Chapter 344 – Chapter 344 Ai
We were on our way home, sitting side by side on the bus, just like when we arrived at the wedding.
Unlike when she came, her mind was so clear that she couldn’t sleep at all, and Na-yeong met her cousin, sister-in-law, and seeing the child, the crystallization of their love, made her unknown worries grow bigger. It was a feeling.
She was about to ask what was going on with her, but when she saw her suffering alone due to circumstances she couldn’t tell for the first time, she was a little reluctant to ask.
It’s the first time he’s ever had such a thing, but it must be that serious or difficult to tell even to me.
However, it will show up forever, so you won’t be able to keep hiding it from me, and you won’t have any intention of hiding it.
She believed that sooner or later she would first tell me the troubles she was struggling with, and she had no doubts.
So, even if it wasn’t now, she tried to wait until she got home, even if it was a few days after she got home, to let her know belatedly. It looked like it was about to let go.
“Jihoon-ah.”
“Yes why?”
“Jihoon is a child… What do you think…?”
Nayoung is cautiously asking what she thinks of the child.
When she asked what kind of serious trouble she was in, she wondered if she suddenly wanted to have a child because of the child she saw at her cousin’s wedding.
Originally, she knew that Nayoung liked her child, and even now she is serious about her child to the extent that she goes to the nursery school and does volunteer work.
She didn’t understand that she wanted to have her child soon.
“Ira… It’s okay. I want to have a baby too. You’ve seen the faces of your cousin and sister-in-law. How nice they looked. To be honest, like the two of them, I didn’t even think it would be okay to marry you after having a baby, even if I was speeding. Are you coming in?”
“I, really…?”
Nayoung’s expression turned bright at her words that contained only the truth, not lies.
She has a bright face that seems to be clearing away all her troubles and worries.
But.
“Still, I’m a little worried.”
“Why why…?”
Na-yeong’s bright expression darkened in an instant when she suddenly started lighting candles in her good mood, and her nervousness caused her to swallow her dry saliva.
“It’s like that. My cousin is still old. We’re still young, but we’re still young. I still have a lot to do and a lot of things I want to do. So even if I had a child, I wouldn’t be able to spend much time with my child, right? Na-young, maybe it’s the same for you. There are still things you want to do and things you need to do. But if you suddenly have a child, you will lose all the things we’ve enjoyed so far.
“…”
I also wanted to have a child, but I couldn’t help it even though I was sorry that I was blocked by a very realistic problem.
There are many things I want to do, but because of my child, I can’t give up and see my child.
You have to do as much as you can and give up.
That said, I can’t go out and play while giving birth to a child saying I’ll do my job and leave it to someone else.
As a parent, you will have to spend more time with your child than anyone else, so as soon as you give birth to a child, no matter how wealthy and leisurely the house is. I had no choice but to give up what I had enjoyed so far and live a life that was lacking and difficult.
Some go on a fun trip with friends, while others live a lonely life with no choice but to watch their children at home.
However, since we have so many people to look after our children, there is no guarantee that this will be true, but it means that there will be more restrictions than now.
While these problems are discovered one by one. I also really want to have a child, but this is why I am reluctant.
“Yeah… That’s right…”
When I said that she was concerned about practical problems rather than emotions, Nayoung lowered her head with a sad expression on her face as if she understood.
Did I make a mistake in what I just said? Rather than hating it, she just said that she was troubled by a very realistic problem, but Na-yeong didn’t seem to think so.
“Nayeong-ah. It’s not that I hate children. I like children. It’s a child born between me and you. How can I hate it? It can’t be better. But it’s not too late to have that child a little more leisurely.”
I talk like a rapid-fire gun as if I had committed a crime.
My heart. I want you to hear and understand what I’m talking about.
Despite what I said, if Na-yeong continues to want to have a child, then no matter what problems arise inevitably in front of us, I will definitely make Na-young pregnant.
Because she wants it
“Yeah… I know. I understand…”
Fortunately, Nayoung understood me.
However. Do you have anything more to say
“Jihoon-ah. But you know…”
Na-young hesitated as if she was finally trying to tell me what she had been hiding inside herself, and then she struggled to open her mouth.
“That is…”
I want to say something, I want to tell you everything, but words that don’t come out easily.
I waited for her words afterward with a warm smile and an expression that I could wait forever.
It’s a very serious thing, but it’s a word that doesn’t come out easily.
What to say.
Even if you know the problem, you might actively appeal to them saying that they want to have children.
Other than that, there would be no reason to worry so much.
This… I should have her child.
As I thought this, I gently stroked her hair as if I was ready to accept and listen to whatever she said.
She said, dropping her lips completely, which then dropped onto her face, which she felt better, and then she reattached again.
“You have the birth control pills I take…?”
“Yes. I know.”
Nayoung’s birth control pills.
It is a birth control pill that was released faster than the original history by synthesizing future information because I did not want to wear a condom and thought that I might get pregnant if I did not wear it.
Rather, it is a contraceptive that prevents pregnancy with a whopping 99.9999% chance of being more researched and developed than when it came out before the regression.
There is a 0.0001% chance of getting pregnant, but at this rate, it’s okay to just set it to 100%.
In fact, I had never been told I was pregnant since taking this pill.
My women, likewise, have never conceived a new life in their wombs.
In addition, it was one of the products that I put my mind into so that it did not cause any side effects on the female body.
But I don’t know why they’re suddenly bringing up the topic of birth control pills.
“99.9999%… It seems to have been pierced…”
“Ok…?”
For a moment, Nayoung tilted her head, not understanding her words.
Did you hear wrong enough to think
That’s because she didn’t even dream that words like that would come out of her mouth.
Is there a flaw in the product that I was so proud of and cared for…?
Even to my girl?
My mind was confused.
“Originally…The menstruation that should have happened ten days ago…Isn’t it still happening…?”
Not a day or two, but ten days.
At this point, undeniable speculation began to creep into my head.
My eyes went straight to her stomach.
Even though it was hidden under clothes, a new life was conceived in that thin and smooth stomach.
I couldn’t believe it.
That’s why she asked if she likes children earlier, and she must have made a subtle expression while watching her cousin’s child at her wedding.
Now I understand
“Oooh…”
When I didn’t say anything for a while, Nayoung moistened her eyes and shed tears.
Only then did her mind, which had left her for a moment, return and gently embraced her in her arms.
I didn’t have a child because I wanted it, but it happened because I gave full faith to the birth control pill.
If it’s someone’s fault, this is the proportion of my fault… No, it’s okay to say it’s completely my fault.
But why does Nayoung have to worry and suffer so much and even show her tears because of one of my faults?
I smiled bitterly and rubbed Nayoung’s back.
“You idiot.”
He called Nayoung an idiot as he grabbed her engorged breasts.
“You should have said that from the beginning. Right when you said something was strange.”
“…”
Nayoung didn’t say anything, she just listened in my arms.
“Who’s to say what? Are you afraid I’ll ask you to delete it? I just said that I’m worried about having a child recklessly. Our… I had it because of my mistake, so I’m afraid I’ll blame you?”
She couldn’t have been a really stupid woman.
So maybe that’s why I love her with all her heart.
“If it’s a girl, let’s name it Lee Na-eun, if it’s a boy, let’s name it Lee Na-hoon. What do you think?”
Names that you have thought of beforehand for the children you will have someday.
“Yeah… It’s pretty… My kids’ names.”
“I’m glad you didn’t take it as strange…”
I don’t know what kind of expression she’s making as she’s buried her face in her arms, but her voice doesn’t seem too bad.
Rather, it is said to be filled with joy.
“I’m sorry, Nayoung. I made you worry about this alone.”
“Ugh… I didn’t tell you right away…”
“I’m sorry though.”
Even if I didn’t say it, I should have noticed. I’m so overcome with guilt that I’m on the verge of tears.
But I can’t cry on this fine day.
“Shall we get off at once?”
“…?”
“I have to go to the hospital and check. Naeun and Jihoon.”
This happened because I really wanted Nayoung to get pregnant.
