Chapter 6 – 0. The President’s Male Prostitute (6)
The luncheon is over.
Returning to her room to catch her breath, I immediately went straight to her bedroom at Beatrix’s call.
In the main building of the official residence, if the first floor was a stage for servants and the second floor was a space for me, the third floor was a place for Bernhard’s Führer.
“Are you sober?”
“Thanks.”
“That’s good.”
Beatrix, who was changing her clothes while looking at her mirror, unbuttoned her sleeve and handed me the tie she was holding in her hand. It meant hanging.
“Looks like you had a lot of fun with Otto.”
“Yes.”
“Is there anything else you can say?”
The tie was red, as if stained with blood. I replied by wrapping it around her neck, red like her hair.
“There is not.”
“Even though all of my grosse lager was still there?”
My hand, which had been tying a knot, stopped. Looking through her mirror, Beatrix’s eyes were sharper than ever, eerily like looking into the eyes of a raging dragon.
“Did you know?”
“My memory must be very good.”
Had completely forgotten How unusual was this woman’s memory. Come to think of it, she had mentioned it in passing sometime.
“I’ll never forget what I’ve seen.”
At the time, I didn’t think much of it. She was a woman who was beyond common sense, so I must have exaggerated her excellent memory a bit.
She shouldn’t have done that. She was indeed a woman who did not know oblivion.
“Beatrix.”
“There is no second time.”
“Yes?”
“The reason I even gave you a drink after seeing Otto’s stupid acting was because I was thinking of your feelings.”
Beatrix reached out her hand to me. It gently covered my hardened hand while holding the knot. Feeling the déjà vu of my previous life again, I trembled in fear for a while, but then I realized that nothing would change, and I gathered up my courage and raised my head.
“Shall we change the question?”
The scent of thorny roses stung my nose. She crossed her hands and made a lewd hand gesture with me who finished the knot as it was.
“Jeong Woo.”
It was disgusting, but I couldn’t resist it.
“…… Yes.”
“Why did you cheat on me?”
You shouldn’t answer plainly. How could you confess to the devil’s face that he tried to kill you?
I asked in reverse, barely facing Beatrix’s big eyes.
“What if I don’t answer?”
“If you don’t answer my questions, there’s no reason for me to do that.”
There was not an inch of concession. Even though it was practically begging, she did not back down. She just saw me through her beautiful face, the evil eyes in it, and the terrifying silence in her eyes.
“Be honest.”
A woman who knows what a threat is, the reason she held my hand and interlocked it must be to feel the trembling of her body and the cold sweat flowing like rain.
“In that case, would you forgive me?”
“You are always at my mercy.”
Lying is something you have to be talented at. I was not yet able to escape her keen insight. So the only action you can take now is to choose the truth.
“I wanted to make him my own.”
Don’t be honest I will hide the lies that I really want to hide with the insignificant truth.
“Your person?”
That’s how you struggle until the very end.
“It has been several years since I have lived as a greenhouse flower in this garden you cultivated. Now I also wanted to have some friends.”
The clock hanging on the wall ticked. Beatrix diagnosed me for some time with silence. After that, he opened his mouth to see if he was not lying. It seemed that any hint of her rebellion against her had worked.
“A friend, what were you trying to do by having a big man like Otto as your friend?”
“I was thinking of raising my status.”
“What is the status again?”
“You must be kidding, right? There are millions of people pointing fingers at me in Bernhard. I wanted to show them. I don’t just enjoy this luxury by meeting you well. Being treated well because you have that kind of ability.”
Even death row inmates in extermination camps know that the country’s leading daily newspapers chew me up with editorials and comments whenever they are bored. For those who have to obey the regime and incite the people, few targets are as easy as me.
“With the power of a big friend called the Army Lieutenant General?”
“…… Yes.”
“Murray.”
Suddenly, Beatrix began to give her admonitions. As if to prove her affection for me, she often evaluated my actions like this.
“It’s good to try to change, but it’s foolish to rely on someone else’s reputation.”
Damn it old-fashioned year.
“I just believed in the power of fate and bonds.”
“The moment you spread words like that and become optimistic about your relationships with others, you lose. Most people are ready to put a dagger in your chest at any time. If you’re going to do renovations, you should at least be prepared for such an unfortunate event.”
It was uncomfortable to hear, but judging by the flow of the conversation, it seemed like the hurdle was over. Thinking that I should drive a wedge before arousing unnecessary suspicion, I replied rather nervously.
“Then what are you going to do with me! If you’re ignorant, you’d have known about my floor-crawling reputation! You pretended to think so and let the things that cursed at me from the inside and outside go on!”
“Is that wrong?”
“At least I’m sure I’m disappointed in you.”
Beatrix’s face contorted slightly.
“You are talking too much.”
“I thought we could be better off. The moment you decide to restore the relationship. But now I really don’t know.”
“Well, I’m not at fault if I have to make an excuse for my petulant lover.”
“Why?”
“If I had caught and killed all the things that cursed at you, you would have distanced yourself even more. I let them talk so much because I didn’t intend to hate you.”
Chills ran down my spine. If it was her, she was a great person who could do that.
“…… Is that so.”
Had to stop here. If they continued to fight without knowing the extent of it, a great purge could have taken place in the Bernhardt area. Just for one charge of offending the Führer’s lover.
“Oto Moritsura, he’s a decent guy for a subordinate. But as a friend, I don’t know.”
“I heard that you are not a person who would break your trust.”
“Relying on gossip from other people is something you do when you have no other means.”
Beatrix untied her clenched hands. Now he seemed to feel that there was no need to see through lies.
“But yes, at least from what I’ve seen, I don’t think he’s going to disappoint.”
Soon, the intense scent of roses faded away. Fortunately, this time I was able to pass without getting stabbed by those ferocious thorns.
Throwing her reddish hair behind her, she put her rugged earrings in her ears. It was something I made myself and gave as a gift when we had just met.
“Did you say you were thinking of raising your status?”
“Yes.”
“Do you sometimes use it to rebel against me?”
“Yes.”
“It’s good to be honest. I like the attitude that is different from before.”
Glancing at the clock on her wall, she picked up her uniform coat. She put on her medals placed neatly on the chest of drawers in turn, put her favorite longsword around her waist, and added her words.
“It is good to have an eye for it.”
It was a completely different voice.
“I will allow you to become friends.”
Unexpectedly, it was a very generous attitude. I looked at Beatrix with a bewildered expression. The only thing left to do was to put on her gloves, and she pointed at them lying on the bed with her hand.
It meant go and bring it to me.
Although his pride was hurt, the price for being allowed to become a fellowship was very cheap. Swallowing my humiliation, I approached the bed and picked up the glove and handed it to him.
And at that moment, yank!
Beatrix grabbed my hand and hugged her body.
“But Jungwoo, if you want to deceive me, be more precise.”
There was no time to resist. She spoke in a charismatic, husky voice and whispered in my ear.
“When you can’t use the truth as your weapon, especially when you try to lie to me…….”
In the end, he warned, chewing his ear lobe until it bleeds.
“You shouldn’t look clumsy like today.”
It happened in just a few seconds. But in those few seconds, I was definitely dead. It was a male dog who flipped his stomach at the voice that flowed through his ears with his breath stopped.
“Because this will be the last time I’ll watch you.”
It’s terrible.
“You understand?”
It feels like being thrown out into the street completely naked. There was no way I could get rid of the feeling of defeat. This vicious woman knew it all from the beginning. She did, and she played well with me. He probably meant to engrave it deep in my bones.
If you’re not going to tell the truth and ask for permission, then you’ll have to fight with sheer lies.
“I will keep in mind…….”
The bitter defeat ended only after the declaration of surrender. Putting on her overcoat, she headed down the hallway and snapped her finger as she saw me standing there in frustration.
“Let me see you off.”
It wasn’t a request. It was an order. She could only assert the victor in such a regal manner.
“Do you have anything more to say?”
As she closed her door and was about to leave her room, she saw my sad expression on her face and asked. I just shook my head and tried to get away from her, but suddenly the conversation she had just passed through her head and took hold of her heart.
―If I am wrong, please take over.
Seo Jung -woo, this cowardly cub. How long has it been since you made a promise by mentioning your name? You mean the corps, like a dog with its tail hanging down already?
“Yes, there is.”
“What?”
“Don’t touch the Moritz couple.”
Silence fell for a while. It was because Beatrix didn’t open her mouth. She stood there for a long time as her eyes met with mine, and only after the grandfather clock in her hallway rang, did she part her lips. Even then, she didn’t speak right away, leaving me very tense until the uncomfortable silence ended.
“Then tell me why you tried to trick me.”
It was an order hard to refuse. My relationship with Beatrix was revealed in one such trivial conversation. I clenched my fists with trembling hands and fought back with courage.
“I don’t like it.”
It was truly a life-and-death rebellion.
“It was a lie, but I hate to say why.”
She sighed, raising the corners of her mouth, and moved her feet with her short gestures. It was toward the grand staircase at the far end of the hallway.
Every minute and every second must have been a waste for her busy with her official duties, but it was purely because of me that she still did not leave her official residence past her appointed time.
“If I do, I’d like to hear an excuse.”
More than anything, I felt the word “Excuse” As soon as I heard it. This was the indulgences she issued for her day. It was a signal that he wanted to forgive somehow, so he had to make a plausible excuse.
But I had no intention of fitting in with such mercy.
“I have no excuses.”
Toweringly, Beatrix, who was about to descend the stairs, stopped.
“Did I hear you wrong?”
The questioning voice was very frightening. But this time, he did not back down. If she couldn’t even resist this kind of resistance, how could he have killed her?
I struggled to open my eyes and screamed.
“I am a person with self-respect. It would be a mistake if you thought that I would live forever, only paying attention to you.”
Beatrix blinked with an expressionless expression.
“I warn you, do not touch the Moritz couple.”
The chill down my spine made me go harder. It was her warning to her for the first time in my life.
“It’s not a request, it’s a warning.”
“If there is anything wrong with the two of them, I will never stand by.”
“I don’t know since when did you pretend to be close just because you knew each other that way.”
It’s not just because of friendship. Otto said he was asking for a follower in case he went wrong. Even though I’m not a real eagle owl, since I decided to impersonate and use that name, I was willing to do whatever it took to fulfill that request.
“The spirit is good.”
After evaluating that, Beatrix took another step. He slowly looked back at me, who was standing there awkwardly.
“Since you warned me, should I warn you too?”
It wasn’t a word that needed an answer. Rarely, she had a light smile on her face.
“Don’t bark if you can’t bite.”
Contrary to the fact that it was a warning and made me nervous, it was surprisingly insignificant. However, Beatrix seemed to think that that was enough to convey her intentions, and she walked out to the front door.
“I will be back before midnight. Let’s sleep for the first time in a while today.”
Crazy bitch, to say that you’re only making love tonight in a situation where you were growling just a moment ago. The gap between her brows narrowed, but Beatrix spat out only what she had to say.
“One more thing, the curfew I mentioned earlier is valid, so don’t think about violating it.”
“Do you think I will listen to that?”
“If you want to see the bodies of the Moritz couple.”
“…… !”
Looking at the clock on her front door, she opened the door saying that she had to go soon. Outside of her, she was greeted by her heinrich, her henchman, in her automobile identical to that of her industrial revolution days, and her SS bodyguards lined up with her oh.
“Then Jungwoo?”
The Queen greeted her, turning her head to her side.
“I will go.”
I made no reply.
“At least say hello.”
No, that was what I meant to do, but I soon changed my mind and replied.
“…… Come on, Beatrix.”
So, at the same time as making a resolution of some sort.
“Okay.”
Finished seeing off
