn’t have any romantic interest.
Lant already has a harem of various people like Elsie, Noah, Ninya, Melissa, and Tikia.
Unlike Ninya, who is a half-elf and half-succubus, he wouldn’t be interested in me, a 28-year-old human…
When he first gave me the unique monster’s magic stone, he said that he felt more comfortable fulfilling my request to worry about him than taking the money…
After catching the Orc Champion, he had Kelban, who had an inventory, give me the Orc Champion steak so that I could eat it…
He showed me what he did during the flood using a special skill while smiling brightly…
Lant definitely wouldn’t have such feelings for me…
“Hmm!”
…I was touching my clitoris again without realizing it.
My underwear was wet with the fluid that had leaked out.
“Really… why has this been happening lately…? They say that women’s sex drive increases as they get older… is this it…”
I immediately shook my head.
No matter what, I’m not that old yet.
I want to believe that…
“Haa…”
I should just go to sleep.
I took off my wet underwear, wiped the fluid from between my legs, changed into new underwear, and went to sleep.
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The next day, at dawn.
It was still too early for people to be out and about.
I always wake up early to organize the endless paperwork that gets added every day.
I woke up, ate breakfast, washed myself briefly, got ready, and left my room.
Then, I walked towards the Adventurer’s Guild.
…I felt a gaze.
It wasn’t the gaze of ordinary people who were out at dawn or adventurers returning to their lodgings after spending the night.
It was a different kind of gaze…
A gaze that was secretly watching me.
I had been feeling this gaze for a week now.
A gaze that I suddenly started feeling one day.
I felt that gaze when I was leaving work as well.
The only times I didn’t feel it were when I was working at the Adventurer’s Guild and when I was back in my lodgings.
At all other times… I always felt that gaze.
But I could only feel the gaze.
I had no idea where it was coming from.
Perhaps it was due to a stealth skill that I couldn’t sense their presence.
I was usually sensitive to gazes, so I could feel it.
I could only feel the sensation, but I couldn’t pinpoint where the gaze was coming from.
At first, I thought it was just my imagination.
But when it continued for more than three days, I realized it was no longer my imagination.
The gaze continued.
It wasn’t focused on specific parts of my body, like my chest, butt, or crotch, but on my entire body.
If it had been focused on specific parts, I would have thought it was a pervert and asked for help…
But strangely, I didn’t feel any hostility or murderous intent in that gaze.
It was just looking.
Yes, it felt like a gaze that was just looking.
But even that, when it continued for more than a week… I started to feel a little scared.
What was their purpose?
I couldn’t figure it out at all.
It wasn’t a gaze that made me feel like I was being harmed, but the continuous, unidentified gaze made me feel uneasy.
The moment I entered the Adventurer’s Guild, the gaze would disappear as if by magic, and I would sigh in relief.
“Haa…”
I thought that this couldn’t continue.
I thought it would be best to ask another adventurer for help by making a personal request today.
And as usual, I finished the early morning paperwork, greeted Mejina, who had come to work, and then dealt with the adventurers who came to the Adventurer’s Guild early in the morning.
While dealing with the adventurers, I thought about who to ask for help.
Should I ask a rogue-type adventurer who is sensitive to stealth skills or searching?
As I was thinking that.
“Hello, Leni!”
“Hello, Lant.”
Lant’s party had arrived.
“Which floor are you going to today?”
I asked Lant the usual question.
Lant’s party probably has Tikia today, so they can go to the 6th floor again.
No, since it’s Lant, they might go to the 8th or 9th floor right away.
I was waiting for Lant’s answer when.
“……?”
Lant tilted his head.
“Leni.”
“Yes, Lant.”
“Is something wrong?”
Lant’s question hit the nail on the head, and my body flinched reflexively.
