Chapter 38 – Initiation
Isn’t that what happens in life?
A situation where you have to choose one of two options when no other path exists.
A situation in which one must give up.
My current situation was exactly that.
If the two had nothing to do with each other at all, I would have faced them both, but I couldn’t.
Today the situation has come to draw that conclusion.
To put it in one word, it probably is.
Start.
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‘Senior, do you have time tomorrow?’
It was her sudden words one day.
The conclusion was that we would meet tomorrow evening at the plaza.
Recently, I had a little time, so I often stopped by at school.
Maybe that’s why the time I ran into her also increased proportionally.
As she talked, she learned that she was graduating at the end of this semester.
It was her who had a different year of admission, but she had a period when I also did not go to school.
Paradoxically, she was graduating first.
“What are you going to do when you graduate?”
“Well, maybe I’ll just go in and work.”
“I see.”
The future was more specific than mine.
I just don’t know what to do right now.
Anyway, by the way, now I was going to the promised place.
One side of the school square.
The reason was never given, but it was roughly expected.
Lately, she has been subtly revealing her inner feelings.
I’m not proud of it, but it’s amazing that this has happened twice recently.
What about someone like me
He’s already failed once.
It was already getting dark, but the street lights did not allow complete darkness.
A human figure could be seen in the distance.
“Did you wait long?”
The weather wasn’t warm, so I asked.
“No, I haven’t been here in a while.”
That’s why, seeing that the fingertips were slightly red, it seemed that he was outside to some extent.
“Your leg hurts too. Would you like to sit down?”
I sat down on a chair nearby.
I didn’t feel comfortable knowing the future.
“Will you come to the graduation ceremony tomorrow?”
Was tomorrow the graduation ceremony already?
In the past, I had no inspiration, but it was a strange feeling to hear that someone I knew was attending a graduation ceremony.
“You know.”
“Do you remember when we first met?”
“I don’t remember.”
There will be no such relationship.
A relationship that started with rumors and rejection.
A slight silence prevailed.
“Oh, I don’t know what to say.”
“It was a little scary at the time.”
“When?”
“That… When I was talking about my ex-girlfriend.”
He smiled bitterly.
“With something like that. You did it without knowing.”
“Anyway, after that, we talked about this and that. I got to see my senior again.”
“I just didn’t really do anything. Tea, dinner and just one drink.”
“But, we only talked about it every time, but it was the first time I’ve had this much fun.”
“So maybe it’s because we’ve known each other for about two months? At that time, my heart tickled.”
“I wondered. How can someone who’s never known love know what it is?”
“And then, there was me who was looking forward to seeing you next time.”
“So I worked hard on makeup, which I wasn’t used to, and dressed more neatly.”
It was calm.
Maybe that’s why she sounded more sincere.
“But now that graduation is approaching, I thought that.”
“Ah, I thought it would be okay if it was this person.”
“So that’s how it is, sir.”
“Will you go out with me?”
What has to come has come.
And the answer has already been decided.
“Sorry.”
It wasn’t that people didn’t like it.
On the contrary, it was amazing how comfortable I felt when we were together.
I’m not sure if she’s caring for her or if she’s always been that way.
Be comfortable
I wonder if I was looking at her in her hey me.
If that’s true, that was pretty damn bad.
The girl who expresses her secret crush on me, doesn’t accept her as her, and projects her as someone else’s.
But my choice had already been decided.
I realized once again that unrequited love is truly painful.
A suffocating atmosphere ensued.
Perhaps it was the atmosphere of necessity.
“I’m really grateful for that feeling. To the point where I wonder if there’s anything that would like someone like me.”
The answer came after a while.
There was a little bite in that answer.
“…Why?”
“Because I don’t feel like a vessel to fully accept someone’s love.”
It was an excuse.
Despite the fact that there are other reasons.
“I’ll be fine.”
I wanted to applaud them because I know that being courageous is not an easy task, but it seemed that I shouldn’t give them room.
Because it was clear that it would only leave scars on everyone.
“…I’ll wait.”
“Until I can accept all of the senior’s feelings and the senior accepts me as well.”
It’s a wound you can’t handle.
The words never came out.
“Don’t wait.”
Emotions exploded and tears started to fall.
It was a truly paradoxical sight.
A situation where happiness and sadness can coexist with one person’s choice.
“Just once… Hug me.”
Only quiet cries echoed through the plaza.
All I could do was listen to her.
Because this is the last
Been like that for a while
She slipped out of my arms
No word was said, but as promised, we started walking towards the front door.
She spoke her
“It’s sad, but I don’t think it’s that sad.”
I didn’t quite understand.
“How can I say it. I was very sad when I was rejected, but I feel relieved after I finally solved my mind.”
Can a person with tears in his eyes smile so brightly?
I’m probably impossible
Her first love ended today.
By none other than me.
Still, she looked bright.
I don’t know if I’m pretending to be bright, but that wasn’t an important issue right now.
“Are you still coming to the graduation ceremony tomorrow?”
“Okay.”
Another relationship was about to end.
There was tomorrow, but maybe our relationship will end from today.
Just like that, we went our separate ways.
In reality and in a figurative sense, it probably is.
The day was about to end.
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Not long after her first love ended.
Eurelia was going to her own room with all her mixed thoughts.
Although it wasn’t a good ending, I was relieved nonetheless.
Maybe it was because she was able to get out without getting sick.
She was walking down an alley near her room.
The security of the system was good, but aren’t there places like that?
Some awkward space.
As she passed by the place today, she felt uncomfortable that she did not normally feel.
The moment she turned the last corner before arriving at her room, speeding her steps,
She could be seen trying to cover her own mouth from behind her.
It was her trying to escape somehow, but her basic physical differences couldn’t be beat.
Her breathing is getting choked and she loses her consciousness.
There was a brief commotion, but no one was on the street.
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How stunned she must have been.
She felt herself being touched.
Rather than touching it, it was a touch closer to assaulting someone.
Suddenly, she drew in her breath.
It was a simple room with nothing in it.
She looked around hastily but saw nothing.
Then she heard a voice behind her.
“My name is Eurelia.”
“My family lives in the eastern part of Jedo Island, and I went to Jedo alone for study.”
“My father died in an accident and I was raised by his single mother.”
“I have a younger brother, and we get along well.”
She was stunned by what she heard.
Who the hell is she and how does she know so much about herself?
Someone came in front of her.
A woman wearing a mask.
She was actually trying not to identify her culprit, but that didn’t strike her now.
“Did you make a good confession?”
I started to get goosebumps.
Who the hell is this person to even know what happened today?
“Whatever the outcome was, it doesn’t matter.”
It wasn’t a good ending in terms of the ending, but it didn’t seem to matter to the other person.
The other party only mattered whether or not the confession was made.
Pain hit her chest with a crackling sound.
“Did you think that if you seduced the teacher with a breast like this, he would pass you by?”
Teacher?
What teacher are you talking about?
Still with her reason, it didn’t take her long to deduce that the teacher was Edward Weiss.
The pain she was inflicting stopped and she exhaled.
Why? Why?
She herself is just expressing her own mind, but why the hell is the other person doing this?
“There’s a lot I want to say, but I don’t really want to say it.”
I was shocked once again.
This time it was a boat.
“It’s big… Uh”
She was not accustomed to violence, so she was not very strong if you look at it objectively.
It was not difficult for her to plant fear in her head.
She was afraid
Considering that he has the power to plan and carry out a crime of this magnitude, he must be a person of a fairly high position.
It should be rich, but it is not.
That thought was brief.
This woman in front of her eyes didn’t seem to see herself as a person.
Really…
She really seemed like she could bury herself if she was wrong.
The thought that she would die like this filled her head.
“Sorry…”
She had nothing to apologize for, but her situation made her do it.
“I’m sorry…You can’t do that.”
The assault was repeated.
It was a really clever robber.
It was strong enough not to leave a trace, but enough to cause pain.
Accidents started to stop gradually.
“Help me.”
The shock of her coming back stopped her from thinking.
Because it was the same woman who did this to herself, she was hitting a place that only women know would hurt.
A ruthless assault ensued.
Chest, belly, thighs.
Locations that are seemingly unrecognizable.
Her mind began to fill only with the desire to compromise with reality.
The assault stopped.
Catching her busy breathing, she was taking in the aftermath of her shock.
“I don’t want to see the light of day for the rest of my life.”
“It turned out that tomorrow was the graduation ceremony? If you stay here for the rest of your life, someone will find out, right?”
So I’ll release you.
As if she had waited for that, she started shaking her head frantically up and down her.
“Thank you. The teacher saved the life. Use it well.”
I don’t know what the hell is going on with this person and the senior.
She had reached the point where she was grateful to him, who was not even aware of the situation.
“If you tell me about what happened today, you will die.”
Even if she really said it, there was no way for the other person to know, but her mind was already full of traces of violence.
And
The other person spoke.
“If I show myself in front of the teacher again, I will die anyway.”
“I don’t think you’ll make a foolish choice.”
It was a very polite and courteous remark, but it was a comedy indeed.
All she could do was express her body that came to her mind that she only knew.
“Then I hope I never see you again.”
After those words, darkness came before her eyes.
When she saw the light again, she was in the same position she had been before.
