How the Tutor Survives 33

Chapter 33 – Seriously

It was a terrible dream.

She was the one who did something she wouldn’t be if she loved me, but why does she keep staying in her head?

Is this resentment?

It didn’t seem like it.

So is this longing?

It didn’t seem like that either.

So what the hell is this feeling?

Could this also be love?

Is this twisted love true love?

I still don’t know.

Perhaps she will remain in the center of my heart for the rest of my life.

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The semester changes and the season prepares to turn cold again, but

The world hasn’t changed that much.

I was also one of those things that didn’t change.

There is only a small scar embedded in the heart.

It was a situation where I went to do what I had to do like any other day.

Visit as usual

Conversation as usual

However, her subsequent words seemed to foreshadow a new wave.

“You look very tired, sir.”

Was my expression ruined that much?

I could only answer that it was okay.

It wasn’t a manifestation of her pride that she didn’t want to win her sympathy for her.

Perhaps that was the result of my thoughts unconsciously trying to draw a line.

“For me, I want the teacher to be happy. Although it’s work, it’s good to laugh at each other, right?”

Laughing and happiness are not synonyms, but neither are they antonyms.

“The words you just said are actually ceremonial.”

“I have fun studying with my teacher. Is it because I taught well or because I like the teacher?

I’m not sure yet. But one thing is for sure, studying with a teacher becomes fun.”

“You may not believe what I said, but the teacher has already confirmed it with the results.

Since we were together, our grades have improved dramatically.”

“To be honest, I want to go as long as possible with a teacher. There has never been a teacher like this before.

He gave me a chance when no one said there was an answer. I, who used to be called a penny, is no longer called a penny.”

“You changed me. That’s why I’m so grateful to you. I’ve never changed someone’s life, but

I think you can tell that it can be very rewarding.”

“So the other day, when the teacher was in the hospital, I was anxious. Isn’t our relationship ending like this?

Wouldn’t it be possible for me to miss the opportunity to change more?”

“So… I’ll work hard, so please don’t quit like last time.”

Isn’t it better to study in a good mood with each other?

So the words are over.

The first ceremonial word was the theory.

If you ask me to say such a thing knowing how I feel here, that would probably be something only a person who has completely lost his humanity can say.

“I’m sorry. It’s an excuse, but I haven’t been able to keep my emotions well because I’ve been having bad things lately.”

“I’ll make sure that doesn’t happen next time.”

It was a ceremonial answer to ceremonial words.

However, I couldn’t answer what I said inside.

It was as if I was facing that old feeling again.

The fortunate thing is that it’s more like an academic problem, not an inner feeling like it was back then.

What should I answer?

Let’s try our best?

Or should I draw a line?

My answer ended up being to do well.

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A lot has changed, but that doesn’t mean time has changed.

The time I leave the mansion hasn’t changed much.

I was very hungry, so I decided to have a meal before going home.

The reason why habits are scary is that they make their actions the same as those of the past without thinking.

It was a familiar restaurant.

It was also a restaurant with many memories.

But it was a memory that has now cracked.

Took a step

Decided to go to another restaurant.

I think I’ve been there once, but I can’t quite remember.

I arrived in front of the restaurant and tried to enter the restaurant.

I felt like someone was glancing at me.

I tried to ignore it and pass by, but my name eventually came out as if the other person had no intention of doing so.

“You’re Senior Vice, right?”

It’s not because I don’t like people, but I decided to ask because I couldn’t remember who it really was.

Really

“Who are you?”

Then the other person made a tear as if he was really sad.

“Don’t you remember me?”

I don’t know who you are until I tell you who you are. If you say it like that, who will be able to remember it?

“I’m sorry, but I don’t know. Enough then.”

Was it because of the irritation caused by the empty stomach?

I decided to just ignore it and move on.

She started talking in an urgent voice.

“This is Eurelia, whom I met at school back then…”

The last word was almost crawling.

Could it be that the emotional change could have changed so drastically?

I seem to remember it roughly.

Since I hadn’t even met a few people in the first place, I thought I knew them when I met them at school.

“Ah.”

But I’m not sure what that has to do with the current situation.

“So what are you doing?”

“It looks like you’re here for a meal, but I’m here too. So, I thought we’d have a meal together…”

Looking back at the fragmented memories, I refused a cup of tea at that time because there was a reason.

Did I forget it?

She looked at my face and spoke in an apologetic voice as if she knew what I was worried about.

“I… Heard the news that they broke up…”

Did the rumor spread?

Frustrated again

“If you do… Next time when it’s okay… I’ll do it.”

Actually, there was no reason for this person to come out like this.

First of all, if it came out like this from the other side, I couldn’t just cut it coldly.

Perhaps the result of my choice has contributed a lot to my confused state.

And…

This person seemed to know me, but he also wondered how he got to know me.

“Yes. Let’s eat.”

She made a surprised expression, as if she had heard unexpected good news, and then she put on a delighted expression.

“Yes yes?”

“Let’s eat. Didn’t you mean that?”

“That’s right!”

It was a very difficult emotional change to follow.

She placed her order and decided to ask questions while waiting.

“Why did you ask for tea the other day?”

“I wanted to talk to you once… But you can leave it alone.”

He was an active person.

Let go of words from the first meeting.

Or am I the kind of person who really can’t keep up with things like this?

“Yes, Mr. Eurelia. No, Eurelia.”

He had a smile on his face, wondering what was so good.

Unlike his lively personality, he didn’t seem to be good at hiding his emotions.

“So what’s the answer to the question you asked earlier?”

“Ah… That’s it.”

“Actually, you’re famous in senior’s department.”

So, having taken her rhyme, she began to carry on her words.

Was I that famous?

I couldn’t understand it because I heard the story that I couldn’t get out of it at all.

“I was a person who didn’t miss the top of the department from the time I entered the department, but I was the one who didn’t show my face well in the department.

There were a lot of rumors. I’ve heard a lot since I entered school. So I wanted to talk about it once.

What kind of person he is.”

“Then, at some point, you didn’t see me at school for several years, and you came back with the news that you were dating Heina-senpai from the beginning of this year.”

She put on a puzzled expression.

She admits that she made a mistake.

“Ah… That… I’m sorry.”

“No. It’s true.”

Rumors seemed to have spread.

Is it true or not a rumor?

I just wondered how far it spread.

She decided to ask.

“Originally, I heard eyewitness accounts of the two of them going together, but at some point, they said they couldn’t see them.”

I didn’t even know what had happened.

I decided to just cover it up. Because it was a story that didn’t have anything good to know.

“We just… Broke up. That’s all.”

The story should have stopped here.

It was something I had to carry, but I didn’t want others to know about it.

I decided to change the topic to another story.

Unexpectedly, she was serious about her studies.

How long have you been telling this story?

It sounds like you talked a lot.

I don’t even know when I ate.

Was it thirsty for people?

I didn’t understand myself either.

“Go carefully.”

“See you next time.”

It was a very neat breakup for the person I had a conversation with.

I felt like I could sleep a little more comfortably today.

Is this why people have to interact with each other?

With a slightly relieved mind, I headed home.

I felt like I could sleep comfortably today.

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Today, I told him part of my heart.

He still looked confused, but decided not to mind.

If you step on the stairs step by step, wouldn’t you arrive at the future you want someday?

She was the one who followed with her eyes the back of him as he left her mansion, unfolding such happy imaginations.

All was good, but the problem was the information brought by the person who still had it attached to him.

It was about going in for a meal with a ‘woman’ he had never seen before.

The joy faded in an instant, and only cold emotions filled her heart.

I had to know once.

Since you have tolerance, shouldn’t you first figure out the circumstances and get angry or not?

Fortunately, it seemed to be an almost one-sided relationship.

She was sure she wasn’t wrong.

His kindness is so sweet that it makes people intoxicated.

Isn’t it still the same now?

He had knocked out one at most, but didn’t it come up again somewhere?

She felt sorry for herself that she was still bound by the academy.

If he had been at the same university as him, he would have had more time to see him.

Wouldn’t he have been able to play with his own bugs that stick to him?

No matter how much she could change other things, she couldn’t do anything about her biological part.

So I decided to watch it for a while.

Promising that one day she would make amends for all this from him, she closed her curtains.