Chapter 201 – The Last Farewell ( 2 )
At first it didn’t matter too much.
I thought there was no one in this world who wanted ‘me’.
[Because I need you. ]
[ Hiro. Your name is Hiro from today. ]
So, the only man who has ever wanted this side.. Even when he was told by his dad to be his daughter or wife, he easily nodded and accepted it.
Because I had no other options anyway.
[I am Cheols Kim. The man who will be your father ]
I just thought, let’s be the ‘female’ this guy wants, because he’s the only one who wants me.
In fact, up to this point, there will be no big difference between the pervert man and the father on the screen.
However, the crucial difference is that Baekga’s pervert man in the game did only things that I, or Baek Hyuk, hated and suffered from, and my dad only did things that made me feel good and happy.
[ Happy.. ]
Even if those things were actually evaluated as strange in society, I felt happy for the first time in my life at the time.
[ Dad! Hiro loves his dad! ]
As time goes by, there was me who was trying to find and achieve the job of becoming a ‘female’ of my father, whom I thought I would just match.
[ Love. Hiro. ]
For the first time, in addition to negative emotions such as sadness, loneliness, and emptiness, I felt the sweet feeling of ‘love’.
Love is so happy and sweet, and at the same time, like a drug, I couldn’t quit once I tasted it.
[ Me too..! I love you daddy! ]
I wanted to be loved by my father more, and I wanted to become a female that he would like.
[I guess I will have to enter the academy soon..]
In that sense, the ‘common sense’ of the world that I learned to enter Shinsung International Academy was so shocking to me.
The fact that men are etymologically male and not female, and that normal females do not have the male organ that I have now, but have the female organ..
…Not a female?
For a moment, the feeling of fear overtook me.
What Dad wants is an ideal female.
..But as a man, I am not a female.
He even said that as men and women grow up, their physical forms are very different. The fear of being abandoned by my father if I grew up with a male body because I was a man.
[Ah..Dad won’t abandon me, right? Yes? Because I.. Will work hard to become Daddy’s female..! ]
Like deep trauma or darkness in my heart, it ate everything.
Already at that time, I was obsessed with depending on my dad to the point that I couldn’t live a single day without him.
[Can a father abandon our daughter… Hiro? Daddy loves Hiro forever and will be with him… So you don’t have to worry at all. ]
Dad hugged me, stroked my hair, and said it was okay, so I also repeated the words ‘I will believe’ and ‘I love you’.
..What if I get dumped by my dad? If my dad tries to abandon me… He wants me more.
But inside, I was trembling because of the fact that I was a man and the fact that I would be abandoned by my father.
[I.. My dad’s hard-working female..! I’ll be your wife! ]
The reason I didn’t show it was because I was afraid that my dad would get tired of me and lose his affection.
..Can I be? A female dad would like.
Since then, I’ve been thinking about it and trying to look more like a female. What if I even changed my body into a woman with the power of magic or science? Enough to worry about…
[Dad likes Hiro as it is. ]
I gave up immediately after that.
Anyway, I thought it was natural and the truth that I had to risk everything for my dad’s pure ‘love’.
[ Make Baek Hyuk into my own female..! As the only being in the world who loves only me! ]
But what is this..?
A dad who becomes the tentacle demon Dr. Rocks and devises a plan in the basement.
The moment he got closer and saw the plan, goose bumps ran through his body.
Starting with when my biological father Baek Seo-moon died and when the funeral was held, all the plans until I became ‘Kim Hiro’ from Shin Baek-hyeok.
Behavior, emotion, and body modifications were all listed.
Even the part where I, who became Kim Hiro, found out that this world was actually in an unplayed game and asked my father, Kim Chul-s why he made me a girl.
[Use tentacle cells to constrain behavior and reset self and memory. ]
As soon as I saw such a line in the plan I peeped at, I couldn’t breathe.
Dad is unique to me.
But what am I to my father? A woman who is more than just what she wants? Or is he a living doll with a pretty face?
Can the me who reset my ego and memory be called me?
Pajik..!
From the moment I thought of that, my absolute trust in my dad started to crack.
From the flawless Messiah who brought me out of the deep abyss…
As a selfish person who knew I would be ‘saved’ but used the life of a girl… No, a boy named Baek Sang-hyeok to get his own ideal female.
Even if Dad hadn’t taken me from the funeral home, Hiro Kim and Shin-Hyeok Baek would have been cared for and taught by a person named Cheongsong Mu-gwan, and would have grown up with the same gender.
I feel like an idiot for the times I suffered because of my natural gender.
But what pisses me off the most is…
‘I don’t resent my father..’
Even though I realized that my life itself was only betrayed and used, I do not resent Kim Chul-s at all.
Rather, even at this moment, I am afraid that I will ‘reset’ me like the contents written in that plan, knowing this big secret.
I grew up already so…So much of my father’s female, and I was designed to love only him.
Before this moment, I thought I was very happy with myself like that.
Now, I wonder if even this appearance is a fake emotion created by my father’s plan.
Will I be able to show my father a smile in the future? Even if my dad says he loves me, can I accept it as it is?
I will spend each minute and every second in fear of being reset due to the mistakes of my actions.
I’d rather.. If my dad had confessed the truth first and said he still loved you wholeheartedly before knowing it this way, even if it was a lie and abandoned someday, he would have believed it until that moment.
I… Have come to doubt my father’s love…
That buck that buck
In the distance, a small red-haired boy can be seen walking towards the limousine holding the hand of a giant in a black suit.
Swoop–
When I reached out my hand without even realizing it.
Sreuk..
Eyes open slowly
“Hey…Roya?”
A person who loves you so much but is scared at the same time extends his hand.
Widely!
“Don’t… Don’t touch me!”
In an instant, without realizing it, I shouted as I shook off that cold, hard hand.
“…!”
My heart skips a beat when I see Dad looking at me with his eyes wide open in surprise.
You have to ask your dad if he really loves me or if I’m just one of many female replacements..!
“I know everything! Even if Dad didn’t interfere, I could have been saved by Baek Hyuk, right?!”
What am I talking about? I was overcome with emotion and immediately spit out whatever came to mind.
However, this is also an important issue.
If my dad asks what he’s talking about here, or if he asks if I had a nightmare, I can pass it off as just my misunderstanding or a wild dream.
Even if my father lied, I would believe him.
But Dad’s face hardened.
“…I’m sorry.”
He lowered his head and spat out words of apology that had little to do with affirmation.
Ah..
Daddy doesn’t love me.
He is just Kim Hiro, the female candidate his father wants.
Such a replacement that can be reset and discarded at any time..
“Aaaaah
I don’t want to hear any more, so I cover my ears.
Dad… I don’t want to see that person so I close my eyes.
I was screaming and screaming at the feeling that everything was collapsing.
Drop——
In the aftermath of emotions that I couldn’t handle, my consciousness was cut off and at the same time my eyes went dark.
——-
‘Hiro found out…’
I have no idea how I found out.
However, as far as I know, the method doesn’t matter much.
‘Control with tentacle cells and erase personality… I’m sure it was written that way.’
However, neither control using tentacle cells nor erasing personality can do anything.
No. I don’t even think to do it.
Kim Hiro was already an irreplaceable, precious and beloved existence to Cheols.
‘If I say it now, no. I must have already become a very repulsive and hateful existence to Hiro.’
Even now, he regained consciousness, but only Baek-gu and Baek Seo-hee waited on Hiro, and Cheols did not go up.
From what I’ve heard, Hiro keeps asking questions in a daze, and just lies down or sits like a doll.
Just like Shin Hyuk Baek I saw at the funeral for the first time.
He, who could be said to be the cause of such a bad condition, decided that Hiro’s condition would become more serious if he showed his face.
‘Maybe it worked out better.’
Thinking like that
“This is Cheols Kim.”
[ Five! Chairman Kim Chul-seu, what business did you call…]
“I want you to take care of my daughter for a while.”
[ Miss Hiro? Miss Hiro, who is a direct disciple of our Cheolgaya Cheolmuhan, is always welcome.. Do you have a reason? ]
When asked by Cheolsoohan’s agent, Cheols explained that Hiro was in great shock because of Cheols and himself and needed recuperation, excluding details.
“I hope that Miss Seon Ha will take good care of my daughter.”
[Your good lady will like it.]
Lastly, Cheols hung up the phone, mentioning Cheol Seon-ha, the granddaughter of Cheol Mu-han, who knows that Hiro’s body is male, including Cheol Mu-han.
And that evening.
Booooong..
A car with Hiro left the mansion.
