Chapter 208 – Feeling…♥ The Daily Life That I Have No Choice but to Do
Feeling…
♥
Daily life that I had no choice but to do
Two weeks have already passed since the day of my first experience, which was full of climax and intensity.
February, when the bitter cold reigned, has already passed, and now it is a day in March, when a mild season called spring has arrived.
The weather has definitely started to warm up, and the clothes of people passing by on the streets are starting to loosen up little by little.
Light clothes that make you feel a little lighter than the thick coat you are wearing. The atmosphere of people walking on the streets was also friendly.
Looking at that, … Once again, I realize how much of a difference I have been wearing and walking around in messy clothes.
There are degrees of lack of seasonal sense.
In the middle of winter, very revealing and provocative outfits against the sharp wind.
It was impossible to pass it off as just one word, fashion, but the appearance was bound to attract attention.
In the middle of winter—there was something awkward about wandering the streets wearing a miniskirt and a belly button shirt. In fact, in the case of older people, when they saw me, they would sometimes say tsk and click their tongue.
And, let’s be honest… It was cold.
Once again, I think I was able to walk around the streets dressed like this.
… In fact, it would be correct to say that I didn’t even have time to feel the cold due to the overwhelming shame.
A surging sense of shame, a lustful heat that seemed to burn from the core—heated up my skin, even though it was the middle of winter… It had to be cold… I didn’t think it was unbearably cold.
There’s no way to tell whether it’s because Ha-eun is naturally less sensitive to the cold, or whether it’s because of the situation she’s in…
Anyway, spring was already approaching.
In SEPal, unfortunately, from that day on, sex… ♡ Although I wasn’t given the opportunity to do it, it still felt dizzying and dizzying that encroached on my daily life… It was providing an obscene experience.
But… Somehow, I felt that that fact was a little lacking and was unfortunate.
… There will be a chance soon.
Actually, I might be hoping for something like that now.
No, it was truly unavoidable.
To that extent, the experience that day was truly shocking and destructive.
You can’t forget that easily, and you can’t go back to the past days as if nothing happened.
The petals that had begun to bloom were moist and beautiful, making one miss the stamens.
Thanks to you, every day… I was filled with anxious feelings every day.
The heat was quelled with a little fiddling and a slightly tantalizing but still dizzying command from SEPal.
But… It was still not enough.
With something like this… It was really not enough.
This feeling, this longing, could not be satisfied with places that fingers could not reach, hard toys, or inorganic tools.
Just a temporary suture.
All you have to do is calm down the complaints by coaxing and appeasing them.
Rather, as time passed, I was being eroded by the intensifying desires and aspirations.
Gradually, the interval between estrus and the intensity of estrus become shorter and more intense.
She protested fiercely, as if she couldn’t resolve it with her hand-wringing and wasn’t satisfied with her clumsy self-consolation.
Once– once Umkut has learned the taste and power of a man, he cannot break away from it.
She can’t escape.
Thanks to this, my daily life is a mess.
Her condition was the worst every day, and the days she could sleep properly were few and far between.
When she lay down on her bed, her lower abdomen started to throbbing and aching, and she had no choice but to stay up all night, and while she was at work, she would have seizures from time to time, and she could only sleep once a day.
Man
I had to go in and out of the bathroom several times.
There is nothing she cannot see with her strange eyes.
The store manager, who always showed concern with a kind expression, would look more and more perplexed and a little scared every time he saw me.
The kindness of worrying about her physical condition only lasted a day or two, like this… If it was repeated this often, there was no way I wouldn’t feel strange, and at the same time, there was no way I could hide my uncomfortable feelings.
On the contrary, I think she has been patient so far.
The store manager who hasn’t said anything he doesn’t like even after coming on this day… Honestly, he must be a very mature person.
However, I betrayed those expectations…
Difficult to deal with… Treated like a nuisance.
That’s the mood of people looking at me in the store.
I was not so insensitive to changes in reputation, atmosphere, or social perspectives around me. If I didn’t feel this level of blatant embarrassment, I would have quickly left office life.
I was able to clearly realize the difference in the changing perspectives of those around me.
… However, even if you can notice it, what difference will it make?
Beyond this, what can I do?
My body, which had already changed like this, was not something that could be endured with the strength of will or mental power.
It’s not that type of problem.
Although I was aware of the gaze that could be said to be kind, giving me attention knowingly or unknowingly, I felt a faint stimulation from my sense of smell as I noticed a table–a customer coming to visit with the reception desk at a distance, and the man’s body odor clearly felt even from that distance away. I feel like I can’t avoid it…
As expected, I knew well that I shouldn’t do that, but—
In the end, again, again… The idea was to walk towards the place where the men’s restroom was.
The smell of pheromones that comes at any time.
The scent of a man that guests often exude without realizing it.
Stimulation from other trivial and miscellaneous noises that you can’t help but hear if you don’t want to hear them.
Such stimuli pile up and pile up… ♡ Somehow, it was an impulse that I couldn’t resist.
As always, you get swept away.
Even if I tried to endure it, there was no way I could.
The only and best course of action I could take was to lock myself in the men’s room and pray that I wouldn’t get caught.
Ah—I don’t know how many times today, a murky moaning sound echoed through the small partition.
At last… There was no way I could proceed with work normally again today.
Of course, other employees have to take care of tasks that I am unable to handle properly.
There was no way I could look at it with good eyes.
I was worried the first time and the second time.
Yes, they are so good that they don’t suit me.
However, even those people can’t help but look at me with strange eyes if my strange behavior is repeated like this.
No, it’s even weirder not to look at it with those eyes.
Occasionally, a whispering sound towards me, and eyes scanning as if searching.
It is said that it is only a part-time job at a small café, but as it is a job that brings together a group of people even in such a small society, it is not at all strange that people are looked at like this if they do not do their part or do something wrong.
And, let’s be honest… Such treatment of oneself is not unfair at all.
Actually, the biggest problem was myself.
Even though I am more aware of that fact than anyone else, in the end I… ♡
I couldn’t bear it anymore and ended up staining my uniform with slimy body fluids. ♥
I’m worried about people’s gaze because of the repetition of leaving my seat too many times… Don’t worry
Man
I couldn’t go to the bathroom.
However, with my surging sexual desire and repeated signs of heat, the method I chose was…
I was consoling myself while standing at the reception desk.
…♥
Coincidentally, there was an order not to wear panties… The act of caressing the vagina was simple♡
Really… I must be crazy.
No matter how much I think about it, the actions I committed were strange and strange… I was embarrassed and couldn’t bear it.
Just a reception desk.
They say that in a place where customers occasionally come, with a distance of barely about 30 cm between them, you may not be able to see what’s underneath because it’s obscured by the table…
In that place, where everyone’s eyes are focused.
I am… I caressed her pussy♡
It was dizzying.
Very lewd feeling.
Did you get caught? Wouldn’t they have been caught?
Every time I slowly stroke the mucous membrane, such thoughts dominate my mind.
Unable to bear it, I ended up masturbating… I committed it, but I keep regretting it.
And yet… I couldn’t bear the rising sensation of estrus.
Caught… Did you throw it away?
Don’t get caught… I guess not?♡
I desperately covered my mouth, my cheeks were flushed, my face was stained red… I felt a clear sensation of climax.
Occasionally, I feel someone looking at me with strange eyes, and that dizzying feeling shakes my heart even more.
I was worried that a sound might escape, so I slowly—very slowly—gently stroked and stroked the area under the lower abdomen and between the groins.
It’s a bit of a disappointing stimulus, but the dizzying situation of not knowing when I might be caught stimulates my nerves and sharpens my senses… A vivid sense of pleasure went through my body.
… Yes, a more stimulating sensation than usual.
With that dizzying sensation, my body was suddenly heated up.
At the end, a regular customer ordered the same iced Americano as always.
To me who was in the middle of stroking my pussy!
I think my voice as I was taking the order at that time was very lewd…
As soon as the receipt is printed, right in front of the customer’s face.
I masturbated♡ and climaxed♥
This ridiculous act I committed…
Caught… I don’t think I threw it away. No, if something like this were discovered, there would be no reason for it to end with such strange looks.
In all likelihood, it’s a look of contempt, or if it’s not, it’s a low-key, dark look with a different purpose.
At the reception desk, in front of a lot of people… This would be the most reasonable view for someone who secretly masturbates.
In any case, it looks like it’s looking at someone who is a bit dishonest, so at least… I could tell that they hadn’t been caught yet.
Okay… Not yet.
He couldn’t be sure when and how he would be discovered.
I am… Over and over again─ I was falling, falling♥
It was close, but today too… In the end, I was able to go about my day safely without being caught.
The only thing that bothers me is the damp uniform skirt.
The appearance of the skirt, which was wet only in certain areas, was so clear that if you looked a little carefully, you could see that it was stained.
That said, the store’s uniform… The act of doing your own laundry is somehow awkward─ I was nervous, but I couldn’t help it… I left it at the store.
I was worried that someone might notice me, so I was in a state of disbelief the whole way home.
Really… Every day was so risky that it could be considered a miracle that we had not been discovered until now.
At the same time–what would happen if you got caught…
Excited by such expectations… ♡ What I see myself doing… What should I say? Even though it was his own doing, it looked ridiculous.
Back home, the lewd sex life continues ♥
Just because there is no partner, a lewd and vulgar daily life continues.
The act of eating♥, and the act of defecating♥
Nothing is normal.
On the contrary, the area between the crotch is soaked with moisture.
Naked body, nipple piercings, a red collar made for pets, an anal plug with a dog tail, and… Even recognition tags for livestock.
It boasted an avant-garde appearance.
Obscene chants filled the house to the extent that it would not be surprising if it was reported as noise pollution.
The floor never dried.
SEPal commands as usual.
It was full of lewd and lewd commands, but still… Just things I do alone.
No, I wondered what kind of guts he had for someone who didn’t even have the courage to reveal his identity, but… It’s inevitable to feel regretful.
At least… If I didn’t know, I wouldn’t have known, but now that I know the destructive feelings I had back then, I felt like I wasn’t enough on my own and felt sad about the emptiness.
So, take a moment to check the orders given to me.
Should I say it’s a little unusual? I could see that a special command had been sent.
A command that may be really trivial, that may not cause anything to happen, or may have huge consequences.
To be honest… I had completely forgotten about it since there was no contact for the past two weeks… One fact.
If you think about it with common sense, the possibility that nothing will happen is overwhelmingly high, so it would be correct to say that I wasn’t paying any attention.
However, now that I am paying close attention to the order.
Some kind of turmoil that I couldn’t even understand was rumbling in my chest.
Reason and rationality. From that perspective, this turmoil could be said to be an expression of foolish anxiety.
However, sometimes things happen in the world that lightly laugh at such odds.
The world… What happens is bound to happen one way or another.
Before opening the box, even God didn’t know if the cat was dead or alive.
