Chapter 157 – Because It’s Lee Soo-Hyun
Heading to the front door, I glanced at my watch.
5pm.
If from that day until yesterday he came in at 8 o’clock at the earliest, today it was as if he had returned home almost as soon as work was over.
“Great job.”
“You cut your hair.”
“Uh.”
“Rice is.”
Business conversation.
Did Kim Joo-won already guess what he said before he left?
“I haven’t eaten dinner yet.”
However, in those businesslike words, Kim Joo-won’s voice clearly contained tension.
Perhaps he went out in the morning to work at a cafe, and during the rest of the time, he was learning about the truth he didn’t know.
“You’re a bird.”
“Huh.”
The guy who changed clothes in the master bedroom looked at Sae-ah for a while, then he came out and sat down at the table.
In the house, in the only place where we can sit face to face, the figure of the guy waiting for me came into my eyes.
“I have to let you know that Dad is here.”
“You can do it later when you wake up.”
“Then you didn’t do it right after you came in.”
But maybe he wasn’t ready yet, so he changed the topic with something he wouldn’t normally do.
He thought maybe he didn’t want to hear it.
Because he wasn’t the kind of person to waste time like this.
“That’s right…”
Maybe I didn’t even want to talk about it.
To the character, I made you, but at the same time I gave you a miserable life.
If I were to say this, how shocked would that person be?
“You look pretty even if you cut your hair.”
“What, out of the blue.”
“It’s just that I suddenly thought that that length would suit me well.”
At his words, without realizing it, I took my hand to my head and touched my now very empty head.
Before, when I sat in the chair, my hair, which had fallen to the end of the backrest, no longer reached the end of the backrest.
Actually, I still can’t get used to this length…
The important thing wasn’t this.
“Seoha.”
“Huh.”
“Shall we just have an early dinner?”
Because Kim Joo-won and I were obviously avoiding conversations about the truth of this world.
“Well. I ate lunch a little late, so I’m not very hungry.”
Kim Joo-won, whom I have seen so far, is the type of person who listens quietly to the truth he needs to know.
I actually wrote that too.
However, the current guy was clearly acting differently from what I wrote.
In order to avoid talking about what needs to be said, such useless actions…
“Okay?”
“Huh.”
It was a story that had to be told anyway, and he himself was approaching the fact that this world started from a novel.
“Ju won…”
“Seoha, ah.”
Silence.
And at the end, voices calling each other at the same time.
“Actually, I’ve been looking for it lately.”
Even though he tried to avoid it, did he know that he couldn’t avoid it?
Momentary worry.
But Kim Joo-won, before I speak, he wonders if he has anything to say. In the meantime, he starts talking about what he has done.
“You must have heard that day, too. What that family head said.”
“Huh.”
“That, this reality we live in actually started from a novel.”
He nodded.
The stories I had only guessed at, reminded me of the notes I had put in the dimensional space.
Indeed, Kim Joo-won.
– How would regressor Kim Joo-won react if he saw the note?
“I came in a little late these days.”
“It did.”
“I actually went around a lot to find out about it.”
The guy who talked up to that point said, “You’re not surprised at all.” He said that he had guessed about my reaction.
Watching me nod dryly, he let out a small breath.
“Really, I can’t hide anything from you.”
Perhaps, my ability to manipulate the future may have been linked to the truth of this world.
The ability of the future manipulator class is an ability that even Kim Joo-won, a regressor, has never seen.
And that would be natural.
Because I’ve never thought of a fraudulent ability to manipulate the future in my novels.
No matter how much the world knows how to match the odds, in the end, it is based on the novel that plays in Lee Soo-hyun’s head at that time.
The ability that the writer had not thought of or imagined could not have emerged.
And maybe that’s why I was given the ability to manipulate the future.
A writer is a person who writes developments that will come in the future, not developments that have already taken place.
“But to be honest, I had a little bit of urge to confirm it, but it didn’t work out.”
“…”
“It seemed like a very secretive project.”
I was lost in thought at Kim Joo-won’s voice.
When I heard that the project was carried out in top secrecy, I had a lot of thoughts.
What character can really think that the origin of the world he lives in is a novel?
And, how did Seoha Lee feel after confirming that their misfortune came from the hands of one person?
“I couldn’t find anything more than I thought. Even if I tried everything I knew, Bella Astarte’s experiment journal was the limit.”
“…Is it an experiment journal?”
“Well, there wasn’t much of a big deal. Except for one thing.”
Kim Joo-won rested her chin with both of her hands, as if trying to organize her thoughts for a moment.
What is she thinking about?
The story she heard soon might be a bigger shock than she thought.
“Maybe it’s because she separated her body, but there was something about her dimensional output being cut in half.”
“…”
“To be precise, the dimensional output that will confirm the truth to the family head has yet to come out. Perhaps, the cause was that the body was separated at that time, or the reason was that it was too much to put in consciousness. But, if it is for revenge, there is no choice. . The reward at the end will be sweet enough to make such a sacrifice.”
Kim Joo-won said that and opened his eyes.
I don’t know where or how she got her lab log, but she’s not entirely.
Her heart began to feel heavy as she reached the truth deeper than she thought.
“Separate your body…”
“…”
“Actually, I was simply looking at you and thinking that. Just as I broke the chain of regression with your help, the reason that bitch was in this episode must have somehow moved on to the next episode.”
And it was because the direction of the truth he found out was the truth about me, not the truth of the world.
How did I explain myself to him?
No memory.
In addition to that, didn’t I explain myself to Lee Seo-ha, who even has amnesia?
“But after seeing the contents, I started to have doubts about you.”
It’s like a by-product that I got while approaching the truth about the world…
He might have been shocked to see the journal.
Up until now, he simply had all of his memories of returning to me reset.
Because he identified me with Lee Seo-ha in the 4th episode.
“You told me that. Why are you doing this to me when you don’t remember anything?”
However, what if the truth was that I was a completely different person from his thoughts?
The feelings Kim Joo-won had for me until now are love-hate.
However, that love and hatred must have been purely for Lee Seo-ha, not for anyone else.
Like it or not, the only person I’ve been with for the longest time so far is Seoha Lee.
Whether she abused him or loved him, it was different to him, but she would have been accepted as the same woman.
“And I believed it wholeheartedly.”
Her throat began to burn little by little as she watched the guy talking about the memory of that time, which she did not want to bring out.
Even though you know it’s a story that shouldn’t be told, it must have been an important story to tell.
“Actually, it’s close to something you didn’t intentionally think about. Even when you did things you shouldn’t have shown if you were Seo-Ha Lee whose memories were reset.”
You probably thought of it while engraving the pain.
The garbage he did to the woman he loved the most and gave birth to his child would never be erased.
“And, even if you had the ability to manipulate the future, I just thought you were all I needed.”
His voice trembles.
The pain mixed with the trembling stabs me, who has been cheating on him all along.
That this is correct
In order to get through this world with him, the times I spent justifying myself that this was the right thing came flying to me as daggers.
“But, I don’t know anymore. What if you’re not the Seoha I know? I think I’ve thought about that countless times.”
I could see Kim Joo-won’s hand shaking on the table.
Since when has the guy been like that?
“How did I do the things I did when I first saw you? I did the things I couldn’t do because you believed in Seo-Hara Lee.”
And, why does my heart hurt so much when I see his trembling hands?
“But if I’m right, I did it to a stranger.”
She lowered her head slightly and looked at the table.
A piece of paper sandwiched between the table glasses caught my eye, writing down the time to start baby food, saying it was a baby-rearing plan.
Now, the result of a choice I wouldn’t have made if I hadn’t made this place my reality.
Looking at the paper, I think once again.
Even though it seems like you made a decision a long time ago, you once again ask yourself a question that doesn’t seem to have an easy answer.
Am I Seoha Lee or Soohyun Lee?
“Seoha, no… I don’t know what to call you anymore.”
He raised his hand on the table.
Then he stretched out his arm and carefully took his trembling hand.
It’s just that I didn’t shed any tears, but the face of the guy in pain came into my eyes.
“Joo Won.”
“Huh.”
“Do you really think I’m a stranger?”
I asked him cautiously.
But no answer came.
It will be confusing.
Even though the person in front of her is the woman she knew, the feeling she is conveying now is not the woman she used to know.
“That’s right. I could be someone you don’t know, depending on how you accept it.”
“…Ah.”
“But think about it. Even if you really didn’t know me, would you still be?”
However, what I have experienced and done in this world must have happened to Lee Seo-ha.
And most of those things were related to Kim Joo-won.
“Look at me. Who is that in front of me?”
“…Seoha.”
“Yeah, that’s right. You’re Lee Seo-ha, who did everything she could to fuck you.”
For a moment, Kim Joo-won’s eyes widen.
But he still seemed to be immersed in his own thoughts.
“But.”
“Yes, that’s right. Like you said, I may not be the person you used to know. The me at one time…”
I let go of Kim Joo-won’s hand.
Then she corrected her posture, sat down, let go of her own hands, lifted her head, and looked straight into her eyes at her Kim Joo-won, who was looking at me.
“Because I was a person called Lee Soo-hyun in a different world than here.”
She then slowly spoke the truth she hadn’t revealed.
“He’s the one who wrote the novel ‘The Regressor Has Everything’, the novel from which this world began.”
The truth he was looking for so badly.
