Chapter 227 – Wouldn’t I Be Angry if I Was Like You!? (8)
When Choi Min-seok was talking about dreaming, I wondered what nonsense he was talking about, but at the few words he said, the ‘truth’ that had been buried beneath my consciousness came flooding in like a wave.
And, before he could accept the absurd reality, he jumped to the toilet and put his head down and vomited for a long time at the dizziness and disgusting sensation that came up like crazy.
“Haha..”
With nothing more to come out, I vomited a few more times before I could barely catch my breath.
‘Why..’
My head is dizzy.
He quickly understood that his relationship with Choi Min-seok was a hypnotized fake, and that he had been thoroughly fooled.
However, the problem was that even if he understood it, the feelings he had felt all along did not disappear.
He was an annoying opponent to begin with, but as we came face to face with him a few times, we became close.
All of my friends are going to college and are busy living, but the relationship was created while I was feeling anxious and lonely in a situation where I was the only one who failed the civil service exam and was preparing to take the exam again without being sure that I would pass again.
Although he did not show it, it was also true that he gained a lot of mental comfort and comfort while living with Choi Min-seok.
Intimacy as a friend and gratitude for being helped. The sense of betrayal to the point of shivering from the fact that it was all a fake relationship continued to mess with the disharmony.
‘You bastard.. Why did you do it to me…’
Choi Min-seok is resentful. Reasonably, he himself deserved to resent him, and he had nothing to say even if he was stabbed as he said.
Even so, deep-rooted emotions continued to put the brakes on my anger and made me not know what to do.
‘What do we do..?’
Even in a dizzying situation where her reason and emotions were entangled, Mina Kim tried to think as rationally as possible.
If she was just going to play with herself, she would just have to keep her hypnotized and enjoy herself. Why on earth did she reveal the truth and make things this way?
Even if she has come now, in order for her to have a true relationship with herself? No, that’s too sentimental thinking. It was just a wish rather than a guess.
But she still couldn’t come up with a plausible answer as to why she needed to break the hypnosis.
After all, the first thing I thought of, to have a true relationship even now.. Is that the correct answer? Otherwise, there was no benefit Choi Min-seok could gain by releasing the hypnosis.
‘..Let’s skip this part for now.’
If you don’t know ‘why’, you should at least decide ‘how’.
Hypnosis. No matter how much I think about it, I can’t even tell when or how it happened. Even now, if Choi Min-seok was trying to hypnotize him, it meant that he had no way to resist.
‘Escape… It’s not something that can be solved by running away.’
If Choi Min-seok does not intend to let him go, he has already been given his home address, and as he did in Gosiwon, the moment he unknowingly tries to hypnotize him, that is the end.
Then, isn’t the current self hypnotized? The fact that she couldn’t even be sure of that made Kim Min-a’s heart even heavier.
‘Whatever it is, I have to solve it here.’
Even if there was a way to safely escape from here and not be hypnotized, he had to have a proper conversation with Choi Min-seok.
Although the period of being together was short, can she live with the feeling of betrayal of her best friend for the rest of her life? And that, in a situation where emotions beyond his control keep trying to defend him?
No matter how much you think about it, it’s unreasonable.
Even if you go to the extreme and think that you stepped on shit once, you won’t be able to properly grumble unless you can sort out these infested feelings yourself.
Whatever it was, it was necessary to have a proper conversation with Choi Min-seok once to find out what was inside, to properly define this feeling and set it aside so that it could be judged objectively.
‘..How long have you been like this?’
It seems like it has been a long time, and it seems like it hasn’t been too long. In any case, it was certain that he was in such a state of dizziness that he could not even roughly guess the time.
“Ha..”
Staggering to raise her body, Mina Kim frowned at her exhilarating sigh as she had eaten all of her insides, and she rinsed her mouth for a while without going out.
And, without being able to properly organize her emotions, she left her bathroom and sat across from Choi Min-seok again.
The more I listened to Choi Min-seok’s story, the more I could feel her emotions getting colder.
The reason she was hypnotized was because she wanted to have herself completely. She said that the way to completely possess herself is to make herself a dream demon, and since hypnosis does not work with dream demons, she decided to release the hypnosis in advance and release her emotions.
I felt a little complicated about the part where Choi Min-seok showed possessiveness towards him, but the words that followed only made Kim Min-ah uncomfortable.
Hypnosis ability, health, appearance, money… Every time I list the things I can get if I compromise with myself and become a dreamer, I get irritated.
Things that can’t be done with money if you look at each condition. It was so good that I wondered if anyone would accept it even if I had to quit being human and be treated as a slave, but the answer I wanted was not under those conditions.
‘You want..?’
Mina Kim, who was trying to control her emotions with her body lowered and her face covered, was startled by her sudden thought and her shoulders trembled.
If there is an answer she wants, what is her true intention? What kind of answer do you want to hear?
I don’t know. Unable to answer her own feelings, she spat out questions as they popped into her head.
“..Why are you obsessed with me while going so far? Is it because I have a pretty face? To be honest, there are girls in the world who are prettier and have better bodies than me. You really just want it? You have to have everything you want to get rid of your temper? Is that why?”
There is a degree of her self-awareness about her own appearance.
Looking at her objectively, her own appearance was enough to make her confident, so it doesn’t make sense to say that Choi Min-seok showed her possessiveness.
But why go this far? Right now, the atmosphere has become chilly, so I’ve been cursing for a while. Even with the fraudulent ability of hypnosis, is it necessary?
It may not be that many, but considering that there are many women as pretty as or even prettier than herself, she doesn’t have to show her possessiveness only to herself.
Min-seok Choi, who met eyes with a serious face, was silent for a moment as if he was arranging his words, and then opened his mouth.
“I want it. Really, that’s all. If you search like you said, you can find any number of pretty girls, but what I want right now is you, not another woman.”
At first glance, it sounded like a proposal, but when you understand the situation inside, it was no different than a statement admitting that you are garbage.
“I cut ties with my family, so I had no place to lean on, and I lived like a dead person, going back and forth between work and home without knowing anyone in another country. It was a relationship that started with hypnosis, and it was a selfish idea, but it was fun and comfortable to have someone I could be close to. You’re the only one like that, so I really want you.”
“…”
It sounds plausible, but in the end, it’s just a one-sided relationship where you think on your own terms.
‘But why…’
My heart is beating like it’s broken, and my face is burning.
Obviously a bad guy It’s garbage that took my body and released my sexual desire at will. He thought that he hated him in his head, but when he said that he considered himself special, he felt an epileptic feeling that was difficult to express in words.
‘Crazy, really…’
Or maybe I’m already under a new hypnosis. In any case, it was clear that he was not in his right mind.
‘I already fell for you.’
It was just a thought I had while under hypnosis, but I thought of him as a friend. It’s a little special friend who only mixes his body to relieve his desire.
I’ve never thought of a relationship beyond that. He just wasn’t aware of it. In fact, I was already completely in love.
Otherwise, there was no way to explain how he was feeling right now.
When I had a hard time at work, the first thought I had was that I wanted to see Choi Min-seok, and the day I made an appointment to meet him, my heart was pounding so hard that I couldn’t sleep properly. After meeting, I felt so good, and I even felt that I wanted to be together even a little more.
It was the attitude of treating loved ones no matter who saw it.
“A real piece of trash.”
In response to her resentment, she glared at Choi Min-seok with the most ferocious eyes and muttered.
I seemed to understand a little bit the feelings of the women I only saw on TV who couldn’t bear to leave even though they were suffering from being wronged by trashy men.
I’m still not sure why it’s good. It could be because he has a good-looking face or because he has a good body, or because he has a big penis, strong energy, or good sex.
It was an overly promiscuous and snobbish standard, but it could not be said that there was no stake in the sexual part.
But the biggest reason is that even though it was a hypnotically manipulated relationship, he was with me when I was having a hard time. It made my hard heart feel better, and sometimes it even made me happy. It must have been that the accumulated emotions turned into affection like this.
“Do you mean something like that…? Shouldn’t you at least lie about liking it?”
“I already have a sin, but I can’t cheat again.”
This bastard doesn’t know a woman’s heart, but he doesn’t know too much. Sometimes, even though you know it’s a lie, there are things you want to hear.
“Then shouldn’t it be like that from the beginning… Is it okay if I pretend to be conscientious halfway through? Do you feel like your conscience is being taken care of while doing trash?”
“…”
When I got pissed off and shot her again, I shut her mouth tightly, as if I had nothing to say.
“..Hey.”
“Uh, why?”
“Well, what exactly is going on with making it a dream horse? Looking at making it yours, isn’t it really just like a slave contract? If you’re going to die, isn’t it something you really have to die for?”
“That’s right… But I’ll never make you do anything you don’t like. I can promise you.”
“What about a promise… After all, if you go and lay down a steel plate and order something you don’t like, you can’t protest and you don’t have to do what you’re told.”
“..That’s right. Anyway, I promise.”
“If I really… Had a lot of money, I’d throw it away without worrying about it…”
He gave off an atmosphere that he would accept it in moderation by mentioning the money that he had ignored and annoyed earlier.
Come to think of it, I like you. No matter how much I hate and get angry, I want to be with you. I couldn’t say that, so it was an excuse that I spewed out without even knowing myself.
“I’m not going to do it right away. I’m going to listen and decide exactly what’s going on.”
Even if you don’t become a dreamer, you might be able to continue your relationship with Choi Min-seok. However, she wanted it to be a little more sticky and special if they were to rekindle their relationship.
‘Try to cheat a little. I’ll even give you a real knife.’
In my heart, I did not forget to make a promise that would make Choi Min-seok thrilled if he heard it.
On such a subject, right before that, she complained inwardly, saying that she wanted to hear that she liked her even if it was a lie, but she moved on without realizing her own contradiction.
