Chapter 160 – Last – I Love You, Kim Joo-Won
Did Kim Joo-won take my swearing as something cute?
He laughed and scolded me, saying, “Why is our Seoha always honest with his lower lip?”
But maybe it’s because the feverish feeling cooled down because of the stimulation that didn’t connect.
“Seoha, do you want to go into your room or do it here?”
My body didn’t react to that guy’s words, and I laughed at the guy who told me to choose something that didn’t work instead.
I wonder if it was said against a person who was so exhausted that he couldn’t even resist.
“Do as you please…”
“Then go into the big room?”
“You crazy bastard!”
“Ah, deaf ears.”
It’s a problem with a fixed answer, so I thought I’d tell you to take care of it roughly.
Why can’t he just say the last word properly?
I spat out a loud voice in anger at the guy who was spitting out crazy sounds.
“Are you a little heavier than before?”
It’s not like I’m educating a kid who was born less than a year ago that you came out like this.
As I sat down on the sofa and glared at the guy stroking my breasts, which I hadn’t touched in a while, Kim Joo-won sighed and smiled.
“So what-“
The moment I tried to pull my body back from that laugh that seemed to have some evil intention.
The woman who knew what condition my body was in immediately inserted her hand through the dance of my pants, and then grabbed my genital organ between her fingers and made me lean against her body.
“You, you’re really hot…”
I tried to say a word to the guy who held me between my legs and rubbed my skin on his own, but I was easily blocked.
Even if I try to hold back the moaning that comes out of the fingers that are bothering me, even if I cover my mouth with my hand.
Does Kim Joo-won want to torment me more after seeing me like that?
He inserts his fingers into the pea-like part hidden between the skin, and forcibly opens my mouth.
“Haaaaa…”
“Now you’re like our Seoha.”
“Really die, Rae-ae.”
Kim Joo-won’s satisfied voice, seeing me like that, reached her ears.
I clenched my fists that couldn’t be properly clenched and hit him like a sparring blow.
Kim Joo-won stood still and took her hand out of my pants and showed me that his hand was wet.
“Seoha, look at this.”
“What are you looking for…”
“It’s the water you spilled like pervert when you got hit on the butt for being scolded.”
“Who doesn’t know that?”
“That’s…”
He pulled out a tissue near her and wiped his fingers, then put her hand through the slit of her shirt.
Underneath the cotton tee, the defenseless breasts that were not wearing a bra quickly gave way to the guy.
This time, his hand reaches near the nipple used to feed the bird.
“Why did you attach the pads cumbersomely?”
“You… No, you don’t know.”
Jiik.
He sighed as he felt the pad fall from under his clothes.
Even if he knows a lot of other things, he won’t know about milk leaking from the breast of a woman who gave birth.
“What is this.”
Kim Joo-won said she was puzzled when she saw the breast milk on her hand, but when she smelled the sweet smell, she looked at me and she looked at my hand for a moment.
I don’t know why, with an absurd look.
“If you move, you’ll leak milk…”
“…You’re really done with cows. Actually, the milk container is that big!”
In the end, he stabs Kim Joo-won, who keeps teasing him with the back of his head.
Nosebleeds won’t break out, but seeing the guy in pain and missing me makes me feel sick.
“Who am I doing this for?”
I got up from my seat and glared at him.
She still seemed to be shivering a little, but at least the heat had cooled and she thought about going to bed.
But did Kim Joo-won really want to do something with me today?
“Seoha, where are you going?”
“You keep teasing me, I’m angry and I’m just going to sleep.”
“Sorry. I’ll stop teasing you, so come back to work.”
I looked down and held back my annoyance at the man’s hand stroking my chest even after being hit, and headed where his hand led me.
It was a bedroom that was simply decorated separately because I didn’t want to show what I was doing in front of Sae-ah.
I let out a small sigh as I looked at the room, which even had a small bathroom, giving off an atmosphere almost like a motel.
“I’m dangerous today, do I really have to do it today?”
“Huh.”
“Then what if I get a second one…”
“Well, we have to raise our second child well.”
“You really are.”
That moment.
The guy who had blocked my mouth with a kiss, removed his lips, placed his hand on the nape of the shirt, and slowly began to undress.
“This room, you made it, not me?”
Saying things I can’t possibly refute.
As the guy said, the reason is that the room was made for the reason that he didn’t want to show what he was doing in front of Sae-ah.
Anyway, this is the room I decorated.
“It’s because of you.”
“Why me.”
“You don’t even remember how many times you’ve fucked me since I found you.”
A pad attached to the stripped T-shirt instead of a bra comes out and falls to the floor.
Behind my stripped pants, he pushes in between my legs with my panties caught on my right ankle.
“Uh. Why are you counting all those things? Do you remember?”
“No…”
“But what, as long as we have fun together.”
Saying that, Kim Joo-won grabbed his wet panties and threw them back, placing his hand on his chest.
At that moment, he looks at the things he put on the bedside and laughs.
“I didn’t throw them away.”
As he raised his head to follow his gaze, his leash, handcuffs, and name tag came into view.
Things that this guy used to sexually mock me in the past, now things that he put aside to keep him from forgetting the past.
“Why throw them away? They’re the ones who make me forget what you did to me.”
“I think I would have thrown it away.”
“That’s because you did those things to me.”
On top of that, even the kitchen knife I used to stab Kim Joo-won.
For safety reasons, the kitchen knife was well sealed and attached to the wall.
“That knife, then.”
“The one I used to stab you.”
“Didn’t you throw it away?”
“I’m warning you. Just in case you change your mind…”
When Kim Joo-won smiled, his body trembled as soon as he remembered what had happened at that time.
It must have been quite a shock, and I could see goose bumps on his arm.
“Oh, of course I won’t stab you with that.”
“I have to do well even if I don’t want to die.”
I was fed up with Kim Joo-won’s words and burst into laughter.
Obviously, just by mentioning and thinking about it, I was excited and didn’t want to think about it, and I thought it would be, but I was surprised by my unexpected reaction for a while.
Have I really become stronger, or have I become dull now?
“What, can’t you die to atone for me?”
“Uh. Of course I can’t die. If I die before my life, someone will be my stepdad.”
Kim Joo-won’s hand, which had been touching the scar on his stomach, stopped for a moment.
At that time, if this guy had returned, would I have been able to be like this now?
Instead of feeling refreshed, the fact that I killed the guy wouldn’t have ruined it any more.
“Again, death is an escape.”
Something he wouldn’t have said if he was there.
Kim Joo-won didn’t want to let go of life, but at the same time he is also a guy who would have given up on life without delay if it really didn’t work out.
Regression baby, he always lived with the next opportunity.
“It’s no big deal for you to say that.”
“What?”
“That’s right. Don’t you remember? When I stabbed you and ended up in the hospital, you tried to go back to suicide.”
“Hmm…”
Kim Joo-won let out a quiet voice.
They must have recalled the moments when each other was shocked by shock and casually committed crazy things to each other.
In addition, the feelings between each other that were not understood.
“Me and you, how did this happen?”
A curious voice came out of his mouth.
If you think about it, there must be too many things you don’t understand.
To me, this guy is the guy I wouldn’t mind killing even if I wanted to kill him for the rest of my life.
“Why.”
“Suddenly I’m curious. If it were me, I’d probably go to the hospital on my own.”
“…”
“That’s right. Who would want to give birth to a child of someone who trampled on his ego. I want to erase him right away.”
He let out a small breath.
Then I wondered, why did I do that?
Of course, thinking about it at this point, the results aren’t really that bad.
“Can I speak?”
“What.”
“Why did I do that?”
Hearing my words, Kim Joo-won tilted his head.
To him, the fact that I’m a writer is something he doesn’t want to be reminded of.
“Perhaps it’s because of the guilt of giving my protagonist a miserable life.”
I don’t know if Kim Joo-won agreed, but he listened positively to the guy’s silence and opened his mouth on his own.
Kim Joo-won, who heard him, was silent for a while, and only replied briefly, “I see.”
“Joo Won, do you know what happened to you in the novel?”
“…No. At that time, the ending was not written in your notebook.”
“In a world where all the hidden worlds have been erased, “Can we live peacefully now?”, And that’s it.”
He put his hand on Kim Joo-won’s face.
Since he was in his early twenties, he was young to anyone’s eyes, but his face, which seemed to have lived longer than anyone else, was touched by his fingertips.
“The original idea was an open ending. Because, in my opinion at the time, I had cleared the world behind me, so I lost a lot, but I thought that I could live happily ever after.”
“…”
“That’s why I didn’t write the side story. I thought it was an open ending from the beginning, and I thought that the subsequent work should be let go without intervening so that the characters can do it on their own.”
Turning around and being held in Kim Joo-won’s arms, the story continues.
Without seeing his reaction.
“But I guess not.”
“Why?”
“Because Seoha Lee did that to me. When she learned why she died, she changed everything with her dimensional power. At first, she said it was revenge on you.”
Why did Lee Seo-ha, why did she bully him so persistently for a long time and commit suicide like that at the end?
“But I guess you thought that bothering you wouldn’t solve anything.”
“…”
“That’s why. That’s why she cloned her own body and dragged me along.”
It must have been something I didn’t want to hear.
If he said he didn’t want to hear it, she would have stopped, but Kim Joo-won listened silently like an idiot.
“This is why you were bullied for so long.”
After talking that far, she hugged him tightly with both arms.
It would have been a thrilling story from the person concerned, but I buried my face in his chest feeling grateful to the guy who had listened to it nonetheless.
“It didn’t matter that I was bullied by Seoha Lee.”
How quiet could it have been?
When she raised her head at Kim Joo-won’s regretful words, she saw tears flowing from his eyes.
“I should have told you from the beginning.”
“…”
“I would have used you if I did, but I would have found a way to find her Lee Seo-ha and avenged her myself instead of doing it to you…”
“But in the end you got your revenge.”
“But.”
Kim Joo-won, who tried to say more about her, blocked her lips with her finger.
Anyway, this is the problem with the regressor.
It’s so easy to get caught up in the shock of the past.
“From now on, just do as well as you do now.”
“…”
“Is not it?”
Kim Joo-won’s hand wrapped around the back of my head.
However, in his touch, there was only preciousness that no longer contained any enmity from before.
To keep the little chick from breaking.
I could feel my heart, which had been poisonous up until now, melt away at the touch of that guy who was holding me dearly.
“Joo Won.”
“Huh.”
“I have to answer.”
Of course, in the meantime, the habit of trying to cover it up as a joke didn’t go anywhere.
“Seoha.”
But maybe he didn’t want to cover it up as a joke?
When I answered in surprise at the guy calling my name seriously, my heart skipped a beat.
I tried to cover it up as a joke, but suddenly I heard a low-pitched voice.
“Before I answer, I think I have something to ask you first.”
“What?”
“Could you give me a chance to atone for the rest of my life by your side?”
In addition, there are even questions that I wouldn’t even worry about because they were so obvious.
Thinking that I was nervous for no reason, I smiled and gave the answer with a smile.
“Why do you ask something obvious?”
“Yes, you are the victim.”
“Ugh, really. Hey, if you didn’t like that, I wouldn’t be here right now. You and I would have been living in a dungeon over there getting on good terms with 100-year sentences.”
He raised his hand and blew a beetle on the boy’s forehead.
“Yes,” He smiled at the guy who let out a small moan, and said what he should have said.
“Yeah. No matter what, I’ll hold on to you and watch what you do.”
I laughed at the guy’s words.
Then Kim Joo-won laughed after me, and he said it over and over again like a parrot.
“Seoha, I’ll atone for the rest of my life.”
“Okay.”
“And I will definitely protect you this time.”
“I got it.”
“So that you don’t feel guilty.”
“Hey, Kim Joo-won.”
Did that make you feel so good?
You’re treating yourself like a sinner.
But it didn’t seem to stop, so he interrupted by calling the guy’s name.
“Huh?”
“Hmmmm.”
I probably never said this to him.
That would be too. Because the guy and I always thought of each other as perpetrators and victims.
“What, why. What do you expect?”
“No, if you call it that, of course…”
“I just love you.”
I was ashamed.
But Kim Joo-won opens his eyes wide to see if he heard it correctly, then gets up from his seat and asks again while looking at me, “Seo-ha, what?”
“What why!”
“No, can you say that again?”
“You should have listened to me properly.”
“Do you want to do it again?”
“If you want to hear it again, don’t act like you are now and do as I think.”
I got up and coughed again.
I don’t know why this is so embarrassing and difficult to do.
“I love you, Kim Joo-won!”
And then, I was attacked by that guy.
Because I was naked at the time, it was literally an instant to be eaten.
