Chapter 131 – 131. Fear
After that day.
This is my first long vacation since my debut.
Without any plan, without any schedule.
All I did was receive psychological counseling once.
Days where it’s okay to not meet people.
To be honest, it was so good that I thought I never wanted to work again.
Rather than going into a cathode ray tube and making an artificial smile.
It was much more comfortable just watching other people outside the cathode ray tube.
“What should we eat…”
However, it was not at the level of giving up everything.
I’m also limiting calories as usual.
I never miss exercise.
Sometimes I went to the gym to see her sister Su-ah.
It’s just that the values have changed.
Instead of empty words such as “I do my best for my fans.”
It changed into a sense of obligation to just work for myself.
Maybe,
I may have thought that way before then.
“I will eat well.”
Say hello to an empty meal, and have brown rice and all kinds of vegetables as side dishes for lunch.
It was a healthy meal, but since I seasoned it more heavily than before, I was able to enjoy it without any complaints.
Now that I think about it, I have no idea how I lived as a trainee.
There wouldn’t be much difference between me then and me now.
How was it possible for me to put in so much effort and endure everything when I was young and uneducated?
… Oh, isn’t it?
I guess it was because I was young and immature.
Unlike my childhood, when I didn’t achieve anything and wasn’t famous.
Now, I have achieved a lot and there are so many people who know me.
If the same thing had happened back then, I would probably have handed the manager over to the police station.
The reason I couldn’t do that was because I was afraid that the efforts I had made so far would be damaged.
The same was true for Kang Joo-hyuk.
Actually, I could have kicked you out if I wanted to.
Since I was solely responsible for what happened after they were kicked out, I couldn’t do it as I wanted.
Because when her sister tumbled all the way to her bottom, I ended up taking the damage.
As I chew my rice, I continue to think a little more.
I’m not sure, but my friend might be downstairs right now.
I thought I had lost all affection for the video I saw that day, but memories do not disappear that easily.
Of course, in the past there was more camaraderie, but now it feels like a friend who causes a lot of accidents.
Now, I don’t think I would think much of it even if he beat up an idol.
I just hope that you live well without any problems.
In fact, I would hate to see it continue and then get beat up by the media because that video gets leaked.
… Same goes for my sister.
“… “I had a good time.”
After finishing my not-so-large lunch, I quietly greet the table.
I originally planned to wash the dishes right away in the evening, so I just soaked the dishes in water.
I lie down on the sofa without thinking, turn on the TV, and wander aimlessly on the Internet.
Starting with the story of our group’s break, which was briefly published in an article.
It wasn’t a big issue because it was originally done when this activity ended.
There were no conspiracy theories or anything like that.
In addition, there is news that my father’s club is preparing a trade to compete for first place.
There is news that a group from another agency that recently debuted is planning to enter Japan.
There were a lot of rumors spreading that a male idol from our agency whom we had met a few times was in a relationship.
… By the way, where does everyone know something that even I, an insider, don’t know?
When I look at people who say they thought that would happen in the comments, I am so dumbfounded that I end up speechless.
I just lightly downvote comments I wouldn’t have bothered to look for, and move on from the news to tweets.
“…”
Dozens of followers.
There is only one follower, Kang Joo-hyuk.
To be honest, I didn’t believe the bluff that he would upload a video if I unfollowed him, but I left it alone just in case.
Honestly, I don’t think Kang Joo-hyuk would ever do such a dangerous thing… , I can’t trust Hinami.
Well, at any rate, everything like the face will be cut off, and it will be private to everyone except followers like me.
Contrary to what I imagined before, that man really cares about his woman.
Of course, that definitely didn’t mean I had any favors toward him.
No matter how stressed I am because of Hinami, my affection for her as a friend remains,
I’ll never develop a liking for that guy even if I just received his help.
Because this isn’t a game or anything.
Instead, I had a vague fear… ?
Ah, to be exact, a lot of uncertainty has disappeared.
Understand… Because I don’t like the word.
I guess I should say that I figured it out.
That man.
Still, I checked Kang Joo-hyuk’s account one more time just in case, but there was no change.
Excluding me, the following was full of cosplayers,
I have only one follower.
What’s different from me is that the people who draw pictures are not on my follow list, and I haven’t posted any tweets.
It’s probably an account for satisfying one’s sexual desires.
… But the funny thing is.
The point was that part-time workers were also included in the follower list.
Sua, even after the big fight on Twitter, she got a good response, so she posted a few more photos.
Now, I am filling up my self-esteem by posting cosplay photos.
I’m not sure if Kang Joo-hyuk knew his identity and followed him…
It was just purely funny.
A man who pretended to be so mature at the gym was seeing things like this behind his back.
“Puh…”
… Of course, the same goes for Su-ah.
She is often seen as the kindest sister in the world, whether in games or in real life.
It was honestly funny how she was fighting with kids who did not even know her face or name behind her back, and then she took pictures of herself wearing slightly revealing clothes to fill her self-esteem.
What… , What can I say to relieve stress by belittling fans?
In the past, I would have tried to understand and respect somehow.
Now everyone, including me, looked ugly and funny.
… The same goes for managers.
“…”
When I received counseling, I was advised to forget it as much as possible, but no matter how much time passed, I could not forget it.
Since I didn’t suffer anything serious in the first place, it wasn’t a memory so terrible that I had to forget it.
What was that man aiming for by giving me sleeping pills?
… Did you try to touch his chest?
Or did he try to take it off and take a picture?
If they had kidnapped me to my own house, I would have thought, ‘You’re a crazy rapist,’ and it would have been scary but understandable.
Did you think I wouldn’t feel any discomfort even if I took sleeping pills?
Did you think I was the only one who didn’t notice that you were looking at me like that?
It was so funny that I was caught messing around in someone else’s parking lot just to do something like that and ended up ruining my life.
So much so that I want to see your face again.
… Even if Hina wasn’t there, they would have put her in prison right away.
He was willing to visit me seriously.
I think it would be really fun to go and laugh at it.
I held back the laughter that threatened to burst out, and searched for my name just like I did when looking through articles.
Then, suddenly, I see a familiar background that passes by my eyes, and I stop scrolling.
Performer waiting room.
A side view of me dozing off with my eyes closed as if I was tired.
Since you searched my name, it’s natural that my picture will come up.
… The composition of the photo is so close to me.
I am sucked into the account that posted that post, as if possessed.
“…”
Me dozing off in the car.
The back of me posing while looking at the camera.
A photo for Instagram upload that I asked you to take.
… The intentions are so sinister and gloomy.
It gives me goosebumps.
Even a photo of the cheerleader uniform worn in the MV.
“Under…” .”
The reason why I got goosebumps wasn’t because it was a photo of me wearing those clothes.
I didn’t bother returning the clothes I had already worn.
Even to the exact location where I wore it.
That’s because the sleeves and socks were laid out on the floor.
… Of course, it may not be the clothes I wore.
Maybe I just bought something similar.
However, that couldn’t get rid of this cold feeling.
I take a deep breath and look through my account some more.
There is only one follower.
Our group’s official account.
There weren’t that many followers, about 10 people.
Moreover, considering that, there were quite a lot of tweets, with at least one tweet being posted per day.
At least 2 years ago.
… The creepy thing is.
Just from the point when the manager changed.
The sense of distance in the uploaded photos has changed.
I shake my pounding heart, swallow my saliva, and make the call.
The director’s favorite old ballad continued to resonate without interruption,
Unfortunately, the phone call was never connected.
“Ha…”
While stamping your feet, take a long breath.
… What is it?
The photo could have been taken secretly somehow.
Why on earth did no one know about this account?
I couldn’t shake the thought that it didn’t make sense based on common sense.
… I immediately remembered my account.
That criminal bastard.
After that day.
We arrive at the correct answer that unlocks the privacy.
“…”
Report.
Should I do it?
I guess I can’t just ask and pass by now.
If we can’t find the original account, we can just tell them to close it before they get sued.
However, the manager continued to post my photos even after that day.
Of course, it must have been a photo taken before that.
There are very few instances where the exposure is too much or crosses the line.
… The attitude itself that doesn’t seem to matter even if it gets reported.
The madness as if he was prepared to even go to prison.
It was so scary.
“Hehe…”
While I was standing and shaking.
Startled by the loud ringtone, I answered the call right away without even being able to shout.
-Hello? Oh, Jia. What’s going on?
“… In the tweet, my photo…”
-What?
“Manager. Accounts, things like that. I found it…”
-… Jia, are you alone now?
“… Yes.”
-Is there anyone nearby?
… The only neighbors I know are.
There is only one house below.
-… First of all, don’t be alone. Stay with someone you know. Security is tight there, so nothing will happen. It’s okay, it’s okay.
“… Yes.”
-When you hang up the phone, send me the tweet account first. … Ha, Mr. I’ll take care of it first.
“Yes…”
I hung up the phone with the director who couldn’t come because he was busy.
I broke into a cold sweat and checked that there was no one outside the front door.
… I went down holding my shaking legs.
Without even knocking.
Unlock the password for the lower floor and enter.
“Ha-eun, what already… , … “What is it?”
… No luck.
Without my sister or Hinami.
That man is being taken care of by himself.
In someone else’s house under my name.
