Chapter 141 – Trial, and (4)
Ammut’s Test.
In a test that showed the ‘death’ that the subject was most afraid of, the ‘death’ I saw was a lonely death.
Abandoned by Justitia, Hoaran, and even Lilith, he dies lonely and alone.
That was the death that Ammut showed me and that I feared the most.
It had been years since I left the orphanage and lived alone, and the death I feared the most was a lonely death.
But thanks to you, I was able to understand it well.
Me in fantasy.
Me experiencing the death I fear the most that I have ever seen.
‘…This way it won’t be useful anymore.’
‘I am disappointed. You are no longer her natural child, so she must have thought so.’
‘Yes, I thought you would show me something more interesting, but I guess it was too much… Well, it’s okay. ‘I just need to find something else… I’ll be able to find something more interesting next time.’
The pain and fear I felt when I was abandoned by them helped me understand that the death I feared the most was ‘lonely death.’
Lilith’s red eyes looked down coldly at me as I was sick and dying.
Hoaran’s golden eyes looked at me with disappointment, turned his head and left.
When I saw Justitia’s blue eyes as she said that and left, as if she had lost interest.
Only then did I know.
‘…Are you okay, you idiot? ‘Who would be so picky?’
‘Well, the original woman is Hanzo, your mother!’
‘It’s funny, it was unexpected that it happened like this, but it turned out well. Rather, I’ve already used up all of it. Could you give me some more semen to use for the experiment?’
How warm were the eyes they usually gave me.
Because I realized very well how much I depended on them.
It wasn’t just them.
‘Yeah, really~? It suits you~? Lol…’
‘Just wait and see, brother. If you pay off all your debt, then it’s revenge! I’m so excited because my brother is going to call me his master… Wow!’
‘My king, please treat Queen Bon very fondly…’
Just like them, I was able to remember that there were other women who looked at me with very warm eyes.
Not only Lilith, Hoaran, and Justitia, but even they looked down at me coldly and left.
Because it was only then that I found out.
Because I’m stupid.
Because I’m scared.
Things I was pretending not to know.
‘You don’t know? Or are you pretending not to know? Either that or…’
Abilities expressed in my gift.
Its original owners, the werewolf, Aileya, the satyr Sati, and the werehoneybee Liliana, had shown me the favor they had shown me in such a painful way that I had been pretending not to know.
It was only when I saw the vision of them leaving me, the vision I saw as a test from Ammut, that I could understand.
‘My dear.’
‘Come to your senses.’
‘Please… Please, dear.’
I didn’t think I deserved to be loved.
As soon as he was born, he was abandoned by his parents who deserved to be loved the most. I didn’t think I deserved to be loved by anyone.
She didn’t think she deserved love.
I couldn’t even keep my own body healthy, and I thought I didn’t deserve to be loved, so I never even thought that I could give proper love to someone.
‘Did you even like me?’
So I hurt him.
I could still say it now.
Maybe I didn’t love her.
As she said, she may have never liked her.
Just…
It’s just that I committed such a thing because I thought that I wanted to be loved by someone, just like everyone else.
So I hurt him.
I was really sorry, but it was too late to apologize now.
Because it’s already happened.
But.
‘Let go of this-‘
I caught the illusory Lilith leaving.
Anything that hasn’t happened yet can be done somehow.
Even though he is a male prostitute and carries around women whose names and faces he does not know in exchange for money.
Even if I hurt the woman who loves me and I can’t return all the love I receive from her.
‘I can’t go, ever.’
Even so, I didn’t want to see them leave me.
It might hurt.
She may not be able to repay all the love she received from her.
Still, the death of them leaving me behind.
The thought of dying alone like that has disappeared.
Even if it’s nothing more than selfish, greedy, and unreasonable.
I didn’t want to lose them.
‘I told you to let go of this – ugh…!’
So, all I had to do was stop him from leaving.
Fantasy theme, exactly like Lilith.
I spoke to Lilith, who looked dumbfounded at my sudden action, in my fantasy.
‘Mother, please be my child’s mother.’
Not just Lilith.
Hoarand, Justitia, Eileya, Sati, and Liliana in the fantasy that were about to leave me…
The me in the fantasy who held them all spoke.
So that they can’t abandon me.
That it’s family.
Because I am an orphan, I already know that it is a relationship that can be scattered at any time or disappear very easily.
Nevertheless, I wanted clear evidence.
‘Please give birth to my child.’
Even if the children born of mixed blood are not part of the family, the bond between parents and children is a bond that cannot be denied no matter how harsh it may be.
Damn, it’s a fantasy.
The shape of my ‘death’ was distorted.
From me dying alone and lonely.
Me, crowded and crowded with children.
‘…How can this perverted bastard still get her pregnant right before she dies?’
I said this in my fantasy when I saw Lilith, who was looking down at me while hugging her swollen belly, holding my hand and saying that.
‘I didn’t know that would happen. ‘It looks like I’m not dead yet, mother.’
‘…How long are you going to say things like that in front of the kids?’
I spoke to Lilith, who spoke bluntly, stammering as she touched my cold hand, as if to convey some warmth.
‘Yes, if I’m going to die, this is better. ‘This is much better than dying alone and lonely.’
‘Well, wait a minute, what kind of point is that?’
Blah blah, blah blah…
The illusion is shattered.
Lilith, who was old and on the verge of death at the end of her human lifespan, was sad, but still looked at the children born to her and me and took some comfort even in the sadness of my death, her expression was as if she had become senile. Building also.
Everything, everything is broken and scattered.
『Indeed, did you overcome your ‘death’ in that way? It was a ridiculous method, but heroes are naturally lecherous, so this is also good.』
When I opened my eyes, I saw Ammut shining and Karura holding my hand.
“Honey, are you coming to your senses?”
Karura.
The woman with my child.
And…
“Yes, Thanks. “I think I worried you.”
A woman who loves me.
Kiyiing ㅡ
I felt the vitality welling up inside my body, a force different from what was called qi or mana.
I was wondering what this was, but Ammut spoke to me.
『You, hero of this world. I am Ammut, the one who judges with death. I lend you my strength!』
Shouting like that, Ammut disappears as if it were seeping into my body.
Ammut said, disappearing as if dispersing.
『Hero, achieve what you wish! And, I ask you for one favor. Please… Help my poor master.』
Memories vaguely come to mind, along with the power of Ammut flowing into my body.
Thanks to this, I learned why Karura followed the little Pharaoh so much.
I think I would have done the same if I were Karura.
So, I answered Ammut’s words.
“I was planning on helping you anyway.”
If that little Pharaoh dies or something happens to him, Karura will be very sad.
Even though I couldn’t make the women who loved me the happiest in the world, I was determined to make them happy, so I was going to try my best to do that.
『Choosing you as the one to lend my strength was the second most correct choice among my choices. Go, hero!』
At the end of those words, Ammut seemed to have completely fallen asleep and could no longer hear any voice.
On the other hand, my body, which had completely inherited his strength, was in surprisingly good condition.
“First, let’s go somewhere safer than here.”
Saying that, he held Karura and lifted her up.
While I was being tested by Ammut, it seemed like I had somehow managed to get to a safe place, but that was only for now. Since I didn’t know when the continued pouring of skeletons would reach here, I decided to put Karura, who was still in bad condition, in a safe place for now.
“Hold on tight.”
“What-”
Kwasik!
It tramples the ground and jumps as if it were flying.
I jumped a height that was dozens of times higher than when the werewolf’s racial ability was activated to its limit, and I could see the people of the Kingdom of Narmer still fighting with the skeletons.
Little by little, we are being pushed back, but it will be safe there for a while.
Wow!
“Well, there are wings on your back-“
Karura’s race.
I still haven’t heard what kind of race it is, but anyway, it’s a race with wings.
There was nothing I couldn’t do to hold her, her kind, and use her abilities while she loved me.
When I saw Karura with her black wings spread out behind me and her mouth open, she flew away as if she was falling.
Understand power.
The power of Ammut resides within me.
As time passed and the more I used it, the more I understood about this power.
This is a fragment of God.
A beast that was once a god.
A fragment of divinity held by a fallen beast.
A part of the almighty power that is capable of anything, not even qi or mana.
If there is something you want to achieve, if there is something you wish for, it has the power to make it happen.
Tsuzzzzzz…
The artifact ‘Dragon Claw’, which had already been damaged, and the ‘Heavenly Armor’, which was damaged and had numerous cuts and holes, were stained black and regained their original appearance.
I am the strongest version of myself that I know.
Kwaang…!
“Enemy…?!”
“No, Great Master Karura-“
There was a commotion when they saw me suddenly come down to the ground, but there was no time to explain things to them.
So, instead, we decided to deal with the skeletons that were still flocking in first.
He put down Karura, who he was holding, and aimed his black-stained ‘dragon claw’ at the skeleton gourds.
“Bee Punch.”
Kiiiiing ㅡ
“Anyway, damn speaker.”
“Then, I’ll come back.”
Roughly speaking, I told Karura that after making her safe from the skull goons for a while.
“…It’s a promise.”
“Yes.”
A little pharaoh who is connected to Ammut.
And now that Ammut was inside me, I could roughly understand what kind of situation the little Pharaoh was in.
There was still time left, but only for a moment.
“I’ll be back soon.”
Quang kicked off the ground again and tried to fly to where the little Pharaoh was, but he felt his wings scattering.
“Oh, fuck.”
The reason was immediately apparent.
The divinity within me.
No, that fragment.
Although it was a part of it, my strength was too weak to handle something that had tremendous power.
Even, as I was barely breathing right before receiving power from Ammut, I could feel that most of my power was being consumed just by the divinity taking care of replenishing the collapsed balance of life force.
It won’t last long like this.
Therefore.
“All my teeth will rot.”
I chewed and swallowed a handful of the runaway drug Justitia gave me to boost my strength.
Even though I was letting it run away, I forced myself to use my strength to balance the slightest loss of balance.
Even though it was only a temporary solution, it only took a moment.
Sigh!
I swung my spread wings again and flew towards where the little pharaoh was.
And-
『Come to me, to your new masterㅡ』
While talking like a fucking pervert, he aimed his ‘dragon claws’ at the fucking pedo bastard who was trying to grope the chest of the little Pharaoh whose arms and legs were tied tightly with chains.
