Chapter 0 – The Situation of Eunji Lee, a Poor Female College Student.
The world is really unfair.
It’s so unfair that sometimes I wish the world was fake.
My day has always been the same.
A day of going back and forth between school and part-time jobs as if spinning on a treadmill.
In my early twenties, my youth, which is said to be the most brilliant in life, was tired and poverty-stricken.
When my classmates drank 5,000 won a cup coffee at Starbucks, I drank 800 won let’s be at a convenience store.
While my friends were cutting 20,000-30,000 won steaks, I ate ramen in my small room.
When they bloomed with stories of domestic and overseas travel, I looked for a part-time job that I could do more.
It’s such an unfair world.
I didn’t even want a fluke like suddenly winning the lottery.
I had never bought a lottery ticket, and I couldn’t afford to buy one.
Just.
I just wanted to live as much as everyone else.
I thought that when I became a college student, I would get out of this disgusting poverty.
So, while struggling, I got a full scholarship and ran away to university.
The poverty that followed me did not leave me alone.
Even if the tuition is covered by the scholarship, the monthly rent and living expenses are the same.
In addition, because of the extremely difficult family situation, I had to send 300,000 won every month to my family.
My early 20’s were so unfortunate.
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My name is Eunji Lee.
It seems that the department calls her a goddess.
But to me, it was just a cumbersome modifier, and I wasn’t happy with it at all.
Just thinking about my freshman days made me shudder.
Every time the lecture was over, a man I didn’t know came up to me and asked for my number.
I’ve heard countless confessions of dating, and I’ve heard dozens of times asking to eat together.
Male seniors tried to buy me everything.
There were many seniors who said they would show rice, coffee, and even a movie.
Among the dogs, there was a senior who took care of my birthday without saying anything or gave me a gift out of the blue.
It wasn’t bad at first. No, it was good
I don’t even have money to eat, so I only eat ramen every day, so I accepted it with a grateful heart.
But what came back to me was the modifier slut.
And there were only cold and sharp vitriols from male seniors who failed to achieve their goals.
‘The fisherman who only uses it’
‘A slut who sells laughter to everyone’
‘A rude bitch who won’t accept anything if you don’t give her a present.’
There were even rumors that he would have to pay 10 million won to sleep with me once.
Got fed up
It’s hard on the body because of the part-time job that cuts down on sleep time, but hearing such words even at school made me feel like I was going to go crazy.
From then on, I dropped out of all school activities.
OT, MT, after party, book street, etc.
In the first place, there was no leisure or time to participate in such useless gatherings.
After school, I bowed my head and ran to a part-time job.
2 years like that.
Now, the modifier “Ice,” Not rag, was added to the nickname “Goddess,” And no one approached her.
Seniors as well as friends.
“Ha..”
On my way home after finishing my part-time job.
I sighed as I looked at the bank statements on my cell phone.
Utility bills and monthly rent have been withdrawn, and the money remaining in the bank account is only 100,000 won.
I had to endure 10 days with this for Albabie to come in.
“I’m sick of it…”
I thought I should boil water instead of buying it this month.
There was a time when I was tired of this kind of beggarly life and thought about the bad way.
When I was called a slut by my seniors.
It’s such an image anyway, but is it really like that? I thought.
However, I did not want to be placed under men who sold laughter or gave me money against my will.
So she worked even harder to find a part-time job and cherished it.
It didn’t make it any better though.
“You held up well today..”
I muttered while holding the door to my bedroom.
When I opened the door, a familiar smell hit me.
It smelled like mildew, but it felt like my body, which had been tense all day, was released in an instant.
“Let’s move quickly.. I have a part-time job tomorrow morning too..”
I laughed and took off my clothes.
I wanted to wash myself quickly.
It’s the most peaceful time of my day and my favorite time.
When I take a shower, I feel good because all the bad things that happened outside are washed away.
-Shaaa
A warm stream of water swept down the body.
A comfortable feeling that makes your whole body tingle.
Without thinking, I stood in a daze for 5 minutes while being hit by the stream of water.
By the time my whole body was getting tired, I lathered it up with body wash.
“…What do you do if you have a good body?”
When I was working part-time today, I remembered what my part-time job sister said.
[Are you exercising every day? I have a good body.]
I couldn’t help but laugh bitterly at her words.
If I had time to exercise, I would be doing another part-time job.
I saw my reflection in the foggy mirror.
Puffy? No, it’s a chest that’s too big to hold with one hand. And the elastic nipples were pointing upwards.
The smooth line without the flab that falls from the chest to the stomach further accentuated the large breasts.
In addition, perhaps because I had lifted a lot of heavy things, my buttocks were also sticking up.
“Hmm..”
It certainly wasn’t bad from what I’ve seen.
Even compared to the pictorial photos of celebrities I saw on the Internet yesterday, I couldn’t be bothered.
I squeezed my breasts, which were slippery in the soap bubbles, with one hand.
“It’s okay..”
Come to think of it, it’s been over a month since I didn’t masturbate because I was working part-time every day.
A moan came out just by lightly brushing her nipples.
“Ha.. No.. I have to get up early tomorrow too..”
His chest, his belly, and his hands that were sweeping under them were grabbed by reason.
It seemed that if I touched that place, I would not be able to control it.
I shook my head to get rid of dirty thoughts and quickly finished the shower.
Every time the stream of water touched my sensitive body, it seemed like something was seeping out from below, but I tried to ignore it.
I have to live a busy day tomorrow too.
Sleep was more important than feeling a little better now.
As soon as I finished showering, I immediately went to bed.
“…I hate sleeping.”
My body was so tired that I thought I could fall asleep if I closed my eyes, but I couldn’t fall asleep easily.
If you go to sleep, tomorrow morning will start.
“I also want to chat while drinking coffee at a cafe.. I want to eat meat.. I want to eat chicken too..”
Just thinking about it made me hungry.
Besides, the more I thought about it, the more miserable I felt and the more I felt like crying.
“I hope something good happens tomorrow.”
I clutched my hungry stomach and fell asleep like that.