Chapter 679 – #95. Mei Lin and Joanna (3)
Contains information related to suicide.
Please be careful as you may feel uncomfortable while reading.
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After receiving counseling for depression, she successfully completed the photo exhibition with the help of prescribed medication.
One of the pills she took contained her sleeping pills, so she could sleep without drinking.
But when she was consulted, she seemed to understand why she said that medications couldn’t cure her depression.
‘It’s okay for a while, but when the drug’s effect wears off, it’s worst again. Is it about maintaining the status quo?’
In addition, when the effect of her medicine was circulating in her body, her mind was not clear and the drowsy feeling continued.
It was as if she was having a dream, and she felt like she was sleeping.
It is a work that requires her to seize her fleeting moment with a keen sense.
‘I’m at my absolute worst these days.’
When she was on drugs, she couldn’t do a good job.
At this point, I wonder if it would be better to just take drugs.
Everyone goes around quietly, but it’s common for people to drink drugs and work on this floor.
It’s a struggle to use the talent I don’t have in any way.
It wasn’t that she didn’t have her talent, but she was in a state where she couldn’t do anything if she could relieve her fatigue accumulated from mental stress with medicine.
‘For the first time, I think I’ll understand the feelings of weak people.’
Calmness when taking drugs.
Of course, the haze made me feel bad, but once I tasted the tranquility, it was also a temptation that was hard to shake off.
And she knew that taking her drugs could make her feel something far better than her senses she was feeling right now.
Living in this industry made it easy for me to get in touch with drugs, and I heard their drug reviews even if I didn’t want to hear them.
It was because there were definitely things to be proud of, saying how this medicine was, how that medicine was.
‘Should I stop taking it? I don’t think I’ll be able to get out if I keep putting my hand here.’
Normally, she despises people who do drugs.
The biggest reason for her is that most of the people who cursed at her for being Asian were people who enjoyed her drugs.
The hatred of those who do drugs is what causes them to vehemently reject drugs themselves.
Personally, she thought that the only thing they did that didn’t help her life at all was that part.
Even if I was insulted by them because of my lack of immediate strength, I used to be convinced that I would be able to live a better life than them.
‘Have I been so crowded? At this point, I think it’s better to do drugs.’
That was when she got her first thoughts on her drugs.
It is dangerous that the minds of people who take medicine are gradually being understood.
My heart is shaken by the convenience of medicine.
Even after taking all the prescribed medicines, there was no improvement, so the day I returned with a re-prescription.
The incident happened
A well-known critic criticized May Lin’s photo exhibition as the worst.
Needless to say, that day was also the day when I burned my useless will to endure without taking medicine for just one day.
Then, she was informed that a famous critic had insulted her photo exhibition…
She herself had a point of being stabbed, so she couldn’t help but see the critic’s harsh criticism.
In addition, I couldn’t stand it anymore when I saw the bad comments of people who agreed with the critic’s writing.
All sorts of negative emotions come flooding in.
‘I can’t stand it.’
The urge to die.
Even though she went to counseling and was warned that she needed to be careful, she couldn’t escape the urge.
If only she could get over this moment, she could have dealt with her depression alone.
But it was impossible.
The malice of the people who had been waiting for her to fall shattered and tore her already weak spirit.
“Are you going to die?”
It is a photo exhibition that I could not be satisfied with in my opinion.
If she had confidence in her own photos, she wouldn’t have been so shaken.
Rather, she would have laughed at the critic who had criticized her own photo exhibition, and she would have been furious at the thought of tearing down his poor eyesight piece by piece.
But it was a situation from which her torn pride could not recover.
Mei Lin is her nonsense, but she did something prepared in her mind that somehow, the future she might make the wrong choice.
Wherever she is, she’s there for her and someone who can come and run for her.
“Save me.”
It was to contact Joanna.
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A friend who had clearly endured as much as he could, finally asked for help.
What a surprise she was when she heard her begging for help over the phone.
When she met her friend, she drank and looked very unwell, but she never thought she’d been pushed to this extent.
Feeling guilty that she should have given Mei Lin more attention, Joanna decided to do what she could.
‘I can’t go all the way to Mei Lin right now.’
Since the city she usually lives in is different, even if she starts right away, she won’t be able to stop bad things from happening.
She first called the police, gave Mei Lin’s home address, and asked for help.
She said that her friend who was suffering from depression had called her to save her life, so she told the police that she would move immediately.
Entrusting her identity to the police, she contacted her lover, Jin Hae-sol, rather than running straight for her.
“Help me!”
It would be comforting to run to Mei Lin right now, but knowing that she would only be by her side after all, she basically asked for help from someone who could solve the problem.
“What happen?!”
At her request for help, Haesol flew straight to her side.
When she learned about her boyfriend’s special ability, she hadn’t adjusted to the sudden outburst.
However, as time went on and he got used to his unrealistic abilities, he became immersed in the convenience of his abilities.
“I’m in trouble! I need your help.”
“What can I do? Calm down and tell me.”
It seems like it will solve anything.
Her earnest request for help was easily accepted by Haesol.
She honestly knows she doesn’t mean it.
But she had to ask her lover to hug another woman for her struggling friend.
“May is sick.”
“Why Mr. May? Is it a serious illness?”
Even if it is a serious illness, her lover will be able to cure it.
Because you are that kind of person.
“I just got a phone call asking me to save him.”
“How about contacting the police?”
“I already did. But I can’t go to him right now.”
“Tell me where you are. I’ll take you there.”
“Yeah. Thank you.”
Even in her haste, Joanna desperately shook her head.
She thought that asking him to have sex with Mei Lin all of a sudden would be bad for both of them.
‘She’s the kid who said she’d try to overcome it by herself. If I find out later, my pride will hurt and I’ll try to leave.’
So, if the two of them were to have sex, he had to do it when he made his own decision, not at her behest.
She was sure that her lover would not let her down because he knew what a sweet man she was.
Haesol kept his word.
As soon as she told me where her Mei Lin was, she took her to the city.
It took a long time to move from city to city, but it wasn’t that long if you were in the same city.
“I’ll try calling you again.”
She continued to call May, hoping the police had rescued her friend quickly.
Once, the call could not be connected and hung up, but when I called again, it was fortunately connected.
Just unfortunately.
“May!”
– This is the police. May is being transported to the hospital. Is she a reporter by any chance?
“Oh my God..! The hospital?! What about Mei? Are you okay?”
It was the police who answered the phone, not May.
She found it quickly and after being contacted by the police that there was no major problem, she and Haesol moved to the hospital.
She took a taxi to the hospital, just as May was being treated in the emergency room.
Joanna, who rushed to her, claimed May Lin’s guardian.
She was the one who reported it. She even had a few conversations with the police, and honestly answered what kind of relationship she had, and she also revealed that Mei Lin was suffering from depression.
It was unavoidable that Haesol came across Mei Lin’s personal information in the process.
“She said she suffered from depression?”
While her Mei Lin was waiting for her to wake up, Haesol came to her asking her questions.
Isn’t it funny to hide when you already know the whole situation?
In a trembling voice, Joanna confessed her friend’s condition.
“She was diagnosed with depression and was controlling it with medication. A photo exhibition was opening soon, so it bothered her a lot. I knew she needed a break to treat her depression, but she couldn’t take a break from work.”
“…”
Hae-sol looked bitter, as if it was very embarrassing to meet her ex-lover again in this way.
Looking at his expression, Joanna continued, thinking that the situation wasn’t too bad for now.
“She should’ve paid more attention. She’s a friend who holds up so well, I think she made a mistake. No one else and May did this…”
Even when she heard the police tell her that she didn’t really mean to take her own life, Joanna couldn’t calm her sorrow.
She shouldn’t have trusted her friend that she could get through it alone.
Even if she refuses to pay attention, she should have forced herself to add another word.
“But I’m more worried about the future. Even if I come to the hospital, I can’t get proper treatment. Nothing will change even if I wake up.”
She wondered what if she was lucky this time, but the next time she wasn’t so lucky.
Wouldn’t it be nice if there was a way to cure depression for yourself?
But she wasn’t the one who could make Mei healthy.
She knows how, and there is no one else who can run.
“..Haesol-ah. It may be an unreasonable request, but can’t you help May?”
“Are you asking me to fix it with her item?”
“No, I’m not asking you that much. I want you to stay by her side.”
At least until she’s stable.
She said that with him by her side her Mei’s depression would be greatly improved.
Joanna was sure of that.
She’s even more so because she’s experienced it herself.
