Chapter 121 – Always His Share (2)
“Are you thinking of breaking up the party?”
Stachis’ dark eyes focused on Lily.
“…”
He thought carefully about his next words his.
And Lily waited patiently for him.
Anyway, after barely spitting out the question, it was a firm mouth.
“…I don’t know either.”
He answers.
“…Then… Are you worried about it..?”
Lily hides the pain in his chest her.
It was clear that he was walking away.
Even if I try to catch it, it goes away step by step.
Lily had it even harder.
If you get farther than a certain line from Starchis,
The relationship with him comes to an end.
Lily made a pact with her master her.
To work for her for the rest of her life if Starchis doesn’t pick her up.
It was just before the future could be seen.
“…Yes. I’m thinking about it.”
He finally admits
The moment he admitted it, Stachis could no longer look at Lily.
He was overcome with emotions he didn’t even know existed.
“…Is it because of us..”
Lily asked to confirm her obvious statement of her.
He knew he would get hurt, but he couldn’t stop.
I felt like grabbing at the crotch of his pants.
But he couldn’t have looked any uglier.
I knew he would hate it.
As his older brother he once said,
I wanted him to be happy and not hurt anymore.
The one who hurt him thought it was too much for himself to do,
The thought that he wanted him to be happy hadn’t changed from the beginning.
From the moment she realized she loved him, Lily has been blessing Starchis.
She wished him only happy things until he died.
Then her greed pushed her head and
She wanted to be the cause of his happiness her too.
To his happiness she wished she had been himself.
As a result, the greed obscured his sight of her.
I didn’t see that he was struggling.
“..Because of us.. Right?”
She asked once more.
Starches didn’t know
Lily was prepared to make many decisions based on his answer to her.
Starchis is silent once again and answers.
“…Yes. Because of us.”
“Yes..?”
You, not us.
“I’ve felt a lot in the past few days, sister.”
Ha ha… And let out a long sigh.
Stachis unknowingly complained to Lily.
Maybe it was because he made up her mind to put her anger on her aside.
Maybe it’s because the two of them look more natural,
Or maybe it’s because all the crazy things that happened today make the rest of it irrelevant.
Or it could have been because the party was nearing its end.
“… My sister and the kids are kids too… But I’m also thinking about whether there’s a meaning here.”
“…”
“Tell me, sister. You have no reason to lie to me anymore. I’ve only talked about it once… But your sister wasn’t interested in being a gatherer either, right?”
“…Everything with Starchis was interesting to me.”
“I’m talking about gatherers. If you look at it alone, I’m talking about it.”
Stachis’ clear voice demanded the truth.
Lily had no reason to lie.
He may be offended by the inconvenient truth… But it’s better than telling lies.
“…Yes. Without you… Maybe…”
“…Haha… Look. That’s it.”
Stachis laughed helplessly and hit his knee.
Then he says it with a cool or bitter smile.
“…Me too… I wondered why I was doing this.”
At his words, Lily felt that it was all over.
If it’s something that makes the dull man feel this way,
There will be no looking back.
Starch and done.
I felt like crying.
Normally, I couldn’t stand it, but
Today, for some reason, even if my heart collapsed, I was able to keep my face calm.
“…Sorry-“
“-No. It’s not because of my sister or the kids. Like I said, a lot happened to me too.”
His voice His, speaking quietly or powerlessly, echoed in the cave.
Maybe it’s because your voice echoes, albeit shallowly,
It felt more empty.
“…Can you tell me…What happened?”
Lily asked him, swallowing her saliva.
She didn’t have much time left with him.
I wanted to do something that could help at least a little bit.
Yes, even if it’s just counseling like an older sister.
“…”
“… Tell me. Starches.”
“…Just..”
Stachis stopped talking and looked at Lily in awe.
He smiled awkwardly and slightly, and tried to skip the topic of conversation like a joke.
I don’t know if it’s the same relationship as before,
I didn’t want to talk about this in a state where I still haven’t recovered from my emotional goal.
However, Starchis looked at Lily’s expression her, which looked very sad.
I wanted to be a source of strength, but it seemed like I was sorry that I couldn’t.
Her expression she became infected, and Starchis also abandoned her awkward smile.
Her own expression also affected her mind.
If you think about it, disbanding the party isn’t just the leader’s decision.
The party members also had to think.
He was responsible for explaining her situation her to Lily.
“… I think she has lived her life copying her only her ex-brother her, noona.”
“…”
“Looking back at myself, I don’t think I got anything I really wanted, perhaps because I followed my brother.”
“…What is that?”
“…”
He just wanted someone to be on his side of him.
He wanted someone to soothe his loneliness.
Stachis shrugged his shoulders, not being able to say that.
“…Anyway, it feels like I’ve been copying my older brother’s life…What should I say? Shabby? I feel that way.”
“…Does it disappear if you destroy the party?”
“Yes?”
“Don’t get me wrong, Starchis. I’m really just asking. Disbanding the party… Can you be a little happier?”
Lily looked away from him.
I just promised not to lie,
Also, it’s so easy to lie.
She wanted to hold him.
Let’s not break up
She wanted to beg me to stay by her side of her.
But she couldn’t.
She decided to ask for his blessing her.
If you have to be confident at the end… Willingly. No.. I was able to turn around with tears in my eyes.
Starchis draws a brief picture of what happened after the party broke up.
The reason for disbanding is not because I want to be happy.
The first reason is that the dreams of all party members are no longer aiming high.
No one wants a collection day.
However, as it is a life-and-death job, it is best to quit quickly if no one wants it.
With that thought in mind, he thought of breaking up.
At such a light thought, Lily threw a stone.
Can you be happy if you disband the party?
You need to find a new job and make connections that aren’t Lily, Bien, or Russ.
If the wounds in your heart heal a little more, you will be able to meet like friends like before.
If you stop working as a gatherer,
Perhaps he could confidently ask for Rose from Hian as well.
If you ask me if I want it…
“… Starches?”
Lily breaks his thoughts.
“…Yes?”
“…”
She could see what Stachis was thinking about.
It was natural.
His decision His will change a lot of things.
Lily already knew the answer.
I hate to see you,
The answer is already out.
“…Starchis, we…”
She said with as much emotion as possible.
She knew that if she put her emotions in, she would burst into tears.
“We are breaking up.”
She had to let him go by her own hand.
She had to let go of the man she loved.
If you think about it from his point of view, it’s natural.
No one has the same dream at a party that has been set up.
She lost her enthusiasm.
The arms may not be in the same state they used to be.
Even if it was simply listed, dissolution was a natural procedure.
So she spoke for him.
He seemed to be in trouble if he continued this.
“…A job that puts your life at risk…The sooner you stop, the better, right?”
Starchis opened his mouth, but nothing came out.
Lily continued.
“…You said… But it shines. I know that I will be able to succeed and live a wonderful life wherever I go. You don’t have to force the party because of lingering feelings. Let go and move on to the next chapter.”
She still pretended to be an adult.
I had no choice but to play the older sister in front of him.
That was the relationship we built.
She clenched her fists so hard that her fingernails dug into her hands her, but she didn’t show it.
“…I…”
It’s okay.
I tried to say it, but the words didn’t come out.
Because it wasn’t okay
“…I…”
All happy memories with him.
It will end at this moment.
After this moment, he returns out of the dungeon,
After surrendering her defeat to her master her, she will have to live for her sake her.
“…I…”
She had to live a life without starches.
At that thought, her cursed greed she squirmed for the last time.
“…I probably won’t see you after this.”
She told the truth
I hoped he would be disappointed or surprised.
It was the last gamble.
“Yes…?”
Starchis’ face contorted.
“… Nuna, what is that… “
“We will never see each other again.”
“…”
He furrows his eyebrows and blinks.
Lily thought she was a bitch to kill.
He is confused and bewildered again,
She felt sad happiness.
I was glad to hear you regret the breakup.
“…Why?”
He asks.
“I signed a contract with Master.”
Lily reveals her own behavior she has been trying to hide.
“…Actually, the material for fixing Starchis’s arm at that time…Was very valuable.”
She lied
She said she originally received the materials for nothing in return.
She was unwilling to burden Stachis.
But since she was the last one, she had no choice but to get wet.
“…Yes?”
Starchis looked down at his scars her.
After one touch with her opposite hand her, she turns to Lily.
“It was a very valuable material, so I couldn’t get it with my bare body.”
“What do you mean, sister..!”
His expression His turned to shock.
“In exchange for fixing your arm, I decided to give my life.”
“Sister!!”
Stachis shouted out loud.
He gets up
He approached the sitting Lily and grabbed her arms her.
“You’re lying again!”
His expression His contained anger and regret at the same time.
Lily was relieved.
I could feel the warmth in his tone of her.
He was Starchis, as always amiable.
“It was my dream to make your dream come true. With an injured arm… It was a dream that couldn’t come true, right?”
“Is that why you give up on your life?”
“I didn’t just take my life and give it to myself. I also had my own conditions.”
Stachis twitched his mouth in front of Lily and rolled his eyes back and forth.
Only Lily, still pretending to be an adult, carries on her words her.
“Your choice.”
“…Yes?”
“If Starchis loved me, I didn’t have to live for Master… The reason I’m revealing now is because Starchis made the choice.”
Lily put her hand on Stachis’ face.
It was a careful touch.
I was afraid he would reject it,
Fortunately, he stopped.
“The party is disbanded…I have to go to my master’s side.”
“Why so much… “
Starchis’s lips began to tremble slightly.
There were so many things I wanted to say, but it seemed like I couldn’t.
“I told you, Starchis. Because I love you.”
Lily repeated her own words.
There will be no opportunity to even say this in the future.
I had to do it without regret when I could.
“…I love you… I love you.”
She whispers to him slowly.
Starchis gradually lowered his head.
“Why… Now… “
He whispered softly,
Lily focused on capturing his figure her in her eyes her.
“Seeing Starchis in pain hurts me too.”
“…”
“…Now you should be happy..”
A small lie is contained once again.
She wanted him to be happy, but she prayed that he wouldn’t be happy that she was gone.
Is the answer to that
His eyes looked sad.
“…Ah.”
Lily’s heart skipped a beat at those eyes.
The more she sees him, the harder it is to give up.
Did I say that breakups should be short?
There was no end to their parting while they were trapped in a cave.
It was a farewell that had to be prepared until the sun rose the next day.
The lingering feelings remained too strong.
He, too, seemed so.
Lily makes one assumption.
There was nothing to lose anyway.
The opportunity was also perfect.
“… Can I ask you a favor?”
She whispered.
Did the tears fall behind?
He continues to swallow her spittle.
“…”
He still does n’t answer with a hurt look on his face her.
“I gave myself for the sake of my beloved Staches, but if possible… I want something in return.”
“… What is it?”
He spits it out
Lily touched Stachis’ cheeks with her free hand.
He lowered his gaze slightly and focused it on his own.
“Now there is a high probability that I will never meet anyone. Even if we meet, our relationship will be short-lived. Even if you live a long time, there is a high probability that your teacher will live a long time, so I think you will be locked up forever.”
“…”
“When I first left Master, it was because I wanted to experience the world. I’ve seen, learned, and felt countless things… Now, there’s just one. Until now, and if you go under Master, there is something unknown in the future.”
Lily was taking advantage of this moment.
It didn’t matter if her world cursed at her.
It was really last.
“The feeling of being embraced by the man you love.”
Starchis is surprised.
It was felt through Lily’s hand to her.
After a long time, he felt like a brother again.
That familiar feeling became her courage.
“To hear… The words I love you. I want to know that happiness… Even just once.”
