Chapter 0 – Say You Got a Girlfriend?
“Ha, bro, I’m having a hard time.”
After a long time, I met my brother and had a beer.
Sitting in a corner in a noisy bar, I grabbed my head and said.
That’s not going to happen, but I glanced at the bar door in case I ran into them.
“What’s going on again?”
My older brother tilted his upper body at my complaint.
My older brother is 9 years older than me and is the leader of a class A party.
I have a lot of social experience, so there were many times when I felt comfortable when I consulted with him because he gave me clear answers or told me what to do.
He was one of my spiritual supporters.
“Is it because of those party kids again?”
“Who else is there besides them?”
“Who is the party for this time?”
“… Just all three.”
“…Her.”
However, even if he came up with a solution, the consultation with his brother did not end.
As if fighting a defensive battle, he repeated that when one worry disappears, another one arises.
And that concern always came from my party members.
It’s a party I threw.
Because I longed for my brother, the leader of the A-level party, I organized my own party, and as a result, I found three female party members and stayed together for two years with that composition.
It’s been 2 years since the party was formed, and it’s slightly different how long we’ve known each other face to face without forming a party, but it’s longer than 2 years.
“I want to take some time off.”
“…? You can have it.”
“Because it’s hard.”
“What are you talking about? Have a few beers, organize what you want to say in your head, then say it.”
My brother wanted to listen to my concerns seriously, but he didn’t seem to understand.
As I drank my beer as he said, I thought about how to solve this question.
Just thinking about those three made my heart ache.
“My party members. You can’t see me taking a break.”
“What, inside the dungeon? Why are you running errands?”
“No. You can’t do that in a dungeon. If everyone doesn’t take it seriously, it’ll be a big deal.”
If I keep running errands in the dungeon and I can’t cheer up, the whole party shakes.
If you treated me like a slave like that, I’d already lost my hand. Inside the dungeon, they contributed to each other.
“There is no problem in the dungeon.”
“…Then? Are you saying outside the dungeon is the problem?”
“Yes.”
“What are they going to do?”
“I mean, he always comes to me on days off. Let’s do this, let’s do that, help us with this, let’s go out to play, etc… They’re trying to pamper us. We played together a few times before, but these days it’s too much.”
“…?”
My older brother was frowning and making a puzzled expression.
“So you’re asking me to come and play on my day off?”
“Yes.”
“What, why is that a problem?”
“I come every day… Assuming you don’t get hurt, if you go around the dungeon for 2 days and take 5 days off, you’ll come back for all 5 days off, right? Taking turns.”
“Say you want to rest.”
My older brother, who spoke so simply, looked disgusting.
Okay. To others, that’s normal.
But if it was easier said than done, would you have consulted?
But I didn’t have the strength to refute.
I was still very tired.
Even my brother can’t help me? Looking at him with resigned eyes, the older brother quietly averted his eyes and said.
“Yeah, but it’s not easy, so you probably consulted with me. Well. Why can’t you refuse?”
I was annoyed, but I feel sorry for my older brother looking at me.
After all, Hyung was using his free time for me.
I’m not having a good time, I’m just talking dark things.
Even so, hyung continues to worry about me.
“Tell me. Why can’t I refuse to go out to play?”
“…Pooh… Once you refuse, you get angry.”
“… You say you’re pissed off?”
It’s written all over my brother’s face. Barely? As if to say
“I can barely think of that, but ha.. I have to see it. Badly pissed off Enough to get in the way of dungeons. They don’t even answer, and when they do, they say something sarcastic or ticklish.”
My body trembled. It reminded me of the day when all three of them were upset, not just one or two.
That day was hell.
All I could say was something like ‘Did you have time to invest in me? You’re tired.’ Etc…
“If it’s hard to let go of the grievous thing, then you can just not let go.”
“I told you! Are you seriously pissed off? Oh and! If you’re the party leader, you know! If you don’t solve the dissatisfaction, it will be difficult later. I also want to work hard, so I try to release them every now and then!”
“Okay okay. I know. Don’t be angry. But I’m saying don’t do it if it’s that hard. You’re having a hard time, why do you do that? You just have to go through the dungeon a little harder. It won’t get better with time.”
“If I don’t let go of my anger, I’ll stay upset… I don’t say it naturally resolves itself. They say it gets really annoying afterward… Ugh hyung should have seen them. Even in a situation where life comes and goes, he gets angry and doesn’t answer. Even cry afterwards. Oh my God, where is the person who cries because they haven’t played for a day?”
My brother is hazy… And he looked at me blankly.
“Okay. Well, maybe you have your own situation. You are right. I should have seen them.”
“Right.”
“But they get angry because you keep refusing to play, or they get angry if you refuse just once. Who would be offended if you kept refusing?”
“…Of course, every time I refuse, I get angry. If not, I wouldn’t even worry about it. If you refuse even just once, your expression will turn really bloody… Uh huh.”
“Hmm… That’s interesting.”
I rested my head on the table.
I saw other guests laughing loudly.
Drinking and drinking loudly, singing songs and putting shoulder to shoulder…
I also wanted to laugh happily like that.
“That’s why I can’t even take a day off these days. I can’t refuse, so I call every single day now. Even if I try to say no, saying that today is a bit difficult, they say nonsense, saying, ‘That’s why I’m not going out to play.’”
“How did you come out today then?”
“After I said I was meeting my older brother, I made an ejaculation. I don’t know what else to ask for this later. To be honest, I just wanted to rest at home, but when I am at home, I always drag myself outside. In that case, I came to see my brother. No, why do I have to live like this?”
I continued to grumble.
“Please.. I want to sleep for one day without any money. If one person drags me into the night and lets me go, I have to meet another party member from dawn the next day. What is this?”
My brother tapped the table with his finger and asked a question.
“Are you still not thinking about breaking the party?”
“…Brother.”
To become a high-ranking Hunter, you must stand out. It’s a dog or a cow or a D-class or C-class hunt, but if a rumor spreads that a party has collapsed, it can be said that work is cut off after that.
Hyung is a big company that is A-class, so it’s their own league, so they can leave and join, but they’re free, but it’s not that easy on this floor, which is C-class and D-class. There are many other C-class and D-class parties, but there is no reason to ask people who gave up without being able to stand out.
By my standards, you can’t even change party members. There are three party members with problems. If you change not just one person, but all party members, it is natural to think that I, the leader, have a problem rather than the three having a problem.
So, if I break my party, this C-level party, I, the actual leader, can be said to be retiring from this floor.
“No, I’m just curious about why you’re having such a hard time. Because of them, you always come with only your worries. There are a lot of things to do, even if it’s not dungeons. I hope you don’t ‘t do anything dangerous.”
The party can’t be broken. Even if you ask me why I keep doing this, I can’t answer.
How can you say that you want to be like your older brother in front of the person in question?
As I remained silent, my older brother sighed and asked.
“…Hi and go. Okay, let’s have a party.”
My brother drinks the beer all the way.
“Come back, Starchis, can I ask you a question?”
“…What.”
“Before me, whenever I heard about your party members, I thought you were just bitches, but today I have a little doubt.”
“…?”
What? Did you find out something?
“Why didn’t I think of this before? It seems to fit the situation so much that I wonder. It also explains why they do it.”
“…”
My brother said while moxibustion.
“Isn’t that just because they like you?”
What did you say…
Are you misunderstanding my lack of explanation?
I was also puzzled.
“What the. What nonsense…”
“Why do you think no?”
“Brother, absolutely not.”
“Why not? I’m calling you because you just want to see me and date me. If you refuse, you will get angry.”
My older brother seemed to be organizing his thoughts already. The hyung, who listened earnestly, went somewhere and tried to smile wrigglingly.
You must not get carried away here.
If I didn’t break exactly this claim here, it would be advice and anything else that would make me an idiot.
While listening to things like ‘Why are you so insensitive?’
I calmed down and spoke calmly.
“Brother. Absolutely not?”
“What is absolutely not It seems right.”
“It’s embarrassing, but it’s not like I didn’t think about it.”
“Oh, yes?”
“You know. I am also interested in dating.”
“By the way?”
“But when you meet and see how they play, it’s absolutely not like that. If you love someone, praise them, go to places where you can have fun with each other, and eat something delicious, right? My heart is beating too.”
“Well. Everyone is different, right?”
“But if you like me, you should be a little considerate of me. If you’re tired, you should let me rest. Aside from that, even when we meet, they just do what they want to do and go where they want to go. Eat only what you want to eat I just want to do things that would be embarrassing to do alone, take me with you. While writing as a porter.”
“…”
“Keep drawing the line. Who likes the other person but keeps drawing the line? How is your brother?”
“What line.”
“You are not a lover. Keep drawing As if never to cross.”
“…It’s ambiguous.”
“…Her.”
I felt like I was going to die of boredom. I didn’t see how I was being dragged around, so people say things like that. Their actions were nothing but things that I could never understand from my perspective on dating.
“I’m doing this because I couldn’t really explain it, hyung has to see it for himself.”
“You too, clear your head and observe again. I might be right.”
“Brother. But, absolutely not. Even if you really liked me with a probability of 1 in 10,000. What does that have to do with me If that was their way of expressing their liking, no, but if it was a way of expressing their liking anyway, I have no intention of getting along with people who express it that way.”
“Well? Is that so?”
I clenched my fists in my heart. Yes, you are finally on my side.
“I have a harder time with people who continue to act like that even after they become lovers. I’m a pure lover, so I like love that only says nice things. You mean you want me to suffer?”
“Ayu. No, he’s my younger brother.”
“Isn’t it? But I keep taking my break time because of kids who aren’t meant to be lovers, does this make sense?”
I wanted to convince him, but his smile his would n’t disappear.
Even though it felt strange, hyung eventually told me how to solve it.
“There are limits to playing with friends.
“Starchis, my cute little brother. Isn’t that why they like you?”
“That’s right!”
“Never?”
“Never.”
When I said it firmly, he chuckled.
“If they had feelings for you, wouldn’t it be okay?”
“No.”
“And you wish you had some time off?”
“Uh. Give me some time to rest. What should I do?”
Seeing my face like that, my brother scratched his head and whispered quietly.
“…Hey, yes, you’ll take care of the aftermath.”
“…?”
“Starchis. Then try this.”
“Oh bro.”
Said the older brother nonchalantly.
“Tell them you got a girlfriend.”
