Chapter 635 – My Lord (8)
There are limits to magic tools for surveillance.
I wanted to see it with my own eyes.
Are Siwoo and Ara doing well?
Did you adapt to the new prison?
Are there still any inconveniences?
That’s why I went to see the lord and begged him again today. Please, let me meet my friends and ask how they are doing. What I want is to check on my friends’ safety. Fortunately, the lord listened to my request. It was rewarding to build trust, even if only in small ways.
-Tadadak, tadadadak
“Siwoo! Araya!”
“… Love? Are you in love?!”
“Buy… My love… “
My colleagues and friends I finally got to see.
I felt like crying because I was both sorry and grateful. Thank you for holding on in such a harsh place. Instead of a comfortable bed, there was a moldy mattress and there wasn’t even a table, so there were bowls of food lying around on the ground. I haven’t even committed a crime… My heart ached when I saw my friends suffering like criminals. I wanted to get them out of that horrible prison right away.
“… “Guys.”
Of course, it may be difficult right now…
Nevertheless, it was not an impossible story at all.
Gillian the Kruger was not a bad lord as rumored, and all the employees in the castle were kind-hearted people. So at least a week… So, wouldn’t it be possible to convince them within a month? The lord is on guard because he doesn’t trust strangers… All I had to do was give him more faith than that, so from now on it was up to me.
“Wow… That’s awesome, you. “Is that completely correct?”
“… Yes? “What?”
“Siwoo, am I right?”
Haha… Haha… “
Yeah, it’s up to me… Why is the reaction like that?
Ara laughs at me as if she knew that would happen, and Siwoo laughs at me as if she was shocked. What to me… Was he disappointed? The attitude of these two people made me anxious. Even though it’s been a while since we met, he didn’t seem happy.
“My lord, please take me too! No, please let love take me instead! I can do better! Whether it’s secretarial work or anything else, just leave it to me! Really… I am confident!”
Because of that, when I felt anxious…
Suddenly, Ara screamed.
Then, he begged the lord to take him away.
He says he doesn’t want to be in prison anymore and clings to the lord… What, are you telling me to stay in prison? Ara’s unexpected suggestion. Naturally, I was worried. It’s nice to be able to be with Siwoo, but… No… It was so sudden. Is it okay to make a request like this? I looked at the lord in confusion. Our eyes met in the air.
After a while, the lord spoke.
“Hmph, judging by your hesitation, I guess you’re thinking of agreeing. Okay, follow me.”
Surprisingly, his answer was ‘yes’.
However, his expression was never bright.
Gillian sighs softly and shakes her head as if she is disappointed. It looks like you’re upset because of me… No, what did I do wrong?! I didn’t quite understand… I felt uncomfortable. Furthermore, I was embarrassed and disappointed, but even more than that, my heart sank at the thought of disappointing him. Furthermore, I wanted to run right now and give an explanation.
“Uh… Huh?! Lord?!”
But I couldn’t say anything…
In the end, I had to stay in prison with Siwoo and spend an awkward time.
***
A cold prison where not even sunlight enters.
It was difficult to smile because of Siwoo’s colder expression.
The atmosphere became very stiff, perhaps due to Ara’s unexpected behavior. I’m also very embarrassed… Still, I need to cheer up, right? This was not the time to whine about the warm blanket disappearing. Since I was left in prison instead of Ara, I had to join hands with Si-woo to survive each day.
“How are you? Do you think this is going well?”
However, Siwoo did not seem to have any intention of showing his strength.
Siwoo gets angry when I ask how he is doing. Is stress building up due to repeated prison stays? He quickly changed the subject, thinking he had made a mistake. However, the story about the lord was never the right choice. Si-Woo explodes with anger even when I tell him to have hope because he is a person I can relate to more than I thought. The air inside the prison suddenly became heavy.
“How many times have you given me clothes, shoes, etc.?”
“… Huh?”
“No, that’s right. “I shouldn’t have received something like this because I treated him so well.”
Ah… There was another reason why I was angry.
For the first time, I heard criticism from Siwoo.
Siwoo, who always comforted me so kindly…
He glanced at me as if he were looking at a prostitute.
I felt disgust in his gaze.
It looks like you think I was raped by the lord… Yes, that’s normal. Yes, I thought so too at first. So it’s understandable that you misunderstand. You are the lord who has been so sneaky from day one. Of course, you can’t help but think that way. A man named Siwoo who looked at me like he was looking at me… As a woman, it wasn’t that she didn’t understand.
However, I still felt disappointed.
If you really cherish me…
The more it happens, the more you have to comfort me, right?
Rape is literally rape. You’re not doing it because you want to… It’s something you’re forced to do. Then the first thing you should do is worry about me, right? But why… Why! Why are you mocking me like that? Why do you think I gave myself first? … For you, for you, I endured such humiliation…
… Tears welled up, and my vision became blurry.
Nevertheless, Siwoo did not understand my feelings.
To be exact, there wasn’t even an attempt to find out.
She felt despair, as if everything was falling apart due to an inexplicable sense of betrayal.
“Wow, are you pretending to be pure until the end? I’m really disappointed, you. Let’s just be honest! Huh? Let’s just be honest like Ara. Don’t you think you would have lived comfortably on the condition that you give money to your lord?”
Was I that untrustworthy?
Si-woo, without any doubt, decided that I was a prostitute.
The man who liked me The man I liked… He said I was disgusting and undermined my self-esteem. I tainted my sacrifice with personal selfishness. The beds and bathrooms in the prison… There was nothing I didn’t ask for, but what I did was treated as the act of a low-class prostitute.
“Still, phuh…” It’s gotten hilarious. Did you have a bad night’s sleep? Did I not satisfy you properly? So you were abandoned? Somewhere… “Can I check it myself?”
And then… He approached me with a sinister expression.
I was in a panic and couldn’t resist.
-Tadadadadak
“Siuyaaa! “I’m back!”
Fortunately, I never lost my virginity.
Ara returns to prison, saying she left for a while to see Yeongju. She reassured Siwoo… He laughed at me with his pretty face. Then she revealed the deal between me and the lord. He says he can’t suck the lord’s dick because it’s so disgusting… Ah, I ended up getting caught. My face got hot, and I had no choice but to lower my head.
“Oh my, I was planning on keeping this a secret… Ugh, Siwoo. Don’t think it’s too disgusting though! You sucked it for us! “You have to understand.”
Siwoo was already doubting me…
Now that the testimony has come out, they won’t believe it anymore.
“Love, come back.”
In despair, just as I was about to collapse…
I heard someone’s voice calling my name.
The lord is still glaring at me with a disapproving look on his face. Okay… The only person I can rely on right now is that man. When I came to my senses, I was in Jillian’s arms. He is an freezing, yet warm man. He patted me while I was crying.
***
“Didn’t you like that guy?”
“… “Yes?”
“Hmph, you made a fuss asking me to meet you, and now you’re just pretending not to know me?”
“S-No way… That’s why you were considerate of me?!”
“Consideration? Ha, the illusion is also oily resin. “It’s not that I was considerate, it’s that I abandoned you.”
That was the reason why I accepted Ara’s request.
For some reason, I thought it was strange… Ara was taken for me. Anyway, it was easy to misunderstand that man because his words and actions were different. Of course, he thought he was abandoned… That wasn’t it. I felt reassured thanks to you, but I wonder if I was hurt because of your consideration…
I was unlucky in many ways.
“… “I haven’t heard an answer yet.”
“It’s not like that. Siu and I are just friends… Yes, we are just friends.”
“Friend? Friends… In the world you live in, do friends rape friends?”
“Yes?! Well, that’s… “
As expected, you noticed.
I could feel the concern for me in his cold gaze.
However, I couldn’t show my true feelings.
Even though something like that happened, Siwoo and Ara are my friends. You can’t abandon your friends just because you’ve had a bad relationship for a while. The misunderstanding will be resolved later… You have to treat the country well too. Just like that, I finally came to my senses and proposed a deal to the lord.
“Hot water? Ah… Okay, I understand. I will accept it.”
I still needed to make sacrifices for my friends.
