Chapter 397 – I’ll Allow You to Hurt Me (2)
Eun-yul has arrived.
When she saw Seo Ju-hwan’s face, she smiled brightly and held out a beautifully wrapped box.
“What’s this?”
“It’s a gift for my brother.”
“Can I open it?”
“Yeah, sure. It’s kind of embarrassing, but….”
Inside the box was a neck pillow with a panda character design. There was a button on the side of the pillow, and when I put it on my neck and pressed the button, the massager moved.
“How about it? Because writers always sit at their desks… I picked it because I have a bad neck…….”
Her honest impressions of her didn’t seem to help much. Rather than using a massager, it would be more effective to knead the neck a couple of times using the ‘sacred touch’ on your own.
However, Seo Ju-hwan smiled and expressed his gratitude.
“It is a practical gift. Thanks to you, Yul won’t have a stiff neck. Do you like it.”
“Whew, I’m glad. I was very worried.”
“I’ll write well. Thank you.”
“Hehe. Compared to what my brother did, it’s nothing special.”
“By the way, Yul, what is that?”
Seo Joo-hwan pointed to the plastic bag in Eun-yul’s hand.
“Oh, these are snacks and beer. When oppa writes, I wonder if he needs it. Or, you can eat it now…….”
“Besides snacks, beer?”
What, are you talking about writing while drinking? No, the more important thing is to eat together. That must be the real heart.
Seo Joo-hwan looked at Eun-yul with narrow eyes.
“Yul, are you going to drink?”
“Oh no! Mine is non-alcoholic beer!”
Eun-yul hurriedly waved his hand her. A patient in a psychiatric hospital should refrain from drinking alcohol, which can cause emotional ups and downs.
‘As expected, I brought it to eat with you.’
Seo Joo-hwan laughed at her reaction to her.
“I’m glad. Come in once Don’t stand still.”
“Yes, yes.”
Eun-yul calmed her beating heart and entered the house. It was the first time in his life that he entered the house of a man living alone.
‘Brother’s house…….’
Again, roll your eyes and examine the structure of the house. One door was open. From the bed visible through the crack in the door, it seemed that there was a sleeping room.
‘Then this is the bathroom, what is the other one? Oh, it’s a workshop.’
She had never been home, but she had heard of a separate studio.
‘I want to go in.’
What does your studio look like? It was time to stare at the closed door like that.
“Yul, what are you doing there?”
“Oh, nothing!”
Eun-yul quickly followed Seo Ju-hwan.
*
Seo Joo-hwan and Eun-yul had a brief conversation and ate beer and dry snacks. Of course, what Eunyul drank was non-alcoholic beer.
And after 30 minutes.
Eun-yul’s face turned red.
Seo Joo-hwan suddenly realized the fact and asked in a hopeless way.
“Yul, are you drunk?”
“Yes? Aha, I’m weak in alcohol, but I’m not drunk without alcohol.”
Saying that, Eun-yul sips and takes another sip.
She stuck out her tongue and picked up her snack.
“This is written. Non-alcoholic tastes the same as the real thing…”
“Give me that.”
“Oh?”
Seo Joo-hwan snatched the beer can from her hand. The can was light as if it had been the last sip a while ago. He quickly checked the ingredients label.
ALC. 4.5%
It was non-alcoholic.
‘Could it be all two cans?’
Just in case, I checked the cans I had previously drank. Should I say I’m lucky The first beer I drank was non-alcoholic. When I confirmed that fact, it was rather absurd.
“Did you drink a can and get so red?”
“Neh?”
“Oh, won’t you pronounce it right? You’ve been drinking, alcohol.”
“? Aha, I must have made a mistake. You and my brother, you misunderstood!”
Eunyul applauded as if she realized something great. Anyone could see that he was drunk.
Seo Joo-hwan laughed and shook his head.
“You are very weak. It’s completely alright.”
“Alth?”
“Alcohol trash.”
After saying that, Eunyul suddenly burst into tears.
“Ugh, garbage… ?”
Cry cry The pitiful, wounded eyes looked at him.
Seo Ju-hwan hurriedly waved his hand.
“No, that’s not what I meant, Yulia.
“Ugh, I’m trash. Alone, can’t do anything, garbage…….”
Did I get completely drunk with just one can of beer? Eun-yul suddenly started sobbing as if some kind of seizure button had been pressed. It was not just his expression that made him cry, he was really full of tears. She lowered her head as if to slam her head into her table.
“Yula, it’s not like that. Why are you trash?”
“Huh…….”
“No one ever said that to you. So don’t cry.”
“… I did.”
“Yes? What are you doing?”
Eun-yul raised her head and spoke as she shed tears again.
“To me, curse… I did! Garbage!”
“What?”
Seo Joo-hwan looked at her with her surprised face. Could it be that she recently met someone she recognized?
From what soon followed, he could see that this was not the case.
“On the Internet… They still call me a drug idol, a whore… It’s trash… Obviously not, I explained…….”
“…….”
“Once you get stigmatized, that’s it. Everyone thinks of me as that kind of person…….”
“… Yul, have you been browsing the Internet lately?”
“I wonder if it has calmed down a bit…….”
Seo Joo-hwan finally understood Eun-yul’s reaction to her and touched his forehead of her. The words I saw on the Internet and the alcohol were suppressed, and my heart burst.
‘To be quiet.’
Can it be
It’s been less than a year since the girl group ‘Swing Lady’ disbanded. At least half a year has passed. It may be enough time to not be mentioned any more if it is a tolerable controversy, but in the case of Swing Lady, the incident was so big that it was not even close.
Sponsors of drugs, school violence, and sexual favors.
Even if there is only one, it is a serious controversy, but it has achieved the triple crown. It was going to be talked about as a negative example for at least a dozen years, maybe for the rest of my life.
[I don’t understand why I searched the Internet like an idiot. Knowing that there will be no good stories.]
‘… I understand a little bit.’
I agree with Lucy that looking at the internet is stupid. However, I could guess the psychology to some extent. Wouldn’t it be similar to a writer searching for his own work her?
‘Because you search even though you know there is nothing good about it. Because I’m curious.’
Curiosity is the problem. People inevitably care about the gaze of others and feel curious about what they think of me. So you will do a search. It’s better not to know, but you can’t control yourself.
Seo Ju-hwan swallowed a sigh and patted Eun-yul on the back.
“Yul, don’t mind those words. That’s what people who don’t know you say.”
“Is that so?”
“Of course. Yul, how pretty and kind you are. Joohee, Sua, Gahi, and Seulgi all think that way.”
“… What about your brother?”
“Yes?”
“Brother, what do you think of me?”
Eun-yul suddenly looked back at him. She looked at him with her watery eyes and urged her answer.
“I…”
Seo Ju-hwan, who was speechless, answered with a bitter smile.
“I think you are ‘another me’.”
“… Yes?”
Eun-yul’s eyes were full of doubts. He couldn’t understand the meaning.
He slumped back in his chair and said with a subtle face.
“It may offend you to say this, but I put a lot of my old self on you.”
“… I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Listen. I’m going to tell you something about the old days. I feel like I have to repeat what I said in my acceptance speech today.”
Seo Joo-hwan told her about her old story of her. Did the speech you gave at the award ceremony have a psychological impact on you? Even though he talked about his unfortunate days of her, he did not feel depressed.
As the story continued, Eun-yul’s eyes her were colored with surprise.
“Oh, did you have a time like that?”
“Why? Don’t you believe it?”
“Yeah… Oppa is good at everything, and there are many people around him…….”
“They are all friends I met in college. When I was in middle school, I was bullied throughout the school. Thanks to that, like I just said, I suffered from panic disorder as well as social phobia and depression. Yul, do you remember the first time we met?”
“Yes Yes. I had a seizure in front of my house…….”
“Did I give you first aid right away? The reason I was good at it was because I had it myself. In the same vein, many of the symptoms of mental illness that the main character suffered from in the beginning of Eunah Healing were taken from my own experience.”
“…….”
“My family didn’t know that I had a seizure. I endured to solve it by myself without going to the hospital. Don’t tell me where to go.”
“Of course!”
Eun-yul hurriedly nodded her head.
Seo Joo-hwan smiled a little at Eun-yul. A past that was difficult for her to confide in others. Among his women, only Jeong Ha-yeon knows the details.
But now it’s okay. It wasn’t something to brag about, but at least the immersion in negative emotions during the story has disappeared.
And he wanted to bring this change to Eun-yul as well.
“Yul, I think you can too. I met good people, and thanks to those connections, I was able to overcome my illness. So I want to be such a good friend to you, who is similar to the old me. If possible, I want to make your dream of becoming a singer come true. That’s why I’ve been helping you until now.”
Seo Joo-hwan conveyed sincerity without any lies.
However, she drew her line her to her while hiding one thing in her mind her.
[Are you saying that helping you is just goodwill stemming from sympathy? Actually, the master likes this woman quite, no, quite? A lot of? I like her, but leave it out.]
‘Lucy.’
[Yes, I will shut up. Just one more word.]
‘What?’
[Eunyul’s condition is strange.]
‘What?’
That was the moment.
[The subject, ‘Eun-yul’s favorability rises to A.]
[The target, ‘Eun-yul’s affinity rises to A+.]
I clearly drew a line, but my liking increased.
Eun-yul in front of him was looking at him with tears dripping down his face. Maybe it was because he was drunk or because he was wet, his eyes of her were strangely clear.
Seo Joo-hwan felt something strange and swallowed his saliva.
Eunyul’s lips her, which had been closed, parted.
