Chapter 37 – Episode 37. I Have No Iron Walls
To Lee Si-yeon, who secretly asked me to cook rice cakes, I answered.
“Sorry. I have to go to the academy class tomorrow morning.”
There were quite a few people passing by on the street at night, but it was a fairly noisy street, and since Siyeon and I were talking at close intervals, other people didn’t pay much attention.
There will be study tomorrow and classes at the academy.
The study meeting starts around 8:40, and the academy class starts around 9:00.
However, despite my euphemistic refusal, Siyeon Lee continued to talk to me.
“Oppa, I’ll wake you up early~. Seriously. Can’t we just have one drink?”
“Hmm…”
I thought for a moment.
And the demonstration convinced me again.
“I’m really confident in waking up early. You know that the store I work in opens much earlier than the academy classes start, right?”
It will.
As far as I know, rice balls restaurants are much earlier than 9:00, when academy classes start.
I thought about it some more after listening to Siyeon’s words.
Then Siyeon spoke up.
“After the sanitation worker, I’m coming in second place~. Leave it to me.”
I was troubled.
As Siyeon said, wouldn’t it be okay to play in a way that doesn’t interfere with real learning?
The thought was getting more and more.
It may be a kind of rationalization that I give myself.
Certainly, as Xiyeon says, at first glance I may appear undisturbed in my immediate learning tomorrow.
First of all, if you wake up early.
Regardless of whether it’s a day off work or a day off, Siyeon must have a habit of waking up much earlier than me to some degree.
“Brother, I will never interfere with you preparing for the test, I am only with you today.”
Siyeon entered me with arms crossed.
Waking up early and attending study and academy is just possible if she wakes up early and wakes me up, or even if I just wake up early on my own.
In fact, it may be more difficult to control a little after that.
When you meet people, you become addicted to people.
Even if you get along well without people in the first place, if you are addicted to people, there are times when you become lonely without people.
I met a lot of women, so I can control it to some extent.
Then.
As Siyeon said, would you like to be with her just for today?
‘It’s good.’
When she came in with her arms crossed while sleeping with me, I felt pretty good.
A strange woman wanting me and making skinship is something you might think of when you hear it in words, but when your body actually touches each other, it heats up.
This may have been because he had a certain level of control as well as mine.
‘Okay, have a drink, let’s beat. Let’s just overdo it today, get up early tomorrow and play a spin.’
Following her successive persuasion by Lee Si-yeon, I thought of her and her crush.
And she gave her her word.
“Yes. Let’s just have one drink today. But, there is a condition.”
When I floated my luck, Siyeon looked at me and asked.
“What is it, brother?”
“After today, if you can refrain from meeting like this in private.”
Demonstration thought a little.
And answered me
“I’m fine, brother.”
Demonstration continued.
“If I say no, you’ll just leave today, right? Rather than that, I’d rather have a brother tonight.”
In this way, an agreement that can satisfy each other through mutual consultation is completed.
And Siyeon and I went for a drink.
It felt pretty good to walk close together with Siyeon, who came in with her arms crossed.
While walking together to a place to drink, Siyeon and I started talking.
“Thanks to my brother, I’m glad I was able to hit the part-time job a little later.”
“Were you originally going to quit?”
“Yes.”
Demonstration continued.
“I think that’s been the case with all of making money up until now. The more you do it, the more stress you build up, and when that builds up, you quit.”
“Um. It could be.”
“Brother, by the way, stress really builds up one by one, but none of the balances accumulate in the account? To accumulate, either must accumulate.”
Haha, uh, that’s right~”
“Hohoho! That’s right~.”
I walked along laughing along with the jokes that Siyeon made.
I liked being with her more than anything else in her.
As if she liked being close to me, she was walking with me, with her arms crossed deep into me.
When we were almost at the bar we were going to, Siyeon started talking to me.
“Brother.”
“Uh.”
“Then, next time I come to a rice ball restaurant, I’ll just say hello. Even if we meet separately on the street, we’ll just say hello. No more interrupting my brother’s civil service studies.”
“Hmm.”
“But are you really running with me today? And after the exams in April, think about it with me again.”
I could have just said ok right there.
But I was honest with her.
“It’s true that I’m running with you today. But after the exams in April, I can’t guarantee it.”
“Um~.”
Siyeon thought for a moment before answering my words.
“Okay, well, today is important. Run!”
“Whoops, then. Just enough to not interfere tomorrow.”
Demonstration has definitely confirmed my words.
In fact, they know it too.
How many women will I be popular with like a storm.
So, for a handsome man like me, there are many cases where women don’t try to monopolize me unless they have a strong pride.
There are innumerable cases so far in which they were greatly satisfied with me even if they only had me for one day.
We decided to go to a bar together.
The place we came to was a meat restaurant.
There were quite a few people in the restaurant.
In a very noisy atmosphere, people were sitting in groups of threes and threes at their respective tables and chatting noisily.
When you want a lively atmosphere, I think this type of meat restaurant is better.
For some reason, I wanted to come to a place like this today.
Maybe it’s the beginning of a person’s addiction.
After spending her quality time with her Yun-Kyung, I let her go.
And I meet Siyeon and talk a little bit.
So it seems that people are starting to miss me a little bit.
Perhaps, as my feelings escalate more and more, I will continue to meet people, and I will continue to feel the desire to open my heart to people.
Whether it’s casual conversation, constructive talk, communication between friends, or skinship between the opposite sex.
Fortunately, I can control it to some extent, so there may not be much trouble with studying tomorrow.
However, it can certainly be difficult in the long run.
Also, in the past, I have often been caught up in this kind of addiction to people.
Especially in my early 20s, when I was in the early days of meeting many women, I had quite a few such experiences.
When I think of that time, I also think that there may come a day in the future when I fall in love with emotions like that.
However, I plan to adapt when the moment comes when I cannot control it.
Hmm…
The wind of emotions blowing from inside of me may someday come when it becomes difficult to block it on my own.
Those days when you can’t get your hands on anything even if you try to resist it.
When those days come, it may be better to just surrender to your feelings than to do nothing.
I plan to work even harder now, even in preparation for a situation in which I will not be able to study as well as I am now when that day comes.
It’s because if I study a lot at a time like now when I’m in control, the amount I have to study will be reduced when that moment comes.
For now, for a short time tonight, Siyeon and I decided to have a drink together and indulge in it.
Siyeon Lee and I chatted in an excited atmosphere as we grilled the meat on a large square grill and ate a glass of soju each.
“Brother, come on!”
“Ah~.”
A wine glass and a wine glass collide with each other.
Chi-Ik-, and the meat was fully cooked on the fire, I grilled her meat and served it to her demonstration, and while I ate it, I told her and her stories.
Told many stories
Perhaps, if someone saw the demonstration with me, it might seem like it would be difficult to see them talking privately like this for the first time.
It could be seen as a place for natural meat consumption, drinking, and conversation.
Such naturalness is created together with each other.
If a certain seat is uncomfortable, it may be that I am uncomfortable because I do not like the other person, or that the other person does not openly say anything to me, but the other person thinks badly of me, so I can subtly feel that feeling.
It’s good to be with people you like.
In a situation where one side does not like being with the other, it is not so easy to change the atmosphere unless the other side makes an unilateral effort and then roasts and boils the other side with a fairly good conversational technique.
So, the time when the wall of awkwardness blocking each other between Siyeon and I worked was very short.
It was only a little awkward at first, and as the alcohol went on, the awkwardness between me and her went somewhere in an instant and disappeared.
And we enjoy talking together as if we had been together for a long time.
I could see that Lee Si-yeon showed a fairly universal reaction to me.
For the most part, these many women have no barriers to the respectable me.
Even if they are tolerable women with iron walls, they become very kind and lively people to me, as if they almost left that iron wall at home.
I got to know the demonstration little by little while drinking and sharing various stories.
“Why is it all about rice balls?”
“I thought I shouldn’t eat breakfast? So I’m going to eat a simple rice ball in the morning and work. I can make my own lunch too.”
As I got a little more comfortable, I told Siyeon to put down words and talk as she felt comfortable.
By the way, Siyeon is pretty skinny, so it looks like she eats one meal a day, but it was a bit surprising that she eats a full breakfast.
Come to think of it, there are some people who are physically a bit skinny.
Whether it’s a man or a woman, whether they eat a lot or fast, it seems that those who get fat get fat and those who don’t get fat.
Genetic influence seems to be large.
I chimed in with Siyeon’s words.
“Wow, working there to eat. It’s really surprising. Aren’t there many other delicious places?”
Siyeon smiled and narrowed her eyes slightly.
“Umm~, it’s hard to find a job in the restaurant, but it’s hard to find a morning job, oppa. I don’t like convenience store food, so I don’t really want to work there, and restaurants don’t open 24 hours, but they open around 11 o’clock.”
It seems pretty strategic.
Living in a gosichon, the cost of food is quite high.
If you pay 5,000 won for a meal and 15,000 won a day, that is 450,000 won for a month.
If you work at a place that provides 2 meals, you will be able to save 300,000 won on food expenses.
It is difficult to see that 300,000 won is such a large amount of money for an office worker, but it is a considerable amount for a high school student.
I asked the demonstration.
“But even if it’s delicious at first, don’t you get tired of it if you eat it for a long time?”
“If I get tired of it, I’ll beat you up here.”
Siyeon ate the meat and spoke with a smile.
Haha, ah, yeah? Move to a restaurant where you can eat a more delicious menu?”
“I’m kidding~, kidding. I need to make money~.”
We never stopped laughing at each other.
Even if we just talk about normal things, it seems like a fun place to be if you like the person you are with.
A little later, I also asked.
“I have a question for you.”
“Huh.”
“When you make and eat alone, what do you usually make?”
This question stemmed from a little bit of curiosity about what the employee-recommended menu was like.
Generally, the person working in the store would be familiar with all the menu items.
Demonstration replied.
“Me? Um~, Ah~. Right! Right. Originally, I really liked tuna and mayo, right?”
“Uh.”
“But after eating it, I don’t get tired of the soybean paste and it’s the most delicious.”
Tofu miso rice balls… It seems to have been in the new menu corner, but I haven’t tried it.
“Haven’t you tried that? There are so many menus.”
“A real recommendation.”
“I’ll have to try it next time. If it’s not delicious, can I get a refund because it’s your brother?”
At my words, Lee Si-yeon says with a straight face as a joke.
“Brother? What do you mean, sir?”
Haha, ah, what is it?
The time at the meat restaurant was more ripe.
Our chopsticks, which had been eating meat for a long time, became a bit blunt, and the direction of the side dishes slightly changed to soybean paste stew and steamed egg with a glass of soju.
The meat, which was not much left, cooled down a little along with the vegetables on the front plate, but the atmosphere between me and Lee Si-yeon improved even more.
“Have you ever been hunted or something like that while working?”
“There have been times like that, and there have been times when people openly ask for your number, but there are a lot of them.”
“Like what?”
“Uh~, should I say flirting?”
“How?”
“You can come and buy what’s on the menu, but you’re just talking nonsense.”
Demonstration continued.
“Ha~, even though it’s obvious to look at it, there are people who brag about themselves by saying that they are different from other high school students, and when there are no customers, there are strange people who come to the store and even offer to sing for me~. There are all kinds of people, really. .”
Haha, ah~, there are them everywhere, those guys who make a fuss.”
There seem to be many cases like that.
But maybe, if those nuisance men were super-nuclear respectable men, they could be cute even if they were bluffing.
Also, singing a song out of the blue can be funny, or it can feel like an event to the other person.
Everything seems relative sometimes.
She even asked me as she picked up a piece of pumpkin in her soybean paste stew with her chopsticks, talking about the many similar hunting experiences she had experienced.
“How is your brother? Have you ever been hunted?”
