Returned to Being Handsome 212

Chapter 212 – Chapter 212. Living as Extras -4

‘What the hell did I do wrong?’

Yong-gwan sat on a bench outside the express bus terminal and stared blankly at the back of the terminal while being blown by the cold wind.

The outside of the terminal is open like any other terminal.
The pierced place is secluded.

Looking at the wide open space, Yonggwan was lost in thought.

‘I want to fuck…’

Yonggwan’s thoughts were mainly that he wanted to fuck.
The frustration reached its peak.
But there was nowhere to solve it.

From Yonggwan’s point of view, people seemed to be living their lives well.

There was a couple I saw on the subway.
The woman in the couple was annoyed at Yonggwan himself, saying he smelled bad.
She was the lover of some other man, and from her travels and drinking stories, the couple must have been a night out.

It was the same on the bus too.
There was a man who seemed to have a very dirty temper.
He had been arguing with himself almost to the point of being beaten.
He had a girlfriend, and it seemed like an all-night affair, judging by the casual rubbing of his ass at the back of the bus line.

There were couples everywhere.

There were more couples in the gosichon where I live now.
There were times when 4-5 couples would come into my field of vision just walking around.

Everyone fucks

It is not wrong at all to drive Yonggwan when he thinks.
It was just that everyone else was fucking me like that, but I felt like I was going crazy because I couldn’t.

Yonggwan muttered to himself as he sat on a bench outside the terminal and was blown by the wind.

“Everyone is good at fucking me… Why am I the only one who can’t do what I want to do…”

Yonggwan was in agony.
He struggled like this and wanted to find an answer.

Everyone else was happily fucking me, but I wanted to find out why I couldn’t just fuck myself.
If I just started studying again like this, I wouldn’t be able to concentrate.

‘Let’s find the answer…’ …’

Yonggwan first decided to look back on the past and see if there was something wrong.

First of all, recently, there was an incident where Yeri waited until the exam was over.

‘After I waited for Yeri…’

Yonggwan recalled his memory.

After Yeri finished the civil service mock exam, he immediately took a taxi and went somewhere to have an appointment.

And until she went and returned to her appointment, she waited.
She waited for quite some time.

The time she had to wait since she had finished her mock exam, and the time she had to wait at the express bus terminal to get to her appointment, was about 5 hours in total.
She was just waiting for the time between lunch and dinner.

In the case of a time appointment, even 5 minutes late can make me angry, but I waited from lunch to dinner.
Of course, I did it because I wanted to.

Yonggwan regarded such actions as her sincerity and dedication to Yeri.

But Yeri was rather angry about it.

She finally got on the express bus and left as if she was running away without properly exchanging a word with her.

‘What should I do…’

Yonggwan thought a little more.
How could she and Yeri take off her clothes at night, face each other, hold each other, and fuck each other.

Looking back on his actions, Yonggwan pondered in her mind how she could have fucked Yeri.
A chilly winter wind brushed the face of Yonggwan, who was sitting on a terminal bench.

‘I think there must have been an opportunity.’

The opportunity that Yong-gwan came up with was when he ran into Ye-ri right after the mock exam for the civil service exam.

At that time, it seemed like there was a possibility.

The moment we just met.

At that time, Yeri was talking to her, but Yonggwan thought it was a great opportunity considering that he was able to talk to her for a short while at that time, unlike at the express bus terminal.

The time itself to be able to have such a conversation seemed to be an opportunity for bravery.
She thought about what she should have done to Yeri.

‘Immediately after the mock exam is over. What should I have done to save that chance at that time?’

First of all, at that time, there was a man she had never seen before.
From Yonggwan’s point of view, he had nothing to do with Yeri.

He didn’t come out holding her hand, and she said that Yeri was just an older brother she knew herself.

Now she is also the yard where Yeri lives after leaving her gosichon, so it would be difficult for her to have her lover in the gosichon.

Also, when Yeri took her taxi, he didn’t take the taxi with her.

If the two were dating, she has no reason not to tell her.

Yonggwan judged that there was no reason to hide it, since we don’t see each other every day in the same study room as before anyway.

It was the same with taxis.
There is absolutely no reason to take a taxi separately so that you don’t have to show yourself going together.

There were so many reasons.
That’s why he and Yeri aren’t lovers.

That’s why Yonggwan never doubted that the man and Yeri had nothing to do with each other.

‘There were no obstructions. Yeri never had a boyfriend. When I talk to my fellow studymates, I hear that he’s dated men before, but they’re all so short that he’s actually just a mother-in-law solo.’

Yonggwan thought more.
What should I do?

The moment when Yeri came out of school with a man next to her…
In that moment, Yonggwan thought about what he should have done.

At that moment, there were infinite options, and there were several options that Yonggwan came up with.

What Yonggwan chose was ‘I’m asking Yeri to stay with me and have a drink in the evening.’ It was on the side
Besides that, there were several countermeasures.

1. Ask Yeri to have lunch.
2. After contacting previous study members in advance, we decided to see Yeri as a group.
3. While waiting for Yeri, she buys a bouquet of flowers and confesses to Yeri after the exam.
4. Ask the man next to Yeri, ‘What are you doing with my girl?’
5. I have something to say to Yeri, so I suggest that we go to a quiet place and talk for a while.
6. Ask Yeri to let her know that she wants to ask about the things she has been graded for.
7. When Yeri takes a taxi to the place where she says they have a prior arrangement, another taxi chases after her.

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Other than this, various other things came to the Yonggwan’s head.

Among them, Yonggwan thought that it would have been best to buy Yeri a bouquet of flowers and confess right away.

When Yong-gwan thought, if Ye-ri didn’t have much time, whether it was because of a promise or something else, it would have been better for him to have made a decision to win the game as soon as possible.

Yonggwan spent more time at the express bus terminal thinking about that.

The day is full.

However, because Yonggwan was black, steam was rising from his head, so even the cold wind didn’t bother him that much.

And after a few hours, though, he was able to gather his mind a little.

Yonggwan came to his own conclusion.
His conclusion was that this failure would surely provide nourishment for the future.

When Yong-gwan got up after robbing a seat on an outside bench at the express bus terminal, he made up his mind about what to do next based on this failure.

‘Okay. I’ll have to confess a little faster next time.’

After getting up, Yonggwan continued to think as he headed towards the subway station.

‘Yeri didn’t have the right time because I was procrastinating, but next time I’ll confess right away when I get to know a girl a little bit and start flirting with each other.’

Truth be told, they had never flirted, but Yonggwan thought so anyway.

Then, Yonggwan walked from the Central City side where the express bus terminal was located to the direction of the subway among the public transportation going home.

Central City was a bit complicated.

You have to go inside and walk through a long shopping mall that is inside, walk through a long and neat hallway, pass through various shopping malls, walk your own long road, and then take an escalator to get to the subway station. There was.

And got on the subway.

I had to transfer several times when I came back as I did when I left.

For some reason, time seemed to go slower in the subway.

When I went, I still had hope because I had the idea that it would be nice to see a match and convince Yeri and have sex with her at night.

But now there was only despair, so for some reason the time seemed to pass more slowly.

Yonggwan went through several transfers before returning to Gosichon.

-This station is…

When it was time to get off after arriving at the corresponding subway station, quite a few people who looked like college students got off.
Everyone seemed to be coming from somewhere.

There were even couples among them.

Yonggwan was indignant again.

‘Ah…’

There are so many couples out there, about the reality that they can’t be that way and they can’t screw things up.

And that wasn’t all.

One bigger thought was gradually dragging the dragon head down into the abyss.

That was the idea of ​​Yeri.

I felt a little better when I thought about how I could have turned my failure in the terminal into a success.

However, the satisfaction of making up for failure was temporary.
The psychological damage caused by being black was far greater than the satisfaction.

As Yonggwan got out of the subway, he was constantly thinking about Yeri.

‘Ah, I could have done well with Yeri! Aagh!’

Yonggwan was confused.
I couldn’t keep my mind awake with sharp thoughts.

But I couldn’t figure out how to solve it.

Yonggwan was so upset that he wondered what it would be like to try something else to deal with that mental blow.

As soon as I got out of the subway, there were fast food restaurants nearby.

Seeing that, I was hungry.

It was impossible to have a proper meal while waiting for Yeri all day.
First, I wanted to eat something.

Entering the fast food restaurant, Yong-gwan took out the dad card he was carrying.

When I bought orange juice and a piece of cake to give to Yeri in the afternoon, I spent very little cash because I was afraid it would take a while to buy it at the express terminal store.
It was because the details of Yonggwan’s use of his father’s card were sent as text messages to his father’s cell phone.

However, I was able to use my father’s card to my heart’s content when I had a normal meal at the Goshichon.

So as soon as he returned to the goshichon, Yong-gwan decided to go to a fast-food restaurant first and eat a hearty meal, ordering it and bringing it to the table.

But even while eating, there were couples.

There were three women sitting at the table to the right.
However, the people sitting at the table on the left were a couple.

The two of them were talking while eating hamburgers and fiddling with each other’s hands.
Among the couple, the woman smiled and talked to the man.

“Brother, should I go to brother’s house by the time he finishes studying today?”
“Is that so? Oppa will contact you then. You are working hard too~.”

As I watched the couple, the man took her woman’s words and stroked her hair with the other hand while holding her woman’s hand.

“Hoho, eong~ Oppa, have you finished the Coke? Have some of mine too~.”
“Whoops, yeah~.”

They looked very happy.
The more they looked happy, the more uncomfortable Yonggwan became.

‘This shit…’

Yonggwan thought about that while eating a hamburger while looking at the couple once in a while.

‘They’ll go home in a little while and fuck. Fucked all night tonight, will be fucked again tomorrow. The next day, and the day after that, every day.’

Yong-gwan felt embarrassed again for not being able to do it every day, even though they would take off their clothes endlessly every day.

Still, Yonggwan thought the hamburger and Coke were delicious.
In addition, I ordered French fries and additional hash browns, and I thought it was all delicious.

After a hearty meal, Yonggwan came out of the fast food restaurant.

It was getting colder and colder outside.

As the night progressed, the air outside seemed to get lower and lower.

Yonggwan returned to the vicinity of the gosiwon with the wind blowing.

The gosiwon where Yongkwan lives is located in the alley on the right from the fast food restaurant where he just finished eating, and after going uphill quite a bit, turn left a little further in.

The road was familiar.

And in the middle of the road, there were bars, and I could see many men and women laughing and drinking while having fun.

‘Everyone drinks and plays like that…’

On the way back to the gosiwon, Yonggwan saw it and gritted his teeth.

Everyone seemed to be having so much fun, but it was hard to suppress the constant rage about why he couldn’t play with the girls around him like that.

– Jeobeok, Jeobuck…

Yong-gwan, who had been walking, stopped when he reached the gosiwon where he lived.

The large gosiwon building standing in the dark was not so dark because there was a streetlight next to it, but it seemed to be standing tall with a slightly gloomy appearance.

‘Should I go in?’

I didn’t really want to go straight to the gosiwon.
It was because of how he felt after getting hurt by Yeri.

It’s always been that way.
Of course, I felt bad after being blacked out.

Yong-gwan knew that if he was distraught after he was killed, he would only lose himself, but he still couldn’t control his distraught mind after he was killed.

I didn’t want to go right into the fucking narrow kosiwon with that feeling.

But there was nothing to do outside.

When I went out, it was all money.

I was almost out of cash, and I couldn’t do it because it was so obvious that if I swipe at a bar or karaoke with my dad’s card, I would be screwed.

Yonggwan had no choice but to do something that didn’t cost money.

‘I should play a game.’

Yonggwan thought he could just go home and play games to relieve his mood.
Studying was already behind.

‘I’ll just take a break from studying today and play games until dawn. I can’t study in this mood.’

Yonggwan nodded in front of the kosiwon thinking that and moved his steps to enter the kosiwon.

While doing so, a man and a woman who seemed to be a couple came out of the gosiwon and were talking with her bright face.

The dragon saw them come out and stepped aside a little.
Then he glanced at the couple.

Among the couples, he glanced at the woman once, then looked elsewhere.
If you look at couples from where they come from, most of them are okay or there are more than that.

As Yonggwan entered, I could naturally hear the couple’s conversation.

“Brother, I want to eat beef tomorrow after a long time.”
“Is that so? Oppa should buy us what we want to eat~”
“Ah~, really? Oppa, do you have any pocket money left? Are you okay?”
“Sure~. My dad gave me pocket money for a few months and I got 1.5 million won!”
“Hohoho! Really?”

Yonggwan thought that they were sticking together and shaking the chicken meat.
Yonggwan wanted them all to perish.

‘I hope everyone falls apart.’

Even the moment Yonggwan entered the gosiwon, he was angry.

‘Fuck. Why am I nailing it They’d fuck it up too… Here, there, there are only guys who fucking fuck me!’

Yonggwan opened the front door of the kosiwon and entered, frowning.
The voices of the couples went further and further behind Yonggwan.

Yonggwan was only greeted by the familiar entrance to the gosiwon.

-Shuck, shuck…

Yong-gwan entered the entrance of the kosiwon on foot in socks, and walked past his hallway to his room.

As you walk through the hallway of the kosiwon, you will see many doors on both sides.
However, the inside of the kosiwon was as quiet as a rat, as if it were a lie that each person lived inside the many doors close to each other.

Okay.

It was like a cemetery.

A very quiet cemetery.
There was a similarity between the gosiwon and the cemetery in that people occupied a very narrow seat and were only holding their breath inside without being able to make a sound.

Yonggwan walked down the hallway.

And when he reached his room, he opened the door and entered the room.

-Kiik…

Then he came in and shut the door and locked it.

The goshiwon itself is not small.
But the room was damn small.

As soon as Yonggwan entered, he took a few steps.
It took three steps, barely enough for one person to pass, and it was over.

Yonggwan turned on the computer on the desk at the end.

-Ugh, ugh…

Booting was in progress, and the main body of the computer made a ringing sound.

Yong-gwan turned on the computer and went to bed.
I wanted to lie down.

The bed in Gosiwon was far from soft enough to make me wonder if there was such a bed in the world, and I felt the stiff springs inherent in cheap beds.

Still, since Yonggwan had been outside for quite some time, he felt great comfort lying down in such a warm place.

Yonggwan turned on his smartphone while lying on the bed.

I’m going to play a game soon, but I couldn’t control my mood before that.
It was because he had let go of Yeri in vain.

Lying on a small bed in the dark, Yong-gwan thought while looking at his smartphone that emitted white light.

‘Ah… I want to fuck Yeri…’

My stomach was full and my back was warm, so I wanted to fuck her more desperately.

After turning on his smartphone, Yongkwan started browsing social media.

The place Yonggwan entered was Yeri’s SNS.
There was a picture of Yeri there.

‘I wish I could fuck Yeri…’

In the photo, Park Ye-ri was smiling while taking a selfie with her at a restaurant.

Yonggwan flipped through Yeri’s photos one by one.
She and she looked at one of the pictures of her, slithering down her own pants as she lay on the bed.

And the Dragon King took things of her own.

-Swipe swipe swipe…

Yongkwan flipped through one more picture of Yeri as she masturbated.

Yonggwan then moved her own object up and down.
The pace gradually increased.

Yong-gwan looked at Yeri’s photos, and to her Yong-gwan, Yeri’s appearance in the photos felt beautiful.

‘Wow, look at the leg…’
‘Fuck… I like this picture the best… Her collarbone is also out…’

Yonggwan shook his things more and more as he looked at her SNS photos of Yeri.

Looking at Yeri’s pictures of her, her dragon crown reminded her of her.

Yong-gwan, who was looking at her pictures while waving her things like that, eventually put her face on the floor while looking at one of Ye-ri’s pictures, then put her things on his smartphone and put her things on it. Ejaculated.

The semen that spurted out of Yonggwan’s object dripped onto the face of Yeri’s picture on her smartphone.

‘Eww…’

Yonggwan came to his senses only after he bought it.

‘Why am I doing this to my phone…’

However, semen was already flowing from Yonggwan’s cell phone, and he blocked the upper part of the object with his hand to receive the semen with his other hand, but he did not receive it all.
So some of the liquid was settling down on the hair on the dragon crown’s things.

Yonggwan tried to get up from his seat to take care of his back.

Then, without realizing it, he suddenly hit the wall.

Then there was a sound from the next room.

-Bang!

It was the sound of the room next door hitting the wall.
It meant to shut up because Yonggwan touched the wall and it was noisy.

Yonggwan was surprised.
And, she was more displeased than surprised.

The next room hit the wall like crazy whenever there were any cases.

There are times when you can hear yourself making noise in the room next door, but even then, Yonggwan had never hit the wall like that, but he was like a stranger.

Yonggwan felt that the world was too fucked up.

“I can” And “You can’t” Seemed too prevalent.

In the room next door, which made noise every once in a while, he banged on the thin wall, and when he walked around the street, Yong-gwan nailed himself, but it seemed that there were too many people coming to do it.

‘Ugh… Fuck…’

Yong-Gwan got up quickly, thinking about going to the desk toward the roll of toilet paper, holding his hand and his object flowing with white liquid, just like a smartphone with semen dripping on it.

To him, this place was a silent hell.