Chapter 19 – Chapter 19
The tips of my toes curled involuntarily. It was a response to the temptation that touched his body. Do-gyun kept thinking about these two thoughts, ‘I have to endure it’ and ‘I have to hide it.’ He straightened his toes and began to read the manuscript.
“Hannah’s life could be described as a loner’s.”
“Everybody except Hannah didn’t want to know what they were.”
“Hannah was the only human in a world of monkeys.”
It was embarrassing to read the manuscript aloud, but the thought that I had to hide my state of blood rushing to the lower half of the body was stronger and moved Do-gyun’s mouth.
“Do they really want salvation?”
“Am I wrong, or was it all my self-righteousness and arrogance?”
Should I be happy? That woman’s novel had the power to attract people even in the midst of it. The more I read, the more I focused on one point, erased the shame that had risen and filled the place with admiration.
“Without me, this world would be completed in one order.”
“I was a foreign object in this world.”
The lips continued to lick. When he came to his senses, he found himself immersed in the writing and dispelled all the sensations and flesh-colored imagery surrounding his arms.
After that, the manuscript that I had been reciting all along began to show its end before I knew it.
“Nevertheless, because she was human, because she embraced love, she did not know how to stop.”
Turning the last page, he could see his thighs supporting him behind the manuscript. Do-gyun turned his head to the side and said to Eun-ah, who was sitting blankly on his arm.
“It’s fun. I especially liked the level of immersion in the inner portrayal.”
The words spoken reached her and set her pale face on fire. Eun-ah, her face flushed red, let out a big laugh and said.
“Hehe… Everything, I’m glad…”
After saying that, Eun-ah raised her head and made eye contact with Do-gyun, then spoke.
“In addition…? Where else was Joe, good…?”
“Description of character relationships and double lines sprinkled in the middle make me curious about the back story.”
Said without embarrassment. If you don’t recognize that the woman wrote it, the writing itself is correct.
“Hehe… Again…?”
“That.”
Do-gyun’s mouth stopped for a moment. The eyes looking at me were full of anticipation. If you are speechless here, that face will change in an instant. I had to come up with an answer. Thoughts spun rapidly and weaved the following words.
“I liked the fight scene. It was nice to have the scene pictured in my head the whole time I was reading it.”
“Hehe… Go, thank you…”
Eun-a, whose face was flushed as if it would explode if touched, started rubbing her cheek against my forearm and talking in annoyance.
“Papa, hurry up…”
“Yes?”
An embarrassed voice came out of his mouth. What to do quickly It was difficult to understand the meaning because the subject was missing. Do-gyun’s flustered voice sounded again.
“That, that… Do it, do it…”
“Ah… That, that…”
‘What the fuck is that!’
Cold sweat began to run down my back. What is it? What are you talking about? Do-gyun’s thoughts spin tight and he analyzes the meaning of her words, but no appropriate answer can be deduced.
Just like that, the moment when silence fell between the two. The space between Eun-ah’s brows, which had been rubbing her cheeks, slightly narrowed and froze the atmosphere. Then, the words came out of her mouth, revealing an uncomfortable planting.
“Mmm, hair… I need to stroke it…”
“Hair…?”
What are you talking about As Do-gyun was perplexed at the words that came out without context, Eun-a raised her head and met Do-kyun’s eyes, and an additional explanation came out of her mouth.
“Chi, use your head when praising, it’s only natural to pet him…!”
‘They’re going to the point of changing common sense!’
It was a forced exclamation of admiration. I don’t even know what’s obvious, but contrary to Do-gyun’s thoughts, her body moves honestly and starts stroking her hair.
“Ah, aha…! Sorry, I keep forgetting.”
“Lol…”
Her hair was so soft that it fell in her hand. A laugh of satisfaction escaped her lips, and she was relieved to think that it was over.
“Again… What else did you like?”
‘Fuck…’
Do you have some kind of appreciation fetish? That bastard’s ‘again’ sound came out again. I had to think. What did she say she didn’t say? What could she say that would make her feel good? Her thoughts followed quickly, her mouth opening and sentences slurping out.
“Yeah, the style is really good. It’s my favorite style.”
“Joe, good…”
Eun-ah, who had been listening to Do-gyun’s hurried words, lowered her head and muttered as if reliving what he had said. After a while, Eun-ah raised her head again and began to look at Do-gyun with moist eyes, and her mouth opened.
“I-I like Joe, Joe, Joe…”
Creepy-.
‘Not yours, but your style!’
Do-gyun felt her chills watching her listening to her, substituting her own words for her own pleasure. Even though she had just finished taking a shower, cold sweat leaked down the back of her back and her body felt uncomfortable.
‘There’s no time to be vigilant!’
Even if I let go of my mind a little, I could not relax as I entered through the gap. Do-gyun lifted the corner of her twitching mouth and said to Eun-ah.
“But shouldn’t we write the next episode now? Readers will be waiting…”
“Uhhh… Uh, it’s okay… I’ve taken care of everything…”
‘What? The manuscript? Or the reader?’
A red-hot picture was drawn in her head, but Do-kyun quickly erased him and answered her words with a smile.
“It’s good. The readiness is so… Yes, that’s great.”
It was great preparation in many ways. No manuscripts, no confinement. While Do-gyun was stroking Eun-ah’s hair while thinking about that. Eun-a, who had been enjoying him while closing her eyes for a while, raised her body with a sad expression as if she remembered something about her and opened her mouth.
“Oh, that’s right… I should have dinner…!”
“Yeah?”
‘Already?’
Has the time passed like that? I can’t feel the passage of time well because there is no object in the house that indicates the time.
Seeing Do-kyun bewildered, Eun-ah nodded her head and said to Do-kyun.
“Yes Yes…! Now, it’s time for dinner…”
After saying that, Eun-a moved her steps towards the kitchen and spoke to Do-gyun.
“I’ll prepare it soon… Please wait…!”
“Haha… Yes, take it slow.”
Do-gyun answers with a smile as he sees Eun-ah heading towards the kitchen. Afterwards, seeing her busily moving, she relaxed her body, which had been tense up until then, and leaned back on her sofa.
‘I’ll follow you.’
Her mental stress was no joke. Is it because it’s only been two days? I was wondering if it would be okay if I got used to it.
‘No, are you sure two days fit?’
The way he perceived the flow of time was entirely through that woman’s instructions. Only by eating, washing, and sleeping, she was vaguely estimating how much time had passed.
Actually, what if it’s not two days? What if that woman is trying to artificially change my lifestyle? What if not even a day has passed yet? Conversely, what if it’s been three days?
Dokyun raised his hand and wiped his face.
‘Driving me crazy…’
The accident never calmed down. Do-gyun began to check his current condition.
His heart was breaking little by little. When that woman was staring at me, she felt paralyzed. The stress that comes from dealing with an opponent who does not work with his common sense and logic came much bigger than he expected.
All day, at my own discretion, the only person I could talk to for two days was that woman, so I felt like I was being pulled by her emotions. Thinking driven by momentary instincts takes precedence over long-term and logical thinking, and the emotions that always moved within my control were stirred and tried to get out of control.
It felt like my head was going crazy. Considering that just a moment ago, all my nerves were being poured into the soft sensation that touched my body, and considering my current situation where I was unable to accurately perceive the flow of time, it was clear that my judgmental ability was having problems.
He raised his head and saw a light shining brightly in the living room. It was much better not to be in the dark all day like the first day, but looking at that light nevertheless, a gloomy thought continued in my heart.
Wouldn’t that light be the end of the light he would see in his lifetime? Like that fake lamp that imitated the sunlight, wouldn’t I have to live with fake expressions and emotions in front of that woman for the rest of my life? In the past, it was the thought that I might be deceiving myself because I wanted to believe the lie as the truth.
Do-gyun closed his eyes. I shouldn’t have thought further. His reason is not functioning properly in the events that have been sweeping through his body ever since he opened his eyes. He tried to calm his throbbing heart by catching himself up like that.
He closed his eyes and scattered all the thoughts that were floating around, creating a void in its place. He inhaled, exhaled again, refining his breath to a steady beat. The power of the body was drained all the way, and the accident that had been hotly expanding all the time was closed.
Meditation continued, and my cold head boiled over in an instant, bringing the random thoughts back to one point.
‘Slowly, one by one.’
Don’t rush and don’t give up. Eyes open. I could feel the aroma of the food being cooked in my nose.
Growl-.
The hunger that comes after that. True to her words, he seems to have passed quite a bit of time while he was reading the manuscript. Looking up at the kitchen, she saw that food was being prepared one by one on the table. Meals were supposed to be served at the table.
‘I’m not confined to my room like the first day.’
The more you do, the more certainty you have in your head.
‘There’s something in that notebook and frame.’
Notes and picture frames were placed on the shelf behind the bed. There was definitely something there. Add up
‘In this living room, in that kitchen, and anywhere else.’
There will be clues she hasn’t taken care of. She thought soberly.
‘The conclusion is the same. I have to do something about this leash first.’
She had to snatch the key from her pocket. Unnoticed, naturally, so that even if the key disappears, you won’t suspect me.
‘There are many opportunities.’
That woman is pretty, and she wants to stick close to him. She wants to be close enough to skin to skin.
‘I have to use that woman’s impulsiveness.’
If you panic, your work will be sloppy. Even after dinner on the first day, and in the shower room where I was preoccupied with my body.
‘Something. A way to shake her, to distract her.’
I looked back on the past day. She already knew the answer.
‘My body.’
That woman drooling and glaring at me. Do-gyun’s fists clenched tightly. His teeth were clenched, representing his miserable feelings.
‘It’s not the time to argue about this and that.’
I had to escape. I was already losing control of my emotions. Even at this moment, he was moving jaggedly, disturbing his image.
‘I have to go. I have to go out to live.’
I had to secretly take out the key when they attacked me. I took a deep breath and calmed down the excitement again.
‘Let’s do it.’
While making a promise. The voice of Eun-ah, who had finished preparing dinner, rang in Do-gyun’s ears before he knew it.
“It’s all done…!”
Immediately after hearing her voice, she took one step closer. Soon, she approached him and took her key out of her pocket and unlocked the lock on Do-gyun’s neck.
“Hey, shall we go now…?”
Do-gyun crossed his arms and felt his image shake at the touch of the flesh again, but he regained his composure, created a smile on his lips, and softened his voice to reply in a soft tone.
“Yeah.”
‘I am the Knights of Thank You.’
A novel I read a long time ago when I was borrowing a novel from a rental store. I remembered the main characters, the hosts.
‘I am a male role character.’
A genre that was popular in the dark not too long ago. It reminded me of the protagonists of a genre where guys with dicks snarl and act like a king among angry sisters.
Lastly, the main character who touched Do-kyun’s heart most recently.
‘I.’
A rare host bar ace who handles countless crazy bitches.
‘I’m crying.’
It reminded me of a person whose name is common, but whose pilgrimage to women is uncommon.
