Chapter 418 – #419 I Want to Live
#419 I want to live
I went into the cave where Peter and Hela were.
“… Huh? Whoops?!”
When I reached the end of the cave, I was startled. It was because Peter was on top of Hella and was strangling him.
Pop-! Pop-! Pop-!
Drops of water were dripping nonstop on Hella’s face. These were the tears of a husband who had to kill his wife with his own hands.
“…”
It must have been painful from her strangulation, but Hella didn’t move. She rather closed her eyes and smiled.
Looking into her eyes, she wouldn’t be able to kill herself, so she smiled to relieve her husband of some of her guilt.
But from my point of view, it was not at all a welcome consideration. Hella dying wasn’t what I wanted.
“Stop! Stooooo!!!”
“What?!”
He rushed over to Peter and grabbed him by the nape of his neck and threw him back. And she confirmed her condition to Hella. Surely she’s not dead?!
“Kyaa, kyahak!”
When the choked breath was opened, Hella let out a rough breath. She strangled her so hard that there were blue handprints on her neck.
“Oh wow, that almost sucked.”
“What are you doing! Why are you disturbing me!”
Peter protested harshly as I let out a sigh of relief. I honestly have nothing to say.
From Peter’s point of view, I, who told him to make a choice without regrets just a few hours ago, had interfered with his choice.
But isn’t the original human mind different when entering and exiting the bathroom?
I was going to respect whatever choice Peter made, but I felt like any choice would lead to bad consequences for both Peter and me.
In order to protect my friend, no, the Kollet costume, I had to present the best option that would satisfy Peter.
First of all, let’s scold Peter.
“Stupid guy! Go scold!!!!!”
“I’m sorry…!”
Peter flinched at the Buddha’s cry of repentance. The guilt you endured will come to you. The Buddha’s Cry [Rebuke] Skill has the effect of causing guilt. What the fuck am I talking about?
Now, let’s seriously convince Peter.
‘Seriousness ON.’
“I’ll apologize first. I’m sorry I stopped you. By the way. I’ve been thinking about it and I think there’s another solution, so I blocked you.”
“Another solution? What are you talking about?”
“You’re going to be very angry and having a hard time right now. But I don’t mean to waste your time talking nonsense? So even if it sounds absurd, listen to me calmly. “Can you please?”
“… What are you trying to say?”
After all, to move people’s hearts, you have to be sincere. Peter’s spirit, feeling my sincerity, was shattered.
“Uh… First of all, did you see the woman outside right now? Her name is Raon Jenna.”
“…”
“But Raonjena is not a person.”
“…?”
“She looks human, but she’s not human at all. She’s a monster.”
“… Huh? Now what…?”
Peter was taken aback when he heard Raonzena’s true identity. He looked at me wondering if he had heard it wrong.
I understand Peter, who doesn’t understand me. If it wasn’t for the system log, she probably wouldn’t have known that Raon Jenna was a monster.
“Have I ever asked you about nine-tailed foxes before?”
“No way…”
“That’s right. The nine-tailed fox I was talking about at that time was Raonjena. The monster, the nine-tailed fox, can use the magic of disguise, which allows them to look like humans.”
“…”
Peter was looking at me blankly. And I looked closely at Peter.
‘Done!’
I saw
A small spark of hope sprouted from the depths of Peter’s eyes.
There is nothing else that humans need to survive. Just hope. Only when we have this hope can we hold on to the will to live even in a hopeless situation.
Pandora’s box was opened and the greed, jealousy, envy, and disease contained in it spread to the world. As a result, the peaceful world became hell and people groaned in pain.
But even in that hell, people lived.
Because hope remained in the deepest part of Pandora’s box. People were able to live even in hell with hope in their hearts.
I sent Peter on a siren and thought about it. Even thinking about cancer, the only thing left for Peter who finished his work was a bad ending.
It is his only long-cherished wish to give rest to his wife, who became a monster due to her own wrong choice, and it was the driving force that allowed him to endure until now.
Don’t forget. Peter is a human, not a monster.
For hundreds of years, he did not give up on a task that would have been given up by an ordinary person. After that, Peter had no reason to live anymore.
But what if it instills hope in Peter? What if he can enjoy the happy times of the past again?
‘Don’t be alarmed. It’s not over yet.’
Now, it’s just a matter of lighting a spark of hope in Peter. It was still too early to be careless. Now it was time to add firewood so that this fragile ember could burn brightly.
“Puryulyyulyyulyyulyyulyyulyyulyyulyyulyu!”
“Ah, why are you doing that all of a sudden?”
“I put a booster on the muzzle before loading the firewood.”
“Yes?”
I opened my mouth before putting in the firewood and looked at Peter with serious eyes. Now, I’ll put in the firewood, so it’ll burn brightly! It’s a spark of hope!
“We’ll have to check, but perhaps Raonjena will be able to return your wife to the way she was. The way you were when you loved and loved again.”
“…”
Peter, embarrassed by my muzzle, turned blank again.
“Of course, the substance is still a monster. Her disguise can’t change that. But it’s not impossible to turn her back into her human.”
Have heard of it before
Raon Jenna couldn’t master her ninja art, so when she morphed into a different form, her family canceled her ninja art. That meant that it was possible to cast or break her spell on others.
If it is Raon Zena who has mastered her art of morphing, she can change Hela’s form.
“Well, what does that mean? My wife… Can Hella become a human again? Lady Laonzena is saying that’s possible?”
“I told you. Even Raonjena can’t do that.”
I shook my head. Who’s not my friend, this baby … She only hears what she wants to hear.
“Ah…”
Disappointed, Peter lowered his head. He hurriedly opened his mouth before the embers of hope he had struggled with were extinguished.
“You are the one who can turn your wife back into a human being.”
“Me? I don’t have that ability.”
“Look Carefully.”
Pajijik-!
When I used the superpower of the thunderbolt, lightning flashed from my hand. After showing it to Peter, he stopped his thunderbolt psychic powers. Then the lightning disappeared.
“Now. Do you understand what I mean?”
“… I do not know.”
“When you use a psychic power, something happens depending on the type of psychic power. You can create lightning like I did now, but if you stop the psychic power, you can get rid of the lightning.”
I lifted my finger and stabbed Peter in the chest. And pointed to Hella.
“It’s you, Peter, who turned Hela into a monster. Then, it means that you, Peter, are the ones who can turn Hela, who has become a monster, back into a human with your psychic powers.”
“Is that… Possible?”
“Before you think of the impossible, experiment to see if it’s possible. You can’t achieve what you want with just your thoughts. Go against it with your own body and think based on the experience of failure. You’ve lived for over 300 years, haven’t you? After living for the next 300 years, you will find a way can’t you?”
“…”
The effect of the firewood was great. It was not the level of the embers of hope, but now it was the level of the sea of hope. Peter’s eyes were full of hope as he looked at Hella.
It was then.
Chii Iik-!
‘Ah again why?!’
Hope faded, like water poured on fire. Why?!
Peter’s face was stained with guilt again. I felt a slightly different kind of guilt than when I tried to kill his wife with my own hands.
“But… Then, because of me… The villagers who died because of Hela…”
“Ha…”
In the end, I couldn’t help but sigh. Saving Tsuba friends, no, keeping the costume is fucking tough.
“Do you feel responsible for their deaths? Are you sorry for those who died hundreds of years ago?”
“…”
“Then live.”
“Yes?”
Peter was taken aback by my words.
“You live, your wife lives too. We all live together, repent and apologize to them.”
“…”
“Build a shrine to pray for their repose, and donate money to people in need. Whatever it is, do whatever it takes. Do volunteer work and help people in danger. When you see a villain, get rid of it. They are the pests of society. Because they’re the same. Oh, except for me, of course.”
I patted Peter on the shoulder, who was staring blankly at me, and passed him by. At this point, I’ve done everything I can.
“Payment for sin. You have to live to pay. Death is a cowardly act to avoid paying the penalty. Think carefully about what I said and make your choice after discussing it with your wife. I’ll be waiting outside, so tell me when you’ve made up your mind.”
“…”
I left Peter and came out. Please, I hoped and hoped that Peter would obey me.
*****
After Steel Armor left the cave, Peter approached Hela.
“Hella…”
“Huh… See…”
Peter lifted the helpless Hela and allowed her to lean on her rock. He looked at Hella’s neck, where his handprints were thick.
If Hela was a monster, Peter was half like a beastman. Most of the organs, bones, and muscles that make up his body belonged to psychics or monsters.
He, too, could be said to be half-human, half-beast, no, half-human, half-god, like a beastman.
Peter’s strength was so strong that even a moderate body enhancer could not dare to withstand it. Since he strangled him as hard as he could, it was only natural that his blue-black handprints would remain.
Peter carefully stroked Hella’s neck, where his handprints remained. Tears welled up in his sad eyes.
“I… Was such a fool.”
He thought all he could do was kill Hela. He had thought all along that there was no other way for him to repent of his past wrongs.
But no.
She was wise to a friend much younger than herself. Wisdom does not come from age.
The wise young friend is Hella, and she has come up with a way for herself to live with all. Directions were also given.
This is not something you can come up with in a day or two. It was evident that she had been troubled ever since she heard about her past on the Sirens’ Island. For yourself.
“Hella… What should I do? What should I do?”
“…”
Hella looked at her own husband. Her skin was as firm as that of young people. From her outside appearance, Peter looked like he was in his twenties.
But she was her wife, and she knew this man well because she had loved him for a long time.
That there is an old man who has suffered and suffered under the youthful appearance.
She knows
Why did this man live in pain for so long? She knew it was because of him.
“Huh… See…”
In fact, she wanted to die as well as Hella. She had too much blood on her hands. She also gets bloodied again to protect Peter from Zero. Humans and monsters alike.
But she couldn’t choose her death when she thought of her husband who must have had a hard time because of her.
Just as Steel Armor saw the hope sprouting in Peter, she knew that Peter had hope now.
So sorry she is but she chose to be selfish for this man’s sake.
“Me…”
“Yes honey.”
“I want to live… Go…”
“…”
He would be willing to live if this man could be happy even for a moment by being alive.
“Keuheuk… Hella…”
Peter hugged Hella and cried like her child.