Chapter 238 – Chapter 238. Professor Imsol and Magic! (5)
It’s been a while.
This feeling.
It was the first time I had ever enjoyed a magic fair like this.
I wondered how it could be so enjoyable.
Of course, I knew the cause.
There was only one thing that was different from the previous fairs.
The existence of his disciple Lee Ho-yeon.
Perhaps because of this, Im Sol became afraid of the upcoming appointment time.
It was because the promise with the student was to [Go to the fair during the morning].
‘The disciple seems to be enjoying it too. Could I extend the time a little longer?’
After a long time, Im Sol decided to go in with a slight bow.
Bowing down to a disciple is not really bowing down.
It is just one of the attitudes of tolerance that educators should show.
Thinking the same thing
“Well, that’s it.”
“Yes?”
Looking at Lee Ho-yeon, who blinked at her as if asking what was going on, Im-sol felt a tickle.
Embarrassed for nothing, Imsol averted his eyes and continued.
Trying to ignore the slightly heated cheeks, she tried herd for the first time since she was an adult.
“Anyway, today… It’s a hands-on learning experience. I’m not forcing it, if you don’t mind. Yes, if you don’t have anything else to do…. Even in the afternoon…”
It was something that required great determination.
To the extent that she put off her afternoon magic research, she also had to give up on Im Sol.
But before Im Sol finished his words.
Bang! Kwakwawang! Thud-!
The sound of something exploding filled the fairgrounds.
People screaming and smoke from explosions.
– Run away! It’s mine!
– Raid! Terror! Where’s the defense team!
Lee Ho-yeon, who was concentrating on her own words, was also distracted by her surroundings.
“Te, terrorism. Professor!”
The fairgrounds became chaotic in an instant.
The atmosphere that had been good until just now was like a dream.
Inside Im Sol, who was watching the scene, something in her snapped.
She raised her magic power.
Suddenly this whole situation is annoying.
She didn’t like that her time with her pupils was interrupted, and that her barely-there worms were planting in front of her eyes.
“… Annoying.”
It was only after the situation was over that Im Sol regained her sanity.
Now that she had eliminated all that had caused her to ruin her mood, she intended to speak to her disciple again.
I want you to stay with me in the afternoon.
But that was only Im Sol’s idea.
Even after going through this, Im Sol was the only one who remembered what she had just said.
Looking at Imsol from the ground, people’s eyes contained fear.
Her pupil Lee Ho-yeon did the same.
Imsol lightly closed her eyes and stepped on the ground.
She and she spoke to the disciple.
“Did you see everything?”
“… Yes.”
“… Have you heard everything?”
The words she said she lost her temper.
I can’t remember exactly what happened just now, it’s a bit hazy, but it must have had quite a bit of low-level profanity mixed in.
“Uh… Yes.”
Im Sol felt a little distance from Lee Ho-yeon’s words.
People who saw her own power usually reacted like that.
“Professor. Well, that was cool. Really.”
Im Sol smiled slightly at Lee Ho-yeon’s words. But she was feeling it.
Lee Ho-yeon, her disciple.
He has great acting skills.
You can feel it while talking.
Although Lee Ho-yeon hid a lot from himself, he barely showed it. He was really good at acting for his age.
Up until now, he had a comfortable conversation with himself and had no objection compared to others.
I didn’t want to say that all of this was acting.
That’s because Imsol is so miserable.
But there may have been some.
Even if you don’t like it, there must have been times when you adjusted to yourself.
Just like that.
Im Sol definitely confirmed the expression on his face after he used the magic.
A look at a creature that shouldn’t exist in this world.
When people see something they cannot understand with their own experience and wisdom, they instinctively feel rejected.
And Im Sol has always received such rejection.
‘In the end, the reason why he gets involved with me is either his body or his good personality that he can’t refuse.’
Because our student who is good at acting has become kind.
“Am I a burden?”
“No no. I was just embarrassed.”
Im Sol is a little… She was depressed
I thought I’d gotten rid of all these feelings.
No, it definitely was.
Why is it that Lee Ho-yeon’s reaction makes me sad?
Imsol didn’t know why, so she complained for nothing.
“It’s okay. You can call it a monster. I’m used to it.”
“Professor. Don’t say that. How can you be a monster?”
Ha.
Still, the disciple treated me kindly until the end.
I was so grateful that I wanted to lean on it, but I held back that feeling.
Her true self was hated by everyone she had ever met.
By the way.
The only disciple you thought was right for you even likes your true self?
It was too opportunistic thinking to think that way.
“But I didn’t want to show it to you.”
“… Professor?”
Imsol let out a deep sigh and gave her a self-deprecating smile.
“I’m putting up a wall. A wall that keeps my pride and allows me to ignore what other people say. When that wall goes away, this is what you see. What you just saw is what I see.”
Wouldn’t it go away anyway?
“I know. It’s ugly, and it’s proof that it doesn’t adapt to society. It’s a monster that can’t even lower its head. The only thing it knows how to do is magic. That evaluation isn’t wrong.”
Will you still love me
“…”
“That’s why I didn’t want to show you.”
Her own trauma that she has never told anyone about for 28 years.
I confessed that to Lee Ho-yeon today.
Why this happened, Im Sol himself did not know.
Caught up in the atmosphere Or because I only have a chance to speak now.
Or.
Would it really be okay?
Maybe at least one person will understand me.
With a sense of anticipation.
“… Ha, Professor.”
Im Sol shut her mouth and waited for Lee Ho-yeon’s next words.
She said not to expect.
She obviously decided not to lean on anyone.
She felt this way and she blamed herself.
“Professor. Don’t think it’s strange. At least, I never think so.”
“… Then what do you think?”
“Yes?”
“What do you think of me? A social misfit and a monster, Im Sol… What do you think?”
Imsol, who spat out the words, immediately regretted it.
It was stupid.
It was too urgent.
How embarrassing would it be for a disciple?
While having fun at a magic fair, a terrorist attack occurred, and one crazy bitch blocked the terror by himself and then had a seizure.
I wish I could turn back time.
It shouldn’t have been like this from the beginning.
It would have been best to just go quietly.
Im Sol looked at Lee Ho-yeon. Lee Ho-yeon, who was hesitant, spat out his words cautiously.
“A professor is a professor.”
“… Yes. Thank you.”
Im Sol smiled lightly and turned her head away.
That’s it.
A common answer came back from Lee Ho-yeon.
Hearing her answer, Im Sol couldn’t help but smile bitterly at her.
You’re nice to people who want compliments. To say so is rather insulting.
It will be frustrating The one who can’t communicate like this.
Because there is no place to praise that much.
Who is going to keep following such an idiot as a professor?
‘After all, the disciple was the same.’
No, to be precise, the disciple was also ‘normal’.
He is ‘normal’ because he is different from himself, who is ‘abnormal’.
Imsol said that she would rather have Lee Ho-yeon leave sooner.
I hated the disciple who cared for him until the end and was grateful.
“… After all, the professor is Im Sol to me.”
Imsol turned her head slightly.
Lee Ho-yeon’s eyes showed no tension or alertness, and she seemed to have put everything down.
With the anticipation that had almost disappeared from her, Imsol began to listen to the disciple.
“A person who pretends to be an adult even though the age difference is not long.”
“…?”
Imsol frowned.
Because she didn’t understand the disciple who suddenly uttered her strange words.
“But like a child, he likes sweets. A strange professor who thinks he is the most special in the world, ignores all other wizards, and leaves important tasks to his students.”
“What are you saying now…”
Imsol was filled with displeasure.
While she thought of herself that way, she hated the disciple she pretended to be close to.
Was it all acting?
Was it really a relationship that only you were comfortable with?
Imsol, who was angry, had no choice but to keep his mouth shut at the words that followed.
“But it looks cute.”
“… Wh, what?”
And opened her eyes wide.
Embarrassment replaced her displeasure on her face.
“The way he eats chocolate and smiles widely, the way he is happy after finishing his magic research, the way he is sincere than anyone else during magic class even though others say he doesn’t understand. All of them are cute.”
“What are you talking about. You, you really…!”
Imsol could not hide her embarrassment.
I wasn’t used to the disciple who suddenly said strange things.
“A person who takes pride in being the most talented wizard in the world, but also feels the burden of it. A weak person who mocks himself for being a monster but wants someone to take care of him. I like Professor Im Sol.”
“S-Stop it. Please…”
What if someone hears it?
She tried to cover the disciple’s mouth with her hand, but her hand wouldn’t move.
“Kwuk, keuh… Keew.”
Lee Ho-yeon, who burst out laughing alone, was so resentful that Im-sol tried to get angry.
“You, you. Do you really want to get scolded? There has to be some kind of joke.
But, oddly enough, he wasn’t angry.
What I feel at this moment is shame, a heated face, and a beating heart.
Even Lee Ho-yeon held onto Im Sol’s motherly hand.
“Professor, what do I want to say?”
Round and round.
The world seemed to turn.
The hand that Lee Ho-yeon held was so hot that it looked like it might be burned.
“Don’t push yourself too hard. I don’t care if the professor does strange things. It’s Im Sol too.”
“I-I…”
Pounding. Pounding.
The words swirling around in my mouth didn’t stick together properly.
I felt like I was suffocating and my chest was tickling.
I wanted to say something, but I couldn’t open my mouth.
I was so sad that I felt like crying.
I want to say
The heart makes it impossible to speak.
Seeing Im Sol pursed his lips, Lee Ho-yeon smiled slightly.
“You don’t have to be the best all the time. You don’t have to grind your teeth and study magic to show what a monster is when people say you’re a monster. Sometimes you just have to hang out and take a break. What if you’re a social outcast? Only those less fortunate than me. If there is no group, I will also throw it away.”
Hearing Lee Ho-yeon’s shy smile, Im Sol thought.
The disciple said he knew nothing.
What I’ve been through
Things I thought
The human Lee Ho-yeon knows nothing.
A person who has lived a hard life will never understand a person who has lived an easy life.
That’s why I can support you, and I can tell you to cheer up because one day you’ll be fine.
It is a selfish act of thinking only of oneself without considering the feelings of the person who has been broken so far.
Imsol hated those people.
By the way… Lee Ho-yeon did not want to blame.
Imsol just opened her mouth as she remembered.
“I, to me, there’s only magic… I’ve only known that all my life.”
Lee Ho-yeon heard Im Sol’s answer and let out a sigh of relief.
Still, it went the way I thought.
It was difficult to convince a woman who had only known magic all her life, but we shared a lot of emotions.
It was a short time, but Im Sol was the only one who understood him.
That was evidenced by the piled up likability.
This should be convincing enough.
“I am.”
“…”
“I’ll help you. So you can do whatever you want.”
After hearing Lee Ho-yeon’s words, Im Sol shut her mouth.
I looked at her in the void as if thinking about something, then at Lee Ho-yeon again, then at the void again.
Lee Ho-yeon tilted her head at the sight, but Im-sol was trying her best to hold back the trembling of her body.
Pounding. Pounding.
‘What, what is it? Why am I like this?’
She couldn’t stand the pounding in her chest.
I had to answer that question, but I couldn’t think of anything to answer.
Im Sol recalled a story she had with Baek Ah-young in the past.
‘Ah Young. My heart beats every time I’m with someone and my heart aches when I think negatively about that person, that’s love.’
She replied by making fun of Baek Ah-yeong, saying that whenever she thinks of him, her heart beats, and that her heart aches when she thinks negatively.
This was exactly the situation.
Looking at Lee Ho-yeon makes her heart pound, and when she thinks of answering Lee Ho-yeon’s words, she gets too nervous.
Her brain seemed to be holding on tight, as if she would never give a negative answer.
‘Wait a minute, this isn’t it. It’s not like this. Really.’
Im Sol wanted to keep the final Maginot Line.
He was a professor, and Lee Ho-yeon was a cadet.
Baek Ah-yeong can be claimed to be a good teacher, but Im Sol was really a professor.
She had been in her teaching job for several years, and was a proud professor in her own right, with her in-school evaluation always a perfect score.
Im Sol-do was also aware that the distance between Lee Ho-yeon and her was getting closer and closer.
That’s why she deliberately started calling him ‘My son’ to keep her distance.
Calling me by name seemed like getting too close mentally.
It was the upper limit set by Im Sol.
If we get closer, we will become more than just master and disciple.
In the end, Im Sol, who had been fighting with herself in her head, finally gave her a very stupid answer.
“Me, I’m a professor. You’re a cadet.”
‘It’s ruined.’
Imsol closed her eyes tightly.
She gave an answer that had nothing to do with the flow of the conversation.
How stupid do you look at me
On the other hand, Lee Ho-yeon, who saw Im-sol like that, smiled as if it was absurd.
This person is like this again.
What the professor
There is no law saying that a professor should not work hard, and there is no law saying that all cadets are under a professor.
‘Even though the age difference between me and me isn’t that great.’
Anyone can see that I’m a really old person.
Lee Ho-yeon laughed at Im Sol’s strange words and replied.
“Anyway, don’t talk about it again. All right. Professor? No, Sol.”
Just like you always do.
Sol, who used to tease each other or when there was something to be thankful for, used the playful nickname ‘noona’.
And when Im Sol heard that, her eyes widened.
Pop-
Something inside her exploded.
