Chapter 1003 – Dear You (9)
Odin and I ran through the black snowfield.
It wasn’t until a little more time passed that I noticed that the eyes flowing in the empty world were someone’s memories.
The blizzard was a time of waiting and a snowflake of futility.
Is that so? I didn’t die alone.
He died with his body connected, so he should be here too.
“… Why?”
I murmured as I faced a blizzard that felt stronger as I tried to break through the headwind.
There were many unanswered questions besides the difference between master’s and doctoral degrees. It is foolish to count the regrets left behind.
Francesca and the ‘Lord of the Deep’.
Even I, who reached this point by almost solving the questions I had faced so far, don’t know why they are so similar. I ended up not finding out.
But, if you think about it, it wasn’t something to be embarrassed about.
On the contrary, feeling so uncomfortable may have been proof of my lack of discipline as a scholar.
There are problems that a scholar can’t solve even if he devotes his life.
Mysteries that ended without being able to solve even with a lifetime of hard work with great hair existed in reality.
So the growth of a scholar does not depend on how much more he knows. Knowing a lot is not enough if you want to teach others and understand a subject well.
A truly mature scholar must accept that there are things he does not know.
A arrogant learned man who believes that he is wise enough to solve and understand all problems cannot be a true scholar.
Undergraduate students who end up at the stage of learning academics, and master’s students who stay at the level of a little more diverse knowledge.
If you are a true scholar, you should be different from them in essence.
Know without knowing understand without knowing
Accept that you don’t know what you don’t know.
─As others say, the most foolish thing in the world is trying to understand people who can’t understand.
It was a creed I often repeated.
Even though the expression is slightly different each time, it is a word that has been repeated.
Purple. How arrogant is this?
Of course, there is still no change in my thoughts, but when I think about what triggered the elite macho that I am to think like that, it is pathetic.
“I thought that if I studied hard and worked hard, I could solve any question.”
I muttered through the blizzard. Odin looked at me.
“It was foolish. I believed that if I had a head that was a little more oiled than others, I could see through the actions of bastards and go through everything in the world skillfully.”
So I couldn’t win against the last enemy alone.
How can you predict the affection that burns oneself with the reason that is pickled in this way of thinking? From what I could see, it was bullshit.
“It is possible that I did not become a doctor until the end. Fate didn’t allow it. Because I didn’t tell you what I didn’t know. I dismissed it as madness that I couldn’t understand with my head.”
I saw the past of many sinners. He also saved many souls of innocent people.
Even so, I only poured my emotions and reason into things I could know. They either sympathized with or despised the past of others, guided by the authority of Wolfheddin, and divided it according to their own dick.
Was that the attitude of a scholar?
Perhaps Yerna would have snorted at her when she heard it.
Because he didn’t hesitate to observe human society even though he knew he would never understand humans.
“I was an egoist before I was a romantic. Is the master’s ending natural?”
So, at the end of the day, it would be good to show understanding for things that you can’t understand.
Nord Wolfheddin, real name Kang Buk-ho.
He was once a warrior, hero, and magician, but he started as a feeble scholar, and so will his end.
Odin and I stopped in the black snowfield.
It was a snowfield near a forest with tundra-like crystal trees. My face and Odin’s faces were reflected in the crystal like a clear mirror. Black snowflakes clung to me and then melted.
“… I didn’t hear it directly from Thor.”
Said in a passing tone.
Just like when we talked about Loki a moment ago.
“Surprisingly, it would be more efficient to aim for the belt first. If you break it, your strength will be weakened.”
─Tuk. I hit my waist
This is where Thor’s authority, [Belt of Power] Resides.
“So, when you need a room, ask for a room here. Smash the magic of Odin, the god of death, magic, storm, and wrath, the majestic Lord, with all your might.”
“… …”
“It’s about when I failed, but you never know. Like the future I saw after I caught those who cried, will that bastard take away my body or soul?”
I got off Hamal and shrugged my shoulders.
I don’t know what it would mean if I came to Samdocheon, but it was because I thought it would be polite to tell me about my weaknesses if I ran out of control or was dominated.
I smirked, but Odin didn’t.
“… I didn’t want to have a future like this on my back.”
Regardless of the darkness of the snowfield or the eternal extinction that I will accept from now on, the memory of the heavenly god looked at me with a firm face.
“It was a problem we had to overcome. We had a responsibility to protect your children’s infancy.”
Disembarking from Sleipnir, she put the cross on her back that would have been carried by the real Odin who must have passed this road in the past.
“And yet I… I dragged you all the way here—”
“Thank you.”
I stopped talking and answered a little earlier.
Is it because of respect? Is it because of what I said? Odin, who appeared exactly as in the dream, closed his mouth.
“I am grateful. Thanks to Odin-sama, I also met other people.”
I couldn’t come here without the ‘Lord of the Deep’ and Odin.
There was a lot of hardship, but there was also a lot to gain.
Because there was as much happiness as pain, I can go to this underworld with a smile.
– Chuck.
As he made a V with his fingers and held it out, Odin held his mouth shut for a little longer before nodding as if it were okay. I also nodded her head and bid her farewell to her.
“Then… Watch me. My transformation.”
The snowstorm intensified, and I stood on a black snowy field.
I am the only one who can understand the ‘Lord of the Deep’.
Only I can understand the ‘Lord of the Deep’.
The only person in this world that monster wants to look into is me.
So, I too can look into the abyss of that monster.
─Szeuk.
I made the sign of the cross and held out my hand to him.
The hand he reached out to me in the past, this time from my side.
Two white hands stretched out across the darkness——they grabbed my hand.
… Kuhwaaaaa!!!!
Darkness overflowed from my soul.
That’s a power I’ve borrowed several times so far. A link between me and the guy.
Our bad relationship that he used to pollute my memory and soul, and I borrowed his power to overcome the crisis.
However, there is no mania that makes me go crazy with that darkness and negative mana.
On the road to the underworld, he saw himself reflected in a pin crystal tree. Unaware of his own arrogance, the nasty fodder’s left and right eyes changed to fluorescent colors and dark red.
It’s a link with that guy. I still feel the dark red affection like the abyss that does not know how to fade.
“… …”
I looked back at Odin once and ran to the black snowfield.
Just like my wives did, to find that guy sitting alone in the black snowfield.
The blizzard doesn’t stop.
This blizzard was his memory. Like my doubts and regrets, the questions of my life. As long as I can’t forget even if I die.
“… Why didn’t it work for me?”
The ‘lord of the deep sea’ was sitting on a black snowy field that was difficult to distinguish even from the horizon.
“Why couldn’t I be loved by Nord no matter what? They could have had it so easily, so for granted. Why only me?”
“Because you can’t love others.”
I answered.
“You can’t love anything in the world, not even yourself. I’m a picky eater who only likes what I like. So, there is no choice but to be loved by others.
My girls don’t respect or emulate the effort it took to love me. A proud head who looks down on others as if he knows everything will not allow him to do that.
So, you who are so arrogant are very similar to me.”
“… Look alike?”
“Since they look alike, they don’t even mesh. When it comes to married life, the dissimilar parts are just as important as the similarities.”
If you know that others cherish and love something as much as you like it.
He would not have been able to trample on and take so many lives and crave love.
Whether it was a god or a human, the “Lord of the deep sea” Only looked at himself. The ones he served and the ones he tried to kill were equally indifferent and regarded them as useless opponents.
Even his love for me was his own emotion, so he was just watching it.
Not interested in himself, he had no time to learn how to direct interest or feelings to others. For such a long time, there were no slaves and enemies by her side.
I didn’t know how to love others as I love myself, like everyone else does.
Although he became a human, he did not understand how to live as a human.
“Do not give, think only of yourself, covet what others have.”
A tribe that steals the fruit of people’s blood and sweat and uses it as their own decoration.
“I hate those guys. Physiologically unacceptable. It’s been like this since before you brought me into this world.”
The twisted and evil values that humans have never allowed since they first fell into this world.
If you had been looking at me with proper eyes, if you had realized from the first day you saw me that I hate that kind of people the most—
Then, I thought, fate would have allowed this monster to love me.
If I had really just waited, at least I would have done so.
But the past cannot be changed. The prophet had to try to face the future he desired.
‘The Lord of the Deep’ hoped that such a future would come true.
“So, lastly, I came to understand you, the person I hate the most in the world——even a little bit.”
I twisted that future.
“… Is it okay to do anything?”
“Even if I die, I have no intention of having an affair, but I don’t know. My women would be more than happy to find a new life if they knew that the bastard husband who had been searching for them first had cheated on them in the other world.”
“… What a bad person, Norn. You make me like this every time I’m about to give up, but who could they love other than you?”
The ‘Lord of the Deep’ wiped away his tears and held my hand.
The hand that had been raised with the thought of dying or being killed affectionately intertwined.
As if that was the only wind, the ‘Lord of the Deep’ smiled broadly as he placed his clasped hands on his cheeks.
“Can you call me by my name?”
I called her name
Neither the language of the World Tree nor the language of the Earth, but the language of their tribe.
“… Thanks, Nord.”
The woman who broke her first love nodded her head.
“So, I will return this. I got a little dirty with my mana, but please forgive me.”
-Shiny.
A piece of my soul shone in the arms of a woman who refused to die. It’s as if I’ve been protecting my soul here all this time.
She gave me back the soul I had lost.
… ‘Lord of the Deep’.
The old ruler of the taboo that I couldn’t and shouldn’t have understood. Until I became a human, I was an evil god who wanted to love humans.
She filled the hole in my chest like that, and greeted the spring day a little before the snowflakes in full bloom in the snowy field.
“——I love you, Nor. Always.”
Seen off by the woman’s smile, which dissipates like a snowflake, her consciousness fell into a deep sleep that was hard to wake up from.
Do masters dream of monkeys, or do monkeys dream of masters?
It was probably a topic to think about after waking up from reality.
